The First Time I Fall In Love
Like a typical love story, we also start with these two famous word "hi" and "hello". Until such time that we both added phrases such as "good morning", "good afternoon", "goodnight", "sleep well" and questions like "how are you?", "what are you doing?", "done breakfast?", etc. And we cannot also deny the fact that we came to the point that sentences and phrases became paragraphs and these paragraphs turned into an open ending stories where both of us create a wonderful memories.
From our long deep conversation in chat it turns into reality when you asked me for a date. But honestly, I've got nervous reading your invitation, I don't exactly know what to feel but as I got nervous I also felt the excitement to see you knowing the fact that we never meet in person. Looking at your profile pictures and personal background, you're that kind of person who's really hard to impress, I just don't know how we became friends and how our conversation gets longer and deeper. I also don't know what will happen if we'll going to meet. I don't know if you still going to talk to me or you just walk away seeing this simple unadorable girl who can't reach your high standard status in life. Though nervousness eaten my mind, I still agree for the meet up cause since then it is my dream also to talk and see you in person.
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"Raine"
Sitting on the chair in front of a table, I was shock when someone's call my name from my back. As I look for that person who own that voice, it was my surprise because the man who call my name slowly wave his hand looking at my direction, its just so weird because his physical appearance totally different from the profile picture I saw on his account. I don't know what I am going to do now but honestly I got totally disappointed. Expectation vs. reality go round in my mind at this moment. I just can't believe how picture filters turn his face to a very handsome young looking man. He was totally different in person. Tsk. However, as a sign of respect, I wave him back as he wave his hand towards me. After that waving moment, he started walking near me. He look so giggled and excited to see me but I felt the other way around. His lips curved so wide as he smile genuinely while I, can't imagine how I look at this moment knowing the fact that I got totally disgusted. As he came closer to me I stand to greet him but it was a great embarrassment for me when I realized that I'm not the person his referring and waving too. It was the girl on the next table and yes I got so embarrass. I immediately whisper in the wind saying "heaven and earth please eat me now". I don't know how to cover this mess but yeah, they were seating in front of me now. I'm thinking what they thought about me at this moment, maybe in their conversation and in silence they were laughing out loud. "That was so shameful Raine, you're so assuming. Tsk" saying those words, I sit again and covered myself with a paper in front of me. Acting like nothings happened.
"Raine"
Again someone's call my name in a more gentle manner. And since I don't trust myself anymore from recognizing people who calls my name, I continue to covered myself with a paper and act like I don't hear anything. Until someone tap my shoulder and said "sorry I'm late". As I look to that person, I got stuck for a moment because he look so cute and unarguably he has a very pleasing appearance which can truly capture anyone's eyes. I got so dumb, like I can't say anything til the guy on the other table (the one who call my name earlier) speak and says "troy here, you're on the wrong table". "ow! sorry miss, I thought your Raine. Sorry" -the cute guy said. Still, I can't say anything instead I just nod and he walks on the other table. "Hayst! Why on Earth my mother gave me a very popular name. Tsk." -I whisper again and sigh.
"Excuse me miss?" my nerves jump as I heard a very beautiful and manly voice beside me.
"Yes?" I said as I look to him
"you've been seating here for how many hours, can I get your order now maam?" he said
Because of humiliation seating here for how many hours, I just ordered a small size can juice and a light snacks while waiting for him. Of course, I got totally disappointed with all the things happening to me now. I already finished drinking and eating all I've ordered but still he's not around. Until I decided to go home and realized how I waste my time and embarrass myself on that mini restaurant.
While walking, a car stop beside me. And since, I've heard different news before that there's a car which used to abduct vulnerable persons especially women and children. I ran so fast as someone's try to open the door of that car. As I ran and ran and ran, the car continuously followed me. Now I ran crying, I know in myself I can't ran anymore coz my feet is already aching. As I stop, I saw a guy in front of that car, looking at me, smiling. Now, I got ashamed again but this time I felt so happy as I recognized his face. Mix emotions killing my whole system all the way coz the man I've been waiting for is now standing in front of me.
Fast forward. We park his car and decided to walk together. Walking while talking I discovered more about him. Now I know he's really a rich guy but chose to be an ordinary one. He has a car but he only wear short and loose shirt. He's not also fond of eating in an expensive restaurant, he prefer street foods rather than expensive desserts. Also he explain why he was too late to arrive because he said that his father call him to attend a certain meeting for their business. Hence, instead of getting angry or grudge him I don't know but I got so inlove with him.
As we continue walking and talking, I felt so lucky having this kind of guy beside me. He erased all the embarrassing moment I've done earlier and I really feel safe with him. My heart beats faster as he said "you know what Raine? You're the first and the only person I've willingly done all this things. Even you don't ask for an appointment, I always give time for you". I felt like there's a bomb in my face and ready to fire any moment. "why me?"- I ask, "I also don't know Raine but my mind and my heart says its you I want to be with" -he responded. I totally got weak til he pulled me closer to him and hug me tightly. "I love you Raine" he said and as I reply .........
I've heard a very familiar voice coming towards me, saying "Raiiiiiiinnnneeee..... you sleep on the table again. How many times I've told you its not good to sleep on that kind of position. Keep all your things, go to your bed and sleep. Stop writing, just continue that tomorrow." Its my mother voice again. My mother never fails to interrupt me everytime I had a wonderful dream. Tsk. But its a good thing also because I was able to escape in all the shameful moment I'd undergone in that dream.
While putting back all my things in order, I saw my notebook where I wrote my stories. And I figure out that I only wrote two paragraphs today. It only means that my story continued in my dreams and in silence, I laugh so hard, knowing how my imagination eat my whole system that even in my dream it follows me.
Now I just feel so sad realizing that THE FIRST TIME I FALL INLOVE is just a product of my imagination and THE MAN I TRULY LOVE was only exist in my dreams and through my notebook and pen. Sad Reality is that I fall inlove with the character I written on my stories nonetheless PERFECT GUY ONLY MEANS PERFECT IMAGINATION.
Lying in my bed, I closed my eyes and says "You're just a dream I impossibly have. How I wish you're real but you're not."
Philophobia
FIRST MEETING FOR THE UPCOMING ALUMNI HOMECOMING
While waiting for the meeting to start. I am seating on the corner specifically on the last row beside the window where I am used to sit before. Everything was changed but my memories here remained. Now I can't help myself but to reminisce all those memories. I can still remember the main reason why I always sit here is because, this is the only place where I got a chance to glance on someone. Since I don't have any friend in this school, that someone's presence became enough for me to find a reason to enter in my class everyday. Thus, he became my inspiration in my entire college life.
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One day because of a seminar conducted in school. I was able to be with him and luckily he became my partner in one of our activity. Hence, from that moment we became friends and from a simple glance before, now we're both enjoying each others company. Til the next thing I knew we became so close together that even after that seminar, we're still communicating and talking about each other's life. Imagining all our conversations, personal nor chat or text, it seems that we became so comfortable with each other. Time also came that he ask me to go on travel and since his my only friend, I agree. Right after school we consume the rest of our 1hour going to different places near the school. And since we talk more often, I was able to know him deeply. His totally a real opposite of mine knowing that he's a friendly guy, an approachable one and has a big group in school while I, I only have him as my friend. However, our differences made me so attached with him. I was used to be on his side everyday suchlike I want to see him and be with him every hour and every minute. However, I was so scared that maybe I used to be in this set-up and time will come that everything will fade away.
One day, one of his friend told me
"You're shane right?"
"Yes, why do u know me?"
"Rence always talk about you. We're just waiting for him to introduce you to us"
"Why does he need to introduce me?"
"For us to know his girlfriend"
"Girlfriend? We're just friends"
"Really? So the proposal was not yet done?"
"Proposal?"
"Yeah. At the field, OhMy just go there, okay? And please just act like you're shock and don't tell him that I told you about his plan"
Afterward, his friend ran away and like what he said, I went to the field. I saw a lot of people and at the center, I saw Rence holding a microphone and a flower on his other hand. As he saw me, he announce my name and before he came closer to me, I ran so fast without looking back on him.
When I assured that I lost in his sight. I found myself crying and I can't help myself but to utter words in the wind saying"Sorry Rence but I can't love you"
After that moment I decided to avoid him. Everytime I saw him around, I hide so that he can't see me. All his chats, calls and texts were disregarded. Without stating my reason I totally disappeared in his sight.
Unfortunately one time, in my cousin's birthday celebration we saw each other again and we also got the chance to talk together but the only conversation I can't forget is when he asked me: "Shane why did you disappear like a bubble? Are you hiding on me? Shane why did you change? Why did you lost without any explanations? Without any reason? Shane I miss you, I miss you a lot, but why you leave me?"
Without looking directly on his eyes I said "I'm not the right person to be with you Rence"
"But why Shane? You treat me like someone's special. You give motives, you care a lot, you became my shoulder everytime I feel sad. Now you just lost in my sight? Shane I love you and I mean it. I know you love me too but why this happening to us? Why Shane? Why you're hiding?"
"If I can only ask you a favor to keep that feelings and wait for me until I found myself, I will do. But this time I'm not certain with what I feel so I just wanna say sorry Rence. I know you deserve someone better than me" - my only response and ran away again
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Turning back my consciousness, I saw many people going inside the classroom and like a snap the meeting started. Actually I'm not the real representative of our batch, I just intentionally volunteered myself to attend on this meeting for one reason and luckily all my batchmates are busy, so without any second thought they agreed to put me in this position. Admittedly, my presence here is not genuinely intended for the meeting itself but my main reason for attending here is to see someone from the past coz now I'm certain I'm ready to be with him forever. Whatever it takes, I want to be with him, I will admit what I really felt for him.
After the meeting, I searched for him but I felt upset when I haven't seen him. My mind says maybe because he go home as soon as the meeting was done. Or maybe this is not really the right time for us to see each other again
"Hey, are you looking for me?" - he said out of the blue
"Oh you're here." - I said
"So you're really looking for me? Did you miss me?" - he said like a joke
I wanna say yes but I said "of course not, why would I?" and I smiled vividly
Conversations got longer until.....
