Play to Earn called Money Well
**July 28, 2022**
Just recently I was into playing some earning apps and I found this one app and it pays so-so but still I am enjoying it. The app is called Money Well.
It says here that you can get points while you play and it can be converted into cash. I was literally doubting as I have installed some apps to gain even a little but that came out a waste of time as I didn't get to withdraw so on the other app so I opted not to play any, but I was just caught by it when I personally experienced it.
So first you need to install the app, just search it through the Playstore and search Money Well, you can either sign in using your google acct or your email or facebook account.
The Money Well is an app where you can earn base on the duration that you use playing with the suggested app.
This is the app that I'm using, as you can see I don't really remember when was the last time that I really did have time playing, and now I might get to see some.
The points will solely base on the duration of you playing the app with you in and installing some required app and then play for it.The payment option when it comes to withdrawal is only thru paypal and 7-eleven kiosk. And since I have paypall so I withdraw it and it will successfully went to my email if the payment had been delivered. The minimum points for you to withdraw is only Php 9.85 (2000 pts)which is not bad actually. As long as it's a decent app I'll continue playing it and I can also earn while playing.
I only played it for less than a week and I honestly haven't lay down in the bed while playing it. Here is the proof that the app really is earning. Just idly playing yet I can withdraw if the amount of points will be taken out.
If you want to play it you can click my link here but it doesn't mean that you can't earn. https://affiliate.justtrack.io/android/online.moneywell.app/eab9a010-06a6-4bfb-95ab-d12a04c1261e?channel=intent
Thank you for reading...
@mommykim
Our Superman celebrates another year in his life!
July ~~27~~ 28, 2022
This may sound cliche but even though I am emotionally and physically open with Papz and I only have minimal misunderstandings with him, theres still things that I haven't spoken out to him, not because I'm afraid but because I don't want him to be weirded out about me as I don't show it often.
*Papay,*
*Hey Papz, Happy birthday*
*Hope you don't creep out when you read this, although I doubt it will happen but I just wanna say here the things I don't usually say to you upfront face to face lol!*
*From learning all the outdoor games, to take my first bicycle ride without the little side wheels, to hold my first racket in a badminton play up to learning how to ride the motorcycle(which I forgotten already🤣) you were there with me. You may be strict with me on my junior years but I never hated you for that,instead my respect and admiration increased each day you showed us tough challenges. Education must be put first as what you said but you never forced us to pursue college as you don't want to pressure us.*
*Your a man who don't fancy wealth, a simple person who just want to work near home as you don't like to be separated to Mum longer, so you usually went home during* *lunch breaks. It was also you that raise my standards when it comes to men as I saw how much you love and treasure Mum and even us your children and the grandchildren too.*
*"Live in happiness" you always say this to me and I witness how it radiated to you, such pure and simple happiness from a simple man. You can either live in comfort or not as long as you can see us together with you.*
*You don't want us to work our assess to give you a wealthy living, as you want us to enjoy life and live with it.*
*Seeing you with your grandchildren, happily playing with them, always brought me to tears as I can see how much you love them.*
*This month may have been tough and challenging for us and can't guarantee the future but I do really wish that you'll stay strong for us. Live happily and continue doing the things you want to do.*
*Happiest birthday, our Superman Papay*.
Me and my older sister had a quick travel home from work since Papz just wanted to have dinner together with us being complete and since our man simply want that so who are we to decline a simple request right. We had a late night dinner and we enjoyed the laughter and the talks we shared together.
The power interruption late last night made me unable to publish this and I am writing while on board a jeep on my way to work.
Simple celebrations and get together is what Papz like as long as were complete and healthy.
Thank you for reading.
@mommykim
Strange thing you see in your refrigerator...and some logic for the day...
**July 26, 2022**
I was looking for something to eat in the mini refrigerator here when I remembered something that made me laugh. you know when you think of something out of the blue and you somehow got caught with it and then you forgot the things that you wanted to do beforehand. That's what happened to me earlier that I just went out and buy something rather than laughing like crazy holding the door of the refrigerator.
Talking about it, do you also see some strange things in your refrigerator. Like well it's common that you'll see drinks veggies, chocolates, ice cubes and frozen meat as the usual that you'll see but there are some strange things that you don't often see on it.
The strange things would be, a cloth, keys, and most weird would be toothbrush. Yes I saw all that last week and the main culprit is my son.
Me and my parents did an alternate schedule to watch over my niece in the hospital and the other would be at home watching the other kids and that's my son and the older niece.
I arrived home late afternoon last Saturday and Mum take over so I need to watch the kids at home, and when I arrived I went straight to the refrigerator to drink something cold as the heat stirring my body that I need to cool down a little bit only to find these strange things inside the ref ( I hadn't got the chance to take a snap as I let my niece in the hospital borrow it to play some games to kill her boredom while lying in her hospital bed).
So I called out the two kids and ask him why is there some keys in the ref and also the cloth and the toothbrush(which I know belongs to my son). So my niece told me that it was all my son's doing and so I ask my oh good looking son on what's on his mind that he's put these strange things in the refrigerator. This smart tricky kid has all answers to every questions when it concerns him and I can't win with his guts and all.
" Ma , I put the cloth inside as I will put it on my forehead to let it cool as it was really hot outside, the keys is for me to not forget where I put it and since I'm always opening the ref so it's easy for me to look for it, and the toothbrush is for me to use it while it's cold and it's really nice when you use your toothbrush when it's cold you should try it sometime."
I give him a mild scolding and told him to have his afternoon nap, only when he enter the room that I laugh silently, oh how I wanted to crack my laughter that even the neighbors can hear for it's really quite hilarious for me. Just how much does the kids learn things just by watching and reading or even observing other people. I blame youtube and mu misguidance sometimes ugh..
Moms, remind yourselves that if you're smart enough, well you can't outsmart your kids for they are sometimes clever and quick witted hahaha
I heard this logic from the architect earlier and he asked the noob me hahaha
***If you have some water you thought was going to overflow but you somehow manage to keep it from spilling over and then it filled up all over again until it seems like its going to overflow again what should you do about it?***
Then the little brain in me kept on thinking what would be the possible answer only to find something irrelevant or so I guess.
It's like love or the feelings you have for a particular things or person.
When you put it in example, like you have this feeling for a person whom is your closest friend and every day it keeps growing and you somehow manage to control yourself not to burst out and spit it out in front of him/her that might ruin the tigh bond you already have until it keeps getting stronger that you don't know what to do about it.
***you can either stop the leak or just find and even bigger container***
Well for me if the water is overflowing might as well find a bigger container so that it will not spill and it can consume just the right amount.
Or so to say is to have an open area of possibilities on where will that love will go.
What will your answer be?
Thanks for reading!
@mommykim
Time for me fanning over him again...
**July 25, 2022**
You might think of me as a crazy person as I have a lot of obsession over my hobbies and I don't plan on giving them up just to focus on the other. When it comes to my personal obsession I give them fair treatment as they are my brain and eye treats.
You might wonder what am I talking about right now or if I am just spouting nonsense. Yes as again I am usually talking nonsense and I don't regard myself when it comes to my likes because I don't spend money on them, oh I did on books and merchies, but on the other likes ,I just got them free of charge teheee..
I am obsessed with my book and my collections. I even got a list of the books I wanted to read as I am finished reading those at home. You may think when did I have spare time, well when I was not allowed to use my phone courtesy of my strict son so I opted to read beside him as he was also reading his Peppa pig booklet. And also while in the hospital as I was in charge to assist my niece , yes I brought a book with me and read it when my niece was resting. I brought my book since I know that I can't use my phone as there's no stable signal in the hospital so I didn't bother using my phone and just read instead while listening to music using my headphones. The book I am currently reading is Emilie Pine's NOTES TO SELF Essays which is really bold and stunning to read, recommended for all women out there.
As a keen reader, I also read manga/manwha and there's really never a day that I don't get to read some ten or twenty chapters of the series that I followed. I guess I shared in her the series I am currently reading, mostly it's slice of life and comedy and oh well yaoi it is hehehe I can't miss reading about Jiang Chen and of course Duke Boleoti with his pretty little daughter Princess Leona. Regarding BL manwha is more on comedy and a little fluff as I love the story of Justin and Ian's friendship in the series entitled "Bromance" this is just pure comedy as in you'll laugh till you cry reading this as this duo is so hilarious.
The love I have also in watching anime grows even more, honestly i only opted to continue watching One Piece and Naruto but I got a very great influencer in the body of Ropa..who encouraged me to watch a lot of anime and here I am still can't move on over Hinata and Kageyama. I can talk about them all day and can't wait for the next season and I even kept on rewatching their games on Youtube and even Kuroko no basket and their ova. I so loved Kuroko and Kagami, the light and the shadow duo
I am a Kdrama and BL lover at heart too as I support LGBTQ mwehehehe and I can't list down every series I watched and soon to watch but it's definitely not horror. Just finished with "Why Her?" recently. I also finished watching "Given" which is a BL anime series.
Now the exciting part,
I can literally stop what I'm working at just to gaze upon the love of my life walking down the aisle and slowly come up to me with the loving gaze only intended to me.
Kidding.....
I am already invested in this man for a decade already and even his accomplishments feels like an accomplishment for me too, and I feel like a proud mother looking at my child going on the stage receiving his first entertainment award.
Being a member of a solid boy group, Kim Jongin preferably known as Dancing Machine EXO KAI, he is used to received many awards when it talks about performances and music, but my uri Kai delved in the world of variety shows that made him gained his first ever variety entertainment award. He joined members Do Kyungsoo, Sehun, and Suho in receiving such awards over the years.
*EXO Kai winning "Best New Male entertainer" at the Blue Dragon Awards 2022*
ahhhhh seing him reaching another milestone really makes me old lol!
Time flies and jonginee really did his best to show the world that he't not just a world performer on stage but he can also capture the heart with the way he shows his vulnerability and uniqueness in reality shows. I am more than beyond proud as a fan.(crying in silent) ...
It may sound weird but I've been their fan since their debut days and they practically dominate my youth days and seeing them grown each year and with the recognition they receive as a group and as a solo performer is such an inspiration to us their fans. Forever with EXO..
Thank you for reading!
@mommykim
Knowing your presence
**July 25, 2022**
Presence has a big effect on everyone or on every single person. No matter where you might wanna be, there will be people who would love to have your presence to make them feel at ease
I myself want someone to be with me in difficult times too. Surely their presence will make me feel at ease in such times and someone wanting me to be around would make me touched as they want me to be with them.
The reason I was absent for two days as I was summoned to watch over my niece in the provincial hospital as the mother was still in the other hospital(private) looking after the baby.
Friday night and I arrived in the city very late, most probably nine and Mum told me to wait for her as she was still in the provincial hospital to tend to my niece as shes having tantrums again and don't want to eat or even drink water which she needed the most. I am mostly patient on most days but last Friday I was at my worst as I encounter a lot of problems and hassles on my way so I am on edge but I didn't blurt out and just ask Mum to give the phone to my niece.
"Mamay(Mum) needs to come home and Tita(older sister) will look out for you, be sure to drink a lot of water and eat the right amount of food."
"Tita, will you not come and visit me?"
"Tita is very dirty coz I came from a long ride back, I might contaminate you."
"But I want to just know you're near me(sobs)"
"Alright, tell Mamay I'll be waiting in front of the hospital just so you know Tita is near you okay? You'll be fine and I'm gonna be with you tomorrow so listen to them."
"Okay Tita"
And so I was in the front of the hospital waiting for Mum to come down and told them to tell my niece that I'm downstairs. Mum then said that she somewhat follow their instructions after.
This has made me think that even though we rarely talk and we mostly bicker, it doesn't seem to matter as the kids would come to find you, and knowing your presence is enough for them. The same goes with Mum, whenever I'm home I just call Mum every time, and knowing she's within my reach makes me feel at ease. I mean knowing that your sole comfort is enough for you to be fine.
The whole weekend I spent in the hospital. Good thing that the baby was discharged last Saturday and my parents won't dare take their attention away from baby Alex.
I even got the news that Papz cried since she can't visit my niece as he needs to go through an antigen test just to see my sister and her baby in person. My father badly miss his grandchild the most that he cried out of frustration. It must have been bad and I even heard that Mum also did cry seeing her grandchildren in different hospitals and seeing her daughter being helpless is such heartbreaking.
