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Words without action is meaningless. Madali lang magsalita, mahirap patunayan, lalo na, kung yung ginawa mo para maging mahirap paniwalaan ang mga salita mo may kaakibat na sakit na hindi basta nabubura ng isang sorry. I would choose to believe what may eyes can see, not may ears to hear.
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GOOD MORNING NOISEFAM... It's been hard waking up in the morning nowadays. Ang hirap bumangon na puno ng kahungkangan ang puso mo. Pero kahit gaano pa kahirap, pipiliting bumangon, para sa mga taong nagmamahal at nagpapahalaga sa akin. Para sa mga taong naging karamay ko at dumaramay pa din sakin ngayon.
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Gloomy monday morning NoiseFam. May bagyo ba? Ehehe, di na ko nanonood ng balita 😅 It may have a gloomy weather today, pero lilipas din yan. Just like what ever is happening now, masakit man at mahirap, lilipas din yan. Malalagpasan mo at makababangon ka. Maipapakita mo sa lahat na kahit nadapa ka, kaya mong bumangon at ituloy ang laban. Laban lang ng laban. Pasasaan ba at matatapos din ang lahat at magiging payapa na. Have a good day everyone.
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Kain tayo NoiseFam. Sinangag with tinapa at hotdog. Siempre di mawawala ang pinatapang na black coffee...
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TIKTOK bring this information to my FYP again. A NARCISSIST will love bomb you, tells you he/she loves you, make you feel awesome, amazing. Then he/she devalue you by saying painful words, shift blaming and gaslighting. Afterwards, he/she discard you, like you matter nothing at all. Lastly, he/she hoover you back. It is a cycle, a never ending cycle. So if you notice this cycle happening, LEAVE. It's for your own good. Yes, mahirapa sa umpisa, sobrang hirap. Value yourself…
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Heavy rainy morning mga ka NoiseFam. I think our dear God is talking to me through social media. Yung mga tanong kong nahihirapan sagutin bigla na lang nalabas sa fb news feed ko, sa fyp ng tiktok ko, mga post dito sa noise cash. I know that maybe its just a coinsidence, pero nandun yung pakiramdam na para sakin yung bawat post. Kayo ka NoiseFam, how do you feel God's communication to you?
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Look how the sky is pouring... Feeling ko tuloy niniramay ko sa nararamdaman ko. Na sya na lang yung iiyak para sakin kasi di ako maka iyak kahit sobrang sakit na ng nararamdaman ko. And I know, after this rain, dadating din yung rainbow na sisimbolo ng peace na hinahanap ko.
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As days pass by, that we're on our different ways, a huge realization dawn unto me. The pain that you cause me run to deep, and I know that it'll take time for me to heal. I know it'll be very hard but i need to try my hardest, I need to do my best. I need to move forward. It's for my self. I've been neglecting my self for years. Its time for my self to have my whole time and energy. All my efforts. My self deserve it all. Panahon na para sarili ko naman ang unahin ko.…
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Sa pagdaan ng mga araw, lalo kong nararamdam na tama ang desisyong ginawa ko, that I decided to end a relationship that brought me much pain than happiness. As days pass, I'm seeing how selfish you really are. That up until now, may reasons and feelings has been invalidated. Na walang halaga sayo kung ano man nararamdaman ko, kung ano man rason ko, basta ma-serve ko ang purpose mo at ang gusto mo. I keep avoiding that RED FLAGS before, fooling myself that it is not it, now I…
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It's a sunny Sunday morning NoiseFam. May Our Almighty God blesses us todat with abundancy and good health. Stay safe and well NoiseFam.
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There are times that it seems everything is fine, that we'll handling it just fine. But there is this something, or somebody who'll triggered it all back. The person, the memories, the pain. All of it. But its just how it goes, its the process that we all have to went through. Eventually, its all going ti be fine, for good. Maybe not now, now sooner but it will happen
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Keep safe everyone, malakas ang hangin na dala ni bagyong Maring, may dala din syang pag ulan. May our Almighty God keep us safe from any harm. Prepare necessary like easy to cook food and clean water. Evacuate when its needed. Everyones safety is a must. Wag na matitigas ang ulo. Your life is more important than anything.
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Gloomy morning NoiseFam!!! Another day, another battle, another chance to prove myself what I deserve. Its difficult to have a debate yourself everyday but I believe that I am winning. And I will continue to win. Just wait and see. I will win this battle and I will stand tall and proud.
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It still ache, it still ache a lot. It ache to know that we can never be the same again. It ache that it is all just a memory.
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Im back NoiseFam!!! Been gone for quite some time... Needed time to compose my self again... Masyadong painful yung nangyari nung mga nakaraan.... But Im back, hopefully, happy thoughts naman ma share ko this time at hindi puro ka-emo-han. Have a great day ahead...
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Happy Monday morning NoiseFam... Medyo glummy weather dito sa amin today. Still waking ul in the morning feeling empty. But its a process. I'll continue having faith on the process. I know it'll lead me to be a better me. I know I can and I know I will.
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Another day...another journey... Panibagong araw para harapin ang hinaharap. Panibagong simula para sa bagong buhay. Panibagong pag asa sa mga umaasam. May hirap mang madadanas. Ginhawa at kapayaan naman ay nag aabang. Sakripisyo ay magbubunga ng kasayahan. Good morning sa lahat.
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Good late morning NoiseFam!!! Been awhile since I last posted an update... Everythings been a rollercoaster ride for me this past few days. From feeling alright, then depresses, then ok again. Theirs also this weird thing thats happening to me. I shiver everytime, like literally my whole body shakes, later on I found out that it can be a form of trauma. My mind sends my body a signal that I maybe stressing out too much. I didnt even realized that Ive been in too much to have…
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Its been so long since I last visited you. I miss your presence. I hope your with me now that Im going through all of this. I know youll be hurt as well but youll understand and youll support me. Youll stat with me, coz thats how much you love me.
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Maulang Sunday morning NoiseFam!!! May bagyo ba? Hindi na kasi ako nakakanood ng balita 😅 Anyways, have a great day ahead sa inyong lahat. Stay safe and God bless...
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It's been a month, no regrets at all. I have no regret that I choose myself for myself (what???? Does that makes sense???). I'll get through this and make progress. Kaya ko to, kayang kaya ko to.
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Being alone for weeks makes me realized a lot of things. Things that I haven't saw before. Things that I knew were fine but isn't. Noon pa pala napakarami nang RED FLAGS, but I'm too blind to saw it all. But its never to late. It's never to late for myself to heal.
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It's Halloween season, uso takutan, uso usapan tungkol sa mga hindi maipaliwanag na bagay. Until I come across a 2019 Filipino movie "Clarita". Si Clarita ay anak ng isang ispiritista. Nakulong sya dahil sa pagiging prosti to survive. While in prison, she was possess by spirit/entity. Upon exorsism, she named 7 entities. The entities who ruled the 7 deadly sins. While watching that specific scene, a thought came into my mind. That the presence of this entities were just…