Life Lately
I was keep on promising myself that I will publish something every week during my day offs but never happened for the past 3 months. You know what keeps me busy these days? My work. It was frustrating that I can't even accept an over time offered by our team leader as accepting calls is traumatizing for me LOL. Like everyday, you are obliged to accept a call from someone who is frustrated and is already irate, give empathy, give motivation and calmness and at the same time resolution for his/her problem. I didn't expect myself to be this inactive from this favorite website of mine, 3 months? That is so long. Why self? Why did you let yourself be that busy that you can't no longer be able to share what's up to you here. But now, I'm will try my best to be active here once again.
Okay, let's start what's my main topic here. Life Lately.
My life lately is very tiring. I wake up, I go go to work, I accept calls then go home. But before I go home, traffic has always been my enemy, before and after my shift. Honestly, it is one of the root causes of my stress, traffic aside from my work.
I passed our BSC
Every month, there is a evaluation for our overall performance for the whole month, and for the month of July, I am the top 2 agent from my team. I think I am just lucky, because sometimes life is fair naman talaga hehe.
Getting ready for my sister's wedding
Yess! Finally, I have a chance now to attend to wedding. I have never experienced this before that's why I am excited now. Also, my sister is soon to be mommy already as she's pregnant now for 2 months. That also means, I will become a tita soon LOL. I wish it's a girl, hopefully...
Keeping myself motivated to my work until my 13th month pay is on my palm
What keeps me motivated to work? Rest day and of course 13th month pay. 2 months from now, I will get my regularization but in order to get that, I have to keep my reliability stats high. That's why even though most of the time that I feel like I don't want to go to work, I'll just remind myself that this is for my regularization and for my 13 month pay. But I think once I file my resignation letter from my current company now, I won't apply for any BPO jobs anymore, the job is not really for me as I am not a talkative person, plus the shifting schedule which makes my life span shorter and shorter due to missed hours for my sleep. Now, I rarely achieve an 8 hours sleep, most of the time I only get 5-7 hrs, which is not good for my age. I am tired of covering my dark circles on eyes every single day too.
Save Save Save!
My life lately is so the kuripot me. I have never eaten to fast foods these past weeks, except when someone treats me. I always bring my food to my work so the only expenses I'll have each day is for my transportation fee. The reason why I am saving is because life is full of surprises. You never know what will happen next so you better save some from what you have right now so you're prepared for your future.
Swimming with my workmates
Last August 6 we had a bond at Aqua Boy Resort together with my workmates in BPO. It's a night swimming, I joined them as I have never experienced night swimming with friends ever since. It was fun and unforgettable. Here are some pictures of us during that night.
I guess that's all for this blog. I will share more on my next rest day 😊.
I hope everyone here on read.cash achieve everything soon what we are wishing for now. Spread positivity and happiness! ♡
Thank you folks for reading!
Have a great day wonderful people 💚.
When In DRT
Hello folks! For today's blog I will be sharing you our short trip at DRT together with my neighbors last April 23, 2022. It took me a while to share that here as I've always telling here that I get busy always due to my work.
But I'm still glad that today is holiday, meaning it's my rest day and my rest day means I have enough time to spend with the things I would love to do for the whole day. And that is visiting and making blog here on read cash. Let's go straight to my main topic for this blog.
When In DRT
***Doña Remedios Trinidad*** also known as **DRT** that is located in Bulacan. Some of you might already seen some posts on other social media applications about this paradise in Bulacan. I've seen so many posts about DRT too and I am really amazed at how this place looks so beautiful that nature lovers would definitely love. Falls, rivers, sceneries, mountains and more, those are what DRT are very known at.
April 23 at exact 7 am. Me and my neighbors including my mother and sister joined this trip and at exact 7 am we left our compound. We were 14 inside the van, which makes the road trip more enjoyable and fun as Kuya Melvin is such a joker that all of us were just laughing while we were on our way to DRT.
I think it took us 1 and a half to 2 hours of travel time before we get to the River somewhere in DRT but before we get there, we stopped for a while in a house that one of my neighbor were related to who lives DRT.
They have this wide bakuran beside their house and they also have a lot of different veggies on it. Their house are so peaceful that makes us want to just stay there especially for my elder neighbors who wants live in a place like this.
After almost 1 hour, we left the house of my neighbor's cousin but before we left their house, they let us bring a bilao of sisig and buttered mussel. At 10 in the morning, we finally arrived at the river. It was so beautiful and peaceful and what makes it more exciting for me is because this is just my first time to swim and bathe in a river. But before we swam, we ate first as we were all tired and hungry already. We have sisig, tahong, pinakbet, pansit, lumpia, fried fish, fruits such as banana, mangoes and more.
After we eat, my sister and her friends started to swim on the river. But for me, I still stayed for like half an hour on our cottage as I'm a bit scared to swim plus it was indeed a sunny day so I'm a bit worried of my skin *(sayang kojic cyst! Lol)*.
But then, I've finally decided to swim na rin. At first I was a bit nervous because I can't clearly see the underneath plus the ground is full of rocks that some of them were too big which makes it harder to walk on it. There are a lot of small fishes too that were joining us. At the middle part of the river, there is this massive rocks where we choose to stay for a while because the water there were crystal clear that we could see the different colors, shapes and sizes of rocks and pebbles under the water.
This is how clear the water is.
The thing that really makes me feel dissapointed about this trip was I forgot to get some unique rocks that could be my souvenir from this short vacation in DRT. Actually, I've already kept some stones but forgot to get them before we leave the place.
During afternoon, I went back to our cottage and eat all I can there because the food was so good and I won't let myself miss this kind of opportunity to eat different foods as if I'm in a buffet restaurant Lol.
While I was eating, I met this little guy who sat beside me. I gave him foods so he won't feel envy of me who is enjoying my life that time. He is so mabait and you could really see in his eyes how innocent and pure he is.
I didn't asked him to look here, he did it in his own, cute!
The most exciting part for me from this trip is of course the picture taking. Before we go home, we walked for while to see and explore more the place. We did our picture taking at the dulong side of the river where there is no people at all except for us. I'll share here a photo of my sister's friend on that part of the river. I am the one took this photo.
I was really amazed at how this place look. It was so beautiful, my eyes were full because of its beautiful sceneries. I don't get bothered anymore about how my skin became tanned. My skin could go back to its original shade but the memories and experiences I had in this place will forever remain in my head.
It was an enjoyable, memorable and fun short trip at DRT with amazing people I had a chance to bond from this trip.
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*(All images used are mine)*
Have a great day wonderful people 🍀.
`May 9, 2022`
Birth Month | Lesson For The Week
Hello there! It took me a while to make a comeback and publish another article after my previous one as I got busy with my work these days. Honestly, it makes me feel a bit dissapointed with myself as I can't manage to publish an article in every other day because working on a graveyard shift is really difficult especially for me who is not a night owl. My body automatically feels tired as soon as it feels that the night is already approaching. My melatonin is really high at night that's why after working for 1 week, if you could see me right now. I looklike a zombie already. No joke.
Now, as what the title says, it is my birth month since today is May 1! 😁. This is my second time spending my birthday with noise cash but not here because the second time I tried to create an account here on read cash was already on June last year.
This month, I will be turning 22. To all the 2000 babies out there like me, cheers to us, we are now 22 years old. We're already getting older and older as the days and years now flew so fast. I myself can't imagine my age right now too, It's hard to believe that I've already left my teen years for 3 years. I feel like I am still at my teen age years, which I'm wishing for as well because after realizing the adult life, being a young and free like what we were before really makes me wanna go back at that time. I know most of us has the same thought regarding this hehe.
Moving forward to my second topic which is 'Lesson of the week'. I am sharing this as it is worth sharing. So I'll start.
Last friday night while I was walking towards the bus terminal outside the mall where I will ride to go to my work, a guy approached me. I guess his age ranges between 20-25 years old. He was dressed well like a typical millennials these days and with a friendly face. He approached me and told me that if he can borrow some cash money from me as he lost his wallet and was unable to withdraw to any ATM machines nearby so he can't go home because he doesn't have any money. He said, he will just pay me through GCash once he get home. The moment I heard his reason, I already understand him for I guess I will do the same thing if it happens to me also. The amount that he is asking isn't that big, it is only 80 pesos. During that time, the cash money I have with me was 200 pesos only, two 100 hundred pesos. 100 is for my transportation fees and the other 100 hundred is for my budget for the next day. So I decided to give him the other 100 peso bill.
I could feel his sincerity during that time as he even asked my gcash number and name on facebook. He thanked me so much after he receives the money and I feel happy as well as I helped someone who is in need. However, after that I was actually expecting a message from him but I receive nothing. No one sent any money on my gcash too until now that it is already in the afternoon of sunday. 100 pesos or $2 maybe too small to others but for me it is big already as I've worked hard to earn that money here on read cash. Though I am not judging him already because I don't know his possible reasons why he was not able to pay until now but one I'm sure I would do if that happens to me is to pay the person who helped me as soon as possible.
For the lessons I've learned for this week is when we feel tired, rest, but never stop. And most especially, **it is sad to think that there are people who will take advantage of our kindness just to get what they want**. In every decision or actions we will do, always include and use our brains on them.
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Have a great night wonderful people 🍀.
`May 1, 2022`
Day 2 Done
Good day everyone! I became busy these days because I just started my training as a Technical Support Representative a couple of days ago and that is 9 hours plus my 2 hours travel time which is equals to 11 hours of being busy every day.
