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"I'll be there" "I just want to say thank you Rhage." She sigh on the other line. "No problem. You know you can call me anytime you want." I respond. "Well, I need to go. He's here." "Oh, okay bye. Keep safe Charm." I sigh after she hang up. This is the cycle of our story. He'll hurt her, she'll call me, I'll comfort her and she would go back to him. This sucks but it's the only way that I can get close to her. I became her damn bestfriend. The next day Charm called me at 3AM. I didn't bother checking the ID number because I knew that it would be her. No one calls me at this hour but her. "Hmm?" I answered. "Can you come to me? I'm drunk." She said in a raspy voice. Why is she drunk? "Did something bad happened again?" I asked. She groans. "Can you just pick me up please?" "Right. I'll be there." I hang up. I turn on my tracker to track her phone and to know her location. This better be not about that damn guy again. ------------------------------------------------------------------ "You feeling good now?" I ask her as I drop the 2 tablets of abuprofen and a glass of water on her bedside table. "Yeah..I'm good." She sound like she badly needs water. I sit beside her in the bed. "Here drink this." I hand her the ibuprofen and the water.  "So, what happened yesterday?" I continued. "He.. he cheated." She said in a small voice. "That's nothing new." I roll my eyes at her. "I know but he said the other day that he would change." "And you believed it?" Damn, I just wanted to punch that arsehole until his face would break and his eyes would pop out, out of his eye socket. She just nod. This is getting into my nerves. I stand abruptly and tell her that I need to go to work. I kiss her forehead and say my goodbye. -------------------------------------------- From: Charm We got back together. He kneeled and apologized. -------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------- To: Charm Yea, sounds great. -------------------------------------------- She replied with a crying emoji and I just ignored her. I love her but she is just downright fool for that arsehole. Weeks have passed they are getting sweeter and sweeter she have him in almost all of her social media. I'm not being salty but that damn arsehole is just getting into my nerves. I was about to mount my motorcycle when I saw David eating someones' face out. He is freakin' cheating again. I walk fast towards the alley where he is leaning in the wall and ravishing the girls' lips. I automatically grabbed his collar and punch his face hard. I keep on punching him until he dropped to the floor. The girl run off screaming. I flip him off and walk out. I dial Charm's number she picked up sobbing. "What happened?" I ask mounting my bike again. "We just had a fight and he walked out and he.... he..." She is sobbing furiously. My blood boils. "What did he do?" I said in a menacing tone. "Can you come here... at my place... please?" She is still sobbing. "I'll be there at ten." I hang up and drive my bike fastly. ------------------------------------------------------------------ "You what?" I half shouted at her in the phone. "I said... yes... when he asked if I want to get us back together." She said in a small voice. "Charm, are you nuts? What the.. you.. ghadammit Charm!" I hang up. He hurt her a hundred times, damaged her a thousand times and broke her into pieces, a million times and she freaking knows that, that damn arsehole is a psycho but then she said yes? Again? For nth time when will she ever learn? When will she ever realized that I'm here? I'm waiting! and I fckn love her for pete's sake! I throw my phone in the wall and it broke into pieces. I stand up and walk out of my apartment. I need to let this anger out. ------------------------------------------------------------------ For the last couple of months she's happy with him but I can still see him occasionally in the bar just a couple of blocks from my workplace eating someone's face but I won't pry anymore. I gave Charm space, she would text me every now and then but I don't engage as much as I did before, I just can't handle this situation anymore. I love her alright but I can't have her. Maybe, I'll wait. When I was about to open my apartment door my phone rang. "Hey what's up? Something happened again? " She didn't call last couple of months so I conclude there must be another fight or cheating or whatever happened to both of them today. "Uhm... He.." "He cheated again?" I ask in sarcasm. "No, no, no no." She chuckles.  "He proposed Rhage. We are getting married!" She squeals. "Oh.. okay.." My throat went dry. I didn't expect this to happen. I can feel the tears in my eyes. "You'll be attending my wedding right? Even if you hate him you love me. So pretty please?" She said in her sweetest voice. I swallow the lump in my throat. "Yes, I'll be there."

"Before I let you go" "I'm gonna wait Scarlett." I hug her firmly. "Don't, I don't know if I'll show up." She said in a monotonic voice. She breaks my hug and walk out. I just stay in the park for the next 30 minutes. I walk home thinking what did I do wrong? What's my mistake in this relationship? Why is she doing this to me? The night pass so slowly that I can even hear the tik of the clock in my bedroom. I can't sleep, I keep on thinking if I'm not enough for her. I slept at 4AM and woke up at 9AM. I took a shower and texted her to meet at the same place at 5PM today. -------------------------------------------- From: Scarlett Just don't expect too much Rhage. -------------------------------------------- I smile bitterly at her reply. I started my day by writting a couple of chapters in my new book and after that I went blank. Her face just keep on showing every time I close my eyes, or even staring at things that reminds me of her, my Scarlett. When the clock strikes 4:30 I fetch my jacket and my newest release book on my bookshelf and walk to the park. When the the time strikes 5 she didn't show up but I still waited for her. 3 hours pass, I'm sitting in the swing alone in the park. The kids earlier went home already, some high school teenagers pass by and play but they were all gone as well. I'm just alone in the park. I was about to walk home when I saw her standing right under the lamp post. I walk slowly towards her, she is wearing her usual poker face. "You came." I said sounding so relief. She didn't respond and just nod instead. "I... wanted to give you this." I handed her my newest book. She accepted it. "My Scarlett..." She said in a small voice. She reads the title of the book and look at me shocked. "I just wanted to give this to you. I badly wanted to tell you my feelings and ask you tons of questions about how we ended up like this but I know you won't like that. So I'm giving you that. My feelings for you, my inner conflict about this relarionship and the things that I love about you is all in there." I walk towards her and stop inches away from her. She is crying, I wipe her tears away and I kiss her on the lips. I hug her so tight and cry as well. Damn, I don't know why we ended like this. I ask a million times why to her but she won't tell me her reasons. "Shh.. we'll gonna be alright." I console her. She just nod. "I love you Scarlett and always will, I wanted you to know that before I let you go." I mess her hair and smile at her painfully before turning my back at her and walk back to my house with a broken heart.

"Shaine" "Are you tired already?" I asked her. "Nah, the competition is coming so I must not." she chuckles. "You look satisfied." I smile seeing her smile. "The choreography, I'm just happy that we finished the choreography already." she look at me smiling. I smiled back. She is just downright gorgeous. A talented lady and a smartmouth, I like her for that. "You are sweating so much. You didn't bring extra shirt again?" I asked her. "Nah, our house is just a walking distance from here. You are the one who must bring one. It takes 2 hrs to arrive in your house. I don't really understand why did you attended this school." she shakes her head and smiles. "Nah, here have this. Return it to me tomorrow." I handed her my extra shirt then walk abruptly to avoid her from saying no to my offer. ---------------------------------------------- From: Cute Choreographer Tell me when you got home. ---------------------------------------------- I smiled seeing her text. Damn this girl for making me giddy from just a simple text. ------------------------------------------------ To: Cute Choreographer I will. Have you arrived already? -------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------- From: Cute Choreographer Yup. -------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------- To: Cute Choreographer Eat your dinner already then rest. Take a half bath and sleep early. -------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------- From: Cute Choreographer Yes boss. Take nap while on the road. Eat your dinner when you arrive as well😊 -------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------- To: Cute Choreographer: I will. You eat now, I'll take a nap. -------------------------------------------------- She didn't reply anymore and I took a nap. "You okay?" she asked me. I chuckle nervously. "I'm just nervous that's all." I mess her hair. She is really good at concerning herself to others without her realizing it. She just cares too much, sometimes I misunderstand her. The competition went well but we didn't place. We are just happy because no one was injured and we gave our best to the performance. I look at her direction, she is just smiling. I walk towards her. "Hey, what's up? You are not satisfied with our performance?" I asked her as I place my hand in her shoulders. "Nah, I'm good." she smiled again. The next day they plan on coming over to my house. "Guys, I told you it's just too far. I'm sure some of your parents won't allow you." I state as I look at her and waiting for her approval. I know her mom is as strict as a military officer. "My mom approved already." she beams. I smile, she's coming with them tomorrow. -------------------------------------------------- To: Cute Choreographer Where are you at already? --------------------------------------------------

