Back to school **Today I went back** to school. I have a teacher now. I like him. He is young and kind but the children in my class are the same. I do not expect to have friends. Soon it will be my birthday. I know because some other children talk about theirs. I remember they celebrate their birthday before mine. They all have big parties and I'm not sure if I can have one. Last year it wasn't a big success. My mother said I could have one but next, I had to cancel it two…
A loss of 7 kg The youngest had to visit the doctor. Not a real doctor but the school doctor. Those people who sit there in an office their only job is to test ears, vision, measure how tall you are and they are interested in the child's weight. It will all be registered and send to the headquarter where files about students are kept and used. So do not believe you are anonymous or your child is. Officially a school has to ask for permission. As a parent, you are responsible…
There's nothing Once upon a time, there was nothing. Nothing means zero, emptiness, blank and together it's worthless unless... you make something out of it. The it you have and which you give value to yourself. If you do so you are a trendsetter and trendsetters aren't per se famous, VIPs or liked but they have an attitude, a certain behaviour. If you see them you like or hate them although hate is based on envy. Envy is a nasty thing. If your parents didn't teach you that…
Dare to complain When was the last time you protested about something officially? It's easy to complain about your partner, children, the neighbours or even your employer if you are among friends but what if it comes to the injustice done to you by salesmen, doctors, care workers, CPS, teachers, the mayor, police officers and all those people you pay for a service or item that isn't worth your money? From the moment money was invented and presented a certain value we humans…
You are fat **It is the most boring day of the week**. Sunday! The day that nothing is allowed. After serving my parents breakfast on the bed I have to clean the house. My mother doesn't smell nice and I wish my parents wouldn't always fight. It's clear they don't like each other or what they do. My mother complains about my dad how lazy he is and he says she shouldn't spend that much money. She screams and yells at him while he leans against the sink. Arms folded in front…
You can get satisfaction *We are with many. Not everyone is happy to be alive. Happiness is overrated anyway. The more we try to be happy, a force that smiles upon our face the more fake we feel. Sooner or later that fake takes revenge on us and we come to the point we have to admit life isn't what we expected from it. We had it with it, the trying, the never-ending positive attitude, seeing the bright sides of life only. Disappointment, the life-is-unfair-feeling, anger,…
A piece of cake That's what this cake is if I may believe what those who already made it call it. It's a piece of cake. If not it is at least the most frequent cake baked in our (Dutch) bakeries and supermarkets sell them too. The HEMA is well-known because of their whipped cream pies. The whipped cream pie is the most famous, original birthday pie in the Netherlands. For your information: it is not as expensive as most pies. A simple pie made out of what is officially…
Child for a co-tenant I thought about it and think it's a good idea to make my daughter co-tenant of the house I rent. It might sound odd to you and if so you aren't the only one. If, in my country, you rent a house one person signs for it. In my case it's me. The one who signs is the one who officially owns the place. It means this person is protected and can not be kicked out or doesn't need to move if a relationship doesn't work out. Who pays has the benefits but not only…
They scare me I am not fat but the scales told me I am heavier than the bully in my class. "Don't listen to hear," the housekeeper said. She usually does not talk to me. I feel sad and wonder how this can be. Heavy bones do I have them? I asked dad as he arrived home. Not immediately because it depends on his mood what his answer will be. He never shows much interest in me but I cannot ask someone else. Someone I trust like uncle Eric. He never speaks a lot. His sentences…
The car *In the Netherlands, a car is also called "the holy cow". Is it still that precious to us?* It's time for another car. Looking back I need one every year or two years. I guess that's what happens if you have only a certain amount to spend. It's impossible to save faster for a more expensive car. I say more expensive because it isn't said that one will be good. Even brand new cars come with issues, explode, give their owner stress. Life shouldn't be about a car only…
Freedom I have no idea what today means to me. If this question is asked I guess it means I should give a meaning to it. Label it as being good, bad, sad, exhausting or painful perhaps? If it comes to it most days of my life I forgot except the bad ones. Those bad days, the memory of it is still there..it's not that I want or need to remember them but I do. Not everything at the same time but certain situations, words, expressions, behaviour work as a reminder. A reminder of…
The world is in chaos If I may believe all the news spread this is true. If I sit at home, stay in my own little paradise nothing has changed. The world, Mother Nature hasn't changed. With the radio and television swift off life is good and everything is fine. I am not limited if it comes to my daily life. My lifestyle, what I do or eat. For the past 18 months, I have had the benefits of homeschooling. Waking up later, enjoying the company and help of my children, saving…
Picking up the car Today, September 21, 2021, isn't over yet but it feels like a chaotic day. Yesterday I spend most of the hours catching wasps. I tried to figure out where they hide but couldn't discover their nest. Hours were wasted, a lot of sprays was used and each time I entered the hallway new wasps flew around. The sound they made was annoying I heard it through the entire house. I emptied the hallway in my search for the queen. Clouds of wasps surround me and indeed…
A single shot Slowly most of us pick up our lives again. I hardly hear anyone talk about going back to normal. The only one who mentioned it lately was an employer. To him meant back to normal back to the office! The end of home offices. There are plenty of people who loved working at home. I would stimulate it. No need for a huge office and it's proved people work harder. I would not hire gossipers, chit chatters, those who keep endless coffee breaks and smoking breaks…
The truth `Your truth will never be mine because we are raised in a different world and our eyes are coloured if not blind for each other's needs.` **"I tell you once you get older."** I wonder why I need to be older. If I ask, question I am old enough to hear the answer. Deal with it. Wisdom and ageing don't always go hand in hand. I know because I see more than other people. I see what they don't see, I hear what others don't hear and feel it in the air. My instinct, those…
Happy feet The moment your child is born and they say it's healthy (test done right after birth) you feel happy and relieved. You study its face (how come that baby looks not familiar to me?) and little fists and that's it. The best moment is those happy hours you are not in pain, not exhausted, no one needs you and you feel relaxed. Relaxing is hard and it's rarely for an entire hour but hey, your child is healthy, sweet, adorable no matter what other people say. Everything…
Forgotten Mats a great guy lived his life. Independently of others. People liked him. Can be because he was friendly, greeted everyone and even smiled at strangers. It was not that he had no family but they didn't live nearby. Nothing to worry about since they called frequently and each one of them had an enriched life. No moment of boredom. Days, weeks, months even years passed by. Satisfied he was and it showed. He enjoyed himself even as an epidemic knocked at the doors.…
You can (ab)use me I thought about writing about crime. The fact crime pays. We could discuss if this is true but there's no need to. It's a fact it does and each one of us knows there are more criminals out than inside of prison. The fact you are in prison doesn't mean you are a criminal. History proved it. In the past, we humans, the higher animal of the food chain or is it a pyramid, locked up and killed more innocent persons than those who deserved it. It's true what I…
Cod liver oil While in bed last night I suddenly thought about cod liver oil. *Tomorrow I'll take it* I told to myself. I bought a pot perhaps even two to get myself through the Winter. As I ordered it online -most likely because I suddenly bumped into it- I remembered how my grandmother gave me a spoon of it before bedtime. I still see myself standing in her bedroom. I never understood when and why cod liver oil lost its popularity but in a way it did or perhaps my…
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