It hurts when I don't see you You're too near yet too far away. If I don't see you for a day, it hurts and all I can do is sigh and wait for the moment I see you again. I go to my imaginary world. But I can't get enough. I just can't get enough. Why does it hurt? Will there come a time that you will hold my hand? And that you will look at me in the eye and tell me sweetly you like me? I'm dying for the day you'll hold my hand and see my face. No matter how hard I try to make…
Hey, life! I am still living. No matter how imaginary my world is, I still live of it and I feel alive. At least I am living. I am alive. It is real for real. It hurts so many times and a lot but hurting is a sign of life. Am I happy? I am. But not really. Though it's still life. You may call it a life of sorrow. But I also have joys. So my life is still a life. Truthfully speaking, I am in so much distress over what is happening to me now. I can't tell you what is but…
Just your picture In this life of wrong choices and mediocre ways of doing things, this woman longs for bliss and better things. Perhaps just a longing, not really something I really needed to happen. And then I saw you. On the social media platform, someone took a group picture and you were there. And I itched to be with you. My desire to be with you, to hold you and to touch you has been fueled. I thought I have forgotten all about it, but then, I saw your picture and I…
Same stage forever and a day I won't budge from here. Not now, not ever. There are things that we just can't own. And if we aren't suppose to own, we better stay still and look other ways. Still I am itching. But I have to keep a level head. No point distorting what is already in order. The life I am living is in order, why should I put it to chaos. Either I enjoy this order for the rest of my life, or mess it up and be doomed for life. But then it is quite complicated. So…
Uninvited I just wonder why when uninvited, we still insist to assume that we are. Like when going to gatherings, why do we still go despite knowing that nobody called on us? Is it due to being thick in the face? Who knows? I believe that in a culturally-bound community, it is the responsibility of the host to try his/her best to invite everyone who is supposed to be on the list of invited guests. Well, if he/she didn't mean the error of overlooking someone, then I believe…
Accept it YMove with ease. Accept your fate. Don't resist. Go along the flow of life. On a day or another, we'll meet our demise and that is it with our life. Are you still wishing you were thinner? Still wishing you could have moved in with that long lost loved one? Do you still have regrets? The mere fact that we are alive is already a thing in itself. We are alive. And we don't need to act as if achievements were out happiness. We should just live because that is how it…
Feeling empty I didn't feel my usual self. No BIG appetite to go with my loud self. Not feeling in love and not having my poetic tendency. I guess I am feeling empty. Am I happy? I should be but honestly I am not. I used to believe that boring moments don't exist at all. That there are infinite things that we can do and never feel bored our entire life. What do I want? What is holding me back from doing my usual thing? Fearing crossing others especially those members of the…
Payment is payment I am beginning to realize that business should indeed be business. Of course, there are things like discounts and promos. But still, a business person should know best when to do this or that. My adult friend has been in the business for decades now. I usually stand by her store during my free time. In truth, I make time to stand by her store. It's just, I believe, my way of getting stories for myself. Then a time came when a customer was buying mobile…
The reason I'm alive Reason? I don't have that. I realized that I should just live and be alive. Dreaming and living is a gift that those who are alive have. We shouldn't lament unnecessarily. Whatever life is given to us, we should just live it. If there is a secret I can tell you is to just live within your means. Don't take out loans and don't promise anything. In the end, we perish and die. Nothing to bring to the grave. Not even our most precious possessions. Good if…
Go back to reading prints Is it arrogance? Or simply loss of interest? I stopped reading books. The mere thought of using A LOT of time reading scares me that might miss my responsibilities. But thinking about the time that I also consume for watching 'unreal' dramas is equally alarming. I should then decide to go back to reading books. I have to prod myself to do it. But reevaluating my reason for going back, I should set a more sensible reason. That I read simply because…
Attend to your health needs This should be more of a self advice than telling it to you, dear readers. But I can't help speaking in case someone listens. I've been a critic. Why? Because I kept criticizing others why they got their illness. No, it's not what you think. It's simply, without me noticing, I would give out remark like "She got sick... Maybe because of what she did back then..." And it would hit me that that would exactly what I might tell myself. I have been…
Always have patience Before, the internet signal that we had in our place was way slower than it is now. It was probably just 2G back then. But then, I had the patience to bear with it. I browsed sites and read texts. However much slow it has been, I would still wait for it to load until I would be able to read my search pieces. Now, the internet has no doubt become faster. Even though you would say it is still very much behind than those fast-paced countries, you would…
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