Consuming time is time consuming but what can I do? Consuming time thinking of you is very time consuming. But what can I do? It's the only thing I can ever do about my feelings for you. I can't confess, no I can't. Not to my friends, not to my siblings, definitely not to my parents, and not to anyone. I maintain a pride hard to let go. I shouldn't go first. No I won't. I will wait forever and that I must do. This is the game I will take on and the time you'll let on that I…
I will bear this cross I've had for myself Who else created your situation? Most responsible person would be you. If you disagree, think well then come back to answer again. Happy. Sad. Blissful. Terror. Empty. It is up to what you've done the result that you will get. And how can you fix ugly scenes? That I don't know. Patch it up? Maybe . Fix it? Maybe. Let go? Sad but it could be what you want or need to do. Cry you must. When your tears let up, go on again and fight.…
But life has its ways But life has its ways if finding faults. We thought we got off scot free. But in reality, not in the very least. You take some and some will be taken from you. You do just a bit and a bit will be done to you. You help others and others will help you. You steal and you will be stolen from. Life has its ways indeed... And you have heard of karma. We have to give in order to receive. We have to have capital in order to have gain. We have to have a heart in…
The ways things were Leaves falling down and I wish it was spring. The life out of me is deteriorating. I want to get out and live. How do I live when I left my life back during my youth. I can't complain, I can't do that, that's not in the list. Let us get going no matter what we're are thinking. Let us get moving lest we get stuck. Let us keep the wheel rotating and let us get on with our lives. Ah... Can't explain. Can't identify. I'm at a loss for words. I can't go where…
Persistence is key sometimes In this world where so many things happen, it is a must that we be persistent. In waiting for our kids, for our food, for our groceries, for what we have ordered, and for things to work out. I obtained a pre-used box for viewing. Sad thing it always showed an error screen. I was already giving up, feeling bad for the expenses for it. Still I just left the screen on. While we were sitting with the kids, the channel suddenly showed up and the kids…
Calling someone 'bobo' is not recommended I've been tutoring these kids. Not all of them but some of them, I've been tutoring them. And I would always be glad when there is at least a beam of light going through their brains. But then, they probably do not know what 'bobo' means or that they just use the word thoughtlessly. I'm so concerned about these kids calling others 'bobo' while playing mobile games when they themselves couldn't understand a single thing when I tutor…
Love me with your eyes I saw your younger sister. She said to sleep over. It's okay she's near me. It's like you being with me. But hey! Can't get enough. Will I see you later? Will I see you tomorrow? Will you speak with me? Will you love me back? I know you won't and I know we're not a thing. But look at me and see me. Listen to my eyes and look at my heart. Won't you? You'll see what there is to my heart, you'll hear what my eyes says. And we'll talk and we'll know about…
Coffee and looking older than one’s age I’ve been on coffee for a very long time now. Let us say that I stopped occasionally, for say at most a month, but then I resumed coffee at the very first sign of vulnerability to the addictive substance. I was thankful, at the very least, that the substance helped me stay awake for nights that I needed to stay awake. I also used it to up my mood when I felt down, though it also was the cause of my depression every time I took it…
Let's just call it a life I am done waiting. Waiting for things that are yet to see me, feel me, whatever. I am done looking at them and they, not minding me a bit. Though that I have no way of knowing. I am done waiting for the impossible. I know it won't ever come to that point that I like it to come to. I am done looking at things. I guess it's time to call it a life. No I am not thinking of ending anything. I am just saying that I'm done waiting and that what's left to…
Drawing a line between you and me We've never been destined for each other. We've never been a thing. We've never met at the same page, and we've never seen each other's heart. It has just been my selfish desire to want you. It has been my childish ploy to desire your attention when I shouldn't be doing these things at all. But despite you not knowing anything, I feel so battered and rejected inside. I feel so much pain that not even the ladies' laughters could drown. Let me…
Moving away from vanity For a long time, I allowed myself the fickleness and mindlessness that I've been so wary about. I shouldn't have allowed those as they are very destructive to ones life. Anyhow, chance managed to get me out of danger. Logic is still the best weapon against a person's foolishness. Without we are doomed. I finally awoke from my sleep. And life is telling me to move on and make better choices, make better use of my time in a day. In a day, I should work…
I saw your back and it shot me right to you Instantly, I was taken back to you. That moment I saw your back. Why is chemistry so true and raw? Why does it transcend rationality? Sometimes, it just works that way. Chemistry. But then, it is also as playful. It isn't always mutual. One feels, the other doesn't. And is that fair? One may say it isn't. But I say it may be. So as to avoid complications. One must deal with the pain. Sometimes, of silent rejection. When you're…
I spend hours in my imaginary world In a rectangular prism, covered with what they call as mattress cover and bedsheet, I lay. The inside is cushion, and am I comfortable? Maybe... My mind goes elsewhere. I lay and I seek something. So I go there in my imaginary world. I spend hours, thinking of you. What better else is there to do? Boy, am I wasting time? I am. But what better else is there to do? Tell me... I spend hours, in my cushion. It shoots me to another world. And I…
I could have done a little more but I refused We finally had the chance of staying in one room. I accompanied your sister to your house. A chance was that your sister asked for your help. You came to the room and helped us. I could have brushed my arms to yours. I could have stared at your back for longer. I could have done a little more. But I refused. Your sister went out a little bit to wash dishes scheduled for her to do. But instead of staying in the room with you, I…
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