"Switch of Fate" "You both are really a good match Rhage." Leah playfully punch my arms. I chuckle. She is as insensitive as a rock. I liked her since I can't remember but she can't even sense it. "Yeah right." I answer with stoic face. I look at her while she is looking at the covered court. At Steven, his boyfriend playing basketball. When will this dumb ass realize that I care for her too much to the point where I don't commit to any relationship, hoping that one day she'll notice me. I sigh. I am known in the school for breaking every girl's heart who confesses to me. "Rhage? We'll be heading out. You coming with us?" Leah asked me. I didn't realize I spaced out while thinking those thoughts. "Nah, I'll be dining out with Loraine." I smirk and wink at her. She punches by shoulder. "You playboy!" She bend down and whispers. "Make sure to use condom pretty boy." she winked at me. "Let's go baby. See you bud." Steven grab her. She waves her hand to me I just nod. Heck, when will I stop assuming that she'll love me back? I stand up and waited in the locker room for Loraine. "So, when will you tell her? You are so fucking coward you piece of shit! I told you already that you should confess your love for her before that Steven could. I'm out of ace Rhage! I've done so much and I'm freaking tired of your love story. I gave up. You are too fucking coward!" Loraine nag me emphasizing the last word. "And Rhage?" "Hmm?" "Tito called me. I'll be staying in your place tomorrow. He said you fired your recent helper. Why did you do that jerk? Who else will help you, you fucking moron?" "Will you stop cussing for a minute Raine? Please." She just throw me her infamous smirk and wink. I sigh. Loraine is Leah's cousin who's helping me about my feelings for her cousin. When we eat together it's either she nags at me or we're planning something for me to confess my feelings. The sad part is, I never had the chance to confess my feelings. I sigh. "You know what? Why don't you just give up? If you're that coward you don't stand a chance." She said while chewing her pasta. "I don't know what to do okay? And please don't talk when your mouth is full. You're gross." I said eyeing her pasta. "Drake and I broke up yesterday." She said casually like breaking up with her boyfriend is a normal thing. "You playgirl." I shake my head while smiling. She wink at me. The next day I waited for Loraine in the locker room. "Hey?" she said. I was texting. I respond without looking at her. "We'll dine in my place." then I walk out the locker room. "Rhage!" I turn around and saw Leah. Fuck? "What are you doing here? And where is Loraine?" I ask her. "She told me you have something to tell me." she said frowning. Fuck that playgirl for pulling this stunt. I am having second thought. Today is thursday it means Steven is in practice til 9PM and we had an early dismissal so the school is almost empty now. Fudge! This is making me nervous. Fine, It's now or never. I grab her hand and walk us to the closest empty classroom and close the door. She stands just in front of the door, while I am looking at the window my back at her. "So, what are you going to--" "I like you!" I didn't let her finish her sentence. She didn't say a word so I decided to face her. She was shocked but laugh after how many seconds. "Are you kidding me Rhage?" She shakes her head. "No! I like you. No scratch that, I love you Leah. When will you ever notice it?" "Stop kidding around Rhage Noire! I'm not happy with this any--" I punch the nearest wall on her. She stopped talking and look at me shocked. "At last, you're looking at me now." I whisper. I cupped her chin. "I'm not kidding Leah, I don't do jokes when it comes to my feelings. I've been enduring this for a lifetime now and I'm about to burst. I like you so damn much! Fuck! I love you. I really am. I don't know what to do with this feelings anymore. Hiding this feelings this long is making my head turmoil if I'm going to hide it til forever I'll be insane." I said, pain is visible in my voice. "But you and Loraine--" "We are nothing. She's helping me to confess my feelings for you." I said nodding down. She cupped my face. "Why didn't you tell me before?" She asked. "I can't." "Why?" she frowns. I heard my message tone rang. I kiss her lips slowly. "I love you Leah." I kiss her forehead. I walk out of the school while reading my text. -Raine- Ey moron? You have 5 hrs left til your flight. Be here before 7. I sigh. At least I've said it. "So, what happened? Did you tell her?" Loraine ask while handing me my kit and water. "Yeah I did." I said after having my medicine. "What's her reaction? Btw, the camera in your room is all set. Make it faster. You'll leaving at 9." she remind me. "She was shocked and maybe confused." I said sadly. I look at Loraine in the eyes. I can see the sadness in her eyes and I know it's reflecting in mine too. "Why did this happen to me Raine? Did I do something terrible in the past to deserve this?" I said, my voice cracking. "You should come back. I still have to judo with you. You get me moron?" I just sigh. "Stop sighing. You start what you're goin to do. I'll be packing your luggage." "Raine, you look beautiful today btw!" I shouted when she walked to my room. "I'm always beautiful moron! You are the only guy who never saw that!" she shouted back. Loraine is really a beauty I gave you that. Even though her mouth is a cussing machine she is kind. A beauty inside out. I actually admire her. For years that she's helping me with Leah, I sometimes got confused if this feelings, excitement and giddy that I feel, if it is still for Leah. As I tell her I love her earlier I feel numb. I kiss her to feel the excitement that I always feel whenever she's around me but I didn't felt it anymore. When I heard my message tone rang honestly, my heart skips a beat. I know it's Loraine that's why I walk here as fast as I could. This has been happening to me lately. I got excited to see her. I felt giddy whenever she sleeps over here because I fired another helper. I don't know what is this. Fuck! I'm confused right now. I don't know what to do anymore. "Bye, you make sure to come back you freaking moron. You get me?" she punches my stomach playfully. "Raine, will you stop cussing. Please?" "No I won't. I know, I know I'll cry if I stop." she stutter. She is crying now. I hug her. "Shhh. Fine, fine. You cuss all you want just don't cry. Please." "I love you Rhage." I stunned. I was about to let go of the hug but she pulls me. "I love you but I'm fine of what we have right now. Me being the one you lean on, me being a shoulder you cry on, me being your listener in all of your Leah stories, your dad being my godfather and also me loving you secretly. I'm fine with this Rhage. Just please comeback." she let go of me. She squeeze my hand. "Fight this fucking cancer and don't die. Please? I'm begging you." I pull and hug her tightly. "I'm sorry Raine. I'm sorry, I'm sorry." I keep repeating the word. I'm an asshole for not noticing her feelings, I'm too blinded by my feelings towards Leah that I didn't notice her feelings for me. "It's fine. Please comeback. I'll give this tape to Leah tomorrow mor--" "Don't give it to her." "Why?" I kiss her forehead. "I'll comeback I promise you that. I'll come back for you Raine." My flight number was called. I kiss her forehead again and walk away. She is still stunned. I smile and wave my hand at her. Please God, let me live. Let me live and take care of that girl. I wanted to return the love she gave me. A lone tear drop from my eye. Wait for me Raine.

"So Long" I am drinking my coffee in our favorite coffee shop reminiscing our past while looking around. Time passes so fast. I remember our good days. Seeing us in the flower shop just parallel to this store, you laughing so hard while looking for your favorite flowers. You smiled at me while giving me the pink rose. I get the flowers from your hands and put it behind your ears then you smile sweetly to me. "Aww, my sweet boyfriend." "You're so pretty." I fetch your hand and kissed the back of it. You smiled like the sun that gives light to my dark days. I could never imagine my life without you, my sunshine. As I looked at you wondering around the shop, I realized that time. Damn, I won't ever let you go. I won't let the girl who made my shaded life into a colorful one. But looking in the same shop now, looking at the same girl that I love, same roses that are in your hands, seeing you smile made me smile but different guy by your side breaks my heart into million pieces. Feeling this pain right now I asked to myself, was my decision right? Does setting free my sunshine makes you more happy? Does the pain worth it after seeing you smile so bright with someone else? I sip my coffee and smile. My decision was right. I should let you go for you to shine brighter. Maybe, maybe in the next life I'll see you again and that time I won't let you go anymore.

