@shanley06

@shanley06 3 July 2021

@Princessbusayo thank you so much

@shanley06 3 July 2021

My Hurtful Past that I Let Go **I became who I am today because of my past.** ***Who would have thought that I was once a woman who just cried when I'm hurt, sad and I just keep silent in the corner. Who would have thought that I was once a person who prefers to keep her feelings inside than to confront someone. That was me before. I am too busy trying to please everyone around me. I'm too busy fitting myself into someones life. I'm too busy doing things that will make them happy but all those deeds are not appreciated. Even now when I think of those stupidity of mine, I will still cry. I'm crying because I let others fooled me many times. I let them used me and I didn't even think of my own self.*** I remember there was a time, under the very heat of the sun, I helped my in-laws to harvest corn from our neighbor so we can have some shares of that harvested corns. I felt thirsty and weak because of too much heat but I can't stop because I needed to finish the wide area assigned to me. While I was busy helping them, their daughter was just at home busy on watching television. After a long tiring day, I thought I could rest already but when I went home, there are still many things that I needed to do. I got some plants, I don't know what is the name of it but all I know is that the leaves of that plant will be chopped into small pieces and let it cook so the pigs would have something to eat. After getting some of those plants I still chopped it and cooked while my in-laws and their daughter are eating cassava as their snack. I endure the pain that I'm feeling so I could finish the work early and so I could rest. There was also a time that I was left taking care of 7 kids, 3 of them are below one year old, the other one is 2 years old, the twins are 3 years old and the oldest is 5 years old. At around 11 AM, the 2 years old kid cried and he wants to see his mother but his mother left with this grandfather to get drivers license. I let him cry because I'm still cooking for their lunch. Later on the girl who was below a one year old cried too. So I picked her and find a way to make her stop crying. After a while, she stopped crying so I hurriedly washed the dishes and let them play and then I fed them with their lunch. After almost four hours the mother of the two kids went home and that was the time I had my lunch, it was already four in the afternoon. When I think of those experience, I would think and ask myself how did I handled those situation that time. I took care of 7 kids and I was also able to wash the dishes and also clean the house. Wow!!! I did a multi-tasking job. I was like a wonder woman who can make things possible. There was also a time that I was sick but I don't have a medicine at all. They knew that I'm not feeling well but it seems they didn't care at all. They didn't even bother to check on me in my room if I was okay. Thankfully I have a neighbor who I am closed with, I called her Mamang. She went at our house, she gave me medicine and she's the one who took care of me, she was the one who prepared food for us so we can eat. I was very close to them because his husband and me had the same birthplace. I was happy to met them who I can call a family even just for a temporary. I owed her for the kindness that she showed to me and hoping that someday I will see her and I can return all the favor that she did to me before. *I felt hurt for what my in-laws showed towards me. I hated them for what they did to me. I did everything so they can treat me as their own family but they never did. I sacrificed a lot for them but those sacrifices are not valued. Every day I prayed that I will be out on that situation. I prayed that I will meet someone who could appreciate me for who I am, for what I am. And I was so thankful that I met one today. He was the one who taught me to let go of the Hurtful memories that I had so I can be free from pained. He taught me to free myself from the past so I can be totally happy. And I'm so grateful for having him on my life. We are just textmates before but now I'm totally happy. He was so responsible and he always thinks about us. He made sure that we are always his priority.* **To the man I love thank you for the love you always show to us. For all the things you did to us. Thank you for saving myself. If you didn't came into my life, I don't know what will happen to me. Thank you for accepting my whole self. I have flaws and imperfections, we have many quarrels and misunderstandings but you never let a day passed without solving our issues. I'm happy that whenever you are talking with your future, you never failed to include me in your plans. How lucky I am that I met someone like you. Thank you so much and I love you. Thank you for making me happy every now and then.** *****If you think you are not valued, don't hesitate to leave. If they don't appreciate you, then leave. Don't try to fit yourself into someones life who doesn't know how to keep and care for you. Always remember that there will always be someone who can accept and appreciate you for who you are.***** Thanks for reading! -LHES

@shanley06 2 July 2021

@Lawa1988 thank you so much!!!

