@boringwriter 24 October 2021 more from that month

I feel so lonely and hopeless recently. Because of this power electricity, I suddenly became sad and think something unhealthy. I don't know how to handle my emotions right now. Do I need to exert more my effort, or do I shall quit? I really envy those people who is just starting, but they're already getting the achievent that they deserved. The song of Olivia Rodrigo rn is killing me softly. As I'm thinking deeply, do I think that I'm eligible to get the things that I wanted to be if from the very start, it's not actually intended on my plan? As far as I can, I'm aiming to do my best. Trying to socialize and trying to learn is what I'm currently doing, but these instances giving me a sign to give up. As of now, I'm thinking if I would quit, and gruel to discover more opportunities that is suitable for me. Like, I just need to move on from the door which you thought that it is a good start. Not to mention my problem because I don't want to feel you bothered. The hell week will be nearer, so expect that it will just lead me to quit what I have been pondered. Sorry for these thoughts. Doubting if I shall quit or not. It seems like I'm not yet really ready. Feel like I don't have an ample knowledge to insert on this opportunity. Sorry for drama once again. Just to clarify, I'm not insisting anyone because I'm aware how intelligent they are. Just need to refresh and focus on other things for the mean time. 51% quit 49% not