"Growing Pains" "Let's end this Rhage." She looked at me straight in the eyes. "Did I do something wrong?" I asked. I can feel my knees weakened. "It's not-" I cut her. "Don't fuck me with that cliche statement Riah!" I shouted at her. She cries and it made me realize what I just did. I hugged her and kissed her temple. "Please, let's talk this out." I console her. "Rhage, please.," "No." A single tear fall from my eye. "Riah, please don't do this." I beg her still hugging her. "Give me space Rhage." She said briefly. "Why?" My voice cracked. Fuck! This is too much, I can't take this heart break. She breaks our hug and look at me straight in the eyes again. "I think I fall out of love." Then walk pass me. My knees become more weak, I kneel and cry silently. A week passed, I gave her the freedom that she wants, the space she's looking for and didn't disturb her anymore. I always see her in the school smiling like nothing happened, laughing like she's not hurt at all and casually nodding at me like we weren't have past. Am I the only one who's in pain? The more she does these things the more this pain grows. Was I not enough? Was I over protective? Was I being too possessive? Or maybe childish for being jealous at small things? Fuck! I'm going crazy figuring out why did she fell out of love! A month have passed, there's a rumor that she's dating one of my varsity colleague. I didn't believe it because I know her, she said it's just space we will get back together and be happy again until I saw her kissing the jerk in the court. "Fuck you Troi!" I punch my bestfriend. "Why the fuck did you do this?!" I asked shouting. "Please Rhage, I'll explain-" "Shut up Riah!" I shouted. "Now tell me Troi, why? Why did you do this?" I can feel my anger is eating me up. Heck! Of all the people? Why my girlfriend and my bestfriend! He just nod down his head and didn't say anything which makes me livid. This jerk is getting in my nerves. I punch his face again, he fall to the floor and didn't look at me. "Please Rhage, stop." She's crying while covering her mouth. I looked at her and can feel the pain in my heart slowly creeping out. Fudge, I made her cry again. It's killing me seeing her cry because of me. I walked out of the court and punch the nearest wall until my knuckles bleed. "Fuck me for being useless!" I keep on punching the wall while cursing myself for being a jerk, for making her cry and for being an asshole punching my bestfriend. When I can't feel my hands anymore I kicked the wall and sit down. I cried my heart out. I can't take this pain, this pain is killing me. I love her too much, too much that I didn't thought she'll fell out of love and would get tired of me. I was blinded by my feelings and didn't notice that she is suffering being in my side. I regret what I did. It's not their fault if they fall for each other. Months have passed, I cut my ties to both of them to move on and get over this pain that keeps on growing every time I see them together. When I see her smile, laugh and talk to him it crushes me but I will be over this soon. I should thank them for giving me this lesson. I shouldn't give my all and left some love for myself. That I should be selfish sometimes. That treating myself good is also part of loving. A year have passed and I moved on I also heard they broke up but I don't care anymore. I just hope she's okay. I also transferred school to avoid rumors that can cause them pain. I open my phone and found that I had a missed call it's just a number and also a text message from the same number. *09******* Rha? Can we talk? I'll be at the park 6PM. My heart raced. Why? What does she wants? I moved on and give them all the space they want. I sigh. I still consider her as my friend so I walk to the park right after my class. I found her sitting in the swing alone. When she saw me she abruptly stands up and smile sadly. "Hey." I call when I walked in front of her. "Hey." She said nervously. We stand there silently. I stare at her and realize that the girl I loved is right in front of me but my heart didn't skip a beat anymore when she smile. "Do you have something to say?" I asked. She's hesitant at first before speaking. "I know this is straightforward Rha, but I want a chance." She said smiling. I smiled. She is really pretty when she smile she should do this often. I took a step forward and fetch her hand and hold it. She's really nervous because her hand is so cold. I place her palm in my cheeks and let her feel my warmth. I close my eyes. We stay in that position until she speaks. "I still love you Rhage." She confessed. I open my eyes and look at her straight in the eyes still holding her hands in my cheeks. I can read it in her eyes that she's telling the truth. I kiss her palms. Kiss the back of her hands. I squeeze her hand. "I moved on Riah, you should too." I let go of her hand and kiss her in the forehead before walking away. She will always have a special place in my heart.

"replay" "Eat or else you'll get sick." I gave my sandwich to Grace. "Why?" instead of getting the sandwich from my hand she stopped me from walking. "Eat." I remove her hands in my wrist ang gave her the sandwich. I heard that she is starving herself. What the heck is wrong with her? She's the one who made all this problem and now she's acting that way again. I attended my last subject for the day and walk home after. I am in the gate when she called me. "Rhage!" I stopped my walk and look at her. She run towards me. "Can I talk to you?" she asked hopeful for my positive answer. I stare at her face for a second and touch her forehead. "You have a fever go to the clinic and ask for medicine. And we have nothing to talk about anymore Grace. Now go." I was about to walk again but she collapsed. Fuck! I fetch her and bring her to the school clinic. "Why are you so stubborn Grace?! I told you to eat regularly and take care of yourself!" I scolded her. We arrived at the clinic and the school doctor checked her and gave her medicine. She is just tired and got over fatigue because of not eating and doing too much school works. When the doctor walk out of the small room I seat next to her bed. "Why are you so stubborn Grace?" I asked calmly while staring at her. "If I take care of myself would you come back to me?" she said crying. I sigh. "I didn't left you Grace, you left me. You left me in that relationship that I thought we still have. A relationship that I thought both of us was fighting for." "I want a remote." sha said sadly. I chuckle. "This isn't a movie baby, we can't replay what we had like what we usually do when we watched movies together. It'll stay in the past." "I want a replay." she said sobbing covering her face. I seated in the bed next to her and hugged her tight. "Shh, it'll be fine soon. We'll get over each other and find someone who is for us. I didn't left you baby, I fought for us but you surrender. You left me bleeding and don't know what to do. Bewildered by the thought if you still love me or you'll gonna left me forever. Staying and replaying what we had will only wreck us both." I hug her tight. Her sobs are getting louder. "I loved you Grace." I whisper in her ears and left. I heard her cry louder and called my name but I didn't flinch. This is for the better. For both of us.

"When You Call My Name" "Rhage have this." Nathalia lifts the spoon into my mouth. I kissed her lips before having the cake. "Rhage let's buy this." She said pointing to the cute stuffed toy. I bought her the cute winnie the pooh. "Rhage come here. Let's try this arcade." She's jumping giddily while pointing to just dance arcade. I smiled walking fast towards her. "Rhage, this is nice. Should I buy this? or this one?" She asked confused holding two cute hairpins. We bought the two pins. "Rhage, rhage! Here, here. This is your favorite book! Look." She said amazed pointing at new released book outside the book shop. We argued about the price but she ended up buying the book for me that day. "Rhage!" She calls me while we were walking in the park of the mall and she took a picture of me. I smiled. She is an angel, my angel. My Nathalia. "Rhage? I love you." She whispers in my ear kiss my neck and nuzzle in it. We were in her sofa watching her favorite series while she is sitting between my legs, she loves cuddle so much. I said my 'I love you' twice then she sleeps. Right now I am holding her hand, she is in her bed, lying down with all those machines that will keep her alive. I'm on verge of crying when I heard her whisper in weak voice. I abruptly stands up and place my ear near her mouth. "Rhage.." She whispers. "Yes baby?" I nod eagerly. Assuring her that I'm listening. "I love you, Rhage." "I love you too baby." I said crying. I grip her cold hands. "Rhage.." She said then the machines' loud sound filled the room. The line went straight. She left me. When she calls my name it's the happiest and the most painful times of my life.

"When the wind blows" Windy days are not really my favorite part of the year. Autumn is the least season that I like. I am heading to school when I saw a girl standing under the big tree staring at the branch of it. I stop and look at her. "What is she doing?" When I saw the scared kitten she's looking at I smiled. I cross the road and climb the tree to fetch the kitten. I handed her the kitten but she just look at me like I lost my head. I stare at her and was dumbfounded by her beauty. How can a girl be this beautiful? "Sorry for interferring." I scratch my neck and leave the kitten beside her feet then continue walking. The next day, as I walked to the school I saw her again staring at the same tree. I stopped again and look at her. She just stand there and keeps staring at the branch. She really catch my attention not because we are wearing the same uniform but also she really is beautiful. I half cross the road and look at her from here. I also look at the branch and the kitten is there again but not scared anymore. "What is she doing?" I ask to myself. "Hey?!" I shouted at her. She didn't look at me nor budge. I cross the road fully and stand beside her. "Hi?" I greeted her. She look at me with the expression in her face that I can't seem to read. Her hair covered half of her face because of the strong blow of the wind. "Aren't you cold?" I talk to her again. It's very windy and she's only wearing her uniform. She just look at me and walk pass through me after. Heck? Did I said something wrong? I look at the kitten confused. Everyday as I pass the same tree I always see her standing under it and staring at the branch. The whole windy days I always see her in the same spot and I always got mesmerized by her beauty. I always greet her every morning but she never replied but look at me instead. This morning the news said that today will be the last day that it will be windy and it made me happy as hell. I don't really like autumn season it's too windy. I grab my bag and ready to go to school and to see the girl that I've been greeting every morning this past few weeks. The wind today blows really hard. I brought extra jacket just incase that girl is wearing her uniform only. She never talked to me nor say a single word that's why I never knew her name. I walked to our school and is hoping to see her standing in the same position again. I saw the tree. And the kitten right beside it. Only the tree and the kitten. There's a part of me that is sad. Where is she? Maybe I'll see her at school. But I never see her before, even this past few weeks and why am I so eager to see her? Yeah, this may sound insane but I have a crush on her. I know it's not normal because she never talked to me or even maybe give me her sweet smile but I like her. There is something in her eyes that captures me. She has this look that'll want you to take care of her fragile heart. Even though she doesn't talked to me, I can see it in her eyes that she wants to say something but couldn't. I pet the kitten before walking pass the tree and go to school. Months have passed but I never seen her again standing in front of that tree. I did some research and knew some info about her. Her name is Lyre and she's an orphan And a mute. Today is summer and autumn is fast approaching. I hate windy seasons, I hate cold winds, and I hate autumn. But the hatred of that season changes as my feelings for her changed just like seasons changed too. I am eager to meet her again when the wind blows.