"How are you? For sure you have a boyfriend now?" - he asked
"Nahhhh I'm still single, how about you?" - returning the question
Ring. Ring. Ring.
His phone rang and as he answered the call. There, he was able to avoid my question. But right after the call
"Who is it?" I asked referring to the one who called him
"My fiancee saying I should go home early" his response
"Really? You have fiancee now?" my shocked statement
"Yes Shane. We're planning for our wedding soon" calmly he said
"But Rence, I still love you" I told him with so much pain
"You love me? Since then Shane? I never heard that word from you" he said out loud
"Since the day I met you Rence, I'VE LOVE YOU. The day I told you to wait for me until I found myself, I mean it Rence. I should not say 'I MEANT IT' coz until now, I mean it Rence. Because the time I told you those words, I'm suffering from PHILOPHOBIA -the fear of being love and the fear of being emotionally attached. The reason why I disappeared like a bubbles because I was too scared that maybe I fall deeply inlove with you that I forget myself. The day I told you that you deserve someone's better honestly I felt so painful those times, knowing how much I love you but I'm so afraid that soon you'll leave me too. Rence I really love you its just that, the time I'm with you I'm suffering from a philophobia too. If you only knew that hiding you is so hard. Avoiding you is like killing my life. Seeing you with other girls torn my heart. But now that I learn to fight my phobia, I'm ready to be with you now. So please Rence, lets just be together. Promise I won't leave you anymore. Promise, I won't be scared anymore. Promise I'm ready for whatever consequences I'll face for this. Rence please choose me again this time please"
"Sorry Shane, its too late now. I will lie if I said I don't love you coz I really love you and yes I mean it too. But I had a promise to my fiancee Shane, you know me, I don't like breaking promises. I know how painful it is lossing the one you really love, so I don't want my fiancee to feel the same. I'm so sorry, I know you deserve someone's better than me."
"Rence? Don't we really have a chance to become together? Rence please. Rence I really-really love you"
He just waved his head which simbolizes "NO" and he said "I truly love you but I can't be with you" and then he was lost like a bubble and I remained crying in this place where I used to glance on him before.
"I THOUGHT WE'RE MEANT TO BE, BUT HAPPY ENDING IS NOT FOR ME"
My ghoster babe
In the role players world
Where fake feelings and lies unfurled.
The residence of the man I met online
The one that I have been chatting everytime.
He was sweet like a honey
He's always there to complete my day.
We both decided to create a lot of sweet memories, for only him and I
Right there in the electronic sky.
I love his anime port and his unique name
But I hate his frivolous ghosting game.
I'm happy to have him in my hideout
I'm falling for him— that's what I have found out.
I also love the chat that we had
Rpw was not that really bad.
And I felt that I'm being stab with a knife when he told me that he need space
What's the matter with you, my ace?
From that day, he started to 'seen' my chat and to decline my call
Do you think it's cool?
You even change your name
But I don't care this time and I promise that you can't fool me again.
Then one day, you message me a simple 'hi'
I just read it and let it pass by.
I'm already tired with your sweet lies, my ghoster man
You didn't deserve my love because you are not the one.
My Husband Is A Loyal Man
I woke up lying in a hospital bed. I wonder how I got here. Then I remembered I was in my car when a truck hit it.
I even remembered the truck crashed into a coffee shop.
My tummy hurts, then a thought came into my mind. My baby, my baby, I hope my baby survived.
I'm 3 weeks pregnant. I was on my way to meet my husband when I got into this car accident.
My husband suddenly entered the room, he looks like he's really worried.
I was about to hug him when my body just passed through his.
"What's this? What's happening? Am I a ghost now?" I asked but nobody answered.
The doctor came to deliver the news to my husband.
"Are you Mr. Vanz Michael Trevero?" The doctor asked
"Yes, doc. How is Reighn?" He asked.
"I'm sorry to tell you this but she's in a state of coma right now and the baby didn't survived. I'm sorry for your loss" the doctor replied.
I can see that my husband is in shock right now. Me too.
I don't know how to process this. It's too much.
A year has passed and I'm still in a coma. My husband, Vanz rarely visits me.
I can't get out of this hospital. Everytime I try there's a barrier that's preventing me from getting out.
I'm still mourning for my baby until now. Vanz entered my room he looks nervous, he's about to cry.
He hold my hand and keep on saying "I'm sorry I have to do this Reighn, I'm sorry love" and then he remove my oxygen mask.
I felt my body is getting weaker and weaker until I heard the sound of the machine.
I'm dead.
Vanz went out of my room and I followed him.
He entered another room and there I saw him hugged a woman.
"I did it honey, I finally did it for our baby" he said then he carried a newborn child.
My tears started to fall rapidly. He did it for them.
"Vanz, I didn't know that killing me would make you and your mistress really happy" I whispered in his ears before I vanished.
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Vanz is indeed a loyal man. A loyal man to his mistress.
The Cursed Lady Of Athens
In the midst of chaos in Mount Olympus, roaring of the drums and clinking swords were absorbing the corners of arena.
Immortals were on a total chaos. No one can stop it, even--
A big roar of thunder occupied Mount Olympus and in just an instance, everything was back into normal.
No one dared to create a noise as the big doors of the arena opens widely. Some gasp when they saw whose entering in. The primordial deities, titans, and titanesses were dressed by their long white satin textile with some flashy gold accessories on it. They're walking towards the throne leaded by Achlys, Chronos, and Coeus.
Their faces are all in awe.
Zeus stood up from his throne before bowing to the elders. Hera, besid him, did the same. Immortals and mortals bowed for the elderly.
"What is happening? Why are you all here?" Hera was already clueless.
The elderly won't visit Mount Olympus if it isn't important.
"This must be really important huh," Hera looked at Zeus, waiting for his response. But he just run his fingers through his hair.
Zeus crane his neck and bit his lower lip. He just nodded as a response to the elders. In instance, Chronos already understands what he means.
Achlys glance at their back after forming a circle around the large goblet. It has carvings that depicting the purpose of this goblet. Coeus raised his hand and a smoke rose from the goblet. A scene where a mortal is giving birth to a baby.
"The immortal born on the mortal's womb was already delivered her birth," said Chronos while watching the scene.
The baby has a perfect features just like the goddesses. She was already dress on a lavender satin. Her loud cries are soft like the lyres played by Apollo.
"As she promise, the baby will be named as Althaia," he paused and stared Zeus, "and will be one of your wifes as what the prophecy said."
Some immortals gasp.
Zeus didn't give a response like he already knew it. Hera, on the contrary, was dumbfounded. It took seconds before she reacts.
"What?" she hysterically said while looking at Chronos then she stared at Zeus.
"You heard it right Hera," it was Achlys this time who spoke, now flicking her hands. Blue smokes and bubbles are starting to form a certain shape.
"We, the primordial deities, titans, and titanesses, will be giving Althaia blessings but she will barely receive it not until she'll turn 18 years old," the elders started flicking their fingers and hands.
The immortals were shocked. It's the first time that the elders are giving blessings to a certain immortal. Althaia must be really special that even Achlys gives her an attention.
Zeus was just calmly staring the scene. Memorizing the features of the baby, Althaia. He secretly flick his hands to do the same as the elders.
Meanwhile, Hera saw what he did. Giving her a reason to hate Althaia. Jealousy runs all over her body. She clench her fist in anger while staring the baby.
In the midst of this ritual, the commotion on the House of Stavros at Athens made the maids busy. The hollo of the women giving birth and the baby's cry filled the four corners of the room.
The House of Stavros was really grateful for the first born of the family. Lord Nikolaos, whose beside Lady Ilithyia, can't help but smile on the two precious girls of his life.
Althaia grew up given all love, care, needs, and family. She became bubbly and kind. She's already seventeen and her features were already defined.
Her golden corn hair flows through her waist. Her misty eyes, reason why lots of men fell in love to her instantly. Her features are perfectly defined. A beauty no one can surpass except for Aphrodite.
In the forest of Athesyst, she's running on the grassy part of the forest where butterflies are dancing with her. Just beside her is the border between the forbidden forest.
Chuckling and having fun with the butterflies, she heard some weird voices calling her. In instance, her heart beats as fast as the drums.
She looked at the maids who are busy talking. And remembered what her mother said before letting her come here.
"Sinasabi ko sayo, kung maaari sana ay wag na wag mong pagtatangkaang pasukin ang ipinagbabawal na kagubatan. Hindi natin alam kung anong naroon. Ayaw ko lamang na ika'y mapapahamak. Nangako ako sa kani--," she stopped talking when she noticed that it's going to far.
She genuinely smiled before walking out. Althaia notice it but shook her head and got in the carriage.
She stared the misty forest and slowly stood up. Not minding what her mother said.
Slowly entering the forbidden forest without any doubt.
Never Stop Loving You
Why you're always breaking my heart?
Is loving you only means being hurt?
Yes, I'm in love with you
But why you can't love me as much as I love you?
You hurted me
You rejected me
But I realized that why should I stop loving you
If my heart is still beating for you?
Seeing you in his side
Hurt me deep inside
It makes me want to cry
But no, It's not yet the time to bid goodbye.
How I wish he will become me
Maybe you will love me too, just like the way I want to be.
But no, he is he
And me is me.
I'm praying everyday
That a miracle will come one day
And we live happily ever after
And our love will lasts longer.
But reality slap me
And it really hurt me
I realized that I'm not living in the world of fantasy
Because I'm in reality
I only want to be in your side
But pain is killing me deep inside
Should I still choose my love for you
Or I will let you go?
But before letting you go
I want to say that I really, really love you
From forever to infinity then back
Even it hurt me too much.
Please, don't cry
Please, don't waste your tears
I can lend you all ears.
I know that you are sad
But please don't do things that are bad.
Please, don't cry —you need to be glad
Stop starting a fight and ended up being mad.
I'm here for you,
To lighten your mode when you are blue
Please be strong because I know that everything will gonna be fine
And I'm pretty sure that the sun will gonna shine.
I'm here to ease your pain
And I'm also here to stay until everything will be perfect again.