The past days have been so challenging for me as this decision of mine started to test my determination, flexibility both in personality and time. My first day as a trainee brought me so much tiredness and nervousness. The second day challenged my flexibility in both schedule and body as we have already started our night shift just yesterday.
*Our Pre-Hire Staging,* ***Day 1****.*
Sometimes, I just think if I could survive working in this industry because it's indeed challenging. However, there is no easy work or job, as struggles are really part of being a working adult. But since this is my first job, I know that I'm just being shocked with the new environment I've entered and I always believe that I will get used to it after a week or months.
*Going home at exact 6 am after my Graveyard Shift as a trainee,* ***Day 2****.*
I have no sleep and I feel like I already looklike a zombie the moment I took this photo.
Honestly, I sometimes feel discouraged and that made me feel like I want to just end it for as early as I can and this is my reasons.
Our trainers are really frank about our job.
Being frank is somehow good but we can't deny that being frank could also affect other people's emotions. I like that our trainers are frank and really transparent to all the cons we will definitely encounter once we continue this job. However, the moment I heard those consequences, I suddenly asked myself. Will I survive this job? Then the other side of me started to doubt myself already, but my other side were saying that this is it, I'm already here so why would I waste this kind of opportunity?
People who became my friends since Day 1 are started withdrawing one by one.
To be real, this is kinda discouraging knowing that the ones who you become close with during the training are starting to withdraw themselves and you're there, feeling sad about their leaving. And their reasons of leaving is quiet similar to what's going on in my mind which makes me feel doubt as well about myself if I will still continue this job. I guess, this is kinda immature because I'm depending myself to them but since this is my first job, I think it is normal to feel this way.
Indeed, our life in adulthood will always depend on our decisions that we chose to take before. It's about analyzing things that is way too far from the things we used to analyze before when we are still a student. In adulthood, our basis while analyzing things is all about what's more beneficial to us and to our family. We tend to grad those opportunities with high salaries but with a not so healthy environment or workplace just to earn more money and we sometimes grab those opportunity naman where even though the salary is small, but atleast we are happy.
Before I end this article, I have made a decision. I will still continue it despite of what was happened to my close friends in this training in the past few days and despite of the its cons. I will still take this training with my 100% best then if one day, the trainers will tell me that I wasn't fit for this job then atleast I won't have *What Ifs* because I know I tried it with all the best I can have.
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`April 22, 2022`
Pardon for not being active here for the whole day. I was so busy and tired because today is my first day at my job. I will try to be active tomorrow and read articles as many as I can 😁. Good night people.
My Neighborhood's Outing | Life Update
Have you ever experienced going out or having an outing with your neighbors? For me kasi it's just my first time and I find it so exciting. My neighbors have been planning this since last month and because of everyone's own schedules, there has a conflict and the only day that everyone's are free is on sunday, April 23, 2022. I just wish I could be free on that day so that I can come with them but since our orientation from the company I just applied will be tomorrow so that I am not sure if we have no meetings on that day, I wish so.
In my entire life, I've never experienced bathing in a river or falls. That's why I have no idea about how it feels to swim there, even the water. Is it salty like the sea? Is it drying to skin or is it cold? Haha I have no idea that's why I'm excited to it. You read it, we will be going to Doña Remedios Trinidad in Bulacan and as what I see on social media, there are so many beautiful spots on DRT, like falls, rivers and good looking view of mountains from afar.
Actually, I have a phobia on any a source of water where I can't see what's underneath it. Unlike to swimming pools which are clear and bluish, they don't scare me that much but sea does that's why everytime I go to the beach, I only stay on the part where the water level is on my chest to neck only. Once my feet didn't touch the ground, I'll start panicking na Lol. So this is the reason why I am a bit scared of swimming on the lake, rivers or falls, cuz I have mostly of them they have rocky grounds and those rocks are usually gray or black which makes the clear water to looklike dark also.
This outing was organized by one of our most energetic neighbor kuya Melvs. They have a van that could carry 18 people. Since I have a strong hearing sense when it comes to other people's conversation that I got from my mother hahaha. I heard that the elders will cook for biko, liempo, adobo, steamed vegetables like eggplant, okra and more, yum! And the millennials like us are just palamunin only.
Since I really missed this kind of outings. I won't let this happenings become boring. I will befriend my neighbors and I will take a photo of each corners of that river and some are with me and I will share it here, if this will be happen lang.
Will this be going to happen? Or it will just be one of the plans that never had a color. But I wish it will.
**Image from Unsplash**
This is just a normal sharing of my life. As I'm writing this now, I am feeling a bit nervous because tomorrow, I will be heading onsite as early as 7 am for our job orientation and I will stay there until 6 pm. My social skills will now be tested Lol as I will be meeting my possible team mates for this upcoming training. Actually just yesterday, I feel like I'm about to have a fever because of my nervousness haha.
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Have a great day wonderful people 🍀.
`April 19, 2022`
My Favorite Filipino 90's Movies
For this article, we will go back to 80's-90's days through the movies I will share to you. Since my father loves to watch old movies, I sometimes watch with him too and that is when I realized that movies before are cool and funny din pala. Since I've already watched lots of filipino old movies, I want to share here some of the movies that really stands out for me.
First on the list will be:
**Maging Sino Ka Man (1991)**
https://youtu.be/SKwWjeJw7XQ
9 years after this movie was created, I was born and I am now 21 years old. That's a clear proof that this movie was old already. I really really like this movie. The first time I watched this is when we still have cable, from my father's most favorite channel there which is the PBO or Pilipino Box Office, where it only airs filipino movies especially those under VIVA Films. Actually up until now I still watch it everytime I get bored. Luckily, youtube currently have it and it is digitally enhanced already so that everything would be clear and feels like new. I really love Sharon's and Robin's chemistry talaga as well as the story, it's unique.
**Do Re Mi (1996)**
https://youtu.be/hyZHNTG3eeY
This movie is about the 3 different women who has different principle and status in life but one thing they all became as one is music. I really like this movie, for sure you will have LSS or Last Song Syndrome of the song 'I Can' after you finish watching this movie. I swear, you'll gonna like this movie about friendship.
**Madaling Mamatay, Mahirap Mabuhay (1996)**
https://youtu.be/Rm-uILZDON0
This is an action film, the one who played the main character here is Ronnie Ricketts. I started to have a crush on him because of this movie. The story of this is when Ronnie Ricketts applied as a security guard in a school that he will change eventually. That school was full of gangs, frats and hard headed student. They are the reason why all the security guards before are resigning because they can't handle those students anymore. But everything changed when Ronnie came on that school.
**Bukas Luluhod ang Mga Tala (1984)**
https://youtu.be/vB038YJkqXQ
Another Sharon Cuneta's movie. I guess most of filipinos know this movie. Among all the movies I've watched before, this movie is one who has the most satisfying ending for me as when Sharon still helped the family who used to insult and avoid them before as they were only poor. Sharon's sweet revenge here is what made this movie became so popular, that is when she became a singer and gave her mother and brother a life they have been dreaming before.
**Ang Boyfriend Kong Gamol (1993)**
https://youtu.be/R2ukJUs3mxA
A romance/comedy movie. It was a movie of Alice and Andrew E's tandem. It was a movie about a millionaire woman who disguised as a poor woman just to study and learn the life of people who she wants to help. But while she's staying there, she slowly fell inlove to Andrew E who is a resident of that area. Alice is so beautiful here, there are also a lot of funny scenes here which are also the best parts of this movie.
**Bad Boy 2 (1992)**
https://youtu.be/SAAdlXAb85o
Another movie about revenge. It is an action movie of Robin Padilla together with his iconic partner in crime Dennis Padilla. My most favorite part of this movie, which obviously everyone's favorite part too is when Robin started to end the war between the two families who manipulates their place by having a power through their money and guns. Robin's family here died because of the two family's encounter at her daughter's birthday celebration outside there house. The most cool part here is when Robin wear his iconic bandana again that used to represents him before as a bad boy.
**Mistah (1994)**
https://youtu.be/Tp9CEcZEdjU
I learned so much from this movie. Through this, I understand the muslim's side, what are the things they're fighting for. I understand as well how difficult the life of our soldiers who were assigned to delicate places in mindanao. It is just sad to know that the war is still happening up until now because of the principles that each groups were fighting for.
**Dear Diary (1989)**
https://youtu.be/K8tHspBB_nQ
This movie is just a bonus. This is actually the second story of a film where the first part of it is the Dear Partyline. Those who want to watch short filipino films only, this is perfect for you. Dear Diary is a thriller/romance movie where Lenny who has been played by Lea Salonga investigates the sudden disappearance of a former student of their school Pauline Carpio. Also, young Joko Diaz is also here which is also one of my crush Lol.
If ever you are having your free time right now, you can try to watch these movies. They're really worth watching for even though they are old hehe.
xx
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Have a great day wonderful people 🍀.
`April 18, 2022`
A Prompt That Saved The Day
Good day lovely folks. For today's article, I will be answering a set of questions from @Probinsyana article which she also got from @Athaliah after I read her article, so I tried to answer it with my own version din.
**Favorite scent?**
No other than Vanilla. That's my perfume for 4 years now. And what made me become addicted to that scent was the version of Victoria's Secret Perfume which is Vanila Lace. The first time I smelled it, I already fell inlove with its smell. However, since the VS perfume was pricey, I only bought inspired perfumes of VS Vanilla Lace because they all smells the same din naman. This is also the reason why most of my friends and classmates before often compliments me that I always smells good daw. I smells like a sweet chocolate that most of my boy classmates asks me to borrow my perfume so they could smell like a chocolate too, like me.