I didn't have the chance to call them as I was too busy with work too and I don't want to add to their burden so I opted to not call and just message them if they need something.
As of writing, the other niece was also discharged from the hospital and is now resting in the arms of her grandparents together with the baby.
Honestly, this is the first time that we encounter such a problem and it caused such emotional trauma, for all of us, worst for the mother and my parents. It must have been hard for them and all I can do is to pray and motivate them as I am not around to be their aide.
We all made a big sigh while hugging the kids. I slowly slip away as I don't want to get emotional watching my parents hugging the kids, including my son and my first niece, and cuddle them all. I know how much my parents love the kids that they give up having all the leisure and just stay home and watch over the kids.
Thanks also to my sponsors who renewed their sponsorship, thank you do much guys..
Thank you for reading and have a great Sunday with the family..
Cravings during red days...
**July 21, 2022**
Red days surely is a pain for me, surely being old and you'll feel the pain of being stubborn on your younger days. My cramps keep getting worst each month and even though I'm controlling my beverage intake and even do the things to avoid painful cramps, still to no avail it really hurts like I was punched from the front to the back..
And I was actually half lying on my chair while writing this now as I don't want to lie down yet. And even though I already had dinner earlier and was actually full and now I'm already hungry..
I just finished reading the last manga update of my fave series just now and I'm craving something to eat. Usually when red days arrived I certainly love eating and these are my favorites..
**Ramen**
My week will never be complete if I can't eat my favorite shin ramyun. It's one of my comfort food and I can't get enough of it actually. I can finish one pack of it but whenever I'm at home my sisters and I would share that as Mum would scold me if I actually show her that I can eat it alone mwehehehee.
I am controlling everything I ate nowadays as my body seems weak even though I'm fat. So I avoided eating ramen for two weeks straight already. Even I am quite surprised that I can actually control myself on not eating what I love to eat most of the time.
Now that my cramps are getting worst, ramen comes to mind and I would love to stake down two servings in one go if only I allow myself to do that, I'm a glutton by birth actually lol!!
**Paklay**
This is composed of pork intestines, livers etc. with veggies in it and a lot of gingers and spices like chillis and a lot of garlic and onion.
I don't eat paklay at any eatery but only at home, Mum's paklay is my favorite one. Whenever we have celebrations, Mum would save some paklay for me to eat as she knows my favorite. Now that I'm literally hungry, paklay is worth another cups of rice as I can eat a lot especially when it has a lot of spices and gingers, exactly Mum's style of cooking. We both love spicy and adding a lot truly is mouth watering for me..
**Coffee**
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Like lot's of it as I want to taste coffee for the whole read days period. Smelling it's aroma soothes pain. That's what my friend said as it really did help her with her cramps. I didn't believe her since my cramps don't believe as I always drink a lot of coffee whenever I have a my monthly visitor.
I admit , coffee soothes a little but the pain is still there.
I am controlling my caffeine intake too as I don't want to experience that worst palpitation again. So I can only sip a cup of coffee for a day and don't exceed on that.
Red days is kinda frustrating for me that I wish to have menopause already as it's a burden. But it also give me a thought that my cramps happened because I was a bully on my body before that I am tasting the aftermath of my actions so I need to endure it until the last pad finished it's job.
Aigooooo...I am literally hungry but since it's already midnight so I need to just sleep it off.
Thanks you also to my madam @Jane and beb @Expelliarmus30 for the sponsorship renewal...lovelotzzz guys...
Thank you for reading...
@mommykim
When you meet a good teacher.
**July 20, 2022**
Education comes first when you start learning to identify things. A toddler was taught to identify objects and colors as it's the first thing they can do, growing up and then they were taught to sing the ABC, count from one to ten and to know basic stuff they can absorb.
It's a long process but you'll see good results in the long run.
Teachers are the most responsible in nurturing the child growth when it comes to education. Parents were the first teachers and then the second would be the school teachers. They mold they students base on what they studied and to nourish them on what they are capable of achieving.
I am not teacher and I am not a good student either, that's the truth , but I have my biggest respect to the teachers that did have much patients in teaching us their students to learn and to adopt it in real life situations.
You might think what am I going to tackle with these, well apparently I watched "**The Royal Tutor**" and it did leave an impact to me and added a lot more respect and love to my teachers before and even the teachers today.
"The Royal Tutor" revolves around the teacher and his students, the four princes. Heine Wittgenstein(Royal Tutor), was assigned to teach the princes according to what will they do for their kingdom if they will be the crowned king. Heine observed each of the princes and their behavior together with their past and then teach of them according to what he can do to teach each and every one of them. Heine showed no signs of favoritism over his students as he wants to teach them equally.
He unleased each and every one of the Princes ability to be able to be worthy of the throne by dealing with their fears and insecurities. Such a great professor, even I can call him "Master" to like what Prince Bruno would often call him after knowing that he can learn a lot from Professor Heine.
These are some of his advices the leaves imprints to His Hignesses
In the long run, the princes learned a lot and overcame their fears through the help of their teacher and they became mature in thinking at a young age. Truly I can say that behind such great Kings are the teachers and advisers whose willing to lend a hand and would tell you everything that can help you with big decisions.
**Kai von Glanzreich-**The 17-year-old second prince, nicknamed "The Glaring Prince". He's actually a kindhearted, introverted young man who's bad at social interactions and likes cute and soft things. He likes Heine because he's the first tutor to actually talk to him and because he thinks of him as a cute pet. He is mistaken as scary because he has trouble speaking and often looks as if he is glaring due to his naturally sharp eyes.
**Bruno von Glanzreich -**The 16-year-old third prince, nicknamed "The Browbeating Brainiac Prince". He's considered to be a child prodigy and a genius but his attitude changes when Heine beats him soundly in all the challenges he imposes on him, such as chess and mathematics. He starts to idolize him after that and calls him "master", much to Heine's chagrin.
**Leonhard von Glanzreich -**The 15-year-old fourth prince, nicknamed "The Everest-Pride Prince". He considers himself the most beautiful person on the continent. However, it's quickly revealed that behind his haughty demeanor, he is actually a very childish person prone to sulking and running away from his problems. He's a slow learner and has an intense hatred of teachers because he was abused by them, though this slowly starts to change because of Heine's influence. He looks up to his older brother Bruno. He often acts as a tsundere, pretending to be mean but in actuality wanting to be paid attention to and particularly enjoys being praised.
**Licht von Glanzreich-**The 14-year-old fifth and youngest prince, nicknamed "The Playboy Prince". He's very cheerful and easy-going and is fond of being surrounded by beautiful women. He has a tendency to sneak out into town, because of his secret job as a waiter at a café. He's surprisingly a perceptive and serious young man despite his image
Source Wikipedia https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Royal_Tutor#:~:text=6%20External%20links-,Plot,capable%20candidates%20to%20the%20throne.
This scene is truly heartbreaking and I did bawled my eyes out while watching this at two in the morning. Seeing how the Professor Heine's students were already attached to him and he needs to leave is truly painful to watch.
As I was not contented with the anime so I read the manga version and truth to be told I love reading the manhwa version than the anime as I really can understand it more than the anime hehehe. But it's still outstanding for me.
You can search "The Royal Tutor" on facebook as they already have a completed series in it. I'm thinking of another story to read though..
Thank you for reading minna--
@mommykim
If today would be the last day of my life!
**July 19, 2022**
Reading the title, what comes to your mind?
I wrote last last day about me venturing on listening to some podcasts as they quite help me personally in dealing with mental health and until now I am still listening to their past episodes...
As I was hooked into listening to some podcasts and motivational talks these days, this one caught my attention.
**"If today would be the last day of your life, what will you do?"**
I remember some articles from Madam Jane and Madam Farmgirl regarding the last hours of their life on how will they handle it. But to me I want it to be precise, if it's because of sickness or a sudden accident and all, although I doubt if that would happen that I will know beforehand.
Life is not easy
It is not, don't try to make it that way
Life's not fair, it never was it isn't now and it will never be
don't fall into this trap and be a victim
I remember Eric Thomas said in one of his stalks " **Pain is temporary**" . Well it is if you think of it as a spur of the moment kind of pain, but if it's cancer then it will be another kind of story.
As I listen to some earlier I wonder if how will I dealt with it personally, like I never want to talk about death or even mine and other people as I am not into that kind of thinking. I always avoid talking about death, part of me is afraid of it as I am fully aware that I'm not yet prepared, and a part of me thinking about my death will really hurt my son the most so I mostly avoid it.
Ropa really did well in making stories that would creep the heck out of me on how she wrote detailed crime and even those bloodbath thingy, and now I kept remembering the chop chop from an article I don't know if it's from Ropa or beeb Sequoia..
Earlier about the podcast talk, death will come knocking at your door anytime of the day if it's your turn and you can't well avoid it if you're destined to die in that moment. I remember Mum telling me a story of her friend's Mom who died while eating, it was unexpected and a shocked as they we're really having fun at the dining table yet such terrible thing happened.
If today would be the last day of my life!
I am never prepared and will never will, fearing death is one of my weakness ever since I gave birth. I don't want to leave yet as my son and my family really needs me and I can't bear to be a burden to them and also I don't want to see my son hurting because of me.
But,
It can't be helped so might as well save the last hours with my son and my family, go home from work and hugged him until my last breath. It's the only thing I can think of.
**Pain is temporary**, cliche but I know this myself that seeing the people I love hurting is an endless pain for me.
My last day would be all about me kissing my son and giving him all the affection I can give to him, kissing parents and saying my gratitude is a given, but the last hug and kiss will be given to my son. My last breath may hurt him but I want to him to be strong so that I will be at peace, may it be in hell, heaven or where else will I be going.
Sorry for this random.
I am quite amaze really with the podcasts in spotify, it really can motivate you and can even make you become hungry to hear more. Those words of affirmation and approach is such a great help for me personally.
And to think that I am talking about death while going to sleep after writing this, ugh silly me..
Thank you for reading!
@mommykim
Amidst trials, we have a family to rely on.
**July 18, 2022**
***When it rains it pours...***
I often read this or even saw this on some posts whenever they are experiencing a lot of hardships, or when they receive a lot of blessing, it's overflowing that a person becomes overwhelmed by it.
Whenever troubles or emergencies come, you can't rely on friends most of the time but you first contact a member of the family. Personally, it's what I always do as I mostly rely on to my family than others. It's not that I don't have friends whom are trustworthy but I don't want to bother other people when I can call my family for help. Most of the time when I'm in trouble or having gotten in a situation, both my sisters are my aide. They're my one-call-away people. So when they also got situations , I'll do the best I can to help.
My son sleeping beside my niece as he was waiting for her to wake up
Last Friday, when I came home, Mum told me that my niece suddenly had fever. It also happened last few weeks and it's gone already but then it came back after a few days and her mother has work.
Whenever it's weekend, I always let my parents have their well deserved rest from taking care of three active kids and a baby since I know how hard it is to take care of them so I always take charge on looking out for them. It's not easy looking after the kids while cooking or doing a little cleaning(I'm not good at cleaning). The good thing about the kids is they listens to me well, one call and they'll be in front of you, they are also not that hard to feed as my parents practiced them to eat what was served and all.
My niece, who has a fever, is the most delicate one as she cries every minute that she's unattended. She gets clingy and doesn't want to be put on her stroller. I can't move around when she's awake as she always cry. So imagine me having a baby and then doing little chores, lol! it's like a deja vu during my son's first few months that I have to help at the store while carrying him.
Back to my niece, so her fever is gradually alarming as it didn't subside. I even put some wet towel on her forehead and she sometimes cool down and became hot again after a little while, I did the same cycle until he falls asleep. It's a very tiring one honestly but I had no complains since no one's gonna help me though. I kept checking her temperature and whenever it reach 38° I panicked and then put some wet cloth again and let her drink some medicine after her meals. She eats normally and even laugh when playing with her sisters and his cousin but whenever she lost sight of me or even Mum and Papz, expect that she'll cry so hard and her fever would went up again. Papz had to get up and helps on taking turns on watching her.
****When it rains, it pours****
This applies to the mother as she's the one having problems right now. Baby Alex already have a high fever and now the other kid, my second niece, also have a slight fever. I told her last night while having dinner that she needs to take the kids to their pedia as it's really alarming, and I know she's hesitating as she already used the emergency fund last month on the my niece too. But she really needs to take the kids especially the baby. Then this happened..
