Dusk Drizzle

It's raining, somehow so many people like it. What's so special? Rain is a pain to me. How come? It is not uncommon for rain to come without permission. Just spill the water on anything and whoever is under it. Including me, who almost every day become a victim. Luckily this afternoon it seems the rain forgot to spill the water. Yes, at least I don't have to be wet waiting for the bus to go home.

As usual, Saturday afternoon is the time for people to let go of all the fatigue after 1 week of activity. Likewise with me. Even though there isn't someone special to accompany me, it doesn't matter. I can still have fun with my friends. Storytelling, joking, singing, anything we can do to forget the routine for a moment.

While we were enjoying our singing accompanied by a guitar by one of my friends, suddenly the rain fell at dusk. You rain! It seems like a very hobby to bother me. At least that's what I've always thought about rain.

Everyone runs around looking for shelter. Not! Everyone except ... A man. He is still calmly in a fixed place. From afar I watched him. He sat for a long time, then he stood up, then stretched out his arms and looked up. Looks like he really enjoyed this rain. As if, rain is his best friend. You rainy man!

It's late at night, but I still can't sleep. Even though tomorrow morning there is a meeting with the boss, and I can't be late. Strange, why did I keep thinking about the rainy man in the park earlier? I've never seen a man like him.

Hah !! Rain again. Aren't you tired of showering us every day? Yes, it's the peak of the rainy season, but can't you take a Saturday afternoon off? Hah! But you can't stop us from enjoying Saturday afternoon.

I looked around the garden, in case the rainy man was here again. Emm maybe more precisely I hope. And it was true, I found his figure. Was sitting on a bench in the middle of the park. Not caring about the rain that was pouring down on it. I keep watching him. Until suddenly a woman approached him. Is that her lover? I think so. But it looks like they are fighting. It can be seen from the gesture of the woman who seems to be scolding the rainy man. And what? The girl slapped him! I was stunned to see it.

Hey, you rain man! That woman doesn't deserve you. How could a woman who is supposed to be meek actually slap a boy? Even though I don't know their problem, can't it be resolved properly? After slapping him, the woman just left him. Hey, you rain man! Why are you silent? Can't you defend yourself? It looks like I've gone too far. Why is it that I feel unacceptable for him to be treated like that? Returning to the rainy man, he then stood up, stretched out his arms, and looked up. Just like the first time I saw him.

Thursday, what a day. Especially if you have to wait a long time at the stop. Ahh shit! It seems the rain is really not friendly to me. Even at times like this, the rain adds to my annoyance.

“Shit! Why does it have to be raining? " I said. And suddenly, "Let it rain with a romantic story of its own." Someone beside me seemed to be answering my curses for the rain. I turned to him. And it turns out, "Rain man," I said to myself.

Yes, I bet he's the rain man. Although I've never met, I've seen him several times.

"You?" I said, who still couldn't believe I could meet him in person. "Yes, I. We are often in the same place but never greet each other. I know you pay attention to me a lot. Because I'm actually watching you secretly. "

What? What does it mean? Did he notice me? I haven't had time to answer him yet, he continues his words. “Remember 3 months ago at Oasis Resto? We are both accompanying our boss to the meeting. But at that time you didn't even look at me. Even though from the beginning I saw you, you have stolen my attention. "

Since that afternoon meeting, he and I have been getting closer. Almost every afternoon he took me home. And from that moment on, I love the rain. As he said, it was raining with his own romantic story.

Saturday afternoon he took me to the park. Not much has changed, just like before. I'm in the park with my friends. It's just that now there is him who is also accompanying me. I chat with him more. Yes, as usual, accompanied by rain.

Rain. I suddenly remembered something. About where he was sitting in the rain and a woman approaching him. Yes, although you could say that my relationship with him is more than friends, I try not to get too involved in his personal matters that have nothing to do with me. But for that matter, after a long time, I became curious too.

"Why are you stunned?" He asked me from my reverie. "Emm not. I just remember your words when we first greeted each other. " I haven't finished my words yet, he suddenly interrupted. "Thursday at 17:20 at the bus stop accompanied by rain." I smiled to myself at his words. It turned out that he still remembered the details. Then he continued his words. "What did I say at that time?"

Oh, God! Earlier he had made me fly far away, then suddenly with his question made me land on earth when not ready. But I still love him, love the rain man.

"Hahh I thought you remember everything," I said with a frown. But actually, I'm not really annoyed with him. I just love seeing his expression when I know I'm sullen.