**Element that best represents me?**
Since I am Gemini, the element represents me would be Air. Actually, among all the 4 elements, air is actually my most favorite one. That if I could have super powers, I would choose to have the ability to control the air, cause I find it cool, literally cool Lol.
**Which mythical creature would you choose to be?**
A mermaid! The first ever style of swimming I learned was the mermaid swimming style because I want to become a mermaid when I was a kid hehe. No one taught me how to swim on that style but only youtube. Also, it feels great talaga when I'm underwater, seeing everything down there while waving my body. I feel like I am actually a mermaid.
**How do you show people that you love them?**
By supporting them to whatever they wanted to be or to have. When it comes to a romantic thing naman, I think by touching my partner physically. I'm not a clingy person but when it comes to that special person in my life, he is an exception. Not totally by hugging him but by touching his arms only, leaning on him or just hold whatever he's wearing such as his shirt or bag.
**My most used emoji?**
This '😁'. I always use this emoji here, on noise and to my chatmates. I don't know, this emoji looks like being friendly kasi.
**What can you hear right now?**
Bark of my neighbor's dog and the loud speaker of my father's phone while he's watching videos. Like if your father has always a loud speaker on their phones too Lol.
**What can you see outside of you window?**
A grayish clouds that is covering the entire sky and a peaceful neighborhood because all of them are inside of their houses. Our place here is kinda boring but since I'm introvert, it's still a good thing for me. Also, the has been like this since morning but it didn't rain until now.
**Have you ever met someone famous?**
Yes, a lot, like the Kpop boy band VIXX, Anne Curtis, Regine Velasquez, Lloyd Cadena, Maymay Entrata, Kisses Delavin, Yong and Edward, Andrea Brillantes, Zanjoe, Nadine Lustre and more. I remember, me and a friend of mine were just casually walking towards the door of the mall when a lot of security guards appeared on our right side until we saw Nadine Lustre in the middle of them. They were in a rush before the crowd see Nadine. I think Nadine was only 5 steps away from us that time so she was really close to us. She's so beautiful.
**Do you like your name? Would you ever change it?**
Yes and I won't change it. My name didn't came from nowhere because my first name was inspired by the year when I was born and my second name is inspired by my birth month. My real name actually starts with letter 'R'.
**Do you like ice in your drinks?**
No, I prefer to drink a water as cold as the tap water only. I only drink cold waters when it is a juice.
**What are you afraid of?**
To have nothing in the future. Not achieving any of my goals is really scary for me.
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`April 16, 2022`
Passed or Failed?
Again, this would be a continuation of my previous article where I shared there the updates about my job hunting experiences and as well as sharing my first ever mock call test through phone. I was supposedly be sharing this yesterday but since my sister asked my help to be her assistant in her thrift clothes business, I helped her and went to to her house that is a bit too far from where I live. They don't have internet there and we became busy too that's why I wasn't able to write or even open read cash in my phone because my phone is useless without internet.
Going to my main topic for this article, I will now continue where I stopped before.
After taking my mock call test. I felt so disappointed in me as I'm not satisfied with my performance. That's actually one of my weaknesses that I'm telling to anyone who asked me what are my weaknesses, I'm not comfortable and I feel bad to myself whenever I'm not satisfied with my work. I'll overthink it for the next days until I get used to it and accepted it. I was biting my nails already while walking back and forth from our sala to kitchen right after that call. I keep on thinking that I might fail the final stage of my application.
But after just 10 minutes of taking my mock call test, the company texted me again saying this.
They congratulated me and told me that I'm now for Job Offer! I was shocked, I didn't expect that they will still consider me to be part of their company. They told me to prepare my requirements, join their pre hiring on zoom and attend their NEO or New Employee Orientation on 20th of April this year. They told me as well to join the group chat where they will all discuss the important things and announcement to all of us. Through that group chat, I get to know and see the people who I might be with once our training began. I noticed that 70% of us were girls, and only 30% are boys. I hope they'll all become my friends.
This morning I already signed the pdf file they sent to us on our emails using an e-signature. I read all the infos and benefits and while reading it, I feel nervous again as everything for me are becoming into real now. I've been applying to any encoder job for months already and only 2 of them called me before. One who said that they will call me back once I am approved by their boss and the other one naman, they considered me and have actually scheduled me for an interview but after they shared me their office, it was too far from where I live but the interviewer understand me naman for that.
That's why I decided to take a different path, maybe the encoder job isn't really for me. So even though I know it'll be tough for me as it will make me adjust in a major level of transformation in my personality, I bravely tried my luck in BPO Industry. My dream job is actually to become part of film makers. Editor, director, writer, floor director, props maker anything. As long as it is part of the team who makes and create movies or films, that's my dream job. But since BPO is a job that needs a communication to others just like my dream job, I think I'm still in a not so far industry from my dream job.
Wishing my luck once I started to become their trainee. I hope they won't evict me from kuya's house Lol. But I will give my best to it. Actually these past few days, I no longer watch tagalog videos. Instead, what I prefer to watch na is english videos such as vlogs, food vlogs or educational videos.
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Have a great day wonderful people 🍀.
`April 15, 2022`
My Job Hunting Update | First Mock Call Test
Last April 11, I had 3 phone interviews in 1 day. As I've shared from my article here, where I shared my first ever final interview experience. So this is the continuation of it. Last April 10, while I am at the mall with my friends, one of the company I applied for called me but unfortunately my phone's battery were already at 5%. It was already almost 8 in the evening so I didn't expect that they will call me on that day plus the reason that I can't hear her clearly because there are too much noises around me. Luckily, the interviewer offered me to reschedule my final interview by the following day and I agreed to it and said sorry.
April 11 in the morning, another unknown number called me. I thought it was Alorica but it's not, it's another BPO company that I applied too aside from Alorica. It was around 11 in the morning when they called me for my inital interview as a TSR or Technical Support Representative. The interviewer's voice is is nice that it didn't caused me to feel nervous. I answered all of her questions with confidence which I wasn't able to show from my previous over the phone interviews.
After that call, I noticed that I didn't feel that much nervous anymore. I guess it is because the calmness of the interviewer's voice and of course it is already my 3rd interview so most of the questions that was asked to me from my previous interviews are also asked to me once again from this company naman. That is why experience is indeed the best teacher. We learn a lot from it that's why we are getting better and better each time we encounter the same situation in life.
After my initial interview from this company, they told me to open my lines as they will call me din on that day for my final interview. I was shocked, because I am not prepared yet for another final interview because I was waiting for my final interview din from Alorica on that day. I feel pressured Lol. But luckily, they don't call me on the same time.
5 pm on the same day, my final interview from the new company called me. And almost all the questions they've asked me were already asked from my previous interviews. Some of the questions that never missed out from their list was:
My mode of transportation
Why you chose our company
How do you handle stress
Most difficult situation in my life and how did I handle it
Since I'm applying for a BPO job, these questions are indeed important to ask so that they will get a little info about how long our patience are and how we handle problems.
At around 6 pm, Alorica called me naman for another final interview. This time, they are assigning me to a non-voice account which made me feel relief too as it was actually the account I am really wanting for. After my final interview with them, they sent me a link. That link is for my mock chat simulation. They gave me a scenario with a problem and a lists of plans/services that I would offer him that would best suits to his concern.
After taking my mock chat from Alorica, the other company which I just had my final interview an hour ago texted me saying this.
And this message caused me to feel nervous again as they will now test me through a mock call, I'm dead 😬. So I studied right away the spiels and proper words to say when taking a mock call. The next day at 6 pm, they called me for my mock call and I was a bit dissapointed for myself as I forgot to say the step 7 which is about telling the customer to do the basic troubleshooting once the same issue happens again. I jumped agad to asking for additional concerns and then the closing spiel. Also, our call had a dead air for maybe 3-4 seconds at the last part because I'm still thinking what to say next because of nervousness. Seems like I'm losing my hope on that company.
To Be Continued...
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`April 13, 2022`
A 4 Hour Escape
Yesterday, I escaped from reality for a while with my friends. That's why I didn't read that much articles here because I left home at the afternoon. We went to SM San Jose Del Monte Bulacan cuz we've been planning this since last month but yesterday was only the day where both of my friends are free because they are already a graduating students that's why they're busy.
The main purpose of our ganap yesterday is actually for ramen only after we saw a Ramen Restaurant on that mall a month ago that cost only 99 pesos. So since we are poor who can only afford cheap foods, this kind of food really excites us.
What's more funnier yesterday was, I was the one who made that plan and said to them that I will treat them but ended up they were the one who treated me Lol. Because unexpectedly, my budget got short as before I leave my house, my uncle borrowed a cash from me so they could buy something for their merienda.
Fast forward, when we arrived at the mall. We went straight to Kyukyu Ramen 99. I was the one who ordered our food to the counter and I find out how ignorant I am was when the cashierer gave me a small rectangular thing that has blinking light on it. My friends didn't know it too. In short, we really don't have an idea how that thing works 😅. Only to find out that it was beeping pala once our food is ready. Sorry mundo haha.
The Nori or the dried edible seaweed's taste was too far from what I expect it to taste like. I can't figure out what was my face when I tear a small part of it and put it in my mouth. For me, it tastes like a mixture of different grass and leaves that was put all together and this is the finish prouduct. I really don't like it. But don't judge me just because I don't like it. We all have different taste buds.
But the ramen was good. The soup was so milky and delicious. When it comes to environment. I like the design of their restaurant, it was painted red, with yellow bulbs all over the ceiling, they have a manga design as well that was all about their restaurant.