I'm your -
I am Rosalie, bestfriend of Zed.
I'm always there on his side during his ups and downs in life.
We accompanied each other and talked a lot of things especially our stupidity when we were both young.
I felt comfortable when I'm with him but I felt sad...thinking about the fact that he'll find her own love soon.
Yes, I admit it that I'm in love with him...not just a friendly love but in a romantic way.
Many years have passed but he's still single and I thank God for it.
I imagined my life as a wife and he's my husband but reality slap me too hard when he introduce a lady to me.
"Hi best...This is Riza"
"So you're his girl bestfriend? Its nice meeting you"
"Yes I'm his girl bestfriend.It's nice meeting you too Riza and by the way I'm Rosalie"
I can't explain the emotion that I felt during that time. I felt jealous even if i don't have a right to be jealous because in the first place I'm not his girlfriend, I'm just a bestfriend nothing more and nothing less.
Today's my birthday and I'm planning to celebrate it with the man I love...I decided to call him
"Hey best...can we go out for our bestfriend's bonding?"
"Sure best..It's been a long time"
"Thank you best "
"You are always welcome best"
I took a shower.
Wore my new dress.
Wore my new sandals.
Apply light make-up.
Spray my newly-bought perfume.
I was heading to his house when I received his message...
I'm sorry best I can't make it because I forgot that I make a promised to Riza that I will brought her to Haven's Park.
As I read his message... I'm crying...not because he forgot my birthday but because he chose her over me.
Tomorrow came and you are knocking on my door with a cake and a banner that say 'BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEST'
"Thank you for the effort best"
'Welcome best and I'm sorry... I forgot your birthday"
"Naah... It's okay best"
"Best, I have something to tell you"
"What is it best?"
"I love you best"
"I love you too best"
"You love me?"
"Yes, I love you because your my bestfriend"
"Best, I love you in a romantic way"
"I'm sorry"
"Why? Is it about Riza?"
"Yes.I love you but i love her more"
"Naah..It's okay... I'm used to it"
"I'm sorry best for hurting you and for making you cry"
"I don't regret loving you"
"Thank you for loving me but sad to say we are not meant to be"
"Im like Tinker Bell and you are my Peter Pan..."
"Best..."
"I'm your Tinker Bell that will never abandon you until you find your own Wendy"
Thank You Lord
Dear Lord, I want to say thank you
Thank you for guiding me everywhere I go.
Thank you for your unending care
Thank you for protecting me away from danger and devil's snare.
Thank you for the good and pleasant thing
Like food water, life and everything.
Thank you for giving me a family
Beautiful places to see and friends to play.
Thank you for leading me to a secure place
Where rest are sure and there is peace.
No dark angel comes before my way
When I'm with you everyday.
You are the truth and the life
You are the shelter in times of crisis and strife.
You are the Word in the Bible
Someone that can create fantastic miracle.
Thank you for being there for me
When lightning flashes, thunder roars and the weather is angry, thank you for consoling me.
Thank you for comforting me when danger is near
With you my Lord, I shall never fear.
Thank you for providing me a guardian angel who watches over me
When I'm in the school, at home, at the store or any places I'll be.
When I'm alone and my days are blue
My guardian angel cheers me up and guides me through.
You are my hiding place
A shelter of joy, happiness and peace.
You are the shelter from every enemy
Someone to trust when I'm in pain and agony.
When I'm away from home far or near
Thank you for making my travel safe and away from danger.
As I take a step to the near future, my Lord
Please strengthen me with your Holy Word.
You are the Creator, the owner of the world
You are the Redeemer whose greatness us untold
All living things and the angels in Heaven give praises to You
Children, men and women who is reading this, we should praise Him too.
Today is another day
Today is another day.
A day with sadness and glee
But we know that the sun will gonna shine
And we can say that everything will be fine.
Behind our parent's voice, sometimes soft and sometimes loud,
Behind every cloud,
Behind the sky,
Is our God on high.
There are different characteristics for every man.
Every man, God always have a plan.
In every water that we drink, the food we ate and the air we breathe
Our God provides all of it.
Being on the Earth is a really a grand
Living in the works of our God's hand.
He created the land and the water that surround
And he make the sun to revolves around.
In the morning we will see the sun.
A ball of light that lights the world so that the people will always have fun.
In the evening we will see the moon and stars.
A beautiful sight to behold that can ease a heart that is full of scars.
God is really wise
To create the world with land, sea and skies.
His Holy Word serves as a light to my eyes.
He loves all the people so I can conclude that His heart is large in size.
Yesterday, I have been addicted to evil ways
But today, I have walked together with God not just today but in the future days.
The society gives me a lot of pain
But God is always there in my side to ease my pain.
God is always there.
He is our great comforter.
Together with Him we will find happiness
With God we will live in holiness.
Let's go back to the manger
Let's go back to the manger where there is no crib for a comfortable bed.
Let's see the son of God, lying down his little head.
Let's follow the star that serve as a sign where Jesus Christ stay.
Let's see the son of God sleeping on the hay.
Let's offer him a gift.
Let's rejoice because there's no room for grief.
We can't give Jesus Christ valuable thing
But having Jesus Christ means everything.
He was conceived by the holy spirit and born by Mary, a virgin mother
And Joseph, the carpenter become his earthenly father.
We lack richness
But being with Jesus Christ, we can reached holiness.
He was crucified to save us from sin.
He laid down on a tomb but he came back to his life again.
He ascended back to heaven
But he promised that the right time will come and he will be back to the world again.
He will be back and the righteous will live together with Him in heaven
And the hell will be the place for the wicked and the villain.
Everlasting life will be the good people's reward
But everlasting pain will be the reward for the bad and the coward.
Let's go back to the manger.
Let's worship God, the Almighty Father.
We need to stop ourselves from committing sin
And in the judgement day, we will be found innocent and clean.
The Day You Broke Your Promise
They'll say, "Promises means to be broken"
I can't say if it's true or not because I don't make promises and I don't believe in promise.
Not until I met him.
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"Ellie, Jason is inviting us to his birthday party in their house." Lanie said while she put her things in her chair
Cathy asked, "Who's Jason, Lan? Your suitor?"
I laughed when I heard what Cathy said. Lanie gave me a death glare so I kept my mouth shut. My bad.
"Cathy, Jason is my cousin for pete sake! And suitor? Oh, I don't do boyfriends." she said, flipping her hair.
Spoiled brat.
I sighed. "Don't do boyfriends? Really, Lan? So, what do you call between you and Jay? Flings with benefits?" I laughed.
"Yes and also, Jay is not my type." she said, while busy in her hair.
"Okay, you said so." I smirked.
Me, Lanie and Cathy are friends since highschool 'till now we're in college.
"El, how are you? How's your dad?" Cathy asked, and my mood suddenly changed.
"My dad is okay. Me? Well, I don't know." I said in a low voice.
"Cathy, stopped." Lanie suddenly talked while her eyes is busy in her phone.
Daddy and I are not in good terms since then. One day, I caught him making out with other woman. I already forgive him but there's a gap.
"When will you say yes to Gian?" Lanie asked me.
"I don't have plan, Lan." I said and sighed.
Honestly, I like Gian. I can say that he's kind and gentleman but fear is consuming me.
"Well, try to face your fears. Keeping your fears can't help you, El. Try to forgive and open you heart to those people who truly love you." she said and gave me a sweet smile.
I just nodded. For once, I'll try to face my fears.
My phone beeped.
From: Gian
Hi, Ellie! Good morning! Have a nice day! GOODLUCK :)
I kept on reading with a smile in my lips.
I choose not to reply and put my phone back to my bag.
Gian courted me for almost 7 months.
"El, what do you want eat?" Gian asked me, he asked me a date so, I agreed though it's my first time.
"Anything, Gian." I said while looking at him.
He's busy looking for our foods while I'm also busy looking at him. I looked away when he turned his gaze in my direction.
"Hmmm, I'll order carbonara and fruit salad. And for drinks, hmmm mango shake. How about you?" he asked me with a smile in his face.
"Rice with chicken and fruit salad. And for drinks mango shake also." I said, while looking in the menu.
Our date went good. We talked, we laughed.
Gian asked, "So, when will be our next date?"
I answered, "It's up to you, Gian."
I saw excitement in his eyes.
"Okay, then. By the way, thank you." he said, giving his usual smile.
"Thank you also, Gian. Be careful when driving, bye." I said then I closed the gate.
I found myself smilling.
Days, weeks passed and I decided to say yes to him.
"Gian, I know it's been 8 months since you courted me. I like you, since then. I hope it's not too late to say yes." I said, looking at him.
I saw how his reaction changed.
"You mean, you're my girlfriend now?" he asked me and I laughed.
"Yes, Gian. You're my boyfriend and I'm your girlfriend." I answered, he hugged me so tight.
"Thank you, baby. I'm happy right now. Fuck! Yes! She finally said yes to me! YES!" he exclaimed, I saw his tears in his cheek.
I wiped and kiss him. "Thank you for not giving up, baby. Thank you for proving me that you really love me."
"I will love you 'til my hair turned white, Ellie. I promise to be with you forever and stay by your side. I love you, baby." he kissed my forehead down to my nose and my lips.
Our relationship become stronger. We always chose to lower our pride when we fight and chose to be okay. Our parents supported us and guiding us.
"Baby, will you be happy even if I'm not here beside you anymore?" he asked me while looking at me.
My mind starting imagining things. I panicked.
"What? D-Do you have plan to leave me?" My voice broke when my tears starting to fall.
"No baby. Don't ever think that I will leave you. You remember my promise, right? Always remember that you're always in my mind and heart, baby. No one can replace you." he said, he kissed my hand.
I prepared a lot of foods because today is our anniversary. First Anniversary. I decided to surpise him in his house.
I take a bath and wear the peach dress which he gave last December.
My phone ring.
"Hello, tita? Is Gian already there? Is everything okay?" I asked her, biting my lower lips preventing to shout.
"H-Hija, Gian is already died." Tita's word made me cry.
"T-Tita, please stop this prank. P-Please. S-Stop!" I shouted and immediately run to my car and drive.