I asked her earlier regarding the results, and what I presumed happened as the kids both were positive to have a dengue fever. I was crying while reading it as I felt like I lack over taking care of them when they were sick. I was there all the time yet they became like that. I know my sister was really downcast knowing that her children had to go through this so I just have to endure it and be on her support.
I also let her borrow the emergency funds for my son as she badly needs it. She's the sister who always told me that "Money can be found, what's important is you're not losing a love one over it" .
In times like this, prayers is what I would constantly give her together with the emotional support. I checked them from time to time as they we're in a hospital right now with the baby, my other niece we're taken back home as she only needs medication. The baby needs to be admit and I kept on asking for updates and to check on my sister too on how is she doing. I know I'm mean but I really can't rely on her husband at times like these for it's what I observed every time there some situations he was nowhere of sight. Not that I am badmouthing but I just don't like how he treats my sister and all.
As of writing, the baby is on dextrose and will be under observation for 24hrs. I badly want to go home but my sister didn't let me as I can't also enter the premises of the hospital as they only required the parent to be with the baby.I kept on praying that the baby will be fine as the whole family worries a lot.
In these crucial and hard times, the family were the one's you can lean and find support to. Not just financially but emotionally. You can cry out your frustrations and simply make you their breather so that their worries would be lift and be gone a little.
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Thank you for reading!
@mommykim
Something new for me...
**July 17, 2022**
Happy Sunday Minna!!!!
Are you a keen listener or an avid reader? Mostly here in read.cash you know that most of us read a lot especially books or news. And mostly bookworms divert into audiobooks as it's more convenient than the casual book where you're flipping pages and stuff.
I'm a fan of listening to music but not audiobooks, pardon but I just love reading than listening to stories especially if it's a fiction one. I love reading that talks about the emotion of the characters in each chapter. When you only listen to it you just can't predict what the author is pertaining to it or maybe it's just my intuition that I want to just read a book rather than listen to it.
https://open.spotify.com/show/6MWunfa6H0AvLew8vu6SN0?si=ac8033c8c8344045
Earlier I saw this on my Spotify Home and it's some podcasts that I haven't got the chance to listen to as I mostly use my Spotify in listening to the music that I like and I never got to show any attention to others aside from music. But when this just pops out of nowhere I became curious because of the title, it only said small talk and there's motivation so it became an eye-catcher to me all of a sudden. Since the sisters are all working so I was tasked to do all house chores and even the cooking and tending to the kids to let the parents have their proper rest. I was just using an earphone with minimum volume enough that I can hear the kids and also hear the speaker of the said podcasts.
https://open.spotify.com/episode/7gbRTTOfx0epLbAvoVhbyR?si=dPSbfhBFQdKwASGppGgPOw
I am not a fan of podcasts, to begin with, but when I saw the duration I thought maybe I'll give it a try and listen. It will be the same when hearing preachers talk but not really focusing your eyes on the speaker in person lol!!.
In the podcast the host, Alec Cuenca shared thoughts with his guest who owns a podcast too which is The Yello Space (Yellow means happiness) and he go with the name TOL.
Their talk regarding mental health really made me listen more and more. Listening to them made me cry and to think that TOL is only twenty but he's really knowledgeable when it comes to mental awareness and their voice were really comforting.
*Find your Passion means what do you want to do even when it's gets hard,*
*even if it hurts you , even if your lazy and unmotivated,*
*you're still willing to do it, and if you find that,*
*that's your Passion.*
*Self-love requires self-forgiveness...*
*Learn to address yourself*
*Not just your mistakes but also your achievements*
*There's no deadline for forgiving and moving on*
*You are healing and you are making progress and that's one to be proud of..*
*As long as you know that you give yourself the chance to be happy then you'll be fine..*
I shared them on noise and I was just amazed even by listening I can really tell that these people really talk from experience. TOL even said that his podcast is his way of letting people tackle their emotions and express their feelings through his podcasts, they are really interactive in the comment section on their Instagram and Facebook accounts which makes the listeners more drawn into listening to their podcasts. As for me who just started listening earlier, I find it really comforting hearing their words of motivation.
https://open.spotify.com/show/3svo4FMkUVRWsmQMKzAIqr?si=80a9f5c9d13f44d1
After hearing that I look for the account of TOL and follow him, I even listen to some of his episodes and yeah the weak me really cried when he said, ( *Pahinga din minsan, tandaan mo walang ibang magbibigay nang pahinga sayo kundi ang sarili mo mismo*) Rest is inevitable to some of us as we are running out of time over this and that and we had a lot on our plate but what he said caught me as he was right, no one will give you a rest except yourself.
I am quite having a new thing to listen to aside from music, and it's this kind of podcast really soothes every listener. I also searched for Adulting by Joyce Pring. There's really a lot that you can listen to and even Slater Young and his wife has their own too and also Wil Dasovich.
That would be all for this Sunday as the baby is now awake so I need to feed her and the kids too. Enjoy the rest of the day...
Thank you for reading!
@mommykim
Am I disciplinarian or a spoiler?
**July 16, 2022**
Happy Saturday everyone, another week has gone by and it's the weekend already, also it's the half of the month and I can hear Christmas songs from small enterprises already. The other day we were purchasing some materials for the project and the enterprises that we went to was playing some bop Christmas songs, they're too excited for this coming Holiday season I guess...
Yesterday morning, as I was about to go to work so I need to wake up early to prepare since I'll be going to work from my home and it will take hours before I arrive at work and it will be less hassle to go earlier to escape morning traffic. My son who woke up after me was throwing tantrums at me about why do I need to go back to work when it was Friday already. I already told him that I need to go back to work since no one will give the workers their weekly wages and I need to get my wage for we need to pay for the electricity but he became stubborn. I am always patient when it comes to my son but Mum told me to be stern sometimes especially when my son gets like that. And whenever I am pissed I tend to say things that I needed to. And since he's just a kid I have to control it.
"Mama needs to work and we already talked about it, where's the part that you didn't understand? Go to Mamay's room and continue your sleep. I'll be back later and that's final"
There really are instances like this when my son became stubborn and I can't just tolerate it just because he's my only child or because he lacks the guidance from the father that I need to understand most of the time. I want him to grow up not to be spoiled with all the things that he wants. Yes, honestly I would say that I would give him everything I can in my power to provide but not that much that he'll think he doesn't need to work to gain it or to study hard so that there's something I can be proud of raiding him.
My sisters told me that I am too soft on my son and that whenever his cousin bullies him that I would fight my niece and scold them for bullying my son it's just childish fights but I would sometimes intervene, yeah I sometimes become protective too.
I remember the last few months he kept on telling me that he wants to go to the PlayStation but I decline he kept on pestering me but I didn't budge. He wore a scowl and even don't want to eat dinner. My parents scold him and I kept being silent because I sometimes can't handle the stubbornness that he got from me. After that dinner I talk to him,
"Mama always gives in to everything you want but not all the time all you wanted will be given to you. There are times that you also need to consider others. If I say no it doesn't mean I am prohibiting you from what you want, I was just thinking of your safety and also your cousins. Try to understand your mother for being this protective. If you don't understand me even a little I can't help with that, it only means I'm not raising you enough to be a better one who gets to understand others" (nagpapakonsensya talaga ako minsan)
After that, I only speak to him if Mum needs something and she wants my son to do it. We both know that we can't last a couple of minutes not talking so he said sorry and promised to never do it again. I also said sorry but I will never gonna tolerate such behavior in the future for it will only do no good to him.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm doing good in raising my son or am I just too careless in doing so. I know I'm still learning and I am still observing how others raise their kids but I want to apply what my parents taught us back when we were kids. I seem to apply some but I admit I can't fill the void of a father to my son I know what I'm doing is not enough but I still gave him the guidance that I know and the assistance in everything he does. I always include in my prayers not to let myself be thinking negative things when it concerns my son for I can't be wary of him. I'm praying that He'll give me a lot of courage and strength to be stern and discipline my son.
Sorry for this but my anxiety is bothering me a lot these days. I also had a severe headache when I woke up earlier and my niece has a fever that I have to take care of since I plan to let my mother rest for the weekend and my sisters are all working, I also need to take care of my son and the other kids. I hope I can survive the day, ugh
Anyways, thanks for reading!
@mommykim
Completers and with Honors....
**July 14, 2022**
*The future's looking good to me!*
*I'm ready to go, I'm ready to go, yeah.*
*The future's looking good to me!*
*I am ready as I can be, yeah, yeah.*
***Ah! It can't be helped, he'll go forward step by step and all I can do is be his all-time support system throughout his journey towards his dreams.***
This is what came to my mind as I watch my son come up to the stage to receive his completer's certificate. And also while they were singing this song. It drawns to me that my son really will start facing another journey in his life. I'm just glad that I'm present while he experienced one of the stepping stones to his dream.
The path may be rough and he might experience some setbacks and disappointments but I know amidst all of that comes the success and the achievements he'll receive in the next years to come.
The kids had an eventful day today as my son and his cousin completed their pre-school journey while the older one became with honors in their grade too. And we as parents are more than proud of what they achieved.
And because they did great in their studies we rewarded them by treating them out, and they have all the time of their world playing.
They enjoyed playing in the park, as they prefer it to play inside the mall which is really expensive and you only had limited time playing with the balls so they told us that they love playing in the children's. It's so rare to see them being dirty and all a Mum would definitely be mad because we're really with.
I am really happy with these kiddos for they really enjoyed studying and even got some awards during the even. I promised that when next year they'll be able to have it also, the awards., I'll make sure to treat them also just like them.
That would be all for today as I am really drained from the eventful day.
Thank you for reading !
@mommykim
Not my usual kind of topic but...
**July 12, 2022**
Anyone who sees the all time favorite movie "Titanic" would surely cry watching one of the most heartbreaking scenes ever. The time when Rose let's go of Jack's hand to fulfill her promise and that is to live longer. For the GenZ I know some of you hadn't known that such movie existed. I've been crying buckets every time I watched this scene for the nth time.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iv6sU9pk2Bo
***Come back, come back, come back***
Well, the scene is what's on my mind all day after seeing some clips on tiktok on how Rose did find courage to live in spite having no Jack in her life anymore and I somehow wants to connect it in my article.
This movie came to mind also as I and my co-worker were talking about standards. He said he wants a woman who have the same passion as his and also the one he can easily depend to, so I told him you should just love your Mum instead for you're still depending on her, I meant that as a joke but then he said his standard is his mom. Well, I can't argue with that as my Papz is also my standard.
Seriously, I'm at this age and all but I just didn't have the chance to meet the man with such standard personally. Not that standards matters why I'm still single, I'm single by choice and no doubt I have zero plans on upgrading my relationship status lol!!
He then ask me, if given the chance what are my standards when it comes to dating a man. Hmmmmmm. I can point on bits of it like
**Loves Music and knows how to play instruments**
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bhGIKHQUuWY
I am mostly drawn to a person who knows how to play the guitar, Kim Young-so from the band Hoppipolla is one of them. I love how he strums his guitar and you can see how is such a pro. Mostly girls are drawn to guys who strums their guitar and can even sing. I, on the other side, just love watching them pluck their finger and you can feel how much emotions they put on the music their playing.
As I am a music lover, plus points for me if we have the same taste in music, like the genres and the singer and all.
**God Fearing**
Different religion don't matter to me as I mostly believe that we are all praising One God and there is no other. I am attracted to a person who have faith and worship God making Him the center of their life.
**Family First**
Of course, as a woman, we mostly prefer a man who loves and respects his family. I go mostly to those men whom are afraid of conflicts and respects his parents especially their mothers. A good brother to his siblings and to relatives.
**Has sense of humor but also sweet**
The one who can make me laugh even in simple gestures. I don't have humor in my system so at least one of us can lift the mood and can make the atmosphere lighter hehe.
Being clingy and sweet is fine for me as I'm like that whenever I'm at ease to the person I am with.
**Knows EXO and like my bias as well**
Knows EXO at least. I once had a fling and he knows kpop but loves another group and then we ended up fighting over whose best and whose more popular and wholesome and all. So when talking about it I want someone who knows my fave at least and just support me on my obsession over KAI. lol!!!
