@eve 26 June 2020 more from that month

and i fall in love again

My heart has been broken many times, then he came right in time to mend my heart. At first I saw how he smile at me and make me wonder what is the reason behind it.I did a lot of things just to push him away,because I am so scared to be hurt again, the pain from being cheated a lot of times that I almost doubt my self if I really deserve to be love, the battle of overcoming the trauma of being a battered wife. There are times that I will just look in a corner and my tears start to fall the feeling that I did silly and bad things just past the day. My life is a mess and I almost stop my self to be productive again. I almost came to a point to have a revenge in every person who had hurt me I become so blinded by all the pain and I want them to suffer much more than i had experienced. His presence made me feel that I am not alone he did a lot of things so I can be happy again. He made me forget all the painful experienced I had and to have revenge to all the people who hurt me. He is always beside me and make me feel that I am so special and must be taken care well. Those time that I feel the sincerity in him.His ears is always open to hear all my thoughts about my past and I he never said any words he is just there to listen.He knows how to make me smile and laugh.Time came that I know he is already mend my heart I become positive in every thoughts that i have, plan to do things with him. But into my surprise I discover that he is still had feelings with his ex and I felt the pain again. I stopped to see him and I pushed him away many times. Then I saw him how he is so miserable the time that I pushed him away from me, He always want to hung out with his friends and got drunk most of the time, he forget to take care of him self,That time I realize that he never make me feel alone he is always there to listen that's why I told my self it is not right to leave him in time that he needed someone to be at his side. Then I started to listen with out any words and open my heart without a doubt. We are now living together for five years with a three year old son and each day of our lives we are thankful and blessed that we have each other as well as with our son to face all the challenges in life.Even though I told my self i will never fall in love again he gave me enough reason and he never stop to prove me that I am worth be love.