"Yes, at that time we talked a lot, I really remember everything. Besides, I really don't know which part of my words you remember. "

Finally, I gave in to explain and make him remember again. "At that time you said you were quietly watching me." "Yes, continue?" "Yes, that means you also know that in the past I saw you accompanied by a girl and she got angry?" "You know, I also know you must have seen it when he slapped me right?" "Hey, he used to be your girlfriend, right?" Finally, I asked him too, although in a low voice, timidly he was offended by my question.

"Yes, he used to be my girlfriend, but only until then. After he slapped me he kept dumping me. " Hahh a little relieved that he wasn't angry, instead he wanted to explain. "Then why did you just stay there? Didn't give you an explanation? Or is it you who is wrong? " I said teasing him a little. "Why should I explain? If I explained it in the past, then he didn't decide on me, I wouldn't be with you now. And one more thing, maybe I was wrong before. "

That's right he said. If only he used to defend himself, he might not be beside me right now. There is a sense of happiness in my heart to hear his words. But wait. He said he was the one at fault? What's wrong? Until his girlfriend, uhh I mean his ex was angry and even slapped him. I'm getting more and more curious. "What did you do before? Until he slapped you? " "Do you really want to hear my explanation? I have explained at length that you don't believe it. " "Yes, depending on the explanation. If it's convincing, I believe. " Then he looked at me. "Okay, I'll explain, it's up to you to believe it or not." "Okay," I answered briefly and prepared to wait for his words.

“I used to date him for almost 1 year. But after a long time I got tired of the same nature and attitude he did. Actually, I asked him to break up before, but he didn't want to because he promised to change. But apparently, he didn't change. Until finally I met you at a meeting. There I always pay attention to you secretly. But unfortunately, you don't. " I just smiled at the last 2 sentences. Then he continued. "From there I became more and more curious about you. I find out about you from my friends who work in your office. Until finally I found out, every Saturday afternoon you always come here, to the park. Every Saturday afternoon I always go to the park so I can see you. I was shocked when I found out that you actually like to pay attention to me. And the problem with my ex, I told him I can't be with him anymore because I've fallen in love with another woman. Suddenly he approached me to the park and immediately got angry. And yes, as you can see, he slapped me and immediately dumped me. " he explained at length. "So before me, you actually fell in love with another girl?" I asked a little doubtfully. "That shouldn't be what you're asking, but 'who made me fall in love'." God, why does he have such a hobby to make me curious? "Okay, who has made you fall in love?" I asked following his words. "You" he replied briefly.

What? I? So I'm the reason that girl slapped him? I'm the reason their relationship ended? I'm ... a relationship breaker? All the questions keep spinning in my brain. I never really thought that far. It turns out that he fell in love with me long before I even noticed him. And now he's expressing the fact that I was the one who broke the relationship between him and his ex. Sad, disappointed, angry, or maybe rather guilty.

1 week after confession, 1 week also I always avoid him. I don't know, I just feel like I can't accept all of this.

This afternoon he invited me to meet in the park. Actually, I still didn't want to see him, but he said there was something important that needed to be discussed. Five minutes I waited for him, he finally came. Hah, how cute he is. It feels like I can't stay away from him. "Hi! It is been a long time?" "No, I just arrived too. What is wrong?" I asked without preamble. I waited a long time for the answer. He still remained silent. Nor do I know how to break this silence. 5 minutes .. 10 minutes .. he was still silent. Twilight, which had been beautifully decorated in the afternoon, gradually turned black. Looks like it's going to rain. Did he invite me here just to enjoy the rain in silence?

"Looks like it's going to rain." Yes, even without him saying I knew it was going to rain. That's not what I'm waiting for from him. "It is okay. Don't you know since I was with you I liked the rain? " And yes, the rain was pouring down on us. "Maybe after this, we won't be able to enjoy the rain together anymore." "What do you mean?" "I was transferred to a branch office outside Java. And I don't know whether I'll come back here again or not. " I'm still silent, trying to digest the words. I think I started crying. But I'm sure he didn't know I was crying because my tears were mixed with rainwater that soaked us. "When are you leaving?" I asked trying to be as calm as possible. "Tomorrow. And I can't give you any certainty about us. So don't wait for me. But you must know, I really love you. And one more thing, still like the rain, even though you're not with me. "

I really can't believe it. Is that just like his parting words to me? But okay, I'll remember her request. I will still like the rain even if I'm not with him anymore. Because with the rain, I can hide my tears. Because with the rain, I can remember him. The rain stopped, and he left. Mega red began to decorate the sky again even though it was still accompanied by rain. Yes, the sunsets of the twilight accompany me staring at his departure.

If others await the rainbow, but not with me. Even though I know the clouds aren't black, I'm waiting for the rain.

And rain, embrace my love!