**Bookworm**
Or even just someone who loves reading any kind of books and can connect with me over some author even the non classifies ones. I like people who loves reading and would give reviews on some books and authors that they encountered the works at least.
**Loves Harry and Dumbledore and A Hupplepuff**
I admit that if I have the chance to study at Hogwartz I would love to be in the House of Hupplepuff. I admire Gryffindor because of Harry but that House seems to be popular and prone to be a mess same with the House of Slytherin and I'm a wizard who loves silence and peace. So if my imaginary man loves to be in that House too then we surely click hehehe.
Man, if he loves Harry Potter and Dumbledore more than I do then we surely would get along well.
**Introvert/Ambivert**
I am an introvert myself but I would love to have a companion who loves being isolated and also who loves being in the crows, but not the adventurous and aggressive type.
Surely this topic made me think for like hours on how I can finish it lol!!
It's really hard when you know yourself you're not looking for the standards but you can easily pinpoint some hahaha.
Anyways, thank you for reading!
@mommykim
Monday and my son got some news!
**July 11, 2022**
My Monday started early as my sister is on night shift so I had no choice but to be the one that'll prepare the kids since they will have their practice today for their upcoming graduation. I woke up at three to prepare myself ahead and cook their breakfast and woke them up at five so that they'll be ready by six thirty. Mum kept on nagging me to just go to work and she'll do the rest in preparing the kids but I insisted since my son kept on clinging unto my shirt asking me to bathe him (imagine me being all prepared to go with my jeans on but I got wet because I bathed him and my niece..aigooo). But it's fine with me as it's only a little problem and the big smile that my son had is enough to take off the bad mood.
I went out the house at six and Papz drove me to the highway and this what welcomed us. Papz even got worried as I didn't have an umbrella with me. Well the lazy me don't wanna bring one so I just told him not to worry for my cap can save me lol!!
Traveling on my way to work goes smoothly as I get to sleep a little, the problem starts when I was about to came down the jeep. My back suddenly feel sore and I only noticed that there's a bump behind the chair and it did made my back feels the pain. I endured it until I hop on another beep on my way to the office and thought of giving it a hot compress. I bought breakfast and so far their dish taste good this time. It's not even salty unlike from the past.
The pain really continued and even my workmates noticed it and thought I had menstrual cramps, so I told him the reason why my lower back hurts and one workmate offers his set of salonpas at me and that really did help soothe the pain. Will definitely buy one for emergency purposes in case something like earlier happened again.
Whenever lunch time came, me and my co workers have three options when we eat out, it's either go to I.T park to find some food, go to country mall and eat Jollibee(this rarely happens though), and the last one is to eat siomai and lumpia. So we decided to eat siomai and lumpia for today, and whenever we're eating in lumpia we always pass this milktea shop and were always tempted to order some. Well their creme brulee and creme berry are a must try as we both love it. The owner even recognized us already and lets us sit longer in their wooden table. So the possibilities of being obese is quite higher on my side lol!!
My sister also messaged me regarding some news about the kids. I was quite shocked as I never expected it, that the kids will receive an award. Well honestly, I really am not pushing my son when in talks about his studies, I am really not strict unlike Mum. I just let my son enjoy school and do well according to his strength in mind and body.
So them being awarded as one of the performance awardees is quite a shock for me. To some parents whose kids shone academically, this might be little but to a mother like me whose really not expecting that my son would be cooperative and would join in some activities is new to me. I shared this here that my son is the type of person who most likely to be in the room like me than to engage on some other kids. I guess his classmates inspired him to be active in joining them.
Our afternoon sometimes can't be complete without us eating this (kwek-kwek & tempura) as we we're used to eating this during break time. Glad Lady Boss never complains whenever we excuse ourselves just to buy some. For the both of us, I and my co-worker, the total amount we usually pay for all it sometimes exceeds $3 for sometimes Lady Boss wants to eat some too.
That would be all that happened on my Monday, and oh additional might be, I've finished Kuruko no basket and Ao Haru ride anime and I am now downloading the one that Ropa suggested, it's Noragami. And here I thought it's only one season turns out it has two. Well, I'm kinda excited to watch it though so I just downloaded it all hehehe.
Thank you for reading and let's keep on grinding for the rest of the week.
@mommykim
Let the kids play and Sunday thoughts.
**July 10, 2022**
Sunday and I have a lot of thought while being grounded on using my phone lol..It's been a while and to think that my son's the one doing that kind of makes it more hilarious. He put it as a joke and Mum said it's fine if I don't use any gadgets, not even the laptop since I'm always exposed to those at work.
Not that grounded as I can freely use it as long as I can but the way my son was looking at me looked like he was about to nag at me for not doing what promised, that I never did. lol!!
I am not used to it, honestly speaking, seeing my child play with dirt as I seldom allow him to do so. Well, we were once kids right? and nothing seems more fun than playing with sand especially when you have toys like excavation power tools, backhoes, and payloaders.
I gave him this toy last Friday as one of his birthday gifts and he used its purpose by using it in excavating some soil and transferring it to the other side according to his satisfaction and likes. I let him play for an hour or so before instructing him to clean the toys and put it back in our room and to let him rest so that he can take a bath after cooling down as it's already hot outside when he's playing.
This big chick here was one of the toys I let my son use during days he's in the mood for playing outside or when I'm outside letting my skin bath from the sunlight.
Letting your kids get dirties by playing with sand is one thing you need to give them. It's not every day that they're kids and become playful. And seeing him enjoy playing even though it's dirty is quite a sight to behold. I also tease him to wash his clothes and Mum, as the loving guardian as she is told my son to just enjoy and don't worry about for she will wash and clean him after, it's just a joke though but these oldies sometimes take it personal lol!!.
Mum also boasted about her flowers which just boom this week only. I say Mum really has a lot of flowers that I don't even know the names of. This is just one of them and it reminds me of the flower I received from a kid way back when we were doing charities, he gave a flower similar to this and said his gratitude that we've come all the way to their town just to preach and give them joy and fun. Well, it was years and I didn't even remember when was it exactly.
And while am it on looking at her flowers my gaze went to her chillis. As I saw it, I think it's dying already seeing that the leaves were close as if they are done with being exposed to the heat most of the time and it would feel like an eternity until someone waters them. I called Mum's attention and said the chillis were dying but she just told me that they're just thirsty since it's been effin hot last week which was the opposite in the city as it drastically rains every afternoon and every night. She then told me that she'll water it constantly and for sure by next week it will come back to its normal form again.
It's like our life too, once we are more exposed to many problems like the nonstop stress and the due dates, we feel like the energy was drained out in our system and we need some replenishment. Good thing that food and time for ourselves and our loved ones make up all those drained energies and hopefully can make us motivated again to do our tasks.
And it's been a while since I am sharing bits of my life at home, especially with this squishy little princesses. Baby Alex turns one last month and she became more adorable each and every day. She becomes playful and can even shout whenever she's not enjoying something. And she can even identify colors and objects if you asked where is it or if you say a color she will point it to the specific color you said.
My son and Baby Alex become inseparable at times too especially when the baby is having tantrums, my son can easily find ways to cheer up the baby which I find really adorable, just how much he loves his cousin and would really spend his time with her, which sometimes suits for me as I can have some freedom in using my gadgets lol!!
While writing this, Mum came to our room and gave us our milk, the son has choco milk and told us to sleep after and to turn off our phone as it's stated in the news that between 12:30 to 3 am the amount of radiation that came from the solar something will likely be close to the Earth as per BBC news, I can't quite catch up on that so I am now finishing this and turning off all my gadgets. Nothing hurts than being safe right.
That's how my Sunday went and I do hope that you did enjoy your Sunday with your family and friends.
Thank you for reading!
@mommykim
Just how fast the night changes
**July 09, 2022**
*We're only getting over baby*
*And I've been thinking about you lately*
*Does it ever drive you crazy*
*Just how fast the night changes*
This has been stuck in my mind while I was looking for a perfect title for this article.
As yesterday marks the sixth year of these tiny little stretchmarks in my tummy that I am really proud to show the world, that baby comes out from my belly way back six years, and up to now reminiscing those days I can't help but smile and also in tears for I was really quite imagining how time flies so fast.
He is indeed my ball of sunshine and nurturing him and giving him all the best that I can is my ultimate goal. They say I'm really selfish for I shoo away the father of my son but it's something personal for me so even though they blame I will just take it.
It's also a blessing that this young man is too soft hearted that we sometimes argue over material things aas this little person don't want me to spend much. Days prior to his birthday he suggested that we just eat out so that we'll not tire ourselves cooking for his birthday and he just want to play in the city playground. But since I'm also a stubborn one that I insist on giving him something as he deserves it a lot.
Okay believe me he throw tantrums at me over this and after he's been crying nonstop.
***"Mommy, how can I accept this, it's too much, I'm not worthy of these gifts.Thank you so much, all I want for my birthday is to spend it all with you"***
This boy really makes my heart melt. Just how lovely he is that's hes even more practical than I am. He really is big now. The reason I'm MIA is because I fulfilled his wish to spend more time together.
Tempura and kwek kwek date with him. We also did our prayers and lit candles in honor of his birthday. He kept on saying that his birthday is already complete as I'm with him and I amo more than willing to give him all my time just to see him this happy.
***My little one,***
***You really grown a lot and now you're even stingy about me spending money, I guess I know now whom will save up between the two of us. Now you're a year older and Mama is really thankful that you have grown to be a lovely young lad. I wish you continue to be what you are right now. You're the sweetest person I ever had and I am really thankful for that. Thank you for staying healthy and not letting me worry a lot especially when I'm away with you. It hurts when I know that you're crying because you miss me and I hope I'm doing well as your mom.***
***Please be healthy always and Mama will always be with you and support you. I love you a lot my little prince.***
Hey, sorry for being MIA again. A lot has been happening and I guess I can be on track at work only for I am mostly with my son, I kept on sticking up my nose at him as what he requested whenever I'm home. I also felt that he is really in a bad mood whenever I'm in front of my phone os PC so I kept myself busy with him and helping Mum so that he will not be in a bad mood. This son of mine really knows how to make me stop working. aigooo
Thank you for reading and I hope you're having a great weekend like I am
@mommykim
What I love about our team
**July 07, 2022**
https://blog.vantagecircle.com/content/images/2020/08/teamwork-quotes.png
In a team there's always a leader, and yeah you know the minions too. They are always in sync in various situations. When the other can't do it's job the other one will do it as per back up plan, the result would be good if the team are united.
As tomorrow would be the opening of the project that we're working on so all of us, most of the time we're the one's purchasing the materials needed for the project. Going here and there, calling merchants by merchants to buy materials and other needed things just to finish the said project.
Earlier, as most days, I was alone here in the office while the Boss and the Architect needs to go to some showroom looking for some delicate materials. While they're out I've been attentive on my phone since Lady Boss often calls to monitor the messenger where are he headed and what's the materials he's purchasing.
Telecommunications is really a big help in most of our job as we can easily connect with each other and can also surpass minor problems if we do communicate constantly.
Like for example earlier, Lady Boss told me to search stores selling certain materials and the messenger is on the other street doing some task that the Boss assigned to him. After calling the store I call Boss and told him the price and then she told me to call the messenger and instruct him to buy this and that and will refund him in the office as they're still in some showroom. So I became again the bridge of the supplier and the messenger. I also often call the warehouse regarding the pull in materials and also the permit and the driver so when Lady Boss asked me regarding those things I can easily give her all the information needed to dissipate.
Since they're buying some materials,I help them disembark those and put in the office so the delivery will pick up later as they're on the graveyard schedule.
Less hassle as we kept on communicating every time there's concern so we can assess it to avoid delays on the tasks.
As of writing, it's already 12:16am but we're still communicating with the personnel in charge on site due to some delays with the delivery, the heavy rain also caused the delay. Good thing the driver didn't back out amidst the weather situation and even willing to stay up until morning in case he's needed.
Truly nothing beats a team that is united. The work may be hard but the people works harder.
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This is just an impromptu as I was busy earlier with the massive material requests and querries so apologies if I've been delayed in reading your articles. Rest assured that I will read them all hehe
Thank you for reading!
My Anime List
**July 06, 2022**
You may think it's a Kdrama but sorry man , I got bored with it and switch on something refreshing.