@shanley06 2 July 2021

My 6 Months journey in Noise.Cash January 1, 2021, this marked my very first day in noise.cash. Noise.cash is a great blessing to me as a mother. Last week of December I was so sad because my memory card was corrupted. All my BCH and Bitcoin apps were gone because all were saved on that memory card. On the first day of January, I open my Facebook and send greetings for my family and friends. After that I was scrolling down and I happened to see a post from Wyndy Faith that really caught my attention. It was stated on that post that we can earn BCH by just making noise. Without any hesitation I registered and make my first post then interact with other users. All thanks to Wyndy for introducing it to me, I was able to earn BCH again. This was one of my post in noise.cash.I think this was on my second month. I didn't know that I was once a spammer before, I Just saw it when I am scrolling down my profile. Just a picture and emojie, thankfully I change and improve my post as I became an old user. This was my biggest tip I had during my first month. Having a 0.01 tip as a newbie already gave so much happiness to me but receiving this big got me teary-eyed before. I remember during this time, I'm always excited to see red button. I didn't care if it's too small or not, as long as I receive any tip and it was already enough for me. My very first tippers before are @Noshair, @Manik0, @Les, @Lawa1988 . Noshair, Les and Manik0 are not active anymore as of now. But I'm still thankful that they become part of my journey. This was my biggest tip that I receive in my whole journey in noise.cash. I remember that I posted this one when our electricity was gone and I didn't even bother to look at who tipped me that time because I was so busy cooking our dinner. Thankfully after dinner the light was restored and I'm also done doing my night routines and so while lying on bed I open my noise.cash and I was surprised with this big tips. This was also the time that the free tips were gone and we only need to heart the post that we want. This was on my second month in noise.cash , this day was also my youngest son's birthday and it was also the day that I first cash-out my earnings in coins.ph. My partner didn't believed me that I earned 1000 pesos for just two weeks and so he told me to cash-out it in MLhuiller. My total earnings I have that time in my wallet was almost 2000 pesos but we just claimed 1000 pesos in MLhuiller. He didn't believe it at first because we have been scammed before. In my first two months I didn't give too much attention on my subscribers but I always tip back all the users who tipped me. This was the start where I posted my little achievements for having 955 subscribers. This was on my third month being a noise.cash user. After another month I got 1283 subscribers. We were becoming bigger as a family. I know that the other users I have this time weren't active anymore but I am really grateful to them. Now on my fifth month, there were many users who joined me on my journey. It's grows very fast this time. During this fifth month, many updates happened. No more free tips given, there were many channels created, many got low tips and I was one of them who got to experience it for three days but on the fourth day it was back to normal. Then another update happen, there were 1 % cut off of users. I was sad to see my old friends that haven't receive any tips though they are very good content creator but today I'm happy that some of them are able to receive tips from other users. Today on my 6th month I have already 2138 subscribers. Cheers for reaching this achievement of mine. Hoping to see more users in the future. Congrats self!!! We made it!!! Last two months ago, there were sudden change where you will be marked eligible, not eligible or low content creator. That time I was marked as non eligible and so I decided to change the things that I will post. I posted some long motivations, about my daily life, nature photography, foods and my little achievements. This was the dish that I made for the first time and I captured and shared my very first sarciadong isda. I got many comments on it and that was a success already for me as a first timer. I am not a good cook but being successful at first time is already a big achievement. This was the time that I got to share my morning routine. I did a four round jog together with my eldest son. This place was just on our neighborhood and it was a very wide area. The place was so peaceful and the air was so fresh. I also did a throwback on my studies during my high school days. I posted that one with my favorite motto in life "**Try and try until you succeed."** This photo of a bougainvillea plant was captured by my hubby. Ever since we did a cash-out he became supportive with the things I did. I told him to capture this plant on our neighbor and. He took many photos of it but I only posted two of it. *Hey hubby thanks for this wonderful shots.* I even posted some moments with my kids and wrote an inspirational words for them. I know they can't read this but they know that I posted their pictures. I am so proud of my little ones who makes me stress yet happy at the same time. Someday I can look back on these. Those precious smiles that can fade my stress and worried away and those smile that can melty anger. They are even so supportive to me. They are also excited when they saw the red bell on my account. This was one of the update of noise.cash where we can put a minimum amount to cash out. At first I set my minimum at 0.1 and after receiving 7 times payout I change it into $1 then to $3 but after receiving low tips, I change my minimum into 0.50 and until now it was still my minimum payout. This people are my constant tippers today. I haven't got what I have today if not because of all this users. I also want to thank them for being there for me everytime. For the unending love and support. Thank you so much guys from the depth of my heart. Now, I already have 0.2 Bch for 1 month. It May not that big but I know these will be my first step in reaching my goal. I am still holding it today and I will wait for the price to go up so I can sell it. If I have sum all my earnings from day 1 up to now, I already earned 0.6 Bch. **How noise.cash help me and my family** I used it for my load. I didn't buy load at the nearby sari-sari store. I just used my coins.ph wallet in loading for my sim and so too with my partner. I was able to bought milk for my grandmother and so too for my kids I used it to buy a new phone since my old phone was damaged. Now my new phone is already three months old. It helps to provide some needs at home. *Thank you so much sir* @MarcDeMesel for b*eing so generous and to the admins, thank you so much!!* " **All experts was once a newbie. I am still newbie in read.cash and I know I still need to learn many things before becoming an expert. So Goodluck self, we can do this althogher**." -LHES Thanks for reading.

