@kneelyrac 20 October 2021 more from that month

When I try to rest or I'm in the CR (like now 😅), the what-ifs and if-only thoughts are pouring through my exhausted brain. Like what if I didn't work and dedicate my time to studying? If only I don't need to work and hustle more, I'd probably have enough time to study. I stopped working after 3 years just to review and take the board: I was confident back then, and if only the pandemic didn't happen, I'd probably have a prefix on my name already. If only I didn't procrastinate during weekends. And blah blah blah. Anyway, it already happened. I have to condition myself and eradicate those thoughts and feelings. Regret is a bad B. I still have a few more days to go, and I don't know if I could pass this given that I have little time to refresh what I reviewed last year. I'm trying not to cram and freak out--trying to compose myself even though my heart is pounding. I need my fur babies. 🥺 Lord, Ikaw najud bahala. 🙏