Everyone was once a child , clueless, cute, maybe a little petty, but it was all in the childish status quo. I was once a child and I was grateful for it.
I never loved time. especially how it whizzles everything away, one moment you was two and the next you are rocking a 21, but I'm pretty sure I wasn't rocking mine.. I can remember that moment vividly in my mind; just like I said time sucked cause for once it couldn't whizzle away this moment. It was like everyother day for an eighth years old child. Sleeping, waking and eating, but like time choose the shittiest time to stop , childhood stopped and pain stared at me till I crumbled.. it was just one night , mama was out, papa was off drinking and this made the strangers come in. 8 years vanished as they took turns in taking my dignity, by pettiness my cluelessness.
I might have been a child but I remembered each faces and each feature, I remembered the face of my mom has she cried, my father has he cursed, I remembered it was their fault... I remembered it all, I remembered I made a bargain with death,look devil in the face and swore to bring them all to their feet, I remembered the look on their faces as i poisoned each of them "it was my birthday party "I was 10 years old ,all the neighbors ate, those who swore and called me slut, does we heard my cry and didn't say a word, I served their soul to the Devil "Happy birthday to me". 11years later I'm still that souless, empty garbage I was, I was still hungry for more death and it was easier to get especially when the devil knows your name.