I admit I'm a fan of BL stories that I even get to be addicted with some Cdramas and Thai dramas featuring BL stuffs, not the lewd one, and they're quite good but I also stop watching dramas with an hour streak.
In fact I am more into anime these past few months or did it start at last year? hmm? I can't even remember now.
As most of my virtual friends here knows, I'm a manga/manwha reader and I can read a whole series with 300 chapters in one sitting, yes that's how fascinated I am when it comes to webtoon reading. I also love watching anime and these days I kinda hook again with Haikyuu huhuhu. I really can't stop watching them.Even my tiktok posts are full of anime and webtoon topics to which I am more curious to read out.
Now, screw Kdramas and Cdramas or even Thai, let me tell you the anime and manga's I am more fond of watching and reading. I will share this to you in case you got interested to read or watch. I will not force you though for we have different hobbies to kill time or to smack boredom.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N0xR3IUrF44
*****Haikyuu***** ---If we interact in noise you might see me posting about my merch of this certain anime. "Haikyuu" is one of the best sports related anime I ever watched. And i kept on watching loops with them playing in the nationals and I am itching for the next season on when will it happen. I want to see Karasuno Vs. Nekoma and how will Hinata and Kenma's friendship go after that. I am actually reading the manwha version of this but I am still on the first season as I am caught up with a lot of stories to read. I actually have a bunch of shirts bought that screams me fangirling over them uwu uwu.. yeah EXO is life but anime binge watching is happiness for me also.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9l9I1a1OKok
*****Kuroko no Basket***** --to some this might be a boring kind of series but it really is a wonderful series for me, although I haven't finish the last season but I really love the plot. I watch basketball tournaments way before like the real one and I also watch "Slam dunk" because of Rukawa. Now this one was quite a catch for me since it's really surreal yet I was glued to watching it. I did just stop since I'm currently busy and also reading manwha to snatch time. I also love the bonding of Kagami and Kuroko here and also the rest of the team. I planned to continue watching it before I start watching One Piece again and I hope I won't be addicted to this like what happened to me in Haikyuu.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J9PbBgyyqcc
*****Given***** --- This series really did bring tears to me and regarding this song. At first this look like a bop song but no it's not. It's a sad song actually and it's talks about the story of the one who they lost.
*Just like the shade of snow*
*That hasn't completely melted*
*I carry on with these feelings inside me*
*Hey, with what words*
*Should I close the door of this love*
Given the first stanza of the song you can easily tell that the person is suffering from being guilty and he's blaming himself for the loss of a love one. He shut other people out and won't even share that he's also suffering.
*Your everything has lost its eternal tomorrow*
*And now it's wandering around eternally*
*Along with me*
*Who was unable to say goodbye or move on from you*
How can you move on from a person whom is your life and really did spent all his years with you? Leaving that easily is a seriously grounded for emotional stand back.
I really cried hearing Mafuyu sing that song as if he's putting his heart on the song that he created. I might watch this again but the stage performance though.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1fcXlPb41G4
*****Spy x Family***** -- oh you wouldn't want to miss this amazing family of them. I bet you'll be laughing like idiots if you watch this especially Anya being soooo kawaiiiiiiii. I love their team and the way Anya can read mind, her mother is an assassin and her father is a spy but they are a prim and proper kind from a royal family publicly much added to the comedy hhhhhaha...Meet the Forger Household when you watch this. And, not to spoil you much but you'll definitely would want to wait for it's season two heheheeheh.
The one's on my list are:
Eighty Six
One Piece
Super Lovers
AOT SS2
My Dress Up Darling
The Royal Tutor
Ao Haru Ride and a lot more...it keeps adding up since there's a lot new one's coming hehheehehehehehe
That's it for now for I am really planning to share to you the manwhas I'm reading but I guess I will make it in the next article as I am quite sleepy already..
Thank you for reading!
@mommykim
The me during my college days.
**July 05, 2022**
**You can't please everybody**
This is always my mantra whenever someone would tell that I am indifferent over other people. I can't blend on any other people as I get overwhelmed quickly. I stay behind and observe, it's what I always do. My personality before up to present still the same maybe a little improvement but not that much.
Before I don't like to be called "***introvert***" as it I thought I am not like not. I know I lack social skills and I rarely smile or nod at other people and I prefer to stay indoor but it doesn't mean I don't want friends. That's what some colleague thought way back and I only learned it now. It's like that word is a slap to my face way back college so I tried hard to interact with them but it seems like it's not enough though.
I've read Mareng Zhyne's article about her college days and it coincidentally, my college mate messaged me and asking how am I doing these past days. I was surprised for they rarely message me. Not that I'm not active in the meet ups with the alumni but it's just plain too awkward for me though. They're not the kind of people that'll judge you base on your status but it really irks me sometimes thinking that they're bachelors while I'm a nobody as I didn't even get to graduate associate because of being the hard headed one. During the enrollment for the second semester, instead of going to school I went to the company my sister's working at and applied and was hired on the spot lol!! https://read.cash/@Zhyne06/remembering-friendship-5246c608
Way back college days, I can say I am really aloof and don't want to talk to my classmate except compulsory like group project and all. It even added that I am working part time during the day and studying at night for I enrolled in the night department. I got anxieties when I was selected as the class treasurer, their reason is because I have field and expertise with it as my family was running an eatery business that time. I am really not confident though but I accepted it as I need to cooperate with the whole section.
I found out from my classmates whom I talked earlier over the phone that they we're really intimidated at me at first. huh? intimidated ? by who, me? Well I am an ordinary student trying to pass paper works on deadlines and would sometimes slack off even though I need to maintain a certain grade lol!! So I don't get where were the getting at me being an intimidated person.
" We can only took a stolen shots of you and hid it for you might dislike us"
Okay, I'm not into social media even though I have acct. I only made it since I need to pass my project using my facebook account. After that submission I neglected using facebook/friendster. I don't even use my phone much unlike when I was in high school. The reason is I have no time to waste using my phone because I have work and I also need to help Mum in the store.
And also why would they be intimidated by me? I'm a boyish type and I don't wear skirts except necessary. I wear backpacks and not shoulder bags, I don't put foundation and always carry a big towel with me hehehe
This was during our acquaintance party and I was assign for the foods, I even request Mum to cook some dish for me alongside ordering in fast food chain. I vaguely remember this moment but I guess I got hungry after the program that I become a werewolf eating human eating fish and eating meat..kidding...
This is me during a program that we need to comply for a certain subject and everyone needs to show their talent. I was challenge by this as it's an impromptu for me. As in I didn't know that we we're scheduled to present that day and I didn't even bring extra shirts and all as I am still working on my part time. When I arrived at school my classmates dress me(the upper part only) as it's Friday that time so it's a rebel/wash day.As I can't think of anything so I just sang. Just imagine singing the song "Hahanapin ko" by Aegis. I almost lost my breath during the ending part on that song.
And this was when they requested me to post for a group picture. It was during the field demo and the School Sports day. Mind you I only joined because it's compulsory hahaha. I don't want minus points so I ended joining the whole section . This happen freshmen years and I was even selected to be one of the representatives to join the main dancer on stage hahah lame. (Mga panahong size 23 palang waistline ko hahaha)
Admit it you also experienced zoning out and ended knocked down on a boring Literature class. I hated that subject and also the SocSci that I sometime doze off. My classmates even have some photos of mine being like this hahahah. I actually don't take pictures as it feels awkward and suffocating. Well, I guess they do find their ways hahaha.
You can tell that I was really awkward during this even(Christmas Party) at first as I was forced to join the girls to do some activities. And because I hate being called an introvert so I slip my way in and join the girls with the contest. hahahaha I didn't even utter a word during this time and my classmates just nudge me to go on hahah.
And boom, see that smile? that 's what you call a genuine smile when you're literally enjoying the activities and you are with the people you've grown accustomed to even though you rarely talks heheh.
My classmate saying they're intimidated of me maybe because I don't talk and just go on with the subject and the projects and so on. I was too focused on something that I forgot I also have classmates who wants to bond with me.
Thank you for reading!
The kids have fever and so as Mum
**July 04, 2022**
Olah!!!
I've been away for two days straight not just here but also in noise. I can't even hold my phone the moment I arrived home.
Saturday morning, Mum ask what time will I come home and I told her I'm gonna be heading late afternoon since we need to go on site to check and help with the cleaning since were short on labor and it needs to be open the next day for the orientation of the employees.
Mum then told me to buy some medicines on my way home since my son and my niece have fever. Thinking that my son was sick can really crumple my focus at everything. Yes, you might call me a weak person but when it comes to the concerns of my family I am really not handling it well. My family may see me strong but it's quite the opposite though. I just don't want to worry them that's why I'm keeping it to myself. hehehe
My Boss don't even want to let me come home as we need to fasten the pace of the cleaning but I just can't. My son rarely caught fever as they are complete with vitamins and Mum even control their foods so that the eat healthily. But when the kids got sick, expect it to be worst. Kids who can't control their sickness and also not used of being weak, so expect it to be a little hard especially to the one's taking care of them. Mum said I need to hurry for my son kept on crying while calling my name. Imagine me being away and need to escape work so that I can tend to my son. But as usual, Cebu is widely known for the heavy traffic especially now. So I had to travel almost five hours just to able to get home.
Also, didn't forget to buy their medicines. And since my niece is older than my son so I need to buy different set of fever medicines for them. I also need to take some vitamins for me not to get infected since I need to work Monday.
The moment I arrived home, welcomes a son with swollen eyes from crying, slowly walking and told me " Mama lantan ko" (Ma, I have fever). Gently carrying him and ask him everything just to soothe his feelings. Had to commend Papz for doing everything since my son won't let go of me. He needs to do the cooking and the washing of dishes since Mum needs to take care of my niece too.
One of the reason why I can't even hold my phone or even open my pad is that my son gets too emotional and murmur that he's sick yet I'm distracted over other things(conscience!!!!) So I neglect my phone and tend my son and also the niece. We take turns on watching over them.
My sons fever gone in and instant and come back again. I need to wake up ever other hour when he wants to drink water, to puke, to drink medicine. Even checking his temperature. The pedea is out and we'll be back Tuesday so we need to wait and let them take their fever medicines obediently.
Sunday evening, when my son's fever went down and we had a normal talk, (when he's fever surge, he just want cuddles and no talking as he's tired). So I told him to not come to school if ever his body can't take it. But the stubborn man just wants to go to school as they will be practicing for the graduation. The patience in me was down to 50% already but I just told him that if he can take it then have his Tita assist them and Papz would pick them after the practice but if ever his body can't take it that's when he needs to go home immediately, to which he agreed too.
Earlier at work, the teacher messaged me asking if my son has fever,so I told her it's already mild now for before I traveled to work I checked his temperature and it's gone back to normal already. She told me that my son even danced during practiced but he got teary eyed so she wondered if he's sick. And she even suggest me to just let my son practice the song at home to avoid inconvenience. Glad the kids have a very kind teacher.
Then she sent me the link to which I forwarded to the family's GC so that they can download it at home.
Then afternoon came and I ask Mum about the kids and she told me that my son was fine now but my niece wasn't still and she needs to be check up for her fever hasn't gone down.
The worst is Mum also caught the fever. To which I worry as Mum is way worse when she get sick. I take after Mum, we rarely caught fever but when we do it will go for days or even weeks and we're really weak on those span of days. So knowing that Mum has fever adds to my worries that even now I want to come home and tend to her.
The weather nowadays really can affect out bodies. My Boss suffered from it too and even now her colds are still present and she's taking medications of it. The kids and now Mum. I don't know what to do when it comes to this situation that I am away from them. My worry overpower everything and prayers is all I can do to help them. I even told Papz to cook veggies and to cook Mum and the kids some porridge just so they can regain their health especially Mum.
I even voice out that I don't want this kind of situation on Friday which is the birthday of my son. I want everyone to be well healed already and I kept on praying for that too.
As of writing, Mum already took her medicine and now sleeping. Papz kept me updated for me not to worry not knowing whats happening at home. I really wanted to cry right now but it will not help heal the members of the family so I better kept this to myself for now. lol!!
Better take your vitamins as the weather is really unpredictable these past few days. And to mother's out there whom their kids also had caught fever, I hope they get well soon too. Get well soon to those who we're caught up with these seasonal flu and I hope the family is always there to comfort you.
Thank you for reading!