"Break" "Having a huge project like this is really tiring." One of my office colleagues Tristan, whine while scratching his nape. "It's normal, we are paid to be this tired." I replied while still typing. "I'll have fast food for lunch, what about you?" He asked. "Pass. I'll just have coffee. I'll finish the last document that I've been working and email it to Kate after." "Give yourself a break dude. I'll go ahead Rhage." He tap my back and walked out of the office. I finished up the plan that I'm making before walking out as well bringing my laptop with me. I walked in, in the nearest coffee shop from the company. I sit in the table near the window, open my laptop and started typing again. I was focused in my laptop and didn't see the waiter standing beside me until she spoke. "Good afternoon sir." She said cheerfully. I look up. Damn. She is a beauty. I just look at her for a whole minute. "Sir?" She asked again. Fuck, did I just stare? I blink. "Iced americano and chocolate cake please." I directly tell her my order. "Iced americano and choco cake. Coming right up sir." She repeated my order and smile broadly before leaving. Damn. She really is a beauty. After that day, I always go to that coffee shop every break that I have and that girl is always there too serving costumers, always busy. We became close because of her cheeky attitude. As I seated on my favorite seat she directly came and recite my order. "Iced americano and hmmm, cheese cake for the day?" She guessed. I chuckle. "Does your cheese cake here taste good?" I asked grinning. "Of course. Then cheese cake it is. It will be served in a minute." She smile at me before leaving. This is what I came for, her smiles. She is a beauty but when she smiles it makes a person wants to stare at her the whole day or is it just me? Whatever. I started typing while waiting for my order. "Here." She sits in the chair opposite to me. "Thanks. You're done?" I asked as I saw her wearing her casual clothes. "Yeah, I'm done for the day." She smiles again. Damn that smile! "Cool, chat with me. This damn project is making me insane." I whine and that is so rare to hear from me. She chuckles. "When you need someone to chat to, just call me. Starting today my shift will be done at 12:30. I'll chat with you while you are here." She smiles again. "That is a cool offer and I can't say no." I smirk at her. She just laugh. We became more close a month later. I walked in the coffee shop and saw her in the counter. She must be assigned in the counter now. I walked to her and smile. "Hey." "Rhage! Ice americano and cheese cake?" She asked. I nod. "Also, I need someone to chat." I wink at her. "Be right there." She smile. I walked to my favorite table and started typing for our new project. "Here you go mister." She sits opposite to me wearing her casual clothes. "Thank you Nex. Wynexleth." I wink. "You really like my name that much?" She laughs. I was about to answer when a phone started ringing. She picked her phone and answer it. "Jayson? Yeah I'm done. Where are you? Okay, I'll be right there." She hang up and look at me. "I'm sorry I need to go." She said giving me her apologetic smile. "Hey, it's fine." I said. She bid her goodbye and walked out of the shop like someone is after her. I just resume what I'm doing and became gloomy the whole afternoon in the office. Damn, who is Jayson? "Rhage, Kate saids to fix the pages 23 and 24." Tristan inform me. Damn! I won't be able to have break. "Tell her I'll email it after lunch." I said as I started typing. It's already 1PM when I finished editing the draft. I walked fast to the coffee shop and is excited to see Wynexleth. I am already near the door when she walked out. I smile. Damn seeing her is really my stress reliever. She smiles to someone. Then a guy kiss her and hug her after. They both got into the car and leave. I stopped walking and decided to go back in the office. I resume what I'm doing. I started typing the drafts that are supposed to be done tomorrow. "Hey, Rhage? You didn't take a break?" Tristan asked when he saw me. "I don't do breaks." "Yeah! Sure you are. You are called work machine for a reason. Have this." He left a cup of coffee in my table before walking into his table. Yesterday would be the last break that I'll have.

"Lie" "Ash, I love you." I said while looking at her eyes. "Aahh. Why are you being extra sweet today huh? You did something, do you? Hmmm?" She asked suspiciously. I grab her hand and hug her. It's break time. We are eating lunch together in the canteen. "Ah babe! Me, mom and dad are going to Canada this coming semestral beak." She said chewing her food. "I can't come with you guys?" I asked hoping she'll say no. She grabbed my hand and did her infamous puppy look. "Hmmm, babe I'm sorry but you can't. Besides, it's just a break. We'll be there for just a week." She said smiling sweetly to me. "Fine, fine call me everyday. You get me?" I demanded. "What? How can I enjoy when all I do is to call you?" I know she's joking when she said this but still it irritates me. "Ashley! Call me everyday when you get there. Promise me that!" I said with a fake anger. "Yes boss." "What?" "Yes babe." She said winking at me. We only have one week before the semestral break. All we did was date every after our class. "Babe, here get this." She handed me a box. "What is this?" I asked eyeing the box suspiciously. She always prank me with things like this. Last time she gave me a gift box but when I opened it, it explode showing the springed joker. "Just open it." She urges me. "This is another prank is it Ash?" She knew when I call her by her name that means I'm serious. "Just open it." She giggles. "Ashley!" I'm deadly serious right now. "Open it Rhage. I promise it's not a prank." She said still chuckling to herself. "Fine, if this thing explodes. Watch out." I open the box while closing my eyes waiting for it to explode or something. One minute later it didn't so I decided to look what's inside. "Wow, why did you bought this?" I asked still astonished of her gift for me. "Next week will be your birthday and I won't be here so I'm buying you an advance gift. I'm the best girlfriend right?" She asked winking at me. I laugh and hug her tight. "I love the watch babe. I really do, but this is too expensive." I said hugging her. "I know. It's my whole month allowance." She said pouting. I laugh again and pinch her cheeks. "Sorry." I said giving her a peck in the lips. "Nah, it's fine. Besides, you keep giving me gifts more expensive than that. This is nothing compare to your gifts." She said hugging me in the waist. I tap her head and kiss her temples. "I can afford it and I want to spoil my girl in everything she wants. And if those expensive things can make you smile then why the heck not buy it for you?" I gave her another kiss in the cheeks. She laughs. "Yeah, I'm too spoiled of my boyfriend." She's grinning from ear to ear. I hold her hand and drag her to the nearest restaubar. "Babe, I packed my things already. What do you want when we come back?" She said while chewing her fave fries. "Hmmmm, I want you whole. No scratch, no bruises just you." I said looking at her straight in the eyes. She laughs and stands up. She kissed the tip of my nose then give my lips a peck. "Yes sir. I will return with no scratch and bruises." She wink at me. The next day I see them off in the airport. "Always be careful Ashley. Bring your phone always with you and wear warm clothes. Drink warm water always and call me always, you get me?" I instruct her. "Yes dada." She laughs "Ashley I'm deadly serious. This would be the first time that we are far from each other and a week? Damn, a week is too long. So you call me everyday. Get me?" I said deadly serious and seeing her beautiful smile, damn I'm already missing her. I hug her tight. "Yes babe. I will give you a call. Always." She said emphasizing the last word. "I love you Ashley." I said still hugging her. She giggle and rub my back. "I love you too my baby Rhage." The airplane took off. "Fuck! Fuck! It's already been three days but I receive no calls from her!" I said talking to my bud in the phone. "Chill bro, maybe she's just having fun there and she forgot to call you." Eithan spoke back. "I told her a million times before going there to always call me. She didn't even just text me. Fuck! I'm missing her already bud. This is killing me!" "You're gross bro. Stop being melodramatic. Anyways, we'll go bar hopping this evening. Wanna come with us?" "Pass. I'll just dial her number in roaming. Enjoy by the way. Bye." I hang up. A week have passed but I didn't receive a single text nor a call from her. Even her parents are out of reach. My worries go bigger when they didn't return yet 2 weeks later. Fuck! This situation is turning me into an insane person. "It's already been a month Eithan. Wht do I do bud?" I ask Eithan. I've been sleeping in his place for 2 week now. "I also don't know Rhage. I tried contacting my uncle in Canada to check the address that you gave me but he said there weren't people in the house. It was empty." 2 months have pass. I'm a mad person now. I get riled up at small things. I'm missing her more and more each day. I was busy studying in the library when I heard my fellow Engineering student talks about Ashley. I walk to them and ask. "What did you said?" "Ashley is back but she's acting weird." One of my classmates said. "Why?" I frown. "She doesn't talk and keeps on saying she didn't know us. She didn't even talk to her own bestfriend Tiarra." "Where is she?" "At the cantee-" I didn't let him finish his sentence and walk fastly in the canteen. I saw her eating alone. I walk to her and sit in the opposite seat. She look at me and stare for a couple of seconds before resuming eating. Fuck? Is she playing a game? "Ashley!" She look at me shock. "Do I know you?" She asked bewildered. Fuck? I walked out of the canteen. Fine! She wants to play this game? I'll play with her. A week have passed but she's still in this fucking game. I approach her yesterday in the pool but she run. I'm walking to her house right now. I need to ask her parents what happened. "Ijo, come inside." Tita Rosanna let me in. She's not at home yet. "I'm here to ask something tita." Her face become serious. "What happened to her? Why did she skip school for almost 2 months? Why didn't she called me? Why is she acting weird? Damn this game of hers is making me insane!" "It's not a game Rhage. She forgot." "Forgot? Then why does she pretends she still forgot until now?!" Tita sits next to me and hold my hand in hers. "Rhage, she was not pretending. She forgot ijo. We didn't go in Canada to have a vacation but to cure her tumor in the brain. The doctor said she'll have a possibility to have an amnesia after the operation but she was determined to have the surgery and keep on saying that she don't want you to know and see you suffer with her. She said she won't forget you. She promised to herself but after the operation when she saw your picture on her bedside table she asked me who are you." Tita Rosanna's voice cracked. A lone tear dropped from my eye. "Why- how come she knows you and tito?" I'm crying now. Fuck! "She has selective amnesia." After tita said that I stand up and run. Fuck! Fuck! Do I deserve this? From all the people, why must she forget me? The next day I saw her at the library looking for books in our Ethics. I walk towards the alley where she is standing. "Ashley." She face me. "Yes?" I just stare at her. "Uhm, do you need something?" She asked. I took a step forward. She is leaning in the book shelves. "Why?" I asked. She look at me confused. A tear drop from my eye. "Why did you lie?"