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@shanley06 25 June 2021

How I spend my leisure time as a Mom Being a mother and housewife is sometimes tiring and stressful. I woke early in the morning to prepare food for my family especially that my hubby has a work. Sometimes I can't also avoid having a high temper because my kids are so naughty and hard-headed too. And when night time comes, I'm already tired but sometimes I go to bed late because there are things that are needed to done that day. Having a daily routine like this, I always made sure to make time for myself, give time for myself to relax and free myself from stressful things. ****Here are the things that I did during my free time:**** **Reading stories online** Reading is one of my hobby. No matter what time it is, as long as I'm free I read stories online and I check the books that I added in my library if it has a new update. I even have downloaded Wattpad, dreame and I also read stories on Facebook. I do really like romance and adventurous genre of stories. Why do I love reading romance stories and those adventurous ones?? It's because I love happy endings and I like those adventurous especially if the main character is a woman with a strong and cool personality. There are many times that I cried reading those. I got carried away because somehow there were part of the stories where I can relate to it. Like those stories, life is both happy and sad but it all depends on us if we choose to let ourselves be drown to that sadness and pain. I am not fond of those tragic and horror storries. If I read those, my stress wont be gone.😂 **Based on my research online, reading gives a lots of benefits.** ♠️****Reduces stress**** This is true. I can validate this because reading those stories that I love is so effective in casting my stress and worries away. Reading is really my stress reliever. It helps me escape from my stressful life. It brings me to the other dimensions of the world "my imaginary world". It let my mind wonders into the authors imagination. It helps me escape from reality and even let me imagine many scenarios where I am the main character on that story. ♠️****Alleviate depression**** Studies says that people with depression often feel isolated and estranged from everyone else. People who feel depress must need a diversion wherein they can't think that they are alone in their battle. I sometimes do feel it. I felt like no one cares for me and felt like I'm alone. Having a depression and battling on it is not a joke because if it is not medicated or it is not given an attention, surely it will get worse and worse. And that’s a feeling that books can sometimes lessen. It can allow me to temporarily escape in my own world. ♠️ ****Increases our vocabulary and comprehension**** While reading books I encounter many new words that I'm not familiar with and that's the time that I need a dictionary or a Google. I search for its meaning and when I'm not satisfied with it, I find the synonyms or else I will ask the Google to translate it for me. ♠️ ****Aids in sleep readiness**** Reading is really helpful to me as a Mom. There are days that I had a hard time falling asleep even if it's already late at night. That is why i have save Many stories in my libraries for me to read. Reading while lying on my bed then suddenly I just fall asleep. I woke up after many hours and check my phone what time it was and I saw that my Wattpad or dreame Apps are still open. **Listening to music** Music can benefit our physical and mental health in numerous ways. Music can improve our mood and helps lessen the anxiety we felt. Listening to music calms my nerves and senses. Even how stressful my days are, when i hear and listen to music it drives my worries and stress away. My favorite genre of a music are those love songs, it's either Tagalog or English as long as its a love songs, that's already fine with me. Every Saturday and Sunday i turn on the radio so i could listen to the music. **I also had my favorite music channels in YouTube.** **REYNE**- This is the latest YouTube channel that i followed. I like his song covers. His voice is so soft and angelic. When he sing a song, you will feel the emotions and you will know that music is really his passion. **Wish 107.5-** i like watching the different singers that have guested in their bus. My favorite singers already performed in there and i watched their videos many times already and i never get tired hearing those that's why i downloaded their songs so i can play their songs without opening YouTube. *My partner and I have a contrast taste on music. I like soft Melody music while my hubby likes those rock musics and when he plays music at home he made sure to turn the radio into a full volume and that irritates me sometimes.* 3.**Playing with my kids** Even how busy i am, cleaning the house, doing some laundry, cooking for our food, washing the dishes and fixing and folding the washed clothes i really made sure to make time for my kids. We sometimes do a wacky pose on the phone, capturing every funny moments of it and recording a short video so we can watch again those crazy moments we had. I even told them some funny stories where we all laugh. Having a pleasure time with my kids are one of the best moments of my life. The happinesss that we shared is always worth it and no material things could ever replace. 4. **Sleeping** After the doing chores I need time to relax my body. Sometimes after cleaning and doing the laundry, my back hurts a lot. Lying on bed relaxes and eases the pain I'm feeling. As a mother, I made sure not to abuse myself in doing so much chores because i still have kids to take care with. If I'm sick no one takes care of them especially of hubby works away from us. So that's why I really give myself enough rest and sleep **Watching YouTube videos** Watching funny videos, music videos, act of kindness videos and those talent competition on YouTube is also my one way of spending my free time. **Why those videos only??**? Those talent competitions excites me everytime the judges press the golden buzzer. I also becomes emotional as if I'm the one who gets the golden buzzer. **Here are the talent search youtube channels that i have watched**. America's Got Talent Asia's Got Talent The Voice **Those act of kindness videos inspires me to be a good person towards others. I learn so many things in every people's story. Not all of us are lucky in life but even despite the things that they experience they can still manage to smile. It encourages and motivates me to be positive always.** **The Hungry Syrian Wanderer** **Jose Hallorina** *These two YouTube channels are the channels that i followed and watched a long time ago even before the pandemic happens. I watched how their channels grow big. These two men are really a blessing to those who are in needs.* **TreeMan** **What Would You Do** *These two channels are all about social experiment. What's nice about watching these social experiment is that it makes me teary-eyed seeing how people show compassion towards other people even if they can't get something in return. These are the selfless people who always have a big heart for the needy.* **densyo tambyahero** **Foreigngerms** *I subscribed to their channels just recently. I first showed their videos on Facebook and for the goodness that they shared to my fellow Filipinos, i followed their channel and watched them.* **Hoping to see more channels like these who can inspire others to do good and share what they have to other people.** **Playing games on phone** Playing games on my phone entertained me a lot. The best game that i have on my phone is Tongits Go. It only not entertain me but it also help me earn Go stars that can be redeemed. I like playing cards because when i was young when there are still no online games my uncles have bought cards and we played it many times already. I remembered before the funniest consequences we had when someone loses. ****These are the few consequences we had before**** 🔈***Putting lipsticks on the Face or if we don't have lipstick we used charcoal instead*** ***🔈Carrying a pillow above the head*** ***🔈Flipping the hand many times*** `Every one of us are having stressful and hard days in life. Don't be hard on yourself, let yourself have some fun too. As what Nightbirde said in her audition in America's Got Talent " You can't wait until life isn't hard anymore before you decide to be happy." This line always inspires and motivate me, that's why i made sure to have some rest time and have some fun too.` -LHES Thanks for reading Have a good day/night to everyone!!!