When I arrived in their house, I saw his sister crying while hugging his Daddy. His relatives crying and sobbing.
"E-Ellie," Tita called me but I didn't bother to gave her a glance and walk inside his room.
And I saw him lying in his bed.
"B-Baby, please stop this prank. Y-You made a promise, right? Y-You said you'll never leave m-me.
P-Please baby, w-wake up!" I cried as hard as I could.
My heart beats fast.
"Y-You promised me b-baby! B-But, you broke it! Y-You broke it!" I sobbed and I hugged his body.
I kissed his forehead, nose, cheek, and lips.
"H-Happy Anniversary, baby! Remember this day? You made a promise, right? B-But, this day, you broke your p-promise." I let myself cry hard.
"H-Hija, he was diagnosed in brain tumor last year, we tried everything but each day his body became weaker and weaker. I-I'm sorry hija, he decided not to tell you because he knows that your h-heart is weak. A-And he wanted to tell you this." Tita said and she gave me a letter.
Love Ellie,
Baby, I'll give you my heart, live your life to the fullest with me. Please. I'm sorry if I chose to hide it from you. I'm sorry if you think I broke my promise, baby. I love you! Thank you for everything. Those memories of ours will be forever in my heart and in my mind. Be safe, baby! HAPPY ANNIVERSARY, MI AMORE! 'TIL WE MEET AGAIN!
Love,
Gian ❤️
"THE END, baby," I said to my daughter, Giana Avirelle.
"Daddy loves you so much mommy." my daughter said while wiping her tears.
After the day of our anniversary, I found out that I'm three weeks pregnant.
"I love you, Giana," I said and kiss her forehead.
I looked up in the sky and smile.
"Thank you love for giving me our angel"
I'm guilty
I was sipping a cup coffee while looking outside the cafe. It is raining heavy.
I'm here waiting for Sheena to come. But I know she won't make it up. I'm really just waiting for the rain to stop so I could go home.
An hour later, I sipped the remaining in my cup and left the cafe. I drove my car and went in a store. I was about to pick a biscuit when the cashier opened the store's television.
I stopped what I'm doin' and watched the news flashing on the tv.
[BREAKING NEWS! A CAR BUMPED INTO A DELIVERY TRUCK ON THE CITY'S MAIN HIGHWAY. THE CAR AND TRUCK'S DRIVER WERE BOTH BROUGHT TO THE HOSPITAL BUT THE CAR'S DRIVER WAS DEAD ON ARRIVAL. THE TRUCK DRIVER IS STILL UNCONSCIOUS. THE ACCIDENT IS UNDER INVESTIGATION-]
I blinked many times after they turned off the television. I know that car, that's sheena's. A smirk was formed onto my lips as I want on the cashier and paid the foods I bought.
I immediately went home and didn't even bothered to go in the hospital where she is.
I actually cut the break wires of her car so she can't use it when driving. My plan went smooth, well everything went good. I sat on the couch and blown my hair covering up my right face.
I killed her, but I didn't let my hand to be stained by her blood.
I killed her, with a reason. She have a plan on taking Veich away from me. Veich's my everything, I want him mine. I heard her plan that she'll flirt Veich so Veich will leave me.
I love Veich and I'll do everything just to let him stay and not leave me.
Intensionally, I killed my best friend, she's a traitor. I'm guilty on killing you but conscience is not on my vocabulary.
My dear best friend Sheena. Now you're dead, Veich will be finally mine and there's no any doubt between us. Sorry not sorry Sheena.
*A Work Of Fiction*
I Killed Him Because...
"Hey baby what's wrong?"
I whispered sweetly and sat beside him on the edge of his bed and caress his hair, smoothly . He sighed and looked down on his bare hands
"My mom wants me to go"
That made me stop.
"Y-You won't leave me right?"
I stutter. He gaze at me and touched my palm ,Kissing the back of my palm saying
"I won't . . . I promise"
I smiled and touched his face
"I love you"
I whispered
"I love you too"
His words is enough for me to sleep peacefully all night.
"Don't shout at me"
"Mom please . . . I just want you to lower down your voice. Amina would hear you"
My forehead creased after hearing those words that wakes me up in the morning. Sunlights kissing the tip of my nose from the open window. I slowly get off the bed. With shaking hands I walk closer to the door
"So what if she hears me?hu? I told you to leave her"
"I can't mom . . I'm inlove with her"
I bite my lower lip. Hearing those words from the mother of my man hurts. It's painful.
"Inlove? hu? are you blind? Amina is no good for you"
I close my eyes deeply and sighed. Slowly opening the door of his room
"She is my everything Mom . . . please don't force me"
He whispered in a begging tone.
"C-chad"
I stutter, calling his attention. He looked at me and his eyes widen
"I-its nothing—"
"No it's fine"
I smiled at him. He was about to walk towards me when his mom grab his pulse
"Do not turn your back on me young man. I am your mother. You must listen—"
"And I am your son mom"
I almost jump on how angry his voice was
"Why can't you just let us be happy?"
He painfully asked. Pointing me. His mom looked at me. Teared eyes
"Please . . . let me have a moment with you son . . . "
Then her mama looked at me, deeply
"Just with you"
He looked at me, asking for permission. I smiled sweetly and nodded. Telling that it's alright and it'll gonna be okay.
His mom gaze at me once again and walked him inside the library. I sighed and went inside his room.
I waited for him to come inside. Just silently watching how every leaves of a plant dance on the air. Feeling the air kissing my skin. I smiled. I know, it'll gonna be okay. Everything's gonna be okay
"Amina"
I quickly turn to meet him. He sighed heavely, closing the door of his room, slowly.
"H-hey what happened?"
I asked, concern and walk towards him. Guiding him to sit on the edge of his bed. He didn't answered and just stared at me for a couple of minutes.
"Y-You will go"
I confidently whispered. Shaking my head. The side of my eyes watered
"N-no please don't cry"
He begged and cupped my face. Kissing my tears, tryjng to make it stop
"Please . . . please Mina ,love . Don't cry"
"B-but you will leave . . . and you will forget me"
I painfully whispered.
"I. . . I have to . . . Mom wants me to"
I bite my lower lip with my forehead being kissed by him
"Do you . . . Do you want to?"
He shake his head
"No . . . But I have to"
He answered honestly.
"We will leave . . . Tommorow morning at three o'clock"
I sobbed and hugged him.
" I love you"
I whispered. I heard him sobbed
" I love you too"
His words keeps on roaming around my thought 'til midnight ends and it's already three o'clock in the morning. My bloodshot eyes is wide open. I looked down at him. Sleeping peacefully beside me. Hugging my waist. I brushed his hair
"I love you"
I utter.
"And I don't want you to forget me. . . never"
I whispered .Slowly rising the knife under my pillow. I looked deeply into his sleeping face. My heartbeat skip a beat. A part of me don't want this but . . . But no . . . I don't want him to leave.
"I love you . . . I love you . . . I love you"
I whispered in every stab. My tears started to fall as i felt the sticky blood stains all over my upper body.
"Chad? Open the door. . . We are going now"
I almost jump when i heard her mom. Knocking outside the door of his room. My eyes widen when her knocks became faster
"Chad ? Chad? Please open up"
My bloody hands started to shaken as I slowly get off the bed and walks towards the door to open it. Tears falls like a river down to my neck when the door slowly opened before I could even reach to it.
His moms eyes widen
"Chad? No"
She shouted. Painfully.
I watched how she run towards him and passed by me as if she haven't saw me. Blooded . Making me feel the reality. I slowly turn to look at him. His mom, crying, hugging him tightly. Whispering 'No' and 'Why' .
I looked down on my bloody bare shaken hands and gulped. I killed him because I don't want him to forget me .
Her mama wants him to be normal, In a hospital. Not being sick ,that I would never let to happen. So i killed him. Because I belong to him. And he belongs to me. I leaved with him. In his own Fantasy.
The Cry of an Unborn Child
“Are you going home?” her co-worker asked.
“Yes, see you on tuesday!” she said lively.
Samantha Leigh, 28, a well-known registered nurse. She’s the epitome of kindness and beauty that’s why everyone loves her. Little did they know, she’s trapped in the past that’s still hunting her until now.
After collecting her things, she got out of the locker’s room and walks gracefully in the hallway. She was about to go right when she heard a child’s whimper. It’s strange for her because she’s not alone, there are people walking back and forth around her.
To feed her curiosity, she searched where it came from and found out that it’s in the left side of the hallway. In an empty room, she found a girl crouching in the far side area.
“boohoo, she doesn’t love me!” the child sobbed.
Sam smiled, she knew to herself that she can handle this kind of situation because she’s a nurse and she’s been into this kind of state.
“hey, kid,” she greeted. Sam was about to pat her head when the child lifted it up.
“Aw, what a cute girl, “she said, looking at the child lovingly.
“Am I? Then why did mommy abandoned me?” asked the child.
Sam looks confused.
“Why did you aborted me?” asked the child again.
The little girl stood up, with her small feet, she walked towards Sam.
“Mommy, why?”
Sam doesn’t know what to do. Her feet were glued to the ground.
“Look at me, mommy” the girl turned around.
“I’m a big girl now. I should be.”
Tears rolled down her cheeks as soon as memories flashed through her mind. She can’t stand any longer, guilt is visible on her face. Sam kneeled down and face the child.
“I’m so sorry, anak” she hugged her child.
“I’m so sorry, mommy was naïve and selfish” she caresses her hair. She was about to carry her, but the child pushed her.
Shock was registered on her face.
The child looks angry, sad, and pained. She shooked her head.
“No, no, mommy, doesn’t love me”
“No, no, mommy, abandoned me”
“No, no, mommy, killed me”
“Mommy, is a murderer.”
After saying those words, the child ran and nowhere to be found. Samantha left dumbfounded. Kneeling on the ground, she lowered her head and cried.
Sam woke up from another nightmare. Bad memories from the past that she wanted to forget were replayed on her dreams every night and hunted her non stop.
Ten years ago, Samantha got pregnant. She was just 18, still young and still depending on her parents. Since, she doesn't still know on how things go, she decided to abort the baby.
