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Published letter for my bestfriend We've not been seeing each other for a long time. Since you left and went afar to find that thing that you called journey. Your happiness which you thought that you really ever wanted to achieve. And all your dreams that you want to fulfill until it lies in your own hand without any regret. I missed the time when we were together. I was always there to witness every single part of your life. From the very moment that your parents brought you in this world. I saw you grow, I even watch how you linger your little fingers on your mothers' face. Your arms.. your arms that is aiming for a big hug from your brothers and sisters who's very excited to feel the tender warmth of yours. Time passes by, you grow older and older. Building up your dreams that is later distracted by challenges but you never gave up. Your frustration by the heart weakens me but your strong spirit to continue life gave me strength for once again. I am there when you're feeling down, but now I'm here by your side to lift you up. People judge me, they even say I'm worthless. They look at me like I'm a kind of trash but I'm not, right? But now I heard you said you have to leave and find yourself. I can't do anything to stop you and it really pains me. Every memories that I kept seems like a precious diamond to us. And now you were here back again. Staring and glaring at me, focusing your eyes from one way to another, as if you saw yourself having such scenes flashing back in your mind. You saw yourself fall out of frustration because of what you've been through but you can still manage to grow into a better person despite of many challenges. And it only reveals how strong your personality is. A person who's now celebrating his victory. Then once again, you smile back at me. I can feel how happy that heart of yours is for I am your photo album.. your best friend that you can surely keep from now and forever.

You can run but you can't hide Life is like a speck of dust which grimaced in the cold breeze of air by the door. It is as fine as the pile of ashes and as exciting as the burning inferno that refused to be consumed. But with my lofty ambitions, I never found it as glorious as I ever wanted it to be. There's still something that my mind and my scorching body demanded. It was like an embarrassing confession or an unwanted birthday gift. I've struggled a lot in life.      I've been through the ups and downs and I've been the own victim of my mistakes. My body was already rejecting the pain, it had made scars in my delicate ego. My dignified suffering has mold me as I am right now. I was even able to separate the reality from the dizzy spin of fantasy. Reality was as red as blazing fire callusing the muddy soil. Everything seems to be real. All the struggles that I have been through made me feel like was being saved in half, hit by a bus, trampled by a prizefighter and soaked in acid all at the same time. I let myself swallow the pain but the lump inside my throat was burning. Things aren't clear and refined, the blackness overcame my innocence. I can't find a way to see the light for me to be able to escape. Until I found the answer, I heard God's whisper, the genuity and tenderness; and when you can finally accept the fact that you have God who really do love you, that's when you can finally be happy.