@wakeupkitty 17 September 2020 more from that month

## It's 4 a.m This morning I started early writing a poem. I promised to give my child a hand and I already did by brainstorming about the gift it can make. It's not a birthday gift but for December 5th and not much time is left. In the past years the gift was ready in Summer, last year we did not make any because I didn't feel to it with the hospital and other things keeping me busy. **This year?** To be honest I have no idea if we can be there. A broken car, no transport, closed borders, and health problems. I start thinking there will be no next time. **The children are exhausted.** I know the way it goes now can't continue much longer. Traveling time takes too long. Five hours a day traveling only, hardly time to eat a decent meal, waking up at 4 a.m. and back home at 7 p.m... on much longer-term, it is too much especially for the bus-kid who suffers from allergies and needs to wear a face mask the whole day. Last night it asked what happens if it stays home ill. It already was late two days and only 3 are allowed for the whole year. I have no idea what happens but I assume we figure it out soon if the car is not fixed or homeschooling doesn't start again. Would you let your child stay home (it's an excellent student best of the class) or let school manipulate and threaten you and the child till it has a (mental) break down?