Ten years have passed but it's still in her. She can't forgive herself for what she have done. The baby should be ten years old now and having the time of her life but she deprived her for having those.
"Anais, I had a bad dream again." She said to her psychiatrist friend.
"Do you know why are you having bad dreams over and over again?" Anais asked.
Sam shooked her head as a response.
"It's because you can't forgive yourself." Anais said.
"Then why is it a bad dream?" Sam asked.
"Maybe your child wanted you to unleash it. Look, because of that bad dream you're here having a session with me."
Sam's eyes glistened with tears. She nodded as a response to what her friend said. After that, she finally gave up and shared her past to her friend.
After sharing she found her friend smiling at her.
"I'm so proud of you." Dr. Anais said.
"You finally open up about it. Way to go my friend." She stood up and hugged Sam tightly.
"Don't forget to visit your baby's grave, i'm sure she's also proud of you. The decisions you've made from the past molded you from what you are now."
So, overcome the pain of living inside of us. Let’s make a commitment to learning from those experiences, acknowledging the hurt, and move forward to live a life without carrying baggage on our shoulder. Letting go means finding your own happiness.
**DISCLAIMER**: This is a work of fiction. Any resemblance to actual persons or events is purely coincidental.
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The Jinn
There was a girl in the town, that is so beautiful. Of all the people she passes by stops and stare at her beauty.
Fardina was one of the crowd who was staring at her, and then she approached;
"Hello, I'm Cassandra. and you?" her first greeting.
"I'm Fardina, Hi!" she replied with a smile.
Fardina is a simple girl with a simple lifestyle. She is not rich and besides she has no beauty, she is with a tan skin and has many pimples on her face.
"ahhmm good thing you made me your friend." she said.
"why?" — Cassandra asked with curiosity.
"some people don't like me because I'm ugly, my face is dark and gross." — Fardina's exclusion of Cassandra who is now her friend.
Cassandra smiled and came near to her.
"is the basis for having a friend's beauty? Fardina why am I so noticeable? what do I have? what do you notice about me?" — Cassandra's question is she seems curious about herself.
"because you are beautiful! Cassandra you are so beautiful. that's the reason why a lot of people notice you... unlike me, even my family doesn't seem to like me." — Fardina said while smiling bitterly.
"Fardina, I want to confess something to you... but you must promise not to tell it to anyone..."
Fardina looked down and never say anything.
"Fardina I just want to share something with you and I know you need it." — Cassandra continued.
it took 5 minutes before she decided to speak.
"Fardina, can you make a promise?" — Cassandra asked again.
she turned to her and said; "I can! But can you also promise that I won't be harmed by that?"
"why would you be harmed? you won't get hurt. I just want to tell you that, this is not my real beauty."
her eyes seems to pop-out as she heard it.
she laughed out and asked;
"what do you mean? you had an augmentation?"
"No! I have a friend. She is a Jinn and she's the one who made me beautiful."
She laughed again at what her friend said;
"what do you think of me? an eight year old kid that still believes in Fables?
"I'm not kidding! I told you this because you're my friend now and I think you needed her. and now, I'm gonna bring you there so you can ask for what you desire."
Fardina stopped laughing;
"is that really true? cause if it is, well it's my pleasure to meet her."
"for as long as you are willing to do whatever it takes..." — said Cassandra.
and there they agreed. They went directly to the forest, there was a big tree... she got nervous knowing that it is a big mistake for her if she wouldn't come back alive.
they looked at it intentionally and suddenly a bright door opened to them.
"let's go Fardina, don't be afraid." — Cassandra said.
they went inside, and saw it was a room filled with golds and diamonds... and hear the softest voice talked to them.
"Cassandraaaaa..."
it was a woman, a beautiful woman appeared in front of them... Cassandra introduced her and tell about her purpose.
"assalamualaikum, this is my friend Fardina, she wants to know you."
"I know..." said the woman.
"tell me Fardina, what do you wish for?"
"I want to be a beautiful woman like Cassandra... because I am a woman where all people are disgusted in me, so I wish all my acnes fades away, I want my skin to become whiter and my face turn into a clear skin..." — she said automatically.
"I can help you, but with some conditions. will you accept whatever comes into your way when you take it for granted?" asked the Jinn.
"if Cassandra can manage, so am I?" — she said confidently.
the Jinn smiled and said;
"okay, go home now."
she looked at her friend and whispered;
"that's it?"
"yes! let's go." — said Cassandra.
"but how about my wishes?" — she asked.
"let's follow her commandments."
they said goodbye and returned home.
in the morning, Fardina woke up and went straight to the kitchen to cook for breakfast when suddenly her sister screamed.
"Aaaahhhhh!!!!! who are you?" so surprised while staring at her.
"this is ME!!! Fardina. why?" — she asked.
"No!!!" — her sibling shouted.
then she remembered the Jinn, she immediately get the mirror and saw her pretty face. she is so beautiful!
without hesitation, she went to Cassandra's house to show up her new face.
"but what about the condition? she didn't tell me anything."
"she did! she told you about "TAKING FOR GRANTED" right?"
"I mean, is that all?" she asked consciously.
"look, it was a simple word but it means a lot of things..." — said Cassandra.
"can you explain to me?" — she requests.
"you must take care of the beauty that was given to you, because if you don't, it can lead you to the wrong path and you'll regret it for the rest of your life. Do not misuse, and do not forget." — said Cassandra.
but as everyone knows, everybody forgets.
because of her beauty, her attitude slowly changed, she became high, degrading and disgusted with other people around her... she forgot about the consequences behind her beauty.
and later on, she got herself insane.
I'd Rahter Die
I'd rather die.. than feeling all this pain I can't take..
I'm not dead, but why do I feel like I am? It hurts a lot.. I can't take the pain anymore.. but when I attempt to end my life, why? Why won't I die!? I WANNA END MY FVCKING LIFE I'M SO TIRED!
I'm stressed, broken, depressed, too tired to live. I can't enjoy my life. I don't even know what makes me happy anymore-- I mean, nothing makes me happy anymore..
My parents can't even appreciate my efforts.. No one appreciates me at all. Everyone hates me. I get bullied since I was small. No one acknowledges my works. I'm too tired to live, I'd rather die..
If possible, a painless death would be better for me.
Was my stories that boring to read? XD
The Vow
I'm going to wait for you"
I'm too young when you uttered those words to me. If I'm not mistaken I'm just an elementary student and you're just a high school student before when you said those words. Yet, I admit, hearing those words makes me feel so lucky and blessed to always have you beside me. It is because, no doubt your a dream guy for so many. Being a simple guy with a humble heart, beautiful face and a pure and kind soul, undeniably you attract girls easily. But the best character you have which I admire most is that, you're a God-fearing guy. Everytime I see you wearing your formal outfit, go to the church and praise God, I can't help myself but to appreciate you even more. The reason why, I am certain that I want to be with you for my whole existence.
From the very first day that we meet, you already catch my attention, not because your handsome enough but because you're too clingy. I could still remember, I was grade 6 that time when we see each other in my cousin's graduation celebration, you talk to me and you keep on teasing me like we're so close together suchlike we're friends for how many years with in fact we just both strangers and just meet on that day.
And as clock continuously rotates and calendar sheets unceasingly changed, our closeness and friendship also becomes stronger and deeper as it is. I would never forget those times we see each other almost everyday in a place where every couple wish to exchange their vows wholeheartedly. I'm so happy to have you everyday because having you makes me feel comfortable to share all my feelings and journey. You always there to listen all my complains and rants in life. You never get tired hearing those negative thoughts and shallow problems that bothers my minds. You became my cheerleader although out and my medicine in all the pain I felt in life. You also became my motivation to excel in all activities I participated with, it is because in every achievement I made, you always make me feel that there's someone who is so proud of me. You look like an angel to me, you're a blessing I want to hold forever. For at my very young age I feel so special because of you.
But as time go by, our schedules conflict and our past routine changes. From our everyday meet up goes down to thrice a week, twice a month, til it became once in a blue moon. And time has come that both of us became so busy with our own studies and we never see each other again. No more conversation nor communication, no more "how are you" and I have no clue where are you. Nonetheless, you never been erased in my head. Your words still remain in my memory that you're going to wait for me and we'll see each other again.
Just like every happy ending story, luckily we are destined to see each other again. We are fortunate to continue what we had before. Its so wonderful to see you again, wearing your widest smile in this place where we used to meet before. In this place where couples exchange their vows and in this place where God see the love of every people. Now, here in this big holy church, we meet again and I see you again. Surrounded by many people, I was walking at the center. Hearing a very loud round of applause, I was looking at you in front of the altar. Nothings changed, you're still handsome specially wearing that black wedding suit with your cutest smile. I can see how happy you are, marrying the person you really love -the person whom you meet while I am not around.
After wedding
"You're late! But thank you for coming best, you're really my best best friend. See. I really scheduled my wedding on the day you're going back here in Laguna, so that you cannot make any excuses but to attend. And just what I promise, I'M GOING TO WAIT FOR YOU" -he said
"Wow. Thank you for fulfilling that promise for me. Well, I don't have any choice also but to attend because you're such a very good friend to me since then. Anyway, congratulations best." -my response
"How about you? When are you going to introduce your love one to me? huh?" - he added
"Soon, but if I were going to meet somebody I wish its another version of you." - I said
As I told him my concluding statement and he said his sincerest thank you to me, I slowly walk far away from him. I just wanna feel alone at this moment because I dunno what to feel seeing my favorite person marrying another person instead of me. Truly it is, there are people who are destined to become friends rather than lovers and yes, we both proved it.
In the air I said "You're the man I wish I have but I never had"
Who's That Girl?
College life portrays different faces. Every days feeling are not just an ordinary HAPPY OR SAD, OKAY OR NOT. Everyday means your facing an extraordinary sadness or an extravagant happiness, either of the two. But for me, when I enter college the only thing I felt is pure sadness. I can only count in my fingers those days I'd felt so happy. I was so stress during those times not until I met someone that captures my sight.
