@micahlord 19 November 2020

It took one night for me to realize I wanted you forever

Hello stranger, It took one night. Just one for me to realize I want you forever. Sure, the situation was a crappy one to say the least. You were working and I was forced to be there. I was caught off guard by how powerful your presence was. Thus putting on my armour. You were so kind and gentle to me, I wish I returned the same warmth you’ve provided for me. Every logical explanation fails to explain why I could be possibly feeling this way towards a stranger. All I know is you had a profound effect on me, and I will cherish that forever. I’ve dated tons of men, but you have stayed in my heart despite the cold empty year that’s passed by as we never got a chance to cross paths again. I know you felt the same. I saw the surprise in your eyes, and how you puffed out your chest. I wish you knew I was only acting out of fear and shame. I was such a mess, and you saw all of it. But even then, the warmth in your eyes grew as I admitted I was part of this huge mess. I felt something I never truly felt and accepted for once in my life which was: unconditional love. I know, I know; I could just be a delusional fool. For some reason though, I get the feeling you’re feeling the same. I’m intimidated by all the power you were emulating and specifically the power you had over me. I wish I stared into your eyes longer, or had the courage to say something when you tried to prompt me. You acted all big and tough when you saw I put on a cold exterior, But once your guard was down—your real self care out: the soft, kind and pure soul that you are within this world of dark souls. I know how much you had to offer. But I just don’t feel good enough for you. I know how much you already know about me, and yet you still come back.