@mommykim
What might happen this month?
**July 01, 2022**
It's still the first day of the month but I am really exhausted from work and from walking for the day.
I didn't know that the first day of the month would be full of me complaining and not even laughing secretly. I was totally worn out so expect this article to be messy.
I was tasked with a lot of work today since we need to go to site and even though I am still at the office I'm already worn out.
But even though I am really tired today I just wanna write as to start off the month with me having an article.
First week of the month is also the week with a lot of due dates, lol!! Internet, Spotify are first on the list for I already give up paying on Netflix but haven't got the time to watch anything from it. Only Spotify remains for now as I am always using it and it's really useful for me especially when I'm at work since it has no ads and all and it's really convenient to use. Hands up to those using Spotify like me, defend me on this, kay? hehehe
While this week is the first set of bills to pay, next week would be the special day of my little prince. He's way too excited as we opted to eat out and it would be the first time that we'll celebrate his birthday with just the family alone.
On his past birthdays, a lot of kids would gather for his birthday party but seems like he doesn't like that one. Does being introvert gets passed on? Since my son doesn't like crowded places too. Or is it just my imagination for he is somehow getting along with his classmates. My niece Amber who happens to be my sons classmate even told me that a lot we're having a crush on him, kawaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii...I want five grandchildren ohoooooooooooo...Okay quit that I'm just kidding, I only want two as I don't want to stress my son about it teheeeeee.
So back to it, since he's quite excited for it I kind of worry about the budget. Well, eating out is a lot costly than having a mini party at home. I guess I need to confirm this with him at home.
It's also the start of the nine days novena in honor of his upcoming birthday. Do you also do this, doing nine days novena prior to your birthday? Mum's been passing this unto us. When I started learning how to pray the rosary she told me to have novena in honor of my patron nine days before my birthday. Even though I don't quite understand anything about it I just followed her instructions and I've been doing it every birthdays and up until now that I already have a son. Since my son only knew a little about the The Lord's prayer , I mostly did all the praying and he just sit and observe.
Oh, one thing I am proud of my son is he's the one leading our night prayers. Well, it's only the both of us so he's quite at ease saying his prayers. And you know kids when they pray, it's usually about things and situations that their little mind can reach. Like praying for the internet to be stable so that he can watch his favorite videos online, or even pray to have some ice creams and to ask God to give him a full mark on their assessment. Yes that's his prayer every once in a while.
Mum told me to just cook his favorite food, I might actually suggest this too. But the problem is I don't know how to cook *scratch head* well aside from the garlic shrimp, I know nothing about yummy dishes. I only know how to eat a lot mweheheheh. I plan to take a leave for his birthday landed on a weekday and birthdays only happen once in a month so I really reserve my leave for his birthday. And now I am quite troubled.
A week after his birthday, is also their recognition day. So my son's gonna come up on stage and also my niece. All of my work paid off as my son is graduating and will wear his Graduation Toga, I am way beyond words.. That would be the sentence a mother will tell when their children finishes college and already having a degree. But my son is only graduating in preschool so expect to hear that speech decade from now ...*heheheheehehe*.
What bothers me is that their recognition landed also on a weekday and I only got a chance to file a leave once a month. I don't think Lady Boss will agree at me having leave on consecutive weeks, no? But I really want to see my son in one of his stepping stone moments. huuuuhuhhu welp I need miracle to do the impossible.
Also, it's Papz birth month too. Yes, both men in the house have the same birth month.
Papz is a simple minded person and a man of few words. He don't want extravagant things from us his children. He always says that having to look out for out even up to this day is enough for him. But we're not just gonna lay down and do nothing. I want to buy him something that he can use everyday (toothbrush? ) kidding....When it comes to jewelry, I am not good with that for I am also not wearing fancy things. My sister is expert with that. When it comes to baking and cooking, I suck at that also for I am only an eater not maker. Papz like salty food so I guess I'll give him Pink salt? lol!!What am I even thinking? this is the effect of that much walking during the day aigoooo..
Well, a little simple for the man who lives simply and worry about us a lot and always our companion. I will definitely also prepare for that day.
And it's a wrap, I need to hop on my bed already but my feet we're aching. I can't take a bath too so I just wash up my face and arms..ugh...now I need to hang this feet of mine in order for it not to ache more tomorrow.
Thank you for reading!
@mommykim
The odds of my own faith..
**June 30, 2022**
What are the odds of your faith?
They say your faith decides in what you will gain in some aspects of life. Neither you will believe that it was destined or it was by pure luck.
Your faith sometimes may crumble over certain incidents that would make you question God why? Those challenges that you thought was not meant for you as you were a keen and obedient follower yet you were given a trial that you certainly think you'll fail. Is that so?
Is there such thing as miracles? Many believe that miracle only exist on books like fables and myth. Let me ask you this? Does it ever occur to you that some miracles did happen to your life without you noticing or you're just too dumb to notice because you only believe in mere coincidence? Or simply maybe because you're thinking that having a reason to think that miracle exist is lame and childish.
This came to me upon watching a movie "Heaven is for real" way back 2014.Some of you might have watched it already. It talks about miracles, on how the son of a pastor survive a near death experience and told that he saw heaven and experienced being there with the angels. The father didn't believe at first, but a lot has changed with the son and even he can't decipher that all the fear the boy have before were all gone and he became weird in the eyes of everyone. He even told his mother that he saw her sister that his parents hadn't got the chance to give a name to(the mother experienced miscarriage before)
If you ask me if I believe in miracles it would be vague to believe that I don't at first. I was full of hatred even though I grow up from a loving family. And also the first mere reason that I became silent and meek at people, is because I was tainted. Funny it may seem but it really does happen in reality that someone you trust and go accustomed to might be the one who'll break you. No one knows, only HIM.
I lost trust, I isolated myself, I became weird, my faith vanished. Got in a relationship but having no faith on it and it failed after years for I got no trust left with me.
Year 2014, I joined a community to know if my faith still hiding in the darkness alongside my past or did it develop into whole hatred all those times. I masked my face with an aloof smile and connect with the people in the community. I want to bring back the fire in me, that fire that burns in my soul and want to shout and surrender the pain that I've been keeping all those years. Aloof, but I managed myself to get along well with other members. I worship and say my prayers but there still something in me that I want to let go but I don't know how, it's like it's waiting on something. And I thought maybe I would believe in miracle if I get to let this certain feeling that was entangled with me go.
And when I was about to give up on searching that's when I received it, a miracle that I never thought I would believed and received. I received a miracle in me and made me regain my faith. Not an event, not an accident, but ****a simple message from a stranger**** **.**
I did say that it's a stranger for were nowhere near friends even acquainted with each other. We me during an event and somewhat ended sitting in one table as we both have the same common friend. I only met him that night and I never got to see him after until now. The organizer hands out some notes with pen and gave us a challenge, " tell a stranger a message", then we get to write something and send it to a stranger. I only put one sentence as I was pre occupied with some other things that time but I did participate. I gave the note to a kid, a sixteen year old girl I saw when I was taking my food.
Then this stranger whose in the same table with me hands me a paper, he surely looks like a bystander at first look but the message he gave to me was something different.
" It's a miracle that we get to meet at this place and glad it happened. You're getting by, just hang in there and know that God really do the impossible in our lives. Turning us into a new leaf and creating a room for us to shout and tell everything that we want. Learn to let go and let God "
It's a common phrases a believer would tell a disheartened person. I guess it's clearly shown in my face the lack of sincerity and hope.
Ever since then, I made a promise to be honest. Honest to myself and not letting every thing He had created in me gone. I learn to accept that the past can't be change but the future belongs to you alone and it's up to you on how you deal with it. Disappointments will still come and go and your faith may be shaken again.
"**I will ever leave you nor forsake you**" is what He promise in Hebrews 13:5 and up until today I still holds that promise.
This takes me back to that day of the event. I was literally crying when I returned home. I kept thanking the heavens for that wonderful soul of a stranger that has touched my heart and made me reach out to Him again.
This is a random thought that happened to me. I was just working with my files while listening to some song then it pops up on my mind and for me to be able to not forget it, I wrote it this instant in the middle of my work, lol! My apologies for slacking off for a couple of minutes.
If you know someone who you think might need encouragement for he/she lost hope on something, try to give them a tap on the back reassure them that it'll be all okay.
And to you reading this, there will be days where you are not motivated, that you are tired , that you lost trust on people and their words. But know that you are doing well my dears. The world offer you convenience but God will always give you peace and love.
Take time to rest but never give up.
Thank you for reading.
@mommykim
Nature brings healing internally.
**June 28, 2022**
Yamite! Can't hold it anymore and my son's big day is literally next week, and their graduations on the next week after that also...
Waaaaaaaahhhh, staaaahppppppp
If only I can really do stop the clock would definitely do it just to make my son be as a kid like he is now, the very bubbly leech and koala I ever had in my life. He sticks like a glue and I definitely am enjoying every bits of it. I wouldn't waste my time being with him so I make sure to make him feel loved everyday.
I was worried earlier as Mum sent me a picture of my niece being sick and then here comes my son sulking for he dream of me and he was literally asking Mum to make me come home. If only I am allowed to I would probably be running back home but work requires my focus so I can't waver for I need to work too. Also his birthday is fast approaching and even though I can't give him a birthday grande like other kids do, I still want to give him all I can in my power to make his birthday one of the favorite memories he can tugged down on his memory lane.
Amidst being downcast of me not going home, he became cheerful when talking about his upcoming birthday and also their preschool graduation. Surely the kids are quite excited on wearing their cute little togas. I was also struggling for I only got one day leave every for a month and the schedule of the birthday and the graduation are different. Eottokiiiii??
But it' s not my topic, I was actually messing with my brain for some minor problems came up in the nook of the evening where people might actually be sleeping , yet we're facing such problems at work. The Lady Boss is also sick and I can't bother her further in order for her to get better the soonest. So many happenings and my fingers is still tapping the keyboard and my mind were finding words to put up an article. Guess I was really accustomed in making an article during midnight and have some tea break for fifteen minutes and go back to writing again. A usual habit that I need to control of for I am not that young anymore to be so stubborn regarding my health.
I can't signify the part of nature that I favored of. My personality, as everyone knows, is plainly look ,appreciate and then we're good. I do appreciate things and I do praise and give comments but after it, the thought that I actually admire something was long forgotten as I am a person whom you can't be trusted when it comes to memorizing or remembering a certain kind of person and all.
I don't remember how it started but I do remember when it did stop.
My outlook regarding nature change when the pandemic came and plants and veggies are far more important than talking to your family . Take Mum as an example for she always forgot us when she's facing her plants.
The best part regarding nature is it can truly make you go through healing process. A breath of fresh air, seeing different color aside from black and white. Being with nature gets you excited as you get to see the growth it happen deep inside you, that you became attached to it that you don't want to let go.
I am a person who loves reading and flipping the rough pages of a book. Nature also became my confidante. Being under lock down before made me enjoy reading while looking at the trees that surrounds me.
Mums plants makes me smile in the morning. You know when there are plants that you were patiently waiting on when will it bloom or will it produce flower but when the moment the it shows, you'll extremely lost your words for minute. This flower bloomed a few weeks ago but I only saw it last week. It's because I rarely go home and when I go home I am usually in my room with my books.
As I said, I am not into plants even before but I do appreciate it the more Mum kept having new on our front yard.
Being in the province,you surely are surrounded with a lot of big trees and some stray plants that you discover and ended up taking care of him though.
My usual spot during the weekends is the swing or the hammock. There, I can really see the leave dancing in her own pace.
My fave part is when nature can really surpass whatever suffering I am right now. I believe in myself but I also do believe that what suffering you are dealing, be it be big or small you should learn to apologize , in a good way.
That would be all for tonight as I am actually busy, I wonder if I can make it up to you in the next few days and also I am exhausted..
Thank you for reading!
@mommykim
The one's that keeps me going..
**June 27, 2022**
Three/two more days stretch and we're going to start the second half of the year. Funny how we kept saying that time really flies when obviously we've been too busy that the we couldn't keep up with the pace.
And next month surely is the most challenging for me lol!! A lot will happen in the month of July and I just need to ready myself and my wallet with that sadt(:
People comes knocking unto your life to teach you a lesson and also to make you experience how is it to have someone who loves and adores you. There are also people who will hurt you and let's you feel that love sometimes hurt and you need to endure it as you need to stand up on your own gaining these bruises alongside the lessons you gained from such experiences.
