@lonestranger 24 March 2022 edited more from that month

A Bothering Admiration It's been years, I think. She fell with someone who didn't like her back. So for tonight, I am publishing an original free writing confession of a girl who's dear to me. Her simple admiration turned bothersome at the end. Hi crushED! Cringeee! Never mind, as long as I can let all this feelings out. Err. I'm just like a Mayon volcano who wants to errupt because of this extremely irritating admiration of mine. L, I know that we're classmates. Obviously! Since grade 8, I already admired you. Want to know why? Well, we were close at first. Close or I was just assuming? Close enough to treat each other as a good classmate. Honestly, I found you 'baduy' in our school uniform compared with those in Wattpad who are so cool by just wearing it. You looked so formal most especially when you keep your breast out while walking. That turned me off, like I hate that part of you. I don't know but you were already like that in our 7th grade. Why on earth that's the only time I noticed it? Err, I'm insane. But in fairness, you're so virtuously helpful. Everybody knows that since you didn't even hesitate once on helping them whenever they needed it. From the looks of it, I think you're the most helpful student in your class before. Hahaha! That's one of my beautiful reasons why I admire you. There was a time then when I was the only one outside sweeping the dried leaves because no one has dared to. But there were you who came out and helped me finish it. Remember? When the class went to the Science laboratory because Ma'am B instructed us to arrange our fermented vinegar? I even looked crazy that time because my partner and I had the difficulty in performing it. My hands got sticky with the mixture of coconut's water, sugar, and yeast but I just didn't mind. Our classmates kept on nag-uunahan that's why I let them all finish first. Like hello? The equipments are all expensive so I was afraid of even breaking the tiniest one. Makabayad pa lang ko. Minutes after, I was left alone with Ma'am B since everyone has gone already and my partner as well was cleaning the area where we conducted the experiment. I looked very haggard that time even though the morning was still fresh. That's why I was really shocked when someone asked me, "Are you fine A?". Turned out it's youu, and I nodded to answer your question. I immediately wrote our names in a 1/4 sheet of paper to indicate that we own the fermented vinegar. After that, I thought you already left but you didn't. You've waited for real! So I had no choice but to head back with you. Honestly! I didn't understand that time what I'm feeling. 'Twas just like my heart beats very fast and my stomach was up to something unexplainable. And it was so awkward! None of us dared to talk making the atmosphere as quiet as the dawn. Thus, I ran without a second thought and without telling you as well. I wonder what you were thinking after that. Hahaha! What's funnier is that I think I can't move on. Hahaha! And you know what's worse? I engaged myself in social media because of you. Yes! A lot of people told me before to make a Facebook account because they find me too outdated in the virtual world. Duh. As if I care about some baloney updates in there. I don't like internet. Even if I'm already a high school student, television was the only thing that made me really happy and entertained. Just like a kiddo. Watching TV, then sleeping so early was my lifestyle. How simple right? However, I realized that we can do chitchats on messenger. So I asked my strict Ate to make me a Facebook account and also teach me how to. And guess what, you're the first person I added! (Huhu damak jud kay ko sa una gais pasensya na. HAHAHA) It's too long already. Continuation toms guys! ***Share some of your thoughts. Comment below.*** ps. lead image not mine Owe you big time!