I blurred both of their faces as I didn't asked their consent about this. After we finished eating our ramen, we then went to the garden that was located at the back of the mall. Luckily, right after we enter the garden, the family who is sitting at the table near us started packing their things and left the table, so we occupied it after them.
And that is where our picture taking happens. My friend who's wearing black shirt were telling us already why we always take picture every movement of us. Because I'm that kind of person who loves to capture every moments, because that is where the candid unexpected and epic shots were taken from. One of my goals in life is to have my own professional camera that I can use for capturing beautiful and breathtaking shots.
Here's a photo of the three of us.
*Down view yern?*
Sometimes, stopping and escaping for a while from this harsh world is really important. Even human-created motors and robots needs rest too or else they would crash or will just explodes anytime. If you ever feel like you need a break, this is a sign.
xx
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`April 11, 2022`
Growing Up With Siblings
From fighting over silly problems to helping each other when we get in trouble. We can't deny that our childhood became memorable and fun because of our siblings. In this article, I will share to you some of scenarios that only people who grew up with siblings can relate.
Growing up with siblings be like:
Making sure that all servings were equal
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All sibling do/did this, wether you are the oldest, the youngest or the middle child, once a food has been served we won't let our siblings have more on their plates than us because it's kind of insult and is really annoying Lol, especially when we really liked the food. **This is also the time where our trust to them isn't enough, we need measurement!**
Me and my siblings always do this before. We suddenly became a perfectionist na kulang na lang we will use any measuring tools talaga such as ruler, weighing scale just to make sure that the servings are equal.
Blackmailing your siblings just to get them to do basic things for you like getting a glass of water
I'm guilty with this. I belong to middle child and I have a younger sister who is 5 years younger than me. But I am not blackmailing her just get her to do things for me. What I always do is to call her to come over me and pretend like it was really important like *"Sister, look at my phone, this your friend right?"*, and once she's already standing at front of me, I'll tell her to get me a glass of water because I'm too lazy to get up and do it for myself. Then she will get mad at me but she has no choice as she already wasted her time to come over me so she will just do it haha.
Telling your siblings to do the other chores as you have already washed the dishes
Counting the house chores we accomplished is really normal in having siblings. This is the days when we are still immatured for we always count the tasks we did and not letting our siblings just rest or do nothing while us are getting busy and tired.
Pleasing our younger siblings to not tell it to our mother after what we did to them that caused them to cry
I see a lot of videos recreating this one on other social media platforms and I could really relate myself to them. This happens when we babysit our younger siblings or even nieces for a while and then these things will mostly happen haha.
When we start cleaning because our mother is shouting at one of our sibling and we know we're next
This is the time when we will pretend to be busy and will start cleaning our room, washing the dishes or brooming the floor so that our mother won't include us with our sibling who just triggers her to get mad. Letting her see you being a responsible and kind daughter/son to her so that she won't remember our sins and how irresponsible we are with our stuffs.
Using our sibling's things when they're not around
I have an older sister who is really into make ups. Every week, she always have a new lipstick or foundation on her drawer. Since that was the time where I am starting to get curious about make-ups. I often sneak at her drawer everytime she's not around. I will use some of her eye shadows and will put it on my eyes, together with her collection of lipstick that comes in different shades, but my most favorite one was the nude one. Then after being satisfied with my face, I will put back everything on her drawer, in their exact positions so that she won't have an idea that someone sneaks on them Lol. I'm pofessional with it that until now that she has already her own life, she still didn't know it.
But one thing that having a siblings becomes special is having each others back. Pesonally, I'm so grateful to have my siblings beside me. Even though we fight a lot before when we were still a kid, the bond we have becames stronger as we grew older and older. We are helping each other now and I think that's the best part of having a siblings.
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`April 10, 2022`
Google Searches About My Zodiac Sign
Probably, many of us have already seen or watched this kind of content in other social media platforms. This challenge has mostly done by famous vloggers and celebrity, testing about how google will autofill the word they've inputted which is their names on the search bar. So I decided to make a blog version of it but this time. I would use my zodiac sign. I'm not famous, not even here but no one said it that this is only for famous people right? So here let's start. Those who were born on May 21-June 20 like me, feel free to give your reactions about the results Lol.
**Gemini babies, lezz go!**
I laughed when I saw this, plus the fact that it was the first word that google suggested to me Lol. I don't know what to say here as I myself didn't know if it is true din Lol. I'm still innocent about this matter, chariz hahaha.
I have no doubt here hehe, chariz uli! But it uses "Attractive" which means it could be physically or based on personality. Even though I have low confidence about myself especially to my physical appearance, there is still a part of me who see myself as attractive for some time, especially if I got bored and started doing a experimental of makeups on my face. I believe as well that we all have our own personalities that others find attractive on us.
I absolutely agree with this! I had a crush back in senior high school. He was my classmate that time. His friends always teases him to me until I had a crush on him too but no one knows it, I just kept it within myself until we graduated and move to college. When we were in college, we separated already because we both studied in different universities but what made me admired him even more is he always check up on me every year. He will just message me and ask how am I doing, how's my studies and how's my life. It's so cute right? He never forgets me even though we parted our ways already.
His zodiac sign is virgo, he loves art just like me, he's gentleman and sweet also. And because of that, I can say that this suggestion is pretty accurate for me.
This is nah for me. As a gemini, I never had a crush to someone who was born in this month. But I have a lot of friends who are Aries too but I am not attracted to them. Maybe to some Geminis hehe.
This is somehow accurate to me. People who knows me very well really knows that I am unpredictable most of the time. I often change my decisions and will just disappear for days up to weeks leaving their messages to me unread and I will just comeback once I feel to reply again, not minding if I take years before I reply. This is why they often call me weird, but I never take that as negative to me but a compliment.
I'm currently working on to this because I find myself sometimes as so irritable at anything even when I'm not on my red days. I'm a type of moody person who feels sorry after I just treated someone with my kamalditahan and regret it. That's why I'm working on it now, I'm learning to control myself and emotions even more so that I won't affect anyone around me.
If it is difficult to approach, I have no doubt in it. I often hear that from other people especially when I was still studying. They say, they get shy when they want to ask me something or want to approach me to talk to me as I look uninterested at anything. In short, it is because of my looks. They often see me having a dead stare at someone in our classroom or looking at someone from head to toe and toe to head. But they also said, I am kalog din daw which they didn't expect. Everything in me changes once they started to get along with me. Another fact about me is I laugh most of the time, especially in serious situations.
And those are the words suggested to me by google after typing *"Why gemini are so"*. That means they are the most searched questions about Gemini. I find this idea from one of my friend who posted the results for her zodiac sign to her story and since I'm having a hard time to generate a topic again, I decided to make a blog version of it naman. Over all, most of these results are accurate to me hehe, and I really enjoyed it as well.
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`April 8, 2022`
My First Job Interview Experience
In the past 2 days, I am not feeling okay and felt so nervous as one of the company that I tried to applied last week informed me to stay my lines open for this week for they will contact me anytime and any day for my interview through phone only.
As I've mentioned from my article few days ago, I said there that I have started applying for a job which is being call center agent. Ever since, I'm not really into speaking or communicating verbally to others as most of the time I prefer not to open my mouth and just mind my own business than to socialize. But things changed as I grew older. I am now in my early 20's and I just decided to take a different path in my life. This time, I want to make something different, so I decided to apply for a job that I am so afraid before.
Last April 4, the referrer I contacted with messaged me again to fill up the link she sent to me, so I did. The same day at exactly 6:00 p.m, someone called me already. I wasn't prepared as I didn't expect that they will call just after a few hours after I registered myself to their website. At first, I wasn't not able to answer it because I was outside. The moment I saw that 1 missed call from my notification bar, I rushed to go upstairs and texted the number and apologized for missing the call. Just after 2 minutes, they called me again and I was so nervous! My heart is beating so fast.
I apologize and said sorry to the interviewer and he said it's okay and then he proceeds in asking about my informations. During my initial interview, he asked me about these things:
My education
Where do I live
Work experiences
Do I have plans to go back to school
If I am already vaccinated and what vaccine it is
If I am willing to work onsite
Then after asking those questions, he explained to me the account that I might handle once I get hired. It is an International Account. I was shookt the moment I heard him say that and because of my nervousness I just answered him *"Yes 😬"* (exact face) after he asked me if I will still continue my application to them Lol. I was actually expecting for a local account only because I still don't have any BPO experience so I feel so pressured and scared, knowing that I am not fluent in english.
The agent who interviewed me for my initial sent me a link after our call. It is an assesment test which will test my grammar, pronounciation, typing skills and how I can handle common problems in this kind of work. The assesment was meant to last for 45 minutes only but it took me 1 and a half hour.
That's what happened to my initial interview, so let's talk about my final interview that was just happened yesterday.
The next day April 5 at 2 am in the morning, they sent me an email informing me to get ready for my final interview within this week. I got nervous again. From morning to evening, my heart is beating so fast haha but they didn't call me that day.
April 6, I was sitting in our sala, relaxed while writing my article yesterday ***'Stop It!'*** when suddenly my phone rang. I rushed to climb up again to our second floor and said "Hello?" while chasing my breath because I ran so fast plus I feel so nervous. This time, the one who interviewed me is a woman with an excellent communication skills.
**My final interview lasts for 17 minutes.**
17 minutes of awkwardness and trying so hard to speak in english with wrong grammars while stuttering Lol.
She asked me a lot of questions, I think it's 15-20 questions. These are some of the questions she asked me that I still remember.
Why I want this job
My strengths and weaknesses
My location
My mode of transportation and how long it will take me to arrive to their site
How I handle stress
What would be my reason to leave the company
Why I chose their company
What is my ideal workplace
What would I do to people who has a wonderful personality
My proudest moment in life
Informations about my education and more.
