@mhel_dita 18 July 2022

Struggle of a first time mom Yes it is, struggle is real😁 I know it is hard to be a mom, what more if you're a first time mom. Although we have an idea to be a mom, it still different when you are already on the actual situation. The first time I embrace/ touched my child there is a different kind of happiness that I felt, the moment that she was put over my chest after I delivered her. Since I delivered my daughter on a public hospital and the covid pandemic is not yet over, visitor/ assistant/watcher is not allowed inside the hospital. I have to move on my own and take good care of my little one despite of the pain that I still felt. The first time she cried and I need to feed her with my breastmilk, (since formula milk is not allowed,) I doesn't know how I will be able to fed her since my nipples are inverted and it is hard for her to suck it since her lips is too small during that time. I feel rattled since she keep on crying coz she was not able to drink my breastmilk. Im glad that one of the patient who was my room mate on the recovery room gave some tips and advice (since she already have 2 kids) on how to do it and told me that do not stress myself since I will learn everything eventually. Since I am the youngest, I do not have any experience in taking care of child especially babies. Its really hard for me when my baby is crying especially when I aready checked all the possible reason why she cried but she still kept on crying , I felt of crying too 😂. Being a mom made me paranoid, everything that I felt as unusual that concern my baby, I will ask for some advice or idea to other mom and to my relative who is a RN or search tru google or youtube so that I will be guided or I will have the idea if it is normal or not. I remember what the head nurse in the hospital told us on the recovery room, "there is no manual for being a mom". Yes it is, we will learn it eventually but there are times that I wish that there is so that we will be able to understand easily what our baby needs. My journey of motherhood just started and I have still a loooong journey to lifetime. Having this angel gave me happiness despite of all the sleepness night and paranoa. As what other say enjoy this moment since time flies to fast.

Being a mom is a responsibility that we will carry until the rest of our lives....