@re-joyce 28 July 2024 more from that month

sometimes i wish that i never learned everything in a hard way. you know, like how other people learned to love without having to feel pain. like how other people learned to forgive without knowing what betrayal is. like how people were so gentle without experiencing unkind treatment. because everything i knew now were all because i went through things. i had to conquer pain and heartbreaks before having the ability to love. i had to know the feeling of betrayal before i learned to forgive. i had to put myself in an unfair situation before learning to be gentle. i did not just come off easy, i needed to learn things in the most exhausting and heart wrenching agony. i wish i didn’t.