@boringwriter 16 August 2021 more from that month

When you realized that you are only using as a frame through your family, and they are urging you to leave alone. My god, this toxicity is killing me much. It happened last night, and this day proved me that they didn't care about me. They only care about what people would say, and they're just using us just to make their image fragrant. It sucks that they didn't ask if I'm okay emotionally, and they freaking care about my eyesight. I'm so upset as of now since they proved me that my dream to them is just a waste of time, and I feel like I need to aim higher for myself. I'm not actually having a doubt if I would kill myself since I still want to be rich, and I guess that eradicating them into my dream is a great way for me to erase all my sorrows.