@curiouscat 15 May 2022 more from that month

Sudden shift Cold evening from my side. How are you all? *Ame.* Ame means rain in Japanese language. I love rain so much. It allows me to think and think of things. It's not the anxious way of thinking or overthinking just simply trying to reflect about life, past events and possibility of the future. I also love to read during rainy days and most of all sleep. Having an allergy to cold makes me sometimes hate the cold weather. Because of course cold season means I'll itch and have rashes all over my body most especially after taking a bath. Also, rain reminds me of those times that our house is not sturdy. Before, rain makes us wake up in a middle of the night to put basins where there is a rain water leaking from the roof because it has holes. My sisters and I also go up near our roof to out hard paper covered with plastic cover then we will put it in between the pawid ano ba english dun haha nipa?? where the hole is present. Even though it's really difficult for us when it's raining I didn't hate the rain but don't wish for it either most especially when it's heavy or a stormy one. However, from the past days I don't why I am experiencing a sudden shift. Whenever it's raining I can't keep myself at ease. When it becomes heavy and pours really hard, I can't help but be anxious. I don't know why. The worst is when it is accompanied by thunderstorm :(( I am not afraid with thunders before. I get shock whenever it comes but not to the point that I just wanna hide. If mom is not around or if someone in our family is not home yet amd it's raining I get paranoid. Hope I'll be able to fix and overcome with this. It's raining right and my sister is still out there. Good thing mom is with me so am less anxious how've hope my sister will be home soon because it's stressing the fudge out of me. Thanks for stopping by;)