Anyway, I'm Jade an AB in Journalism student. A pure guy with a very strict parents the reason why people thought I'm gay. In my entire existence I never tried to stay alone in life or in laymans term 'board in a boardinghouse'. Therefore, my everyday living as a student requires me to allot a time for my travel going to school and going home, so it became my daily routine.
Whenever I ride a bus I'm so particular on where to sit in. It is because most of the time, I prefer to sit alone not unless the bus is crowded and full of passengers. However, one time in a seat where I used to exercise my loneliness, there's a girl who sit beside me. I thought it would just be once but as time gone by I just found myself comfortable sitting beside her not once or twice but everyday.
From the first time she sit beside me, I found her adorable already especially when her mother called her in phone and she spokes softly like an angel as well as she's so sweet towards her mother. I always looked at her through the window. I want to talk to her but I don't get any courage too. At the same time she always wore her earphone that's why I don't know how to start a conversation. I really want to know her name but I haven't had a chance to talk with her. Notwithstanding, she's a girl who really changed my way of living. She became the reason why I go to school and went home too early because as I observed her schedule she went to school at 6am and went home at 6pm. So even though I don't have class early in the morning, I still travelled at 6am for me to be with her. And even I go home 8pm before because of some extracurricular trip, now I disciplined myself to go home early just to see that girl. I also remember how she made me religious because everytime she's in the bus she do the sign of the cross so I did the same.
However, when I'm on the last year of my college life. I never saw her again. Sad to think that our love story ends without knowing each others name. Half semester had passed still no one sit beside me. Now I lost my happiness, I lost the reason of my smile, I lost reason to woke up and went home early and slowly I returned to the old me. I was too lazy again but still I survive my course and graduated on time. Year had passed but honestly I'm still thinking about that girl. I also thought if I HAD EVER CROSSED HER MIND. I hope all questions will be answered soon and now that I achieved my dreams. One thing I want to achieved again and it is nothing but to find that girl, I admire most.
May 3, 2020, today we're going to attend a special gathering of our clan in my fathers side. For how many years that our relatives conducting a family reunion, this is my very first time to attend the said event. It is because most of the time only my parents were attending and I am not actually fond of engaging myself in crowded places.
Arriving in the venue, a girl welcomed us as she says "Hello tita, hello tito welcome to our house. I'm so happy to see you again. Happy reunion."
"We're so happy to see you also Gayle. Thank you for sponsoring our reunion this year. Happy reunion. Anyway, for the first time, we are able to bring our son here, by the way his Jade" - my mother said
"Wow. What a miracle? Congratulations to you tita and tito, you're able to bring him here now. Amazing." - She replied
"Hi Jade, I'm Gayle your cousin, 1 year older to you." - She said to me as she lend her hand for a handshake
"Wait. You seem so familiar, have we met before?" - She surprisingly added as she recognized my face
I nod and she kept on thinking where we met, until I told her that
"I'm the one who sit beside you everytime you ride a bus a year ago"
"Ow its you. The guy beside me for almost three years. What a small Earth! We're able to see each other again. By the way, nice to meet you couz" - she stated
"Nice to meet you too couz." - I responded too
I forced to smile as my mind kept on repeating the last word "COUZ". How sad it is knowing that the girl I've been looking for is found in the hometown of my ancestor and what made it more painful is that she also belong in the same bloodline as mine. Now I was stuck in that phrase saying "I love you not until I knew who are you"..
It's Sunday
"Every story deserves to be accounted. Every person is composed of different purposes. Lucky are those who see goodness in all situations they encountered." - a priest said
It was sunday and I was guided by the word of God again. Same routine -after attending mass, work again. Being a construction worker is not that easy, we work 8hours a day, 7 days a week and only gain salary not until the contract has elapsed. What should I expect? I'm only high school graduate and I don't have the capacity to apply on a big company. But believe me, when I was a child, I also dream to become a boss of a big and well-known company. However, life is truly hard especially for us who belongs in the poorest among poor family. Honestly, I really dream to go to school and study before, but our finances really can't afford to send us in a university knowing the fact that we only eat twice or sometimes once a day. It is like we're on a diet everyday. People may think I'm lazy for I haven't done anything to improve our status in life but honestly I did everything, I gave my best just to continue my studies. I even applied in different scholarships, I also became a working student before but the real hindrance to me is that I don't get any support from my parents. Being a scholar at the same time working student does not fully satisfy your studies, still, it requires extra money and extra motivation for you to continue, but both cannot provide by my parents the reason why I was force to stop schooling and at my young age I was force to find a job and help feed my family. Hence, from that experiences of mine, I promise to myself that I won't let my children experience the same. I promise to provide everything they need and promise to support them in all activities they want to participate with.
Going back to reality, I was working at the moment when I felt a pain in my chest and I can't breath. But ofcourse as a good worker, I hide everything I felt for I was scared that maybe I lost my job if they knew about it. After work, I immediately went home and felt so blessed when my son and daughter welcome me with a very tight hug. I felt so relief, whereas my tiredness gone quick. Now while eating, Jannah (my daughter) said "Ma, Pa there will be a seminar for our course next week, I would like to attend."
"Ask your father. I don't have money" - my wife said
"Is it required?" - I asked
"No pa but I want to attend. All my classmates will be attending, it's so sad if I'm the only one who's not going" - Jannah's response
"How much do you need? And when will be the deadline?" - I replied
"5,000 all in all pa, tomorrow will be the deadline. Please pa, I really like to join" - Jannah said
"Okay. I'm going to make a way" - I confidently stated
"Thank you so much papa" - her ending statement
On the next day at work, I talk to one of my colleagues
"bro do you have P5,000?" - I asked
"I still have, why?" - he replied
"Can I borrow it? Promise I'll pay for it nextweek when we get our salary" - I said
"Okay but make sure to pay for it on 15, you know even I'm single I also need money bro" - he responded
"Yes, I promise. Thank you bro" - I answered back as he gave the money I borrowed.
Then, I immediately gave the money to my daughter and go back to work again. Afterwards, I texted my wife that this week I will go home late because every after work we need to meet our boss. But the real thing is that I need to sell balut at night for me to be able to return the money I borrowed. It is because my 15th day salary cannot totally paid the P5000 I borrowed for the reason that we only get P290 per day being a construction worker. And if I only rely for that money I don't have anything left for my family needs. Thus, I need to double my effort and workhard for my debt and for our daily needs.
The next day during our breakfast:
"Fish again? Ma, pa aren't you going to buy other kind of viand? I lost my appetite eating the same food everyday. Nothings new. Tsk" - Jannah said and walked out
"Yes pa, can we eat other food except for fish?" - my son added
"No worry nak, if I got my salary I'll buy some meat" - I responded
"That's what I'm saying! If you only send me to school before and if you don't marry me at a very young age, I think I would have a better life today. I should not be suffering, eversince in my life, I never dream to have this kind of family" - my wife said to me as she walked out also
Right after hearing all those words, I felt a pain in my chest again and I cannot breath but still I manage to go to work and think positive. 'Everything will be alright' - this phrase became my motivation everytime I felt distress.
Now on this 15th day of the month, we already got our salary and ofcourse I already paid my debt. And like what I said, I buy some meat. As expected, no more money left for me. Now, my problem is what I am going to used for our daily living and how can I explain this to my wife. So, like what I used to do after work I sell balut every night, this is for me to have something to give for my family though no one in my family knows what I am doing. I still remember one night while selling balut, I saw my daughter Jannah with her friends. And I hide so that they would not notice me. Then, I saw them enter in jollibee, from outside I can see how happy she is having fun with all her rich friends. There I realized that my daughters life today was totally different from my experience before. Hence, I felt so happy seeing her laugh and enjoy her life.
When I went home I saw my daughter again. She hugged me and asked for a favor "Pa, my friends has their own phone. Can I have one too?"
"Nak you know we're not as rich as they are, we cannot afford to buy things like they have" - I replied
Jannah cried and walked away again. As a father, I also felt sad knowing the fact that I cannot provide what she want. Thus, I continue my routine, construction worker in the morning, balut vendor in the evening.
"Pa, your daughter's 16th birthday was coming. What's your plan? She's asking for a simple celebration" - my wife told me
"Ma you know we don't have money. But don't worry ma, I'll try my best to make our daughter's birthday a happiest one" - I firmly said
"Pa sorry to tell you this but I really got disappointed not only unto you but also in myself. When I was young I told myself that I will not just stick to become a housewife nor a maid of anybody else. But see me now, because of your underlying promises that I believe and never been accomplished my dream life was fade away. You promise to provide all your childrens needs, you promise to feed us properly, you promise to make our life the same as your life before, but what's now pa? What's now?" - my wife disgustedly said
I don't know what to say, I don't know what to do instead I just walked away and just go to the work. There I talked with my colleague again
"Bro let me borrow 5,000 again please. I just really need money for my daughters upcoming birthday celebration" - I said
"Why do you need to have bonggacious celebration bro? Remember, we're not billionaires nor high salary earners, instead we're just a professional construction worker, who got paid with a minimum wage per day, so why do you need to aim for a bonggacious celebration? Also we're not born rich, so I think simple birthday celebration is enough and you're daughter must understand that. Anyway, I'm so sorry bro, I cannot lend you money for now because I also need it for my medication." - my colleage responded
"Its okay bro. By the way, I just hope to give my daughter a memorable birthday celebration so that at least once I was able to fulfill my promise to them and at least once they will became proud of me. How I wish one day they'll recognize how much I've done effort just to make them happy. But ofcourse if I really can't give it, I don't have any choice but to say sorry coz I don't made it. However this time I just wanna do everything to pursue her dream birthday, even if its impossible I want to make it possible." - I replied as I cough so hard
"You're such a great father of all time. How lucky is your wife and your childrens to have you as the father of their family. I salute you bro. God bless" - He sincerely said to me
"Thank you bro" - I said and cough so hard again
"What's with that cough bro? It's not ordinary, it seems so serious and severe, try to visit doctors sometimes. - he suggested genuinely
"No, it's nothing I just drink ice water earlier that's why" - I answered
"Do you think I'm going to believe? Hahaha But don't worry I know you need money so I won't tell it to anyone. Get well soon bro" - he stated as he slowly disappeared in my sight
And since I don't have money and I promise to my wife that I will give my daughter a happiest birthday celebration, I continue my routine which is to became a construction worker in the morning and at night a balut vendor. Though chest pain and unstable breathing continuously attacking my whole body system, I still continue my regular habits. This is for me to fulfill my promises and of course to provide my family's needs.
