@wakeupkitty 22 April 2021 more from that month

9 a.m. my day is over

**It was 9 a.m**. as I told my children my day is over. At that time I did what I had to do, most of it. Yesterday was a bad day for me. One filled with dizziness and the tiredness I feel is endless. I cannot fight it so the only thing left is to give in to it and lose consciousness again. It all didn't work as expected. A painful ear, the cold makes it hard to drift away plus I can not lay on my side. Each time I try my nose closes and I cannot breathe. So it's my back I have to lay on. A painful back and neck. **This morning** I woke up early, like usually. Even with my eyes closed the light annoys me. The light isn't as bright but it hurts my eyes. I drank some of the water I bought, water with a high level of Sodium, Magnesium, Calcium, Lithium and Iodine (and some more). Today it's the 7th day I drink 1.5 litres of this water a day and on day 7 I drink 0.5 litres of beer. Both are experiments, both meant to power me up if it comes to a lack of minerals and vitamins B. Beer yeast turns out to have several vitamin Bs and it wouldn't surprise me I have a huge lack of them and since I need to drink 4 litres a day... Do I experience a difference yet? So far I cannot tell except for my mouth always feeling dry and my belly hurts from all the drinking and I keep going to the toilet (not at night which is a miracle plus it's no longer the first thing I need to do when I wake up which is strange) perhaps my skin and eyelids do change a bit though but I guess it's too early to tell. I'll see what it looks like in three or six weeks and hope I can still afford to buy special water or perhaps I can drink some ordinary at that time in between? **It was at 6 a.m.** I went out of bed. In bed, I felt fine once out I had a hard time staying. I kept falling so decided to get dressed while sitting instead of taking the risk of falling and hurting myself. I managed and found my way out accompanied by the bottle while stumbling through my child's room into the living. From that moment on I kept myself kind of busy. Cleaning the sink and toilet, making tea, doing the dishes and having breakfast with the children (cereals).  I hung a rug outside and a blanket and spent the rest of the day sneezing. It's annoying but I cannot help it and no longer take prednisone and antihistamine since these meds do not help me and I consider it a waste of money. **I watched** the last episodes of 'Homeland' (Netflix series) season 5 in between and cannot help thinking a lot of what was shown gives me a "dirty taste in my mouth". What kind of world are we living in? What is wrong with us, all those countries and their  "intelligence" departments? I can't help it but I do not like Saul so better not call him. Out of the last spelt flour and oatmeal, I made pancakes and I added raisins and used the last bananas. I won't buy bananas again. They were not ripe at all and in a cold house like mine that will never happen. They felt hard as stone and cold as ice, not tasty at all. **Payday** will be after the weekend since it's at the weekend. Hopefully, I manage with a lower income. **April 22, 2021**

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