Over the past years, there are a lot of people that come in to my life and there are some who just passed by to say they exist and that you shouldn't cling unto them for their existence in your life is just temporary. Amidst of it, you surely laugh and giggle over their silly jokes, you cry as you we're saddened with their passing , you jump with joy over someones milestone. Such feelings will come at you when you have the people you truly love and adore.
**Family**
Their the first on the list as they're my lifeline and my rock. Each one of them played a significant part of the present me. Our parents guiding us up to this day that were already mature and independent but still they want to be of great help and us calling them for aide is their happiness. The sisters whose been my confidantes, my real BFF's then and now and our young ones who gives more fun, excitement and happiness in the house. This family of ours is never perfect, we have a lot of flaws, we argue sometimes but we never let the day pass without reconciling. Some may judge us the way we live but we don't care.
For this family, I will surely do everything I can to protect their smiles and their hearts.
**Friends**
Her and my virtual friends here are also included as they're one of the reason why I am still here grinding and continue doing what I love aside from the work I am currently at.
My BFF never irritates me with things that she know would cause me stress. She's the only person that can make me go out of my comfort zone and would stop me from reading books. Were opposite, as she's the type who loves talking to people and would love to chitchat for hours, while I prefer being in my room stuck in my bed with headset on and holding my book. She means a lot to me as she's the only person aside from my family who thinks I am normal and sane, lol! My family also love her as she's the bubbly type of a a woman.
My Read cash and noise cash friends, you, yes you, the ones reading this, also means the most to me as you're the one whose been a great company. You never judge me every time I share my rants about life and how they seem to be ruling unfairly over some lowley people like me. You share your thoughts and somewhat I get the feeling that it's not me who only experience such but you also. Thank you for being my companion here and in noise. Let's stay close for life.
**Colleagues**
Working becomes lighter when you have co workers who always cheer you up. These people were the ones I bond with when I became a staff in the company I am currently working at. They made me feel that working is not easy but as long as we have coffee and there's someone we can really talk to, then it would be fine.
We may not be working with the other two anymore but our communication is still constant. We often plan on meeting up but always get cancelled as our schedules clashed. I am always hoping that one day we get to bond again just like the old times.
I am always thankful for them as they made my expertise in my field of work becomes awesome as they let's me discover some things just by looking at what their working.
In life, nothing gets better than having someone whom you can easily call in times of need or someone who relies unto your understanding in life. You may not be a perfect person but know that your friends, your family, and your colleague , see you as a person they can really rely on. So cheer up and say that I am blessed to have such people around me, I am really thankful for them coming into my life.
Thank you for reading!
@mommykim
The item was given by a Priest.
**June 26, 2022**
Treasure,
You might not know it but someone treasures you and want you all by themselves. There's someone out there willing to risk everything just to give you everything you need without wanting something in return. But as most people or those bitter ones says that there's no freer in this world, even the little things have its price.
Also, a treasure is some materials given or bought and it means everything to you, old or new, it has sentimental value that no one can replace even in the memory. A ring, a bracelet, a handkerchief, or even a necklace and other material things that are somewhat worth keeping for.
Why am I mentioning the word "treasure"?
It's the continuation of the 30DoG challenge.
When it comes to items I had a lot in mind, from the very first thing Mum gave to me or the one that my first love gave to me to celebrate our first weeksary (shooooooooooookt) or the first things my classmates, my colleagues, my friends gave to me.
But the item I treasure and is with me still up to this day is this.
My first Bible(Cebuano), was given to me by a priest 20 years ago.
Our barangay always held an event every month of May after the town fiesta, they organize the "Flores de Mayo" for kids aged 5-12 years old. I and my cousins were called to attend the event as it was all open for all the residents in the barangay, and even Mum agreed to let me attend it. We have Saturday sessions on Praying the Rosary and singing the Ave Maria song and other songs and praises for Mama Mary.
The activities lasted all the Saturdays of the month of May.
On the last day of the event, all the Parish priests and nuns came all the way to watch us sing and dance to some songs in honor of Mama Mary, we even recite prayers and poems dedicated to the mother of our Savior as a thanksgiving.
The priests were then told to give something to a kid that inspires them, and I was chosen as one of the recipients, I remember the name of the priest was Fr. Gummalion or we sometimes call him Fr. Gums. He gave me this Bible as he said I was so obedient and even memorize the prayers and also lead in praying the Holy Rosary(well I'm a thick face before lol!).
As you can see, the Holy Bible was full of dents and signs of many years that came by we're visible on it. This Bible has been with me for quite a long time until I bought my very first English Bible (NABRE)
Oh, you might misunderstand but I'm not who you think I am. I am not a believer before, I only join and became consistent as I was inspired by my cousins and other kids whose doing their best, in short, I'm a competitive kid before. My faith started to bloom when I reached High School and College. This Bible was a witness to my pain and happiness.
Whenever I am doubtful about some decision at an early age, like having to choose what club will I be joining, or should I join such competition, this Bible is my companion in making those decisions. Not that I am opening and reading its contents all the time but I am merely holding onto it. Holding and just letting my thoughts ponder on it. Looking and it and not opening it. Then after a while, I would return it to the shelves and sleep with peace of mind and having my final choice and what to do the next day.
This still remains even after how many years. Well, guess whose hair are these? It's my son's. As my Mum really believe in the old superstitious belief so she cut some of my son's hair and put it on the book that was present and always with me the longest. And up to now, his hair is still there, lying between the pages of the Bible. I told Mum that I'll be removing the hair and putting it on some of my old books instead.
This book was long forgotten as I am used to opening the English Bible nowadays and even the Bible app on my phone. This old one also has holes in it and the culprit was the termites living in our old room before. I was late in noticing it as I was not around the house when I was renting some rooms near work before.
There are a lot of items that I really treasure ever since but this one truly holds a special place in my heart as this was my ever companion in times when I am doubting the world and myself. I consider this as my confider that's why I am still keeping it with me although I can't read some as they we're all eaten. And I am also thankful to that Priest for he gave me something to rely on.
That would be all for this challenge..
Thank you for reading!
@mommykim
Stubbornness made me sleep without eating.
**June 25, 2022**
Home finally...
My friends and family who's been my company for a long time know I hate carrying things. I don't care if it's heavy or light but I prefer it in my backpack or sling bag rather than holding it in my hands. I don't use an umbrella as I prefer using a cap or hoodie jacket, my phone is in the corner pocket of the bag I'm using. Small or big but I just don't like holding things outside or traveling.
So when Papz picked me up earlier he giggled and I got confused, but he didn't answer me not until I got home. Mum and even Granny whose in the house was shookt, lol! Like what? Then Mum saw me holding a big eco bag with my books in it. So that's it, it's me carrying something in my hand. I need to bring my books since I need to cover them with a plastic cover, aside from the Warcross doulogy that already has a plastic cover in it, so Granny can start reading them. My backpack was in my room and I am using a sling bag so I had no choice but to carry them in my hand ugh...I guess I was branded lazy carrying something since the parents and even Granny were quite amused with what they saw, lol!
I also remember one time when the fruits in the yard were harvested and my parents wants me to bring those to work so that the Bosses can taste them. And since they knew I hate it so they put it on a backpack and let me carry it. Imagine putting two Guyabanos and a kilo of guavas in a backpack. I look like a camel with a bump on the back. Lady Boss even laughs at me and ask just how lazy I am to carry things in my hand. Well, that's me actually.
Oh, and I was a little disappointed earlier and become stubborn with Mum and Papz.
I arrived at three in the afternoon so Mum advise me not to take a bath because I was out under the sun while traveling so I just need to wipe my body and then change rather than take a bath. After changing I went out of the room again and was welcomed by the beaming and loving son. We cuddled and hug, and I called Mum and invite her to eat with me and Papz, but she just told me to eat on my own as they were all done eating their lunch. It's understandable as it was really three in the afternoon already, and also Mum just finished washing the clothes and only had the time to rest after taking a bath. So I just told her to stay with me in the kitchen while eating but she refused as she was tired from washing clothes and Papz have something to tend to.
So the stubborn me "tsk" and I went to my room. I was pissed and all. I am also tired from the early work and the travel yet I didn't want to show it to them as I only can bond with them during weekends, and the only thing I want is to eat with them as I've been eating alone in the office the whole week, give me a break from eating alone.
My son went to my room and just stay there and ask me if maybe we can just take a nap together. Even though I'm hungry as I didn't eat breakfast earlier but the hard-headed me don't want to go out so I just took a nap with my son and not minding the people and even Granny outside. The tiredness got me and I knocked down the moment I lay down on our bed. I didn't even notice that Mum went to our room to put the books on the table and even turn on the electric fan.
We woke up at six and the other sister had already gone to work while my older sister already arrived and all. Granny didn't even talk to me afraid that I'm still pissed from earlier. The kids just went to me to greet me in the evening and bless me.
I went to Mum and said sorry about earlier, maybe the tiredness and the hunger got to me that I got pissed. Papz even smile and said it's fine for they understand my side. He even told me that he kept on calling my name earlier but I guess I was so damn tired that sleep overpowers me and all.
I know some of you might judge me for my behavior earlier but oh well no one can understand a person who just wants a companion when eating as I often eat alone in the office to the point that I sometimes don't take dinner just so I can't feel the loneliness and the longing of the family I eat with at home.
That would be a round-up of the happenings on my side as I am not in the mood to do the challenge again. I am really lazy these past few days that I can't even finish a book per day. Before I can read two books in one sitting if I a more focused and really into it. Guess I need to exercise concentrate again and meditate also.
Thank you for reading up here.
@mommykim
Friday Thoughts and still not going home :(
**June 24, 2022**
I am missing home already
And I might even complain with the long hours traveling from work going home. And the nausea would definitely be activated when I sit on the bus and would suffer for hours and would definitely spit once I arrived home.
After dinner, we would've a ramen session with the sisters and the non stop chat with Mum and Dad, the silly games and scolding with the niece, can't miss the giggles of Baby Alex echoing in the living room with Papz.
By this hour I ought to be snuggling with my son on our little bed after saying our prayers and thanks, I would probably asking my son how was school and what did he learn from the activities they did, or if he behave like a good kid or did he do silly things again.
I remember last week when I begin to ask questions he seems quite excited, when I asked him if he behave like a good kid he proudly said "No Mama" . Taken aback, I asked him what did he do that made him so excited to answer me. And the series of words from my five-year old son brought me to tears not because I am sad but because I'm laughing so hard I cried. I didn't shared it even once for I don't want to indulge in the feeling that my son might be an uke but I just can't stop laughing at this.
The conversation goes from his answer
*" Mum, a girl named Kristine whose undeniably taller than me kissed my arm, yeah so kissed my arm Mum yeah(he's going at it like five times) so I asked her why did she kissed my arm and Mum she just told me that I smell like Silka papaya soap, so I snort at her and tell her 'you got em wrong because it's not Silka but Kojic"*
*"Oh, so you really did climb your way just to use my soap when Mamay got you your own soap"*
*"Mum, I'm sorry I just love your smell and I thought I would smell you if I use your soap, but Kristine told me I'm gay because I am using Kojic which was commonly use by ladies but Mum I just rolled my eyes at her"*
*"Oh son, boys don't do rolling in the eyes they do the "show em your fist" sign*
*'Oh is that so? let's wait till Monday and I'll definitely do that'*
I was just laughing hard and every time I feel like sharing this to my parents my laughter would just cut off the story telling.
I should be going home today since it's Friday but there were some delays with the work that I need to tend to for no one will do and I was tasked to just wait and continue tomorrow morning before heading out. Since there's nothing I can do about it so I just nod and will definitely go home tomorrow morning after my job's done.
I also did experience a very bad palpitation the other day so I was quite nervous, my workmate didn't even helped but worsen it since he scared me to hell when he told me that some paints(two gallons that are so expensive myghaad) were stolen just outside the office. I thought it through and through but no unfamiliar face came to the office so who might have stolen the paints. I might be the one that will take the charges if the paints were really stolen but when Lady Boss interrupts that's when they told us that "Issaprank" wth, I almost got a heart attack. I even called the supplier asking if the messenger took back the paints with him, imagine me questioning the loyalty of the supplier not even knowing that it's all just a prank. aigooooooo, these workmate will receive an earful from me tomorrow. He got me on that.