"Lonely" "She is always alone, she never talks to anyone nor look at them in the eyes." One of my classmates told me. I'm a transferee student and new to this school. My seatmate tells me everything about the school and the students here. "Actually she is popular among guys, she receives tons of letters in her locker everyday but she just ignore them. She is dense as hell and only focuses on her studies." She continued telling me about the girl. "What's her name?" I asked my seatmate while looking at the girl she's talking about. "Skye, it actually suits her." She said. "It does." I said. I was about to stand up and approach Skye but my seatmate Cara stopped me. "Rhage, you'll just get ignored I swear. We were classmates since junior high and up until now in our senior year she never talked and never been friends to anyone. We just stop hoping and approaching her. There's no hope." She said seriously. "Maybe she's just waiting for me?" I said plafully and continue walking towards Skye. "Hey." I said as I sit down next to her. She just look at me then continue writing something in her notebook. I can feel my heart race. The fuck? Those eyes are damn beautiful. She is interesting. She has this boy cut and a long bangs that hides her mesmerizing eyes. The class ended. "Hey, Rhage!" George my classmate called me. "Yeah?" We are in the gate talking. "We are planning to give you a welcome party for being the new transferee student. We're going bar hopping this evening, you should come." He tap my shoulders. "Yeah sure. Text me the location." I replied then they walk again. I was about to walk to the bus stop when I saw Skye standing waiting for the bus as well. I walk towards her. A car stopped in front of her and then she get in and the car leave. Woah, she's rich? "Hey man? How's your hang over?" George asked me while massaging his own temples. "Dude, my head is still spinning." I chuckle. I look at Skye's table, she is writing something again. I got up from my seat and sit beside her. "Hey." I approach. She didn't respond nor look at me. "Well if you aren't gonna talk to me then I'll just sit beside you until you talk to me." I said smiling. She just keep on writing notes. The class ended but she didn't even look at me. I saw her again, she's getting in the same car. The next day is the school's foundation day. I'm not in the mood to have fun so I just walk to the rooftop of our building. I saw Skye sitting in the bench. What is she doing here? I walk towards her. Her eyes are closed, she is facing the sky and she is smiling. The blowing winds doesn't help. It just makes her more beautiful. Fuck? Why is she so beautiful? I stop walking and just stare at her for a moment. She look at me, shocked. She abruptly stands up and is about to walk out but I stop her. "Hey, look I'm sorry. I didn't mean to disturb you. You continue what you are doing. I'm just gonna sit there." I said pointing to another bench. She stare at me behind her bangs. She's about to sit but her phone rang then she quickly walk out. What was that? It is already dismissal. I walk to the stairs and is planning to go to the rooftop to have some fresh air but I saw Skye ascending the stairs towards the rooftop as well. I followed her. When she enter the rooftop she sits down on the bench she was sitting yesterday. I decided to approach her. "Hey." I said as I stand beside her. She just look at me. She was about to stand up again but I stop her and hold her wrist and let her sit down with me. "Look, I'm not gonna do anything to you okay? I'm just here to have some fresh air as well. Can I sit with you?" I explain and ask. She didn't answer and just look at the sky instead. Okay, that's it. It's fine with her. We sit there for almost 20 mins just looking at the sky and me glancing at her from time to time. Her phone rang, she look at the screen and abruptly stands up and run towards the door. What's with her phone? It's been part of my routine now, to have some fresh air in the rooftop before going to school. It's been 2 weeks since I'm doing this silly routine with her. "Aren't you really gonna talk to me?" I ask curious. She look at me in the eyes for a second then she smile. Fuck? What was that? My heart race. She look up in the sky again, still smiling. I learn that when she's here in the rooftop she is waiting for her dad to pick her up and that damn call who can make her nervous as hell is her father. Strict father to be precise. She lost her mother when she was 3. She didn't tell me these things. My nosy seatmate told me. Her phone rang after how many minutes she stands up. "I need to go." She speak. "What- oh, yes. S-sure. G-go on." I stutter. She run. Did I just stutter? I mean c'mon who wouldn't? It's her first time talking or should I say speaking. I've been smitten by the thought of being with her. I am now going to the roof top again. I saw her sitting in the same bench again. Her back is on me. "Hey." I greet her. "Hey." She respond in a small voice. I smile, broadly. It's been a week since she started talking to me. We talk about random things and was having fun but her phone rang. Again, she'll gonna left now. "I need to go." She said nervous while looking at her phone. She stands up and run. I followed her. I saw her open the back seat of the car, she was about to go in but her father came out. He saw me. I slightly bow my head to show respect but he just stare at me. Then, he slapped Skye. He grabbed her roughly and they get in the car. Fuck? Is her father harassing her? The next day after the teacher announce the dismissal I saw her walk fastly outside, I quickly stands up and follow her. "Skye. Are you okay?" I grab her wrist. She look at me seriously. "Stop talking to me anymore. Stop approaching me." She said and walk again. What the fuck man? I run towards her and grab her hand. "Follow me." I bring her to the roof top. "What happened? Why are you being like this?" I asked. She just nod her head down. Why is she doing this to me? Fuck not now! Not now, that I started being attached to her. "Tell me Skye." I console her. "My dad found out." She started. What? Found out what? Is she not allowed to date? We're not even dating. It is just me having feelings for her I bet she doesn't even consider me a friend. "Found out what Skye?" I ask bewildered. "I can't have friends Rhage, I can't talk to anyone and I can't even look at them in the eyes. I was born to be alone, I was born to be lonely. I don't need friends, I don't need you." She said crying. I blink fastly. Fuck, that hurts. "Born what? Are you kidding me? No one is born like that Skye. Everyone needs someone, everyone needs someone to talk to, someone to lean on and someone to cherish them!" I shouted in frustration. "My father is that someone. I don't need anyone else." She said quietly. "Your father? Your father who slapped you yesterday? Tell me, did he slapped you because you talked to me?" I asked. this is really frustrating. She didn't answer. "Fuck? I am right." I chuckle. This is really getting into my nerves. I badly wanted to punch someone right now. "Let's not be friends Rhage, I don't want you to get hurt. I told you I was born to be alone, to be lonely." She run towards the exit door. The next day, the teacher announce that Skye will be transferring school due to personal reasons. The dismissal came. I ascend the stairs towards the rooftop slowly. My heart is aching and I'm crying. I sit in her favorite bench. I look up the sky, it reminds me of her. She is like a sky, she is bright and supposed to be bright but she has dark days also but still beautiful. Very beautiful. Why am I missing her? Fuck this, now I am lonely.

