@abrilata 22 April 2022

Diving in your universe 🛸　　　 　🌎　°　　🌓　•　　.°•　　　🚀 ✯ 　　　★　*　　　　　°　　　　🛰 　°·　　                           🪐 .　　　•　° ★　•  ☄ ▁▂▃▄▅▆▇▇▆▅▄▃▁▂. *Before you say you made me whole* *Then why have I kept on searching for my pieces until now?* *Before you boast that you love me* *Why do I ask myself since when?* *And before you claim that you hold my heart.* *Why do I feel like there's something wrong?* *so I pause* *And remind myself that its enough* *To believe that your flame has lived in me* *but all I felt was smoke.* *I think it's enough.* *To say lies to make me feel better.* *I knew it ever since that when you said you'll stay,* ***It only means for now*****.** *That when you say you love me* *You mean for a moment* *and I remember our moment* *that sunny morning when you've said* *You'll return before the sun goes down* *And then I wait with eyes open* *And cried because my shadow started to appear.* *And so I realized that I've been lost for a long time.* *Seeking for you instead of myself* *Been addicted to the ecstasy of love I thought it was.* *Been swimming in shallow water not knowing that it'll drown me to death.* *Been climbing the highest trees* *And the desire has made me climb higher and higher* *Not even thinking about how to get down.* *Been waiting for the rain not to get wet.* *but to be with me* *so I am not the only one crashing on the ground.* *My heart was young and I wanted to discover things that'll make it grow.* *and accidentally found you* *And accidentally flatters me* *And you accidentally pushed me to get into your universe*  *I float,* *I dive,* *I flew* *and It feels like heaven* *To be with someone who no longer holds this universe* *But became the universe itself for me.* *But its getting worse* *I could no longer breathe my air* *And in all accidents,* *there is an exemption.* *It is the pain I felt.* *I deserve this pain.* *Because I chose to love.* *I know  when to stop* *And I did it already.* *it hurts but I know it'll get worst* *if we continue these lies* *I don't want to remain broken* *And you won't even notice that I'm already gone*  *Right Before you say goodbye.*

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