I am also not in the mood on doing the 30days challenge since my monthly visitor came and my mood shifts from time to time lol! But I read Expelliarmus article about those ten things thingy so I might do mine too.
With your daily life at home, at work, at school you had these certain things you always do or use that made them your companion with the busking and the grinding. I also have mine at work and that would be:
****Music****
Like most of us here, listening to some songs, trendy or the old folk, definitely is one of our daily habit.
You tapping your fingers or a little stomp and sway with the head, not to mention the head bang and finger click whenever your enjoying the song over your earphones.
Nowadays I am listening to some random songs, a friend asked me what the new worship songs added to the list in the music ministry so I suggested him some but for me I am more hooked to Tauren Wells "Hills and Valleys" that was released year 2017. I was in love with the lyrics with the songs actually.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p4rRCjrAyCs
*When I'm standing on the mountain, I didn't get there on my own*
*When I'm walking through the valley I know I am not alone*
*You're God of the hills and valleys*
This got me thinking that even though I sometimes neglected and failed but He never leaved me and continued to walk with me.
****Books****
Reading a book sometimes makes me shutdown all the things especially the scrolling on social medias or watching tiktok videos and even using my phone or PC. Reading takes off my mind from the world.
To some, reading is a boring hobby and if they themself would read, they'd be knocked out on the first chapter already, it's because it is out of their style. But to me, flipping pages by pages, give me thrilling emotions and happiness.
****Coffee****
Indulging myself with the aroma is haven. Yes I did said it myself that I need to control my caffeine intake ever since I experienced a severe palpitation the other night but I am really weak when it comes to coffee. You see I can forget being single and other things for coffee. I found the love for me, darling just dive right in and follow my lead, okay that was a song my apologies. Coffee really can make my day so I guess the controlling part will take place next time or next life.
****Food****
Food is life and at work,lunch is the most important one that you take heavy meal. Rice should be in the table so that I can appreciate the effort of treating me food. I don't mind the body figure for I just love eating, not junkfoods, but reall meal with lots of rice. Eating really can take away the stress for like five minutes as you indulge yourself in eating. Say hi to my 60kgs self lol!!
Those we're my companions at work, while at home I got a lot on my plate so I opted to just do the work thingy..
What about you? What and who accompanies you at work?
Shoutout to gagiiii @LucyStephanie for the love ...
Anyways thanks for reading guys !
@mommykim
The Books arrived that gives me delight..
**June 23, 2022**
Hello Readers,
I am a fan of reading and collecting books, evidence is my mini library at home. Flipping pages while being enticed with the story gives me leap of joy that I can't even explain. Horror and suspense aside, I love most genres with action but not the bloody kind of thing. I also love books who gives me insights of the life of the character and how the author view the personality of the readers depending on how focused they are on it.
I once shared here that the first book I got was "The Alchemist" by Paulo Coelho and it was given to me by a librarian during my freshmen year in high school.
The first book that I purchased was the book "Just Friends" by Dyan Sheldon followed by "Going to far" of Jennifer Echols that let me believe that there still chance of a change in life and love, I bought them both at National Bookstore. Then the purchasing continues. The most expensive set of books that I had purchased would be the Shadowhunter series and the Harry Potter series.
I also read digital copies but for me nothing beats reading an actual book. It's a dream since I was a kid that one day I will own tens and more books in the future and now as of writing I still want to purchase more if budget permits.
This week I receive five books that I ordered thru Shopee and since Granny's spending her time reading books and she somewhat loves inspirational that's why I purchase these books(aside from the warcross duology) for her to read.
So let me take you to the sypnosis of each book that I purchased. The first that arrived Tuesday and I was more than happy for it arrived when I am at the office.
The Atomic Habits, Notes to Self, and the Daily Stoic was the first to arrive. I will just bring these at home for my cover ws at home.
Breaking bad routines into good one would simply describes this book. My apologies if I'm not good at explaining regarding a book and where ad what pages I'm into
Now the last set of books arrive earlier an I loved them both.
I already this book many times but I love to have my own copy sa I little by little ayun.
The seller even put a note in the bubble wrap. Telling me to take care of the youngest as she value it a lot.
When I first read the Warcross, I was amazed to let the other worry and drops me off when the questing
Wildcard is the contination of the characters. Then I printed some stickers that I cant put in the cover of the book so that the readrs woul love.
All in all I am really satisfied with the books online and offline. Mum will find away so that the books will have it's warmth the same with Mum.
Thank you for reading!
How people look at me to how my family look at me.
**June 22, 2022**
As a the youngest in the family, I was given lots of love and attention but not much as what my eldest sister receive. As Mum always said that she give love to us in different ways but she's sure that she's treated as the same and equal.
Today is the birthday of our eldest but she's working on graveyard shift so we planned to just celebrate her birthday this Saturday. I just sent her a voice message with me singing the famous mañanita song "De colores" , of course with the help of Youtube that I get to learn the tune and the lyrics. And as I am the kind of person whose very "lambing" to all of them, I also made some "pabebe" voice lol!! Well, it makes the birthday girl giggle so I can really do that just to make her laugh.
She received the message during her breaktime at one and since I'm still not sleepy so we chat for a bit and I even pissed her a little for I kept insisting that I want to hear wedding bells already as she is really old gosh, but she just told me that she'll become a nun, well, a nun don't wear shorts publicly so she had minus 10,000 in heaven already lol!!!
We just kept on laughing on chat until she told me that her break time is finished and we bid goodbye and goodnight.
You might say what's the connection of the title. Well, as the youngest, I am the most clingy member of the family, the eldest is the loudest and the strict, the second is the corrector and the referee, and me as the small voice but the messy one.
At home, our parents put up rules that until now we kept on obeying especially the "no bad words/curse allowed". Some of the babies here know already about that especially baby gerl expert for she's the one I always correct whenever she said some bad words.
At home I was known as the lovely daughter, the silent type but would engage in talking if necessary. The one who always calls Mum even though I don't have something to say. And if I can't resist I would just lie down between her and Papz and just close my eyes even though I'm not sleeping. That's how I am.
Outside/At work, I was known as the strict one, I remember one of the applicants collapse when she's the one next in line for the interview. When she was sobered up and it's her turn I asked her why he passed out, she just told me because she was afraid and nervous at the same time because it was me who'll be asking her questions. I guess my face says a lot for I don't smile often before.
Most of the employees thought I am a terror one, when I am distributing the salaries I just roll call them to give them their wages and ask if they have complaints.
But, to my cousin, whom I respected a lot ever since a kid, I look weak and being easy to manipulate.
Just earlier, this cousin of mine messaged me regarding the electric bill as we need to pay it so that they don't disconnect out electricity.Then I thought to myself, "huh?" and she said that we didn't pay on time so we need to pay for the penalty. And I need to be the only one paying the penalty.
A quick history about why she's asking about our payment.
The one who applied for the meter was Papz before but since we are living separately already so the electric meter remains at the old house while we are using the submeter. So the cousin was asking for the payment due and the penalty.
She's always doing this to me, without informing Papz, she message me directly. When I receive this message I was in the middle of answering a call regarding work, after the call I called Papz and ask him regarding it but Papz got pissed and told me to just focus on my work and he'll ask the cousin. So i just ignored it and continue with my work as I was kinda busy earlier.
Then out of nowhere she sent me this, saying Papz told her not to bother me as I am working.
Honestly, I already gave Papz the payment for our share in electricity days after the reading. I only found out today the Granny borrowed the money for her medication.
I shared here that Papz passed out while working so I forbid him and let's him stop working, so he can't replace the money that was allotted for the electric bill, but all in all, they didn't told me beforehand for they thought they could find ways to replace it.
Money will never gonna be the issue for me as long as I can provide it.
So by what happened, I just told Papz thru phone call that I will pay it this Saturday. Papz was ashamed I know but they didn't use the money just because they want to , Granny borrowed it for her meds so who am I to be selfish right. I told him to just give it to Granny and I'll find ways to pay it.
The conversation continued,Papz then said,
"Maong anha siya mo chat sa imoha , kay kahibaw man siyang di jud ka moreklamo, sige ra man ka paubos."
It means my cousin directly contacted for she know I don't complain and just follow what was told.
This made me realize how weak I am in the eyes of my cousin, if she thought of me this way how much more those other relatives right? or other people. I'm not saying that my cousins are like that but it just a thought I come up with.
The truth is I want to complain and ask her on why was she's asking me something trivial when she can really go to our house directly as we are neighbors. I want to confront her and would suggest that I will take back the electric meter as it was Papz that applied for it. I am not a good person she thinks I am. But still I respect her and fighting over small matters is a waste of time for me.
People change so I may look weak to her but let's say if my claws sharp already and the fangs tip is well grind. I may have the last laugh, no?
I actually want to continue with the remaining challenges but my mind don't cooperate with me.
Thank you for reading!
@mommykim
The thoughts I had when I can't sleep
**June 21, 2022**
12:30am
*Still wide awake, can't even sleep or even take a little nap.*
*The trip earlier made my body nauseous*
*I want to spit something to relieve it but nothing comes out*
*Or maybe I am not used to going out there and do it*
*Writing this while listening to some acoustic covers on my phone*
*I was in the verge of tears earlier*
*Most of the articles I read earlier shared how they are in love with the creations*
*Of the Almighty God, or on how they love to see heaven*
*I was clouded with a lot of thoughts and I can't seem to gasp my emotions*
*I feel like I was in a lukewarm situation*
*Where I was moved and I opted to do something*
*But the tiredness my body and mind felt overwhelms me the most*
*I want to escape this situation and just come running home*
*To the warrior at home that would gladly welcomes me in his cute embrace*
*The week is still young but I am longing home already*
*Am I greedy or has time gone slowly on my side?*
I was just tired for I had a little rough day today. I and the Boss needs to personally go out and buy the materials needed for the project for the driver had something to attend to that we had no choice but to do it.
Being in a hardware, my nostrils were filled with the mix scent of the dirt and the cement and all those materials that had stronger smells. I need to endure it for like an hour since we need to fall in line to get the materials we ordered.
Going on stores and doing the same routine made my head aches and I forgot to bring my water bottle. The last stop, the boss decided to buy some snacks that we can eat at the office, but when we arrived the siopao we ordered was three but the server only put two in the paper bag, aigoooooo. And since I felt shit from the trip I didn't eat and decide to just let them eat it.
I was planning to skip for the day since my head hurts. I'm already lying down but my body just has mind on his own that it doesn't want to rest and so I just decide to just write while waiting for my body to relax and maybe I can sleep a little later.
**A challenge I'm grateful for**
Everyday at work is a challenge for me especially I need to work away from my son, the longing I had to endure to provide him is tormenting but bearable.
I am just grateful that even though I take my work as a challenge it's still the source that gives me the chance to provide him with what he needs and to also help the family with the daily needs. These kind of challenge I have maybe is just a piece of cake for others, but for a person who longs her son the most this is the hardest for me especially when I can't be in my son's side whenever he needs a mom to comfort him.
**A compliment that made me feel good**
Being told "strong" by other people warms my heart and made me smile. It's not everyday that you receive such kind of compliments from people who knows just 5% about you and yet can frankly say that to your face that you are strong really can put a smile on your face.
**The best gift I ever received**
This needs to be specific this time, because when it comes to material things I could say the bible that I am using now was the best gift I ever received, it was given to me by my facilitator in the community I am serving at.
When it comes to other aside material things I can say, the best gift I received it my life and my son. I am grateful that I was able to experience life and get to enjoy memories with the family and friends. I was also glad to have a son that I can say the one that change me to be a better me in the future.
As I read expertwritter's article earlier, I can say that I don't want to experience hell, but I also thought that I am not doing good deeds and I'm a sinful person and I really did think high of myself for thinking that I will sure be in heaven without thinking of how a big an faithful sinner I am since then till now. It made me question myself if I am worthy to be on the other side. I close my eyes, thoughts of my family being happy clouded my imagination and then opened my eyes to see the darkness around the hall. Ugh I'm really am tired.
Thank you also for the renewal of sponsorship from these people, I just generalize it for you all had renewed this week hehe
Thank you for reading!
@mommykim
@mommykim