As the sun and moon exchangeably guides my every day, after a month of hardship I was able to earn money which exactly fulfill my daughter's favor on me. And now its sunday and today is my daughter's 16th birthday. Thus, I made it. A great birthday celebration were all settled and at 5pm everything will start but ofcourse I will be late for I still have my work.
In our workplace, a long curved smile I gave to every workers I meet. It is so obvious in me that I was so excited to finished my task today for I can't wait to see how happy my daughters celebrating her sweet 16th birthday. At the same time I'm so excited to give her my birthday gift - her long time wish (cellphone). I can't wait to see her wearing her biggest and grandest smile this evening.
Now after that long exhausting day I was able to go home. Yet while walking my chest pain so hard, I can't totally breath and eveything went black.
The next thing I knew I was standing in front of my body, lying in a white bed and surrounded by my family.
"Your husband is suffering a severe lung cancer because of dyspnea. It looks like his been suffering on it for so long and he never been medicated the reason why it easily weaken his whole body system" -doctor said
I don't know what's exactly happening but I just saw all my family crying and my colleague (the one that lend me money before) gave my birthday gift to my daughter that made her cried even more. Wherefore, in the wind I said "SORRY IF I'M NOT A PERFECT FATHER"
And the last thing I knew, the doctor said "time of death July 11, 1959, Sunday, 11:59PM" then everything fades away as I heard my daughter saying "Nooooooo. Paaaaa Nooooooooo. My father was not dead. Paaaaa Papa wake up, papa wake up please. Papa I dont need phone, I need you. Papa please wake up. Papa you haven't dance me for my birthday yet. Papa this is not a birthday gift I wish. Papa wake up please. Papa you're all I need"
Authors POV
True love really exist, not from the other people around us but from the one who's always there for us. Its our family who truly cares and loves us. Thus, we should BE THEIR STRENGTH and NOT TO BE THEIR WEAKNESSES. WE SHOULD APPRECIATE ALL THEIR DEEDS and NOT TO ABUSE THEM. Always remember you've been love from the first day you've came to this Earth. Whereas, like number 5 in the 10 commandment says always "honor thy father and thy mother". God bless readers.
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Letter for Lav
I am standing at the cliff as I watch how fly majestically and dance along the wind. The skies are painted with color blue, yellow, orange and red signifying that the sun will finally go down and let the moon shine in its prowess. As the wind blows like it's trying to dry my tears, I stared at the letter in my hand.
" *To my lovely wife* ,
*"Lav , I love you so much! I miss you so badly. I miss your eyes, your pointed nose, your lavender smell, your flawless skin, your long hair, your red lips. I miss all of you. I want to hug and kiss you*."
A tear escaped from my eyes as I read the first part of letter. I closed my eyes and smiled as I spread my arms and let the wind blow my hair.
A deep chuckle conquered my ears as I feel the calmness of the wind. "Flying, huh?" He said, teasing me as we copied the infamous titanic pose. The difference is, we're not at the yacht, we're standing at the edge of the cliff.
"*I miss cooking your favorite dish. I miss sleeping and waking up beside you with your smile greeting me first thing in the morning*."
I wake up the next day wrapped by an arm. I look behind me and watch as my man sleep peacefully. I touched his nose, his eyes and before I even touch his lips, he caught my hands and brought it to his lips. He kissed my hand, "good morning." I smiled and hugged him more, too lazy to get out of the bed.
I open my eyes and feel the breeze calming me as my tears continue streaming down my face.
"*I remember the days when we're still young and doing crazy things together. Do you remember the first date that we had in our favorite place? That was so epic! Hahaha*."
I closed my eyes and sighed. I looked around as I try to relax myself and finally open the door of the restaurant only to find him watching me intently. I smiled nervously at him as I walked and sat at the chair in front of him. "I'm sorry, I almost got late, the professor had some over time," I smiled shyly as he nodded.
"You're so annoyed by the waiter to the point that you hated seeing him, even his shadow. And then later on, you realized that you have already your menstruation period and you apologized to the waiter after as you feeled ashamed by being childish."
I creased my forehead as I watch the waiter place the food in front of us. I rolled my eyes at him as he left the table after doing his errands. "What's wrong?" he asked me as I pouted at him. I shook my head but when I felt that waiter's presence, I looked at him, "I don't like that waiter." He chuckled and asked me why which I just responded with a shrug.
I continue reading the letter as I try to calm myself from the pain I'm feeling right now.
"*Every afternoon, we always go to the bay to watch the sunset together, while holding our hands, enjoying the view and eating our favorite food*."
I look away and watch the birds soaring to the sky, testing their limits. I lifted my hand acting like I can get the sun by doing that when I felt a warm hand wrapped mine. I looked at you and smiled, "You should have helped me get the sun, Zion." He chuckled as he pinched my cheek, "I don't need that, I already have you beside me." I cupped my own cheeks as I look at him with widened eyes, "You're making me blush!" He laughed but eventually pulled me near him and kissed the side of my forehead.
"*You always hurt me yet I still let you do whatever you want. You are getting spoiled that your parents scolded me. We went through a lot together*."
It's late at night when I get hungry and text him. "I want pizzaaaaaaa," he didn't reply so I expected him to be asleep already. I was rolling and tumbling on my bed as I heard a soft knock from my door. "Lavender, open the door," my mom said from the other side. I got up and opened it and saw him smiling as he showed the pizza to me. I smiled widely as I hugged him tight before hearing my mom sigh, "stop spoiling my daughter, Zion, she will get used to that."
I put my hands down as I felt nothing when I lifted it up. No hand caught it and brought it to his lips. There's just nothing but the wind swaying me.
"*Until my most awaited day happened, we're getting married. The day when we got our parents' permission to build our own family. That was the best day that I ever had. To get married to someone whom I want to spend my entire life with, whom I want to be the mother of my children. The day to see you wearing your white gown, walking in the aisle towards me is a breathtaking experience. You're so beautiful*."
They open the huge door infront of me as I start walking down the aisle not taking my eyes of him. Tears pooled at the corner of my eyes and before I knew it, they're streaming down my face. My father guided me towards him as you greeted my parents as the sign of respect. He chuckled and embraced me as we walk together finally facing Him and introducing my only love to Him.
I looked up and saw how the skies are slowly changing it's color to a darker shade. I cried harder as I looked at the stars thinking you are one of them, now.
"*I never regret choosing you, loving you, marrying you, because God gave an angel to me. You're the most wonderful thing that happened in my life. Thank you for understanding me. Thank you for all the things that you've done for me. Always remember this, I love you so much! Choose to keep going. Take care of yourself always. And yeah, I did break my promise, to be with you until the end. I'm sorry Lav. You're always in my heart*."
*Your husband and love*,
*Zion*.
I continue crying as I hug the letter to my chest. I felt the wind brushing my face as if they are trying to wipe my tears, "My Zion."
Every Seconds
I'm lying down in my bed while playing games in my phone when I hear the soft knock on my room. I stopped playing and sit up, resting my back in the head board. When she showed up in the door, I smile.
Damn, she's as beautiful as I can remember.
"Hey, you're already up."
"Babe." I greeted.
She dropped her things and the groceries she's holding in the sofa beside my bed and walked towards me. She kissed my forehead. I hold her waist and hug her tight.
"Damn, your smell." I inhale her scent. I will never get tired of this scent. She chuckles then bent down to give my lips a peck.
"Have you eaten your breakfast?" She asked. I look at her and noticed the dark circles under her eyes. Is she tired?
"What time did you go home last night?" I asked wryly. She just smiled and kiss me again. She walks to the bedside table and prepares the food she bought. I got irritated by her action.
"Keandra.." I warned. She laughs.
"4AM. Happy? You'll have breakfast now?" She sarcastically answered. Damn, she didn't sleep.
"You didn't sleep? Babe! Roger is outside 24/7, for freakin' out loud I have two figgin' bodyguards outside to give me want I want and what I need. You go home and sleep. Take care of yourself baby. The last thing that I want is you, collapsing in front of me!" I half shouted due to my concern to her.
"Chill Rhage. I'm not dying I just didn't sleep. I'm okay, okay?" She laughs again, I fringed at the word die. She walks back to my bed and handed me the tray she's holding. Instead of letting her sit beside me, I grab her wrist and let her sit on my lap. I cupped her face.
"Please take care of yourself babe, wether I'm around or not. Promise me." I say softly and place a kiss in her neck. Hugging her tightly. She kisses my head and cupped my face in her both hands.
"I promise." She kisses my forehead, my nose and my lips. "Now eat." She pushes the tray towards me. I grab the tray from her hold and drop it in the bedside table and hug her tighter.
"Snuggle before breakfast." I murmur while trailing open mouth kisses in her neck. She grips my hair softly and chuckle.
"Eat or I'll leave." She threatens.
"Damn woman. Fine, feed me." She happily grabs the tray and feed me while still sitting in my lap.
We spend the rest of the day together. I laugh at her silly stories, we play games, eat and cuddle in my bed. I am a huge fan of cuddle and snuggle, with her.
When the clock strikes 8PM I convinced her to go home early and take a rest. She insisted of staying longer but I threatened her before giving her a deep kiss. I also sleep when she leaves.
When the morning arrives my stomach hurts like some asshole are kicking me with a boots with knives in it. Damn! I press the button above my bed and the doctors and nurses hurriedly run inside. Damn!
I greeted my teeth to avoid shouting from the tortuous pain. Damn, damn, damn. Is dying feel this way? I closed my eyes tightly. When I heard Keandra's gasp and sobs I open them and saw her beside Roger and my mom who is crying as well. I smile at them, showing that it didn't hurt as much as they imagine it to be.