"Fate" I am standing outside Eden's calssroom waiting for her class to end. When the professor got out from the room, I walk myself to the door. She stands from her sit and walks towards me. "Hey." I greeted her. "Hey." She replied. I scoop the books from her hand and hold them for her. We walked to the elevator and waited for it to open and take us to the ground floor. We walked side by side going to the bus stop. We always walk together going home. I stopped at my pace and face her still holding her books. She also stop and face me. "What?" She asked. "Wanna grab some food? I'm hungry." I said with a wince. "I got hungry waiting for you." I reasoned out. She just rolled her eyes and abruptly walked to the opposite direction of the bus stop. We walk to our favorite coffee shop. When we entered, I immediately look for a seat for both of us and drop her books in the table and walk to the cashier. "One choco cake, one strawberry cake, 2 almond muffins and 2 espresso." I got my card and hand it to the cashier. I walk back to our table holding the tray of our orders. We eat the cake and the delicious muffin. "How was your day?" I ask munching my strawberry cake. "Tiring. I haven't had a decent sleep since last week. The defense is fast approaching and that is next week Monday. My group mates is a mess, they won't help the crap out of me. Lastly, college graduation would be 2 weeks from now. I'm pressured and scared." She said whining. I smile looking at her. She is my closest friend, if a man and a woman can be friends which is people say, impossible. And I agree with them. I have feelings for her and I'm hundred percent sure she does have to me as well. We are both indenial, waiting for the other party to say it out loud. In short we are in a childish game. "You'll get through that, I know you. Just tell me if there is something troubling you or if there is anything I can help." I face my bag at the back of my chair and fetch the books that I bought the other day for her. It's an early graduation gift for her. "Here, it's a gift for your hardwork." I said giving her my fall-for-me type of smile. "Damn, Rhage!" She hold the books carefully and stare at it in amazement. It is a trilogy. She loves Jojo Moyes so much, so I bought her the whole trilogy of 'Me Before You'. "You are welcome babe." I wink at her. She just stare at the book still astonished. We continue eating then I walk her to the bus stop. The next day my classes starts at 11AM. After the class I walk to her classroom which is next to my class and look for her. She is in the corner busy typing with a frown in her face in her laptop and her group mates surrounds her with gloomy expressions. They must have riled her up to have that expression in her face. I asked one of her classmates to tell Eden I'm here. Her classmate walk to her and poke her shoulders. She raise her head and look at her classmate glaring. The girl points at me. Poor girl, now she's into Eden's shit list for poking her in that kind of situation. Eden saw me, I wave my hand at her. Before walking towards me she leaves her groupmates some instruction. "Hmm?" She said demanding what do I need from her and give me a look that clearly says 'it should be important or else she'll gonna cut off my head'. She is always feisty. "Let's have lunch together." I didn't wait for her to respond and just grab her to the sky canteen of the school. We ate lunch together in silence. I stare at her. She is frowning every now and then, maybe thinking about their thesis. I like her, I really do. I just can't say it to her. Afraid what might happen if I tell her. Afraid that our friendship might end. Afraid that I might loose her. Afraid that, maybe I'm just gonna hurt her if I pursue my feelings for her. I'm coward, alright. But I can give it a try. "What?" She demanded when she saw me staring at her intently. Still frowning. I chuckle. "I.." I hesitated. "You?" There is confusion in her eyes then hope. Hope? Maybe, maybe I should give this a shot. We might end up being together and be happy. "I..." My heart is pounding erratically inside my chest. I hope she can't hear it. I can't do this. She is still staring at me with hopeful eyes, then I stand abruptly. "I need to go back. I'll be late in my next class." I walk fast to my next class. Damn! I'm such a coward. I avoid Eden for the past few days after what happened in the canteen and to just simply give her space. She must be very nervous now, it's their defense. I fetch my phone in my pocket and texted her. To: Eden Break a leg. I walk to my next class. The graduation will be tomorrow. I decided that I'll tell her about my feelings. I need to, because after the graduation there will be no more chance at all. We will be walking in different path, pursuing our dreams after college. I'm lying in my bed tossing and turning. Damn! I can't sleep. How do I confess my feelings? I grab my pillow and cover my face. Whatever. The day has come I should do it. I saw her walking in the entrance. She is wearing a light make up today which enhance her beauty and she curl her short hair that makes her more gorgeous than she already is. When she saw me, she gave me her gummy smile and walk towards me. "Hey." She greeted. "Hey." I said still gawking at her appearance today at the same time nervous about my plan of confessing. "You look great Rhage. I like your grey suit, it suits you." She said praising me. I can see it in her eyes that she is also enduring our situation. She is also waiting for a chance to tell me her feelings. "You look amazing, gorgeous." I said in a matter of fact voice. Her cheeks flushed and we sit in our designated seats. The ceremony bores me but at every passing minute my heart races triple. I'm freaking nervous. How would I tell her my feelings? I tried relaxing myself. Chill Rhage, you aren't this pussy. We'll cross the bridge when we get there. Now I have to focus on the ceremony. The ceremony went great, we throw our caps and applauses heard. Congratulations are everywhere, picture taking with family, taking wacky pics with friends and some candid ones. I look for her in the crowd. When I spotted her with her family I walk fast towards her. She saw me approaching her. She smiles at me. "Congrats." She said beaming at me. "Can we have a private talk?" She look at me confused but she nodded after. I drag her outside the auditorium and we walk inside the empty small room beside it. She just look at me intently. Waiting for me to speak. I look at her lovingly. Damn! She's been my favorite person since I lay my eyes on her. I work hard so that I'll be her favorite person too and I knew damn well that I am. We are both enduring this, I can see it in her eyes. The hope, love, longing and pain. "Rhage." She said silently. "Yes?" I said in my quiet voice. My heart is beating erratically in my chest. She gulped nervously. "I... I am..." She said stopping mid sentence. I look at her encouraging her to continue. "I... I am wishing you a great life ahead." She flashes me her toothy nervous smile. Damn! "I have something to tell you Eden." I said in haste. "Hmm-mm?" She hums. There goes her eyes again. It's telling me to godamn say it out loud. That I love her and I have to keep her. I smile at her lovingly, making sure my feelings are evident in my eyes. "Pursue your dreams, achieve your goals and have an amazing life ahead." I smile at her. She grins at me. "I will." I draw her to me and hug her tight. I kiss her temples. This isn't the right time yet. I'll have to endure this a little longer. Maybe, maybe in the future if we see each other again and I have the confidence to tell her my feelings I'll have her. I won't let her slip out of my arms anymore. She belongs here, here in my arms. I squeeze her tight, she laughs. I kiss her temples again. I will miss this smell and closeness. She break the hug and look at me. "I need to go, my family is surely looking for me by now." She said in a smile. "Go on, I'll see you very soon." I said and let her go. If fate is still in my side in the future time, I'll keep her forever.