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@shanley06 25 June 2021

My big wins in life **Life is a game. Every day is a new challenge. Every day is a new stage of our life. All the cards are within us. It's up to us what cards to let go, what cards to keep and what cards to play. In every game, there is a win or loss but what matters at the end of the day is to never let our guard down, never give up, never surrender and never quit because if we do, then we lose.** Losing is part of life because all of us are first timer in everything but letting ourselves lose every time is not okay. We should always learn from the experience we had at the past. If those way we use before were not an effective way, then try to make or find another way to try. Our cards in life are sometimes okay but sometimes complicated. All of us have choices and options. We need to play our cards wisely or else we will lose. We need to think many times the decisions we shall make because once we decide what to do we can't undo it anymore. **My life** as a **mom** is very **challenging**. I'm a mom of four. Having kids is both an honor and responsibility as a woman because not all women are given the chance to be a mother. Handling kids every day is a tough and a challenging one. There were sleepless nights especially when my kids are sick. There were also some stressful days especially when we are short financially and we can't afford to buy the essentials things at home. There were times that we got big problems that may cause anxiety and I'm worried on what is the right thing to do. There were also times when i felt sad especially when we have a misunderstandings with my partner but overcoming all of these is already a **big** **win** for me as a mom. I am not a perfect mother nor a perfect housewife but i made sure that I will always be with them through sad and happy days of their life. We can't avoid **having hardships** and **bad days** in life. That's the spices of life. Without having all those dark days of our life, life isn't so fun and it's boring. We should all Face those days with so much confidence and believe that we can overcome all those. Believe that in every rainy days there will always be Sunny days after. Believe that after those darkest times in life there will always be sunshines after. S**urpassing** all those rainy days and darkest times is also a **big win** for **me as an individual.** Upgrading a **better version** of myself is also a **big win** for **myself**. Becoming a better me is what helps me to cope up with the challenges in life. I May not become the best version of myself today but every day by continuing and keep stepping forward I can be that and i will claim that. I already had many tough times in life and i become much stronger each day. Being a better version of myself today, QUITTING is never on my mind, it's not on my choice either because even if i stumble and fail many times i would always be someone who will always get up on knees and will try and fight again in life. **I am the conqueror of my life, I am the hero of my life, I am the player and I'm always be the winner of it.** -LHES Thanks for reading. Have a nice day.

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