@shamkylan28 19 January 2021 more from that month

Marriage life, Pregnancy trials

You have probably met someone like me. It's either your friend, relative or one of your family member. I was married for 8 years already and yet I don't have a baby. My husband and I been trying to have at least one kid.But I guess, luck was not on our side. A year after our marriage, I got pregnant and I was so happy and excited cause we're having a baby, but for some reason I had a miscarriage. Two years after my miscarriage, I got pregnant again. This timeI was extra careful. And as for my husband, he's much more extra attentive to me, he's always double checking me every time he leaves for work. I thought everythings gonna be alright, but during my 2nd trimester of pregnancy, I, again had a miscarriage. This time it takes me 3 years to recover from what happen. But, that wasn't the problem. I got depressed. Every time a family, a friend or someone I know ask about when will we be having a baby again, I always answer back in " God's time". But, it got through me, everytime when I'm home or when I'm alone, I cried. Thinking and talking to myself, "well I be having a baby again or not", cause it's been more than 3 year's since my last miscarriage but to no avail I can't get pregnant again. We've been to a Doctor to ask why, how or what should we do. Up until now, while writing this, I still ask myself,"what have I done wrong", or "what have we done and where have we gone wrong".It's not easy being in this situation, specially both our family's are expecting us to at least have one kid. But despite of this, I'm still thankful that throughout this trials and everything, my husband was still there for me. I know he's been to some rough time also but still he's always there, understanding me even when there were a time that I almost lost myself. I'm grateful for having him in my life, for understanding me and for staying with me despite the probability of us not having a baby again. And to my family, friends and whoever you are, please, if you know someone who had the same situation like me, please be considerate. Don't ask questions like "when will you having a baby". Don't mock or laugh at them for not having any,cause you never knew what we're or the're going through just to have a baby. Thank you and God bless. photo credit : https://unsplash.com/photos/N1CZNuM_Fd8