I shared the questions they asked me during my final interview to help those who wants to apply for a job in this industry as well, so they can have an idea about the possible questions that the interviewer might ask them. However, it always depends on the company and on the interviewer pa rin. The company who gave me a chance to be interviewed is Alorica. As of now, I am just waiting for the result, if they will be forwarding my application or not. But I am prepared for the possible rejection as I really admit it that I got so nervous that caused me to stutter. At least I have my first ever job interview experience and I know what I need to improve to myself.
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`April 7, 2022`
Stop It!
Our goodness have always its limitations. Even the most kindest and understanding person, might have their own limits too or have the things that will surely annoy them. We have different reasons for being annoyed but one thing I'm sure of is they're inevitable. We could encounter them anywhere such as in our school, workplace, in public or even in our home. Here, I will share the things that annoys me, check them out.
*You can share yours on the comment box below. 😁*
When someone teases me about my crush or said anything about my lovelife in front of my family
It really annoys me when someone did this to me. I don't know, I don't feel happy or kilig in it instead I feel annoyed. The reason is because I don't grow up being so open to my family when it comes to people I like or those who likes me. I find it hard to open and share that matter to my parents as I know them very well, they're not that supportive to whatever is going on with our lovelife just like what happened to my older siblings. This could really change my mood in just 1 second. That's how I really hate being in this situation.
Use my phone without my consent
I guess most of us hates this one. Our phone is a part of our privacy and when someone used it without knowing it, it would really triggers me to be mad. I have a friend before who's like this. He always sneaks on my phone when I am not around and would open my messages and gallery. It really annoys me.
Hearing loud motorcycles on the road
Loud motorcycles are sooo annoying, especially those who are having race on the road. Feels like they own the road with the ugly sounds of their motors. Everytime I encounter this when I'm outside, they can change my mood in just a snap.
Empty water containers in refrigerator
Most of the time, I am in-charge of refilling our water containers after we eat then I'll stock them in our refrigerator so we will have cold water when someone wants it. I don't drink cold water, that's why I get so annoyed when I see empty containers in our ref because I feel like it is always my job to refill and check those containers even when I am not the one who consumed them. It will just take them a minute to refill it but they will just leave it there as if they have maids. Grrr.
When someone stands behind me while doing my work
I cant't concentrate with what I'm doing when someone did this to me. So often times, I will just look at that person behind me until he/she feels that I'm not comfortable, but except my professors or other people who really requires to watch me.
When someone told me "I told you so" or "I knew that" just to make me feel that they're smarter
I really hate these kind of people. It's okay for me to tell me that they knew that it will happen at first place, but making me feel like I really did a big mistake or blame me to what happened really annoys me deep inside.
When I'm in a hurry and things are not working
When I'm in a rush in making my requirements and my computer started being log or act abnormal is so stressful. When these things happen at the moment we badly need to finish something, we sometimes think of throwing it, right. How come that when we most needed them, they won't cooperate with us. Grrr.
When someone unplugged my charger from my phone and put it to their phone
This is really annoying right? I have no problems if they unplugged mine after it get fully charged or atleast reached 90%, but doing this this when my phone is just 20-50% without informing me? Be ready for my yell Lol.
There you have it! These are the things that will probably triggers me to get mad. You can share yours down there, so we could know each others through the things that annoys us!
xx
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`April 6, 2022`
What happened from the last 6 days?
For the past 6 days, I can say that it became an average week for me. It's not so productive and not unproductive too, just in the middle of them hehe. But what I've just noticed for this week is my progress, mentally, emotionally, and physically. I'm proud of myself for this slow progress. I'll discussed here why I said that I am starting to notice my progress with these three; mental, emotional and physical. I'll begin first with the thing I've been doing every single days from this week.
I started applying for a Call Center Job
I've mentioned before that I'm applying already but this time, I've take it serious to find a job that is really far from my personality. Yes, call center jobs is what I'm really scared of to apply because this is not my thing. I'm an introvert. I rarely talk to other people because I'm bad at communicating. Also, I hate phone calls and I'm bad at convincing other people. But why am I still applying for this job? Because I want to challenge myself.
Like what I said from my blog last february with a title ***"Old Keys Won't Unlock New Doors"***. I mentioned from that blog that I will be starting to take a different path from now on. I want to go out of my comfort zone and face my fears. I want everything around me to be different this year because I felt stucked from the past years and I don't want my life to stay on that spot forever. As of now, I'm just waiting for a call or email for me, and I'm watching lots of english vlogs these days also so I could somehow improve my english while still waiting for a perfect company that will accept me even though I'm not good, but willing to be trained and is really dedicated to enter this kind of industry.
I cut my hair
After I've finally noticed that I look so boring, I cut my hair last monday. I know I'm have a boring personality so I won't let my looks became boring too. It was a boring afternoon when I cut my hair, by myself. Since I have a straight hair with a straight cut, I decided to cut my hair on both part of my left and right head. And I'm happy with the result, I have no regrets because I got the look that I've been wanting to. Now, my hair don't look boring anymore, slight boring na lang.
I received a free book from 7cups Community
Are you familiar with 7cups? If not yet, let me introduce it to you. By the way, 7cups don't even know this, I just want to share this wonderful website here and how amazing it is. If ever you're experiencing a hard time in your life and wanted to talk to someone to vent out your problems and ask for advice, 7cups is here to help you. 7cups has a lot of volunteered listeners all over the world that is willing to be there for you when you feel like no one is there to listen to you. So if you ever want to try this website, just click here. https://www.7cups.com/dashboard/
Back to the book, I'm still reading it until now. It has a lot of advices and will make its readers realize a lot of things. It has a title, ***'7CUPS FOR THE SEARCHING SOUL'***.
I created a new cover that will be put at the end of my blogs
Since a lot of writers here are creative aside from being good at writing, I decided to change mine as well so that I will feel new again, like a fresh start. I edited it using Canva yesterday, where I supposed to be writing but my brain can't generate a new topic to write so I decided to make a cover na lang than spend my time again watching MrBeast's videos Lol. (I'll put it at the end of this blog)
2 Sponsors were added to my block
I want to thank here @Usagi and @Talecharm for being my new sponsors. Thank you for choosing me and supporting me. I hope you'll have a delicious meals everyday haha 😁. Thank you again.
That's all what I could share for this week. And I will explain it here why I see a progress in me in the past days. First from applying for a job, I saw it as a progress in both for my mental and emotional health as I'm starting to overcome the things I'm afraid before. Cutting my hair is a way of making myself look nicer, and I love that I'm having a time for myself again which will be considered as progress in my physical looks. Reading a book helped me as well to better understand why these things happening to me. Lastly, making a new cover and having 2 new sponsors helped me mentally and emotionally to be inspired even more to write.
Thank you for believing in me sponsors
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`April 3, 2022`
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Reminders From Nature
Nature is so beautiful isn't? From the sky, to sunset and sunrise, to mountains, to rivers, to oceans, even up to the smallest detailes of it such as the particles of sand. We could literally see how this world created so perfectly for us. And if we could give a time for it and understand their life and cycle, they all seemed telling us a lesson which we could apply in real life. I will share some reminders from nature that could help us when we feel lost in our lives. Let's start with the clouds.
**The clouds reminds us that sometimes, it's okay to feel heavy**
There are some points in our life where we will feel down or depressed. But just like the clouds, they have times as well where they will get darker and darker and once they can't take the heaviness they're carrying, they will eventually bring it out, and that's rain. In our life, we may go through in this same situation for some time, so let it out as well when we feel like we can't no longer hide or carry it inside us. Cry it as long as our eyes can, if that's our way of expressing our feelings. Tell it to our close ones whom we trust the most. Shout it all out on a high or private place. Let it all out, until we feel lighter again. Because after the rain, the clouds will start to get lighter also, just like us.
**The trees during fall reminds us that some changes are good**
If we want to grow, we should accept the changes that will happen to us in the next phases of our life. We may notice that trees during fall are loosing their leaves, and these leaves were already dry. It could symbolize as that letting go of the old ones is the first step of our transformation towards the better version of ourselves. Letting go is just normal to the those who are growing, if we want to grow, let go of the things from our past that we think that will no longer help us in this kind of changes in our life.
**Flowers reminds us that we have our own "right time"**
We may feel pressured for what we see from the other people but flowers are here for us to remind us that we should not rush everything. Let things just flow on its own and don't rush anything to happen in a short period of time. Absorb some sunlight, feel the rain when it comes to us. Until one day, our right time will come, we will bloom in our own and everyone will see it. Always remember that, it is better to wait than force anything to happen.
**Rivers reminds us that life must go on**
We might had a lot of tough times in our life but rivers reminds us that we should not stop. Instead, we should keep ourselves to move forward as past is already past. Rivers teaches us too that if we want it, we always have a way to make it happen, so no matter how hard the obstacles or the paths could be, water will still find its way to just to continue its flow. Rivers always find a way and never stop flowing, and so we are.
**Night sky reminds us to appreciate the dark moments**
We can only be able to appreciate light when we are in the dark. And we can only be able to appreciate the darkness when we are in a bright place. So in life this means that we can only appreciate the things we don't have than the things we currently have. At the night sky, the surroundings and the sky are dark but stars and moon is always there for us to give light. They remind us that we should still appreciate the dark side of our life because it let us realize the other important things in life that we don't appreciate before.
*Image from Unsplash*
Nature reminds us that everything here on earth has a purpose. We just have to open our eyes and understanding about the every details of this world, and through that, we will be able to learn something new from them that no one have taught us.