But I knew damn well, they knew that the pain is unbearable. The doctor injected some painkillers after the thorough examination.
"Hey." I said in a weak voice. She walks towards me still sobbing. She holds my hands tightly and murmur words I can't hear.
"I am always here whatever happens. You hear me?" She said. I nod. My mom and Roger gave us space to talk.
A week has passed, we spent everyday, every minute and every seconds together. The every seconds are extra special for me. My stomach hurts again and I groan in pain. She is silently sobbing at my side gripping my hands tighter as my groan becomes louder.
She keeps on kissing my hand and telling me how much she loves me. Damn, I love her so much. Fck! I love her to the moon and back! When the pain subsides I console her.
"Shhh.. I'm fine now. Come here." I grab her and let her slip beside me. I snuggle her towards me "Stop crying baby. Hearing you cry hurts more than this fcking cancer."
She nods her head and kisses my neck.
"I love you Rhage. I love you so much." She keeps on kissing me.
"I love you too baby. I love you to the moon and back Keandra." I kissed her temples and hug her tightly. It's the last strength that I have.
We just cuddle the whole day until late at night. Every time the pain kicks my stomach and I'll groan she will just hug me and trail kisses to my neck repeating her 'I love yous' to me. When I saw the clock strikes twelve, I smile.
"Happy Birthday baby. I love you Keandra." I whisper to her and kisses her lips.
She burst into tears.
"I love you too Rhage." She hugs me tightly. Then sunddenly..
Damn! The pain is back. I shut my eyes tightly, I suppress my groan. Fck! This time the pain is killing me. I can't feel anything, I can't hear anything. The pain is devouring me. My insides are like cut into half. Damn! This is it.
You
I miss you, your eyes, your nose, your lips, your touch, your embrace, your smell. I miss you. All of you.
I cupped your face lightly. Staring in your mesmerizing eyes intently. You gave me your toothy smile then gives my lips a peck before standing up and walks to the kitchen. I walk after you still watching your every move.
You move gracefully in the kitchen. Cooking breakfast, eating together and leaving for work is our daily routine. I can't keep my eyes off of you while you're eating. My gaze drop to your lips.
"Stop staring Rhage." You murmur then you reach for the side of my lips to wipe the cream in it. I nip your thumb, licking the cream away.
"It's sunday, what do you want to do?" I ask feeding you your favorite strawberry.
"A date with you." You simply answered, then smile again. After eating I grab your hands and head for the bedroom.
"You shower first." I said breathlessly after releasing you from a kiss. You chuckle before heading to the shower.
I planned a simple date. A cliché one. A lunch together, shopping, amusement park and a fancy dinner with you. I was busy making reservations for our dinner when you suddenly hug me from behind.
I can smell your citrus scent shampoo, your natural flower scent fresh from shower and I can feel you kiss in my shoulder blades. I held both of your wrist and face you.
I give your pouty lips a peck before nuzzling your neck.
"Damn, I love your smell." I kiss your neck lightly.
"Rhage. Shower. Now" Your throaty laugh makes me groan.
"Fine." I kiss your neck again before going to the shower.
I took my shower fast. When I got out of the bathroom I was surprised by your appearance. The blue sunday dress that you are wearing suits you like no other woman would. It represents your innocence and caring side. You walk towards me and grab the small towel in my hands to dry my hair yourself.
I chuckle.
"I can do it baby." I grab you wrist lightly.
"I want to." You said firmly then proceeds to drying my hair once again. You laugh, -damn your amazing laugh- while teasing me in having the towel in my face. I grab both of your wrist and remove the towel off my face.
I stare at your beautiful eyes, your nose, your smiling lips. Your gorgeous face. I lean in to kiss you softly. You moan in response, dropping the towel on the floor.
"I love you Rhage." You said lovingly before kissing the tip of my nose. I place my hands in you hips and draw you closer, pressed in my body. Your hands find its way to my shoulder, around my neck.
I kissed your forehead to your nose then drop sweet little kisses in your mouth.
"I love you too"
I open my eyes. Gasping for air as I breath hard.
Dammit! Same dreams, same scene. No difference. I still miss her like a madman. I can still smell her scent from the bedsheets, from my unwashed clothes, from me. I look into the bedside table and saw her, smiling at the camera.
Damn woman. I miss YOU.
Mahal kita pero Mas mahal ko siya
"Babe"-tawag ko sa kasintahan ko na naghihintay sa akin sa labas nang klase.
Busy siya sa pagtytype sa cp niya kaya nagtaka ko at titingnan sana kaso mabilis niya itong pinatay.
Tatanungin ko na sana siya pero nginiti-an niya ako at kinuha ang mga bitbit kong libro
"May problema bah?"-tanong ko sa kanya
"wala naman pagod lang sa klase kanina"-wika lang nito at hinawakan ang kamay ko.
Naglakad kami papunta sa bahay at sa di mapaliwanag na dahilan ay napakatahimik niya which is odd kasi lagi itong nagkukwento about sa araw niya pero kinibit balikat ko na lang kasi baka pagod lang siya.
Nang nasa tapat na kami nang bahay ay niyakap niya ako at hinalikan sa noo and then naglakad na siya paalis at naiwan akong tulala.
He didn't said i love you like he always do.
'baka napagod talaga'
Pagkatapos kong makapag-ayos at makakain ay hinagilap ko agad siya online siya pero la namang seen o ano man kaya naisip ko siguro naiwan lang niyang bukas ang data niya at nakatulog na.
Nang umagang iyon I turned on my phone at magchachat sana nang good morning kay liam(bf ko) nang makitang active 5 hrs ago siya. I tried to open his acc at nakitang nag iba ang password niya.
'Binago niya?'
Doon na ako nagalala, why am I feeling like this?
'Kalma lang mahal ka nun baka nakalimutan niya lang sabihin sayo'
Breaktime at I tried tp tlak to hime pero seen or like wala talaga kaya napabuntong hininga na lang ako na nakita ata nang kaibigan ko.
"probs?"-tanong ni keyan isa sa mga malapit kong kaibigan
"I don't know key but it feels like Liam is hiding something from me"-wika ko rito
"Hmm nakalimutan kong sabihin sayo pero noong isang araw nakita ko siyang kasama ang kapatid niyang babae, binati ko pa nga ehh tas namutla akala niya ata liligawan ko ang kapatid niya ehh parang mas matanda pa nga yun sa akin"-napatahimik ako sa sinabi niya.
'Kapatid na babae? He never had a sibling nagiisa lang siyang anak'
Mukhang nakuha ni keyan ang iniisip ko kaya nagalit ito.
"You better talk to him Cie baka ano na ang ginagawa nun behind your back"-wika nito na pinag-alala ko
"No key, mahal ako ni liam di nun magagawa nun oo nga, mahal ako ni liam"-wika ko na parang sarili ko pa sinasabihan ko
"sarili mo ata ang sinasabihan mo niyan at di ako"-wika ni key at bumalik na sa upuan sapagkat pumasok ang prof namin.
After class ni anino ni liam wala akong nakita kaya tuluyan na akong nagduda.
"Masama na ang pakiramdam ko dito Cie"-wika ni key tsaa kinuha ang mga libro ko
"Lika punta tayo sa ice cream palor diyan sa tabi mukhang kailangan mo nang kasiyahan ehh"-wika nito
'he really knows ny favorite'
Nagbiro pa si keyan papunta kami dun at alam ko na tinatry niyang mapasaya ako pero I was really sad at mas gumuho pa ang mundo ko nang makita ang sarili kong boyfriend na may kaharutang iba.
"Liam, ano ba stop that"-wika nang kilala kong babae at ang maharot ko naman soon to be ex ehh hinalik halikan pa ang leeg nito.
"Cie"-bulong ni key sa akin
Gusto kong puntahan siya at kausapin o kaya naman upakan but I choose to go away cause I'm too coward to be brave.
gabi nang dumating ako sa bahay at nakita kong naghihintay si liam sa akin.
Bago pa siya makabati sa akin ay sinampal ko na siya agad at mabilis namang bumaba si mama sa para ata daluhan ang lalaki.
"Sa lahat nang pwede mo ikabit sa relasyon tah ehh yung puta ko pang ina!!! Alam na alam mo na galit ako diyan sa putanginang iyan"-galit na sigaw ko pipigilan sana ako nang nanay ko pero sinampal ko siya.
"di ka pa nasayahan na iwan kami ni itay nilandi mo pa talaga ang nobyo kong gago. Napakawalanghiya mo!!!"-sigaw ko rito tiyaka ko ito tinulak at hinarap ang ex kong gago.
"Sabihin mo mahal mo ba talaga ako? O sadyang niligawan mo lang ako para mapalapit sa nanay ko?"-Umiiyak na wika ko
"Minahal kita Cielo totoong mahal kita kaso mas mahal ko ang nanay mo"-wika nito at sobrang galit ko ay sinipa ko ito sa kinabukasan nito.
"F*ck you, f*ck you both!!! MAY YOU ROT IN HELL YOU MOTHERF*CKERS"-sigaw ko at mabilis na tumungo sa kwarto ko at kumuha nang importanteng gamit tiyaka ako umalis.
"Anak please magpapaliwanag ako wag kang umalis"-umiiyak na wika ni mama na nakayakap pa sa ex ko
"Paliwanag? Eh gaguhan pala eto?ano pa ipapaliwanag mo sa sobrang kati mo kahit jowa nang anak mo pinatulan mo pa talagang malandi ka!!"-sigaw ko rito at sasampalin pa sana ako pero inunahan ko na siya.
"Ito tatandaan niyo ayoko nang makita ang pagmumukha niyong dalawa"-wika ko at naglakad paalas sa impyernong bahay na tinuring kong tahanan noon
Ano nga ba ang mas masakit? Ang di ka mahal nang mahal mo? O ang mahal mo pero may mahal na iba? Sa puntong toh mas masakit ang malaman mahal ka niya pero mas minahal niya ang iba kasi sa puntong yun di mo na alam kung saan ka nagkulang o saan ka nagkamali para iba ang kanyang mamahalin.
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