"Goodbye" It's already 9:30PM. I walk towards the garden to wait for her. I'm sipping my coffee when I felt her hug me from behind. "Hey" I said softly. She kissed my cheeks. "Did you wait long?" She whispers in my ear. "I just got here baby." "Hmmm, you smell good." She kisses my earlobe. "Come here." I grab her hand and let her seat on my lap. I kiss her passionately. Damn, I really love this girl so much. "I love you baby." I whisper after breaking our kiss. "I love you too." She gives me a peck in the lips. "How was your day, hmmm?" She asked while combing my hair. "It was exhausting and boring. You're not with me." I reply and hug her. I kiss her neck. "You should be used to it babe. I've been without you for almost a year now. Get use to it." She chuckles. "Come with me in the work tomorrow. Please?" I beg while still kissing her neck. We only do this every night because of my work. Busy schedules. "You know I can't." She just kiss me and hug me until she falls asleep in my arms. I woke up the next morning in my bed. I take a bath and walk donwnstairs to have my breakfast. Mom was there cooking. "Good morning mom." I greet with a smile and kiss her cheeks. She sigh. "You talked to her again last night?" She asked in a worried look. "Mom, I love her okay? I need to go bye." "I know that." She replied sadly. I grab my keys and drive to my work place. I got home from work late. I didn't take dinner yet and directly walk to the garden. Fuck! It's already 10PM she must be there already. I saw her sitting in the rocking chair. It's her favorite seat. "Hey love." I kiss her temple. "Hmmm, you're 20 mins late." She said smiling. "I'm sorry. Paper works keep me from going home early. Forgive me?" I ask with a puppy dog eyes look. She chuckles and pinch my cheeks. "I love you Rhage." "And I love you more Yanna. I can't live without you." I kiss her. Silence follow until she spoke. "You should get used to being on your own baby. Stop doing this to yourself. Please?" She said teary eyed while caressing my cheeks. "No, I can't babe. Please? I love you." I said crying while hugging her. I'm kneeling in front of her. "Rhage, please let me go. It will be the best for you baby. It hurts me seeing you like this because of me. Please baby?" "How? When the reason why I'm still alive and breathing right now is because of you. I want to live knowing you're here with me Yanna. You are my life. Please don't leave again." I beg while crying. "Babe, I didn't leave." She gives me a peck and smiles at me. "I was always there with you. I love you to the moon and back Rhage. Please live for me." She kiss me softly in the lips. "I love you too Yanna." I am crying now. Tears are continuously pouring from my eyes. I woke up in my bed the next morning. I checked the clock it's already 9AM. I take a bath and wear my normal shirt and sweat pants. Today is Saturday, no work. Sure Mom is downstairs again. "You had a good sleep, eh?" Mom ask when I seat in front of her. "I let her go." I said smiling weakly to her. She touched my hand. "You'll be fine baby. She'll be happy knowing that you let her go already. Live for yourself son. Please." I chuckle. "Will you come with me tomorrow mom?" I ask like a kid that is afraid of riding the roller coaster. "Sure baby. Now eat." She said smiling. The next day mom and I drive to our destination bringing the beautiful flowers I ordered yesterday. I walk to her. My mom put the flower in her tomb. I light the candle and say my prayers. "Hey baby." I sit down next to the tomb. "It's been a year since you left me but as you told me last night you were always right here for me. I believed you and I'm setting you free now." I kissed her name on it. "I love you Yanna." I smile and close my eyes remembering those times when we are still together. My mom hugged me from the back. "Thank you for coming back to me son. I loss my hope before. Seeing you talking to no one every night in the garden, crying and calling Yanna's name is killing me. I thought I'll lose you forever." Mom is crying while saying those words. I cried. Hearing her pain of seeing me in pain is torturing. "I'm sorry mom. I'm sorry for leaving you." I hug her back. After having a heart to heart talk we walk back to the car and drive home. I walk to my room and pick Yanna's burial picture. "You are my forever baby. You will always have a part of me. I love you." I kiss her picture and lie down. Yanna died last year because of a car accident. It was 1 week before our marriage. It really had a great impact to me. After she died, my world stopped. I stop going to work, I stop eating and I stop loving. I became numb. 2 months of grieving I made my own hallucination of seeing her every night in her favorite place in our house. Meeting the imaginary her every night gives me strength, my world resumes. I was happy but Yanna wasn't I can see her in my dreams every night telling me to let go and live my life the way I want. I hugged her picture tightly in my chest. A lone tear fall from my eyes. "I love you Yanna.Goodbye."

"Desire" I always have been inlove with her. Ever since I was high school. She is the perfect girl that I dream about. Smart, elegant, beautiful, caring and a very loving woman. I desire her all my life until now. I know she wants me too, the way she looks at me says it all. I am in my room right now waiting for her to come. When I heard the knock on the door I abruptly stands up and open it. I smile when I see her pretty face. She's wearing her very fit uniform. Her curves and big breast is in display for me. I smirk. She's a professor in a university that I attended and my tutor. She smiles slily. "Hey Rhage. Ready for the lessons today?" She said and gives me her triumph smile. She must have notice me lusting over her. I cleared my throat. "Come in." I said in a whisper. She discusses me about the integral but I'm not interested one bit. I am just staring at how skimpy her above the knee pencil skirt is. "Listen Rhage. Stop staring somewhere else." She laughs lusciously. Fuck! I can't take this anymore. I grab her neck towards me and kiss her torridly. She moans and kisses me back. I let her sit on my lap and kiss her neck. "Rhage, let's finish the lesson first." She said in a whimper. "Fuck the lessons, I already knew all of that." I respond still kissing her neck. I nip her neck and lick it. She pushes my face away from her neck and look at me straight. "Then why did you call me here?" She asked confused. I kiss her lips and smirk. "To do these things." I answer simply. She just laugh and comb my hair using her fingers. She's still sitting on my lap. Damn, this feels good. "Let's make it fast college boy, your brother might caught us." She said and wink at me. "You're such a bad girl Hera." I started kissing her again. She is a sly woman, a seductive one and manipulative. She always do these things to me. I'm weak whenever she's around. I'm smitten into this woman ever since I laid my eyes on her. She was my tutor way back in high school, she was single and a very dedicated one in her job. We started doing these things when I started my third year in Junior High, I was the first one who had her, she was supposed to be mine. She was mine. She seduced me and I got seduced. She is a sly, manipulative bitch. We are on my bed, her top is nowhere to be found. She's wearing my favorite lacy bra. Damn, she's really sexy in those ones. I started kissing her neck, nip it and suck it hard. "It hurts Rhage." She said in a moan. "Does it? It doesn't compare to the hurt you gave me sister-in-law." I smirk. She grabs my neck and kiss me torridly. Fuck, I desire this woman.

"Blinded" "Happy 1st monthsary love!" I gave her my gift. She opens my gift for her. "Baby, thank you but you don't have to-" "I want to Zara." I cut her. "Thank you Rhage. I love you." She kisses me in the lips. "I love you more baby." I hug her tight. -------------------- "Love? Yes, I'm at the locker room. Okay. I'll wait for you." I ended the call and wait for Zara to arrive. "Surprise!" I shouted when she arrived. She covers her mouth in shock. "Wow, when did you do this?" She asked still shocked. I prepared a surprise for her, here in the gym's locker room. My friends helped me after our basketball practice and tease me about being too smitten. "Happy 2nd monthsary love! Earlier after the practice. How's your day? Is it tiring?" I asked while walking towards her and hug her. "It is, there are lots of things to do and to pass. It's tiring." "I love you Zara." I rub her back. "I love you too Rhage." -------------------- "Love? Where are you?" I asked her on the phone. "I'm sorry baby, I've been really busy. I'll be there after this." She hang up. I've been waiting for her in this restaurant for almost 1 hour now. 30 minutes later she arrived. "I'm sorry baby." She said catching her breath. "It's fine. Here, happy 3rd monthsary love. Open it." I gave her my gift. "Wow, thank you baby." She kisses me in the lips. "I love you Zara." I look at her intently. "Me too baby." She just smiles at me. -------------------- "Baby, I can't make it. We are still preparing for our defense. I'll just see you tomorrow okay? Happy monthsary." She said hastily. "It's fine. Happy 4th monthsary. I love you." I said. "Okay, thank you. Bye." I just stare at my phone for a minute then started walking to the cashier. Even though we didn't dine in, I still have to pay for the reservation that I made. I walk out of the restaurant. I stare at the gift that I'm holding. I sigh. -------------------- ||To: Love Love, I'm already in the amusement park. Where are you?|| I waited for her reply. ||From: Love Omw|| She arrived 30 minutes late. "I'm sorry baby, I didn't thought rewriting the draft would take that long." She said in a soft voice. "It's fine love. Let's eat first before riding the rides and here, my gift for you. Happy 5th month of love, baby." I kiss her lips. "Thank you baby." While we eat she keeps on texting someone. "Who's that?" I asked. She didn't answer me and just keep on texting. I drop my utensils on my plate, she look at me. "Stop texting love. Eat first, tell your group mates that we are on a date. You've done too much for your group. We barely have time for each other." "It's not my groupmates." She said frowning. "Then who is it?" I asked confused. "Just someone. You don't know him." Now it's my turn to frown. "Him?" I asked. "Nothing let's just eat." I walk her home. "I enjoyed today. I love you Zara." I kiss her forehead and hug her tight. "Me too baby." She said simply and walked in, in their house. -------------------- ||From: Love Happy 6th monthsary love. I can't make it tonight. I'll have to finish this report tonight. Love you.|| I read her text quietly and sigh. We barely see each other. -------------------- I am walking to her classroom right now. I have practice later, I'll just hand her the gift. I arrived at her classroom and saw her talking to her professor. Paul, my brother. I just stare at them, Paul saw me and smirk. We aren't in good terms with my brother. He said something to her then she faces me. Fuck! I hate the thought of him being her professor. "Rhage, what are you doing here?" She asked walking towards me. "I'm here to hand this. Happy 7th monthsary love." I was about to kiss her but she dodge. "Thank you baby." She said and just smile. "Okay, I know you are busy I'll be going now. I love you." "Me too baby." She left and sit again in to her seat. I just left and take my frustration out through the basketball practice. -------------------- Times passes like a haze. It's already our 11th month of being in a relationship. I texted her. ||To: Love I'm outside the school. I'll wait for you here.|| She arrived, it's already dark. I gave her the bouquet that I'm holding and the necklace. I didn't speak. I just hug her. "Rhage-" "Shhh.. let's just stay like this for a moment." My tear drop, I hug her tightly. I cried silently while hugging her. "Baby, what's wrong?" She asked and breaks our hug. "Nothing." "What is it? Tell me." She console me. I hold her hand and kiss the back of it. My tears won't stop. "Please, p-please love, give me a month to accept this. I promise after that, a-after that, I'll be fine with this." I said sobbing. "What are you talking about?" "I love you Zara. I love you so much." I hug her again. -------------------- "Happy 1st anniversary love. Where are you?" I asked her on the phone. We didn't plan anything for today. She told me beforehand that she'll be busy. I'm outside of a restaurant, this is her favorite restaurant. She loves their shrimp pasta here. Even though I'm allergic to shrimp I still love this place because of her. "I'm at home baby, doing my report." After her last word, I broke into tears. I cry. I cry real hard. I thought 1 month would be enough to accept the fact that she is no longer mine. She is so near yet so far. She is with me but her heart isn't. I'm standing outside her favorite restaurant, seeing her happily chatting and eating with my brother with her favorite food. I knew there is something that she is hiding from me but I didn't bother asking what is it, I trusted her. Until our 10th monthsary arrive, she said she can't make it to our favorite movie place. I was heading out of the school that time, she said she's at home but I saw her walking towards the machine laboratory. I followed her. She enter the room and someone is waiting inside. They chatted for a bit then he kissed her. My brother Paul kissed her. "Hello? Baby? Rhage, are you still there?" "Yes I'm still here." My voice broke in pain. "Hey, are you okay? Is there something wrong?" She asked. I cried harder. "Nothing. I just saw something I shouldn't. I need to go now love. Always remember that I loved you Zara. Bye." I was blinded.