You reached the moon!
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`April 1, 2022`
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Adulting | Expectation vs Reality
When we were young, we used to dream of things we want to have or want to be in the future. Some of us once dreamt of becoming a doctor, a teacher, a pilot, nurse, lawyer and more. And when we reached the teen age years, our dreams sometimes change because of many factors like discovering a new hobby while growing up, being influenced by others etcetera. And when we reached the age of 16-20. Our plans in life are becoming more detailed such as for example by this certain year, we want to finish our studies, and by this year we should be working in a nice companh with high salary and after working we will get married, and soon be making our own family until we get older.
Isn't we have this kind of timeline in our mind when we are in our late teen age years. I, personally do have this kind of planned timeline in my head before too. But reality slapped me these past few years. And this is what I'm going to share today. My expectations in my early 20's and what's actually their realities.
Expectation #1
Applying for a job after studying is easy.
Reality
This things is currently one of my source of stress for months. Though I didn't finish my course as I only took half of my 4 year course because I stopped due to financial problem that is also limiting me to apply to some jobs that I believe I could do. I find out as well that even graduate students are also struggling in finding a job after they've graduated, so what more in my case haha. I don't know anymore how many times I submitted my resume in different jobs online for months already but still unemployed until now. It is just so hard to find a job these days.
Expectation #2
Once I'm already earning money, it would be easy for me to save money for myself.
Reality
Definitely not true Lol. Let me share here a meme that's so accurate in this topic.
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You know judith is always waving every month which we need to pay or else we will be living like in the old age again where we live in a house that doesn't have electricity and water supply. I thought before that once I am already earning on my own, I would be just treating myself all the time with the stuffs I want to have or the foods I want to eat and beside that, I'm also saving some of my money at the same time but it's not. The moment I got my first income here, the more I felt the importance of money so I should not waste it in stuffs that is not so important for now. Instead, I'll just give it to my parents in paying bills in our house. But I'm still glad that I'm still saving a little for my future. It is just too far from what I've expected before.
Expectation #3
Working in my field or working at my dream job.
Reality
This reality slapped me so much. Everytime I tried to seek for a job that is in my field which is Information Technology. The qualifications are reminding me that I'm dumb and cannot be in the job lol. The qualifications are so high that it is way taller than my height already. Same as getting the job that I really dreamt of before. Actually, my dream job is to become part of production team where I could be part of a team when making a film. My heart is really on that field, making videos, films or photoshoots. Any job as long as the camera and editing software involves, that's my desired job. But when reality hits me, I realized that achieving my dream job is impossible for now. For now because I'm not closing my door in this goal of mine, I still want to make it happen one day.
Expectation #4
Adulting is exciting.
Reality
It's depressing, to be honest. Responsibilities are getting bigger and bigger, losing a friend and love ones are just normal, we slowly lose our time to other things, problems are slowly killing us in our minds, and the worst thing is, our works shouldn't be affected by them. Also, the pressure. Pressure of seeing other people at our age achieving so much things in life while us are stucked and depressed. Honestly, aside from the fact that other social media apps now are becoming toxic, the one thing that keeps me not opening it is because of what I see from my batchmates and friends. I see them becoming successful and having fun with their lives while me, broke and ugly.
But after all, I just keep on reminding myself that social media is the biggest liar. It is so rare to find those people who will also show the dark side of their lives in social media, that's why we should not feel pressured as we don't know what other's are going through behind their social medias accounts.
As I get older, everything is getting clearer and clearer in my mind now. I thought it is just easy to become adult and fulfill all my goals according to the years I've set for them. But this phase in my life thought me that not all our plans will be happen smoothly. But it doesn't mean that we will no longer achieve them, it may take time as each and everyone of us has our own paths and perfect time in life. Remind ourself that our timeline is different from the others.
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`March 30, 2022`
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Spooky Questions? Let's Try Answering Them
We're only in the month of march this year but I'm here, writing an article about horrors and our fears, and the reason why is because I don't have any topic to write anymore. Also, answering questions is literally everywhere here so let me share mine, but not about school or childhood days. It's answering spooky questions. So, let's start it right now!
The first question would be...
**If you were given the death penalty, what would your last meal be?**
Since it is my very last meal, I would ask a lot of food. Such as sinigang, bulalo, sisig, bopis, fried chicken and many more, plus a bulk of steamed rice. I know I can't eat all of those but that's the reason why I asked a lot. It is because I want to share them to other people. I will just ask them to just give me a single tray full of those recipes and will ask them after to give the rest of the foods to the people outside who are in needs.
**Would you spend a full night inside of a haunted house if someone paid you?**
Ofcourse, I'm not that afraid of ghosts, I am more afraid of those who are alive. What I'll just do is to look for a corner, a cabinet or a small room where I will spend my whole night at. It is just one night naman eh, and if phones are allowed during this challenge. Then I'll just watch funny videos to divert my attention from the ghosts who wants to scare me Lol.
**Have you ever had an unexplainable experience with the supernatural?**
It is when I slept at our living area at exactly 3 am because I can't sleep at my bed. Both of my parents and sister were upstairs and I was the only one in the sala. I slept on our sofa facing the wall. Until after maybe 10 minutes, I started to hear a small voice from afar. I got goosebumps as I'm the only one right there during that time. Since I'm facing the wall, I can't see where's the sound coming from so I decided to move and change my position but I can't! While I'm trying my best to make even a small movement, the small voice is getter nearer and nearer behind me. I was so scared, even to just open my mouth, I can't also. Until the small voice reached my left ear and seems like it whispered something to me but I can't understand it. I know I'm not asleep during that time as I am seeing my feet while I was trying to control it. Until suddenly, I had a chance to control one of my fingers on feet and finally moved my whole body already. I looked around right after that while chasing my breath. My heart beats so fast but didn't see anything behind me. After that incident, I never tried sleeping on the sofa again especially at night.
**In your opinion, what is the most brutal way to die?**
I think it's either be set on fire alive or be buried alive. We all know how painful it is to accidentally touch a hot object. What more to if we will set on fire, our whole body will be burning geez. Also, one of the brutal way to die for me is to be buried alive. Imagine the frustration, anxiety, fear, phobias we will have to go through before we die. Can't even move or bend our body, can't even breath properly and no matter how we tried to shout, no one is hearing us as we are 6 feet under them. It's really scary.
**Which horror movie murder did you find the most disturbing?**
I've watched so many horror movies, but I think one of the most disturbing one for me is the ***Green Inferno***. It's a movie about cannibalism where a group of friends accidentally enters the territory of a certain tribe in amazon forest and that's where the brutal and disturbing scenes happened to each and everyone of them. After I watched that movie, I had slight phobia of tribes who lives in forest that acts so weird and looks scary. If you haven't watch it, you should. It's a good movie but make sure you don't have a weak stomach.
**How often do you think about death?**
Almost everyday. I am afraid to die cause I haven't experience most of my goals yet. Even though I have problems that is killing me inside my head, I still want to live as I believe everything is just temporary and I will be happy again. I'm really afraid of death, but that's life eh.
**Have you ever seen a fresh corpse?**
Yes, when I was at the hospital and lying on my bed after they just threaded my big wound on my knee. I was lying there and waiting for my mother until the curtain besides me were slightly opened by one of the nurse and I saw a man lying on the stainless bed, shirtless and unconcious. His family was around him crying especially the woman who's in his chest who can't even breath already because she's crying so hard. I assume that it is his wife. I felt bad, I almost cried too, I could really feel their pains.
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Is there anyone who don't have fears? Having fears is really unevitable for humans. Each and everyone of us has our own weaknesses, fears and phobias that would make us vulnerable and weak once we encounter them. However, fears could also limit us from the things we want to do or experience. Sometimes, we should overcome them too.
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`March 28, 2022`
Things I Bought Last Shopee Sale And My Reviews
This is kinda late but it's better late than never Lol. I think the last time I shared about the things I bought from shopee here was already 6 months ago. Why it took me so long to share here my budol things? It's because I didn't buy at all from the previous months that's why I can't share any here. During October, I told myself that I will refrain myself from buying stuffs online so that I could earn more and reach my 1 BCH goal before the year ends last year but market started to fall from december. If you all can still rememember and that's the reason why I only did this again now because I noticed that I have nothing new to myself. But this time, my purchased items are for hygienic purposes. Specifically for my face. My ugly face.
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I'll start first with the soap which received so many good reviews from different people online. It is the,
Dr. Wong's Lightening Soap
*39 Php only*
From all the reviews I've watched online, this soap is really a ***reco*** for those who want to have fair and smooth skin. Since my concern is about lightening and fading dark spots and acne scars, they say this soap can really fade scars too besides from helping your skin become lighter. So without hesitation, I checked it out since I'm desperate woman who wants to have a glow up even just for a little. Plus it's very cheap too.
**My own review:**
Like what other people say, it is true. It has a nice smell. It doesn't have a strong fragrance that when you smell it, you could already know that it is mild and gentle only. It's like milk once it is dissolved in water. After I rinsed my face with water, I didn't felt any irritations, dryness or discomfort on my face. Instead, my face feels so fluffy and moisturized. I swear, this soap made my face glow. In 1 week of using it, I've already noticed the changes on my skin, especially on my acne scars, they have lighten.
Another product from Dr. S. Wong's, it is:
Bioderm Ointment
*22 Php only*
Dr. Aura who's also an ex-housemate in Pinoy Big Brother show here in the philippines made me buy this product. On her video, she discussed one by one the four main formulas in this ointment for acne which are the zinc oxide, benzoic acid, sulfur and salicylic acid. The benzoic acid is what I'm really looking for in a product because after watching so many dermatologist's recommendations, this is always one of their recos to look that will really treat pimples and acnes.
