@basika 1 September 2021 more from that month

Modern life has imposed so many obligations on us that they do not fit into one normal working day, into one normal human lifespan. Today, we can no longer even fantasize about what we really want, and dreams from our youth have completely faded. Caught in a web of credit, family commitments and ever-increasing hours at work, we don’t get to ask ourselves what we really wanted out of life, who we really are, whether what we are today is what we really wanted to be. "I would change my life if I had the time," is a book written long ago by American spiritual teacher Doreen Virtue. The title is ironic and captures the essence of what we do to ourselves. Is there anything more important than our lives? How is it possible that we don’t find time for our own lives? And then whose life do we live at all? Whose expectations, whose dreams are we realizing? Life is a small glimpse in time that someone gave us in the eternal faith that in the end at least one man will be born who will know what to do with it. What exactly do we do that we don’t have time to change lives? We have to pay the bills, clean the apartment, be good parents, wives, friends, socially accepted and helpful people. And then that "one day" happens. One day, in fact, you wake up and realize that you no longer find meaning in that chase, that you are tired, you feel old and as if all the time you were just feeding some strange beast inside you. Some say her name is Ego, while others claim it is called Fear of Life. And that "one day" you see something that you missed before. Realize that things can actually go very well without you. This realization, depending on the degree of maturity of the soul, strongly affects one and liberates another. Suvremeni život nametnuo nam je toliko obveza da ne stanu u jedan normalan radni dan, u jedan normalan ljudski vijek. Danas više ne stignemo ni maštati o tome što doista želimo, a snovi iz mladosti posve su izblijedjeli. Uhvaćeni u mrežu kredita, obiteljskih obveza i sve duže satnice na poslu, ne stignemo sami sebe pitati što smo doista željeli od života, tko smo mi doista, je li ovo što smo danas ono što smo doista željeli biti. „Promijenila bih život kad bih imala vremena za to“, knjiga je koju je davno napisala američka duhovna učiteljica Doreen Virtue. Naslov je ironičan i u sebi hvata bit onoga što činimo samima sebi. Ima li išta važnije od našega života? Kako je moguće da ne nalazimo vrijeme za vlastiti život? A čiji onda život uopće živimo? Čija očekivanja, čije snove realiziramo? Život je mali tračak u vremenu koji nam je netko poklonio u vječnoj vjeri da će se na kraju ipak roditi bar jedan čovjek koji će znati što učiniti s njim. Što točno radimo da nemamo vremena mijenjati život? Moramo plaćati račune, pospremati stan, biti dobri roditelji, supruzi, prijatelji, društveno prihvaćene i korisne osobe. A onda se dogodi onaj „jedan dan“. Jednoga dana, naime, probudite se i shvatite da više ne nalazite smisla u toj jurnjavi, da ste umorni, osjećate se staro i kao da ste sve vrijeme samo hranili neku čudnu zvijer u sebi. Neki kažu da joj je ime Ego, a drugi pak tvrde da se zove Strah od života. I toga „jednoga dana“ vidite nešto što vam je prije promaklo. Uvidite da se stvari zapravo jako lijepo mogu odvijati i bez vas. Ta spoznaja, ovisno o stupnju zrelosti duše, nekoga jako pogađa, a drugoga doista oslobađa.