"Bad Boy" "Give it up Claudine. Even if you make my lunch everyday or you make those damn assignments of mine every time I can't, I still won't like you, okay? So just give up. I'm tired of dealing with you." I comb my hair with my hand in frustration. "Just let me do this for you Rhage. Please?" She said in a small voice. "Whatever but don't expect something from me." I walked out of the empty classroom. The next day when I open my locker there is already a lunch box. Damn! She never listens. "Whatever." I slam close my locker door. I was about to head to my class when Dino and his dorks blocked my way. Heck? What is it again this time? "Rhage! I told you to stop hitting on my girl Liz, did I? You never learn your lesson ey?" He said while tapping the baseball bat on his shoulders. "You're the one who never learns your lesson. Does that bruise on your face doesn't hurt?" I smirk while pointing to the bruise that I gave him the other day. Seeing him first thing in the morning riled me up. Seeing him smirking while chewing his gum boils my blood but what makes me livid is him holding Claudine's arm. "You keep touching Liz, so here I am telling you that I'll have your girl." He said gripping Claudine's arm. I chuckle. "What nonsense are you talking about? You can have her, I have nothing to do with her." I said jabbing my hands into my front pockets. His face twitch into confusion. "But she-" I cut him. "She's just one of those girls who likes me too much. Thanks to her I have delicious lunch everyday," I lean forward. "and thanks to your girl who throws herself to me, I have an amazing night yesterday." I wink at him and smirk. "You fucking bastard!" He punches me in the face. Fck that hurts! I spit the blood and punch him as well. His dorks attacked me as well. I kick Dino's stomach before he can hit me with his bat. I was busy punching his dorks and didn't notice that Dino got to his feet and hit the back of my head with his bat. Damn! Everything went black. "He's fine, he just have a mild concussion, his stomach would hurt a bit due to the kick those kiddos gave him. I already gave him painkillers and medicine." Someone stated. "Thank you doc." A familiar voice responded. When I heard the curtain closed, I slowly open my eyes. Dammit! My head hurts. "You're already awake?" She asked worried. I roam my eyes in the room. I'm in the school clinic, it's not that long ago when I was here also for my bleeding knuckles. Now my head has plasters, my stomach is aching and my hands also has plasters. So those dorks kicked me? Fck! This wouldn't happen if they didn't use weapon. Those bastards. "Tsk. What happened to Dino?" "The school director suspended him and they'll gonna have you in the office after you are treated here." She said in a quiet voice. It's her usual comforting voice. I don't know but her quiet voice always soothes me. I love her voice and her presence here with me, not that I'll admit that to her. She is always here with me every time I ended up here due to gang fight. "You go home now. It's already late." I said closing my eyes. I think I have to stay here until tomorrow, my dad would really kill me this time. "I'll stay here just for a bit." She insisted. Tsk she really is a hard headed one. I just slept. I woke up when the doctor inject another pain killer. "You'll go home today. Stop making mess Rhage, dad will really kill you if he knows that you broke your promise after last time. And also, treat that girl nice she cares for you too much. She even stayed here until 10PM last night." Luis the school doctor and my brother nag me. "I know." I get up and remove my own dextrose and walk out of the school clinic that is weirdly open for 24 hours. When I walk to my class Claudine is standing outside the door holding a lunch box. She never listens. I walk to her and grab her towards the roof top. "What did I tell you about giving me lunch? If you keep doing this Dino will really hurt you at this rate." I said angrily. "This would be the last, I swear." She said quietly. I look at her shocked. "Why?" I asked. "Ha?" She responds in shock as well. "Tsk." I grab the lunch box in her hand and walk out of the roof top. The next day when I open my locker there's no lunch box on it. I walk to my class and walk pass to Claudine's classroom. She is busy talking to her seatmate and laughing. I walk to the door of their class. "Hey, call Claudine for me." I ask one of her classmates. The guy tremble and run to Claudine telling her I am here. She look at me confused and stands up slowly. I motion my hand to her to 'come here'. When she is in front of me, I grab her to the rooftop. "Why didn't you bring me lunch?" I asked frowning at her. She was shocked by my question then frown. I face my back at her. Damn? Why did I said that? I face her again and saw her suppressing a smile. I was mesmerized by her smile, everything goes slow motion. I can only hear my heart beat and everything went blur but her. When did this started to happened? "Stop smiling, I'm asking you!" I shouted at her. "Because you told me to stop bringing them for you." She answered, her smile faded. "Why didn't you.. damn! Fuck!" I kick the nearest pot beside me. She squeal. "I'm sorry." She apologize looking at the floor. I don't know why this stupid girl is stirring my emotion. She makes me livid for being this stupid, for letting Dino hold her like that. She makes me soft whenever I see her teary eyes, she makes me mad at myself whenever she apologizes at me even though she did nothing wrong. She brings out all the emotions I am trying to suppress. I hate myself for feeling all this emotion that I can't name, I won't name. I hate her for giving me this damn feelings that I despise. "Dammit, fck!" I kick the arm chair behind her and left her there in the rooftop. 1 week has passed I heard the news that she transferred. Dino got kicked out of the school while here I am staying here. My father is powerful enough to buy this whole school and to let me stay here. To hide his worthless son here and to not let me damage his image as a business tycoon and as a politician. Screw life. Now she's gone. I let her slip because of my godamn attitude. 10 years have passed, I am like my father now. A complete clone, ruthless in business, hot tempered and does nothing but business. I press the intercom to let my secretary Ruddy come in my to office. "Sir." He bows at me. "The High School reunion, I won't attend it." I said in stoic face while reading the reports. "Alright sir. I'll get the papers and everything that we need for the flight tonight to Japan." He said, I just nod. He still has something to say but he hesitated. "Spill it Ruddy." I command. "Miss Claudine will be in the reunion party sir." I stand abruptly. "Cancel the flight. Drive me to that stupid party." Damn! It's now or never. The party is cozy. I roam my eyes to look for her. Familiar faces all over, Dino in one of the circles telling everyone about her wife, some girl showing her limited edition bag to her friends and then I spotted her. She is as beautiful as ever. She is laughing at the silly stories one of the ladies telling her. I walk to her. "Hey ladies." I greeted and flashes them my boyish grin. They just flushed. She stares at me shocked. "Rhage..." She said softly. Damn, I love hearing her saying my name. "Hi Claudine. Long time no see." I look at her intently. She gave me her gorgeous smile. "Long time no see.." She removes her gaze at me. I was about to say something when a guy inch shorter than me suddenly drops his hand around Claudine's shoulder. "Hey babe." I stare at his arm, wrapped possessively around her and look at her with questions in my eyes. "Liam. This my high school friends. Ria and Kaz. And this is Rhage. Everyone, this is Liam my fiancée." She introduced us. I almost drop the glass I'm holding. I excused myself to them. I walk to the corner of the room, looking at her talking to the same girls together with her fiancée. I chuckle to myself. Damn, was I too late? I gulp the wine in one blow. She looks at me across the room, emotions dancing in her eyes. I smirk at her. No I'm not. She is mine to begin with. I'm gonna have her back by hook or by crook.

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