**My own review:**
I had a pimple breakout again due to lack of sleep and stress since last month and as a result, pimples are my rewards for it. I've been using this for almost 2 weeks now and I could really say that it is effective. It really dries out my pimples, even those bigger ones. But the only cons for this product is it is greasy on face. But for me, it's not important as I am not leaving my house most of the time din naman.
FOCALLURE Blackhead Remover Pore Strips
*8 Php per strip*
This belongs to the last parcel I've received from my purchases in the last sale. I ordered it on March 15 and received it just today, March 26. It took so long before I received it as it was overseas.
**My own review:**
This is just my first time trying a pore strip like this because the one I'm just using before is the thick paste where we need to let it try first before we peel it off our skin. That's why I just realized that I should buy a strip like this from now on instead of the old one which I'm using before. It's easy peasy and is really getting all those small whiteheads I had on my nose.
Pinkflash Liquid Concealer
*96 Php only*
This is also included in the parcel I just received today. I bought this product for my surprise gala. Since the products I bought for lightening my acne scars won't fade my scars in just one night. I just buy a product where I could cover them for a while. And that is concealer. Also, I could use it to cover the dark circles in both of my eyes so that I won't look like a zombie anymore.
**My own review:**
Luckily, I ordered the shade that really matched my skintone. It was in the shade number 3. The moment I received it, I tried it right away on my face and I'm impressed. However, don't expect that it will really cover even the darkest scars but it will just cover them a little bit. In my case, I'm already contented to this as most of my scars are already light naman na, I just want to cover it lang with this. Lastly, this concealer smells sweet.
There you have it! These are just the things I bought from the recent sale. The month is about to end again and I think they will be having another sale again. Hold tight in our wallets!
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`March 26, 2022`
The Sacrifices Of My Brother
Before I start this article, I will give a little bit information about my siblings first. We are actually 4, 3 girls and 1 boy. I am the third child and the only boy among us is the eldest, he's **Kuya** **Mak**. My kuya (brother) has a fun personality. He's our clown here when he was still living with us. He's so funny and friendly even to anyone. Just like my kuya, he didn't finish his college too due to some reasons. His first ever job was construction worker. I remember when he went home after 2 months of not living with us because of the conflict between him and my father. He get tanned so much and lost a weight because of the heavy work he had in his previous job. That's the time I started to admire my kuya.
Due to our family's situation back then, my kuya was forced to go and work abroad at the age of 21 to support our family. My kuya had a hard time before deciding to go there because going and working in a different country, with different people and culture is so hard. But he still accepted my uncle's offer to him. During his despedida, I was looking at my kuya and his friends while they're crying. I almost cry too but I hide it as I heard my kuya's farewell words to his friends like "Take care here", "It will take me years to comeback" and more. And those years that supposedly 2 to 3 years only has now became 5 years. He's already 5 years straight now working in Abu Dhabi. Alone.
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In his first 2 years in Abu Dhabi, he was with my uncle who brought him there but in 2019, my uncle went back here in the Philippines for good. Which means, from 2019 until now, my kuya was alone working and living in a country that is so far from us. I admired even more my kuya here cause he was so brave! Imagine living and working in a country where you know no one?
What tests my kuya's resiliency even more was when the corona virus spread all over the world in 2020. The company which he currently working at the time closed. He almost experience depression during this time. All his savings was back to zero again as he's paying for his visa, food and rent for his apartment. It took him almost a year to find a new company to work on but inside those months where he was still unemployed. He had a lot of rackets just to make money and give some of it to us here in ph. He borrowed some money from his friends just to start a small business there, and that is selling t-shirts. He even had a part time as well while he's doing this t-shirt selling, he got hired to do a part time job in a burger shop in the city. Half of the money he earned from these rackets of him goes to us here. He even brought us here some samples of the shirts that he's selling when one of his friends had a balik bayan box and requested if he could put some for us here in ph.
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Despite of his difficult situation there, he still thinks of us. Always. However, despite of his sacrifices, my father were sometimes getting mad at him everytime the money he sent to us are not enough due to the reason that his salary isn't that big and he is also paying for his living there. I feel bad for my kuya. I don't know what to say to my father whenever he says that. Actually, my father is also telling me to find a job so that I could help my kuya from paying all the expenses here which I'm really doing naman now. Even though I still have no work for now, I'm still giving some money to them for our bills here. But just like my kuya, he gets mad at me also when I don't have money to give especially when market is down.
We have some calls before where my kuya can't help himself but to cry because of his situation there and how our father treat him. His only wish for now is to get home and be with us again. But he will make sure that before he do that, he wants to have some savings because our father will surely scold him for not having any kind of savings.
He's now 26 years old, he's been there to Abu Dhabi for 5 years now. He is struggling to save some money for him until now. Even though he is getting closer to his 30's and single as well, he is still helping us here even though he can't even invest any for his own future. He's so kind and don't know how to be selfish even for some time. I wish I could help him one day.
*My kuya and uncle are my reasons why I really admire those people who are brave enough to be away from their love ones just to support their families financially. Indeed, not all heroes wear capes, some are those OFWs from different parts of the world.*
*I'm proud to say that I have the most selfless, kind, handsome and best kuya (brother) in the whole world!*
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`March 24, 2022`
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Things I Considered As My Lucky Charms
Lucky charms are made to attract and bring good luck to the person who owns it. Lucky charms can be in the form of bracelets, necklace, pendant, a cat with moving hand, a small sculpture or even a pair of socks. In short, lucky charms could be in any form. As long as it is believed to bring positivity and good luck to the owner. Most of us may be believing in this and we might also have our own lucky charms that we've been keeping for so long because we believe that those things have effects on us when it is with us.
In this article, I will share you the 2 things which I considered as my lucky charms and the reason why I consider them.
My Pencil
This pencil has been with me for almost 6 years now. I bought this one for my hobby which is sketching. It cost only 14 PHP or 0.28 USD. It is not like the other pencil's shade which darker that is really for crearing shadows. It has a lighter shade, maybe a bit darker only to the normal pencil's shade.
I considered it as my lucky charm when I used it as my pencil when taking an exams in school. It was all started when I was in Grade 11. Since I often lose my monggol pencil due to me being forgetful. It is in the shade No. 2, which is a recommended pencil for anwering the exam. And because I am not satisfied with the darkness of monggol when I'm shading, I used this pencil instead. Until after I received all my bubblesheets in each subjects. I noticed that my scores were impressively high. But I still not considered it as luck as I reviewed well din naman. But every exams and every school years, this pencil always give me luck in every exams as I always got high scores like 104/120, 110/120 and sometimes I even got almost perfect like 118/120. Unlike to my classmates who's scores are ranging from 50-90 only.
There is a time as well in college that I was called out by one of our professor in history who hated by so many student due to how low she give a grade to students and how difficult her quizzes are and lastly, she's strict too. She called out my surname to look for me so I raised my hand. I was so nervous as she was staring at my test paper while looking at the screen of her laptop. I thought she called me because of my low grade and wants to talk to me but it's not. Instead, she said to the whole class, "She's the only one who passed the exam". That I'm the only one who got 70 and the rest of my classmates got 20-50 scores which is failed because her passing score is 60. It was a big relief to me hoo!
Until I considered it already as my lucky charm in exams. Until now that I'm no longer a student, I will still keep this pencil with me for the rest of my life.
My Old Diary
I find this diary as so mysterious. Lately when I was arranging my stuffs I accidentally saw this old diary of mine when I was in Junior High School. I read everything that was written there again and felt nostalgic to my good old days. The days when the only thing that cause me stress are assignments, and the thing that causing me to be hurt is when I'm seeing my crush with his girlfriend.
And then suddenly, I realized that everything I wrote here 7 years ago actually happened in real life in the next years. I was shocked, but I still think that maybe it is just coincidence but they all happened eh. Because aside from being a diary itself, I also wrote the things I want to happen also before I close it. And those things happened. Now, that's the reason why I included this diary of mine here. Because it seems like a lucky charm for me as it has been with me for 7 years and a half now. Now that I find those things interesting, I will now try if this diary of mine really have magic Lol. I will now write the things I want to happen in the next years. But aside from that, ofcourse I would consider it as still a diary. I will write everything again that I want to tell here. Because writing could also help us in expressing our feelings right? Since I have no one by my side to listen to me now, I will write it na lang to my old diary.
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Even though others may not believe to the idea of lucky charms. At the end of the day, people who believe in this never harmed anyone. Yet, Lucky Charms helped everyone to look for positivity instead of negatives. It is never wrong to believe and look for good luck especially if it will be accompanied by our hardwork. Positive mind and hardwork have always a great result.
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`March 22, 2022`
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I Talked To The Moon Last Night
Before I start this article, let me tell you first some trivias about our own moon.
Our moon is **384,400 kilometers** away here on earth.
Moon was the first ever and only celestial object who have visited by humans.
Lastly, moon's attractiveness never fades 💁.
Are you one of those people who loves the moon? If your answer is yes, then you are a selenophile like me!
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My obsession in studying and getting to more in the universe was when I was in grade 4. That's the time when I started to get fascinated about the universe, the planets, the stars etcetera because my teacher this time was so good at teaching. I really admire him as he makes his words not complicated so that we could understand him better, which we really did. Also, when I turned grade 6. The school's science room became our classroom the time so our classroom back then were full of tubes containing preserved animal's body inside, a mannequin's body used to demonstrate the internal organs of the human body, different books about science, old science projects by the old students and lastly, my most favorite part of our room, the ceiling. It was painted with black with white small dot, with the sun, with asteroids and all the planets in the solar system. We are literally under the solar system! That's why I often look up at our ceiling just to enjoy the view of the solar system while sipping my soup that costs only 5 pesos or .10 usd every morning.
