Welcoming 2022

Hello world! how's everything about you during the whole year 2021.Is the year bring you more good or bad things?Well, let me tell you about my 2021 year.Since first month of 2021 entered, everything is sucks; financially, emotionally and spiritually matters.But i told myself those bad things will not last and i will break the bad luck.I tried to calm myself, do meditation, focus myself to other things, work harder and be more positive in life.I smiled even the hardest time but all came in vain.I mean the whole world didn't allow me to smile at universe.Overall Im stuck in the dark.I keep smiling and looking forward and be strong for the sake of my princess since im a single mom I can't just be defeated but inside of me every seconds is killing me.Most of the times, i found myself crying after my daughter went to sleep.It feels like I don't want to see another day of my life or don't want to breathe anymore.My sister told me it's all in my head so i tried all i can focus others.But it didn't help me.hearing two voices in my head is not a joke, it's makes me crazy anymore so i guess i fell into depression state..i stopped talking to my sister what's going inside of me coz she can't understand too.all i can do is look into my princess to keep me moving forward because I'm always thinking, what will happen to her when im gone?btw im a single mom..thinking how the world will treat her scares me a lot.i keep myself together and do more.For now, things still not good but at least i keeping more positive vibes and mind to myself. For year 2022, i dont have any plan except hoping i can afford my own house even the small one.i will just enjoy and make everything meaningful and memorable that my princess will be happy to remember in the future.Doing things that makes her childhood joyful and happy will be my focus.Fighting a battle inside of myself is not easy, but for her i will become stronger than before.