@remona 22 March 2022 more from that month

A piece of cloud. *I have been waiting for a very long to have a piece of cloud. No, I don't ask for much nor the whole sky. Only a piece of cloud would make my heart quiet down!*

Yeah, you can call me crazy. Who would've asked for less, no? Nonetheless, I want only a piece of cloud. Sometimes it feels like I can't suit anymore, it feels like a continuous struggle to fit in this hustle and bustle whether my mind is screaming for some peace. Am I getting old? Maybe. Or maybe I meant to be surrounded by nature and my fate took me to the megacity. *We who were born and raised in cities always don't feel the same as per my experience. I have seen mostly they like the city vibes. I also do love this city and I believe I can't live without this city's mood. Country life would be too boring for me. But what if I had the opportunity to build a small world with a touch of nature!* Maybe someday... I have never been to *Sajek*  - a tourist spot over the mountains, where I could touch the clouds probably. That's an 'Ah' inside my heart. But I can create a thousand clouds inside my heart, you know. I wish they were not dark but cotton-like. My heart couldn't produce anything good maybe. In my head, it always reflects something wired. I'm not an 'ideal' person to me. Sometimes I hate the way I think. And the continuous fight inside me kills my outside vibe as well. You can say by looking at me, something is wrong. I know what exactly is wrong, I'm trying to declutter everything but my mind is still very messy. That's why I needed a piece of a cloud!

Whenever I get the chance to go close to nature, this one thing I must do; look at the clouds. I know we all do that, right? *I can remember, when I was around seven, I used to talk with nature or maybe talk with myself. One day I got caught by my sister and she told everyone about how crazy I'm. I was so embarrassed, I gradually stop doing that. But my crack head still does this silently. Now I think, it's okay. It's a good thing to let out my craziness and feels less heavy.* ***How amazing it would be if I could have a piece of cloud inside my palms!*** ***It would be like cotton candy.*** ***But I wouldn't squeeze it, I would be very gentle.*** ***I would place it down beside my bed and have a peaceful sleep.*** ***I would take it to nature and dance around with joy.*** ***I want that piece of cloud.*** ***How amazing it would be!***