Enough for the throwback, let's go to the present. So last night, as usual I felt sad again. I suddenly remember again all the problems I'm currently carrying in my mind and heart. I felt sad and hopeless again but then I suddenly remembered that the moon last night was so beautiful, it's so bright. Okay, I wanna share again a short throwback. When I was in elementary and we had a quiz on science. One of the questions dictated to us by our teacher was *"The moon has its own light"*, which we need to answer by true or false on our paper. I looked at the window and think of it deeply, until I remember when we are playing outside, especially if it is full moon. Even if it is already night, I still have shadow, so I answered True. I was confident pa non until I found out that the answer was False. But don't judge me Lol, I was only 9 years old that time hahaha.
Back to the main topic, after I felt sad and depressed again. I decided to try to find the moon through the window beside me. I thought I'm not gonna see it as I rarely see the moon on this spot but last night, seems like the moon said hi to me after I peeked out the window searching for hope to see him. Just like from the other night, the moon last night is full and bright. I could really see its black patches through my naked eyes, It was so beautiful. I can't stop myself from staring into it.
I was so happy after I saw it. I stared to it for maybe 10 minutes and then I started to share my thoughts and problems after. I told to the moon about my hearbreaks, my financial and family problems, my own problems, my insecurities and more. I cried while telling it to the moon, I even ask for the moon to help me with anything ways he could do because my depression is killing me every night, I'm just doing my very best each day just to not think of them because I know I could be devastated again once I let myself to be on that situation again. I want to be happy again and I even told that to the moon also.
It took me 1 and a half hour to tell everything to the moon what I feel. The moon is indeed a great listener and comforter. He never said anything but I could really feel his support towards me. Even though he is thousands and thousands of kilometers away from me, it feels like he is just beside me, ready to listen to all my rants, problems and wishes. After an hour and a half of talking to him, I suddenly felt like my heart feels lighter na, my mood improved as well and I realized that the moon is slowly moving away already and starting to be covered by our roof.
Before I make a goodbye to the moon, I thanked him for that night and for being there for me especially in the times like this. I even took a shot like I am holding it that I will include below.
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*Isn't amazing knowing that the moon have already heard so many problems, opinions, rants and secrets from different people around the world? Our moon is also lonely yet it still managed to be beautiful for a very very long time. Until now it is still shining, taking everyone's attentions every night together with the millions of stars behind it.*
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`March 20, 2022`
Why I Continue to Write After I Stopped
I am one of those users here who found out read.cash because of my use of noise.cash. In my few weeks of using noise.cash, I've already seen a lot of posts about read. Some were promoting it and some are those who are sharing their published works here. For sure, everyone would get interested about the website who claims that you can earn cryptocurrency by just sharing your thoughts through writing, right? So I'm one of those people, I got curious of it as most of the people whom I am subscribed of on noise are starting their journey here on read.cash too.
I remember, it was on the month of february last year 2021 when I created my first account here. At first, I thought it would be easy but things changed when I started writing. Writing is not an easy work, you need a clear mind and a peaceful place to work on. Until I lose my hope here as I don't received any BCH so I stopped and focus myself instead on noise. But after 4 months, June to be exact, I came back here trying my luck again but it still happened to me until I decided to create a new account and abandon my old account permanently.
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This is my first reason why I continue to write here during that time:
**To pay my dept in my school but it didn't happened**
It was month of June when most of my classmates are already talking about the upcoming school year. During this time, we have no money left for my studies so I'm 50/50 this time if I will continue my studies or not. So then, I remember read.cash, I want to write here as well so that I could save all my earnings here until I reach the amount I needed for paying my remaining balance from 2020. I was full of hope and determination that time so I asked some help to others and some of the advices I got was to interact, produce quality and original works and also to enjoy here. I did all these things, I was actually losing my hope for the second time again but it only took me 2-3 weeks to finally noticed my blogs so I was so happy. I still have 3 months remaining so I was pretty confident this time that I could reach my goal but things didn't happen the way I wanted it to be.
My heart's value on noise.cash lost, it caused me so much sadness as during this time I was still new here that's why my earnings here is still not that high so I depend most of my savings on my noise earnings but this thing happened so felt like I failed but despite all of these, I still continued writing here. But I guess, some things is not really for us even we did our best because I was no longer able to enroll because I didn't meet the price that I was aiming for.
**To make a difference in myself**
Even before I am not really into writing especially if I have to write it in english language. However, I love writing essays in school but I always prefer writing it in my native language which is malalim na Tagalog. Since I find out that writing here is a bit challenging for me as it was never bacame part of my hobbies before, I continued so that I could make some changes to myself. If I want to see changes, then I should start changing my ways first, my mindset, eploring new things or sometimes to take some risks.
I could say that starting my blog here and challenging myself is really worth it. Not because I improved in writing because I don't see any Lol but I guess just a little bit but also because it took away the times when I supposed to be cry. It has a great effect on me when it comes to diverting my attentions so that I won't feel bad and sad for most of the time during pandemic. Because of read.cash, I've a lot of amazing people too but only virtually. Besides from that, I've learned many things and ways of earnings too with the help of those people who are making tutorials and introducing new platforms like SmartBCH, swapping, staking tokens and even informing about the latest and upcoming airdrops.
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Sometimes we just have to embrace the changes even if we have no idea what and how would it end because sometimes, **great experiences** comes after we make a **different path** or after we **take a risk**.
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`March 19, 2022`
First Ever Admirer
I bet, most of the people still remember their first love. Not just first love but also our first boyfriend or girlfriend, first kiss, first date, first hug and holding hands or even our first admirer. But I'm not quiet sure if most or just a few people only can still remember their first admirers because for me, I still remember it and it is still clear in my mind until now like it was just happened few years ago.
I had my first admirer when I was six years old. I was currently at the 1st grade the time, that was 15 years ago. As I've mentioned for several times in some of my articles that I'm so introvert back then. I have no friends, if there's it is only one or two. That's why I never expected that someone would have a crush on me from one of my classmates. So here, I will share to you my maginoo and makulit na admirer when I was 6 years old.
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It was the second week of the new school year in my school. As usual, I'm still crying every time our class starts. I was so attached in our house and my mother that's why I really hate going to school and obliguing myself to interact to people I don't know. Every starts of the class, I always beg my mother to bring me home but she always force me to sit on my chair inside by putting my bag there. So everyday and every start of the class, I'm singing the watermelon and the Kung ikaw ay masaya song with swollen eyelids Lol.
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Just after 2 weeks, I started to notice someone staring at me often. At first, I thought it was just because I have something on my face or I have messy hair or just that I'm ugly. But after just a few days of constantly looking and staring at me, he then started making some moves to me. One time while we are falling in line at our school's covered court because there's an event going on. We are being arranged by height, so as usual I'm the 3rd at the front. Then I noticed him beside me pushed the boy who's standing beside me to his back and entered the queue. I thought he was bully so I don't like him already this time.
There was a time as well where he stood right behind me steadily and waited me to notice him until I do. I was shocked, he was really close to me that even though he's at my back, I could smell his cologne already. So I took a step away from him and by the time he saw me being shocked, he runs away and continued playing. This time, I already feel uncomfortable to him and I don't like what he's doing. There was a moment too when he will just grab my hands to hold it for a seconds and all I did as well is to get my hands off him. I swear, I really hate him, I never felt the kilig even just once instead I feel angry.
One time, when I arrived at the school with my kuya who accompanied me until I get there. The moment when I'm about to get my attache case from my kuya because they were no allowed to enter the school, someone grabs it before me and when I look who did it, it was him (**Axel**). He carried my attache case and started walking towards our room. As I'm walking just behind him, he is carrying my attache case on his head. For me this time, I was so embarassed as my kuya saw it. He seems courting me and I don't like it.
Also, when my seatmate is absent, he will sit beside me. So what I'm always doing is to occupy my seatmate's chair with my bag so no one can sit on it but Axel is very makulit. He will stilk sit beside me even though it is only half of his butt is sitting. He sometimes get closer and closer to me when we're writing so that he could touch me. There's an incident too when I almost kissed him because I was looking outside and when I turn my face around, his face is so close to me! Luckily, it didn't happen so what I did after that is to push him and told him to do not ever sit beside me again.
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The next days after that, it's just funny that he no longer being papansin to me but what he did the next days was to sit beside the 2 most beatiful girls in our classroom, they were Jolina and Margarette. He's flirting with them by sitting so close and talking to them the whole class. What's even funnier was he always glance at me everytime's he do that. I saw his glances as I'm observing his actions too from afar. And as my conclusion, he's trying to make me feel jealous which I'm not. Maybe 5% only out of 100 Lol.
Everytime I remember this, it made me think that how did he knew and did all of that? I mean, he's just 6 years old like me during that time yet he acts like a teenager already who knows how to court by impressing any of my family members through carrying my attache case almost everyday. By doing his papogi and papansin moves just for me to notice him and lastly, by making a way just to make me feel jealous. I wonder if he still have all of these traits until now. However, I didn't see him again the next school year. But after all the realizations, he still made my 1st grade memorable like until now that I'm already adult, I can still remember it and all he did to me. He's kinda cute by the way. He has a round face and a tan skin tone.
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`March 17, 2022`
@Tamia
