@emcien1730 4 September 2021 edited more from that month

My First and Last

I still clearly remember, it was 2012, town feast. I was a candidate for a pageant while He was a basketball player. It all started with a simple ride. He took me home safe and sound. That was the first time a man did to me! A pinch in my heart! Ahh! We started communicating, text/chat/ call. Until we fell for each other. Unfortunately, the communication stops. No personal break up. It just ended there. I have entered a new relationship without a confirmation if we were officially apart. Yes! Not only me but also him! We both have new separate lives to live. I had my longest relationship for more than five years. But did not end well. After a year of moving on, our fate with my first boyfriend had met again. Sadly, he was in a relationship. But then again, as if the universe made a way for us to be together the second time. Our love for each other did not lost. We chase each other, we waited for each other and then WE were back!!!! C'est la vie! Is this what they call destiny?! May 30,2020......His birthday. The moment when everything started again. Between US. Unexpected. Feeling grateful. Thankful. We started to talk about OURS. Plan our future, started to build our dreams and continued to support each other. He is a seafarer now. I am a teacher. Two different realms. We learned to love each others' imperfections, accepting the flaws, creating new memories and trying the inexperienced. Maybe all the odds are against us now because of each others past. But one things is for sure. I will always chose him. We will chase each other. To be honest, he was one of the people who made me strong all at this trying times. He was my refuge every time things are not in proper ways. His voice, his angelic face, his smile. That's all I have at this moment. Those make me calm. His long sent messages (cause He only have limited internet connection) and his "corny" jokes were my comforters. I hope one day, he will be with me. He will be here to hold my hand and hug me. He will be here to kiss my forehead. He will be here to make me calm. Because his my safe haven. I am hoping and praying that we will be together soon. The distance maybe a big obstacle for us but our love will always be greater. He is not a mistake in my past and Never a regret in the future. He will always be my first and last. 💖