@ZoyaAnsari 17 December 2022

It's been raining a lot lately. Maybe not where other people can see, but my head is full of storms I just can't seem to calm. I don't know if this comes with age, but I've been having restless bus rides home where I keep on asking myself, "where do I go now?" I always get frustrated not knowing how others figure it out. I'm just so tired. Of course I'll keep going, but I really hope there's an end to this cycle. I think it'll be nice to wake up one day and I don't have to ask questions anymore. To lay on my bed without staring at the ceiling for hours, hoping to finally fall asleep. To ride the bus or the train without having to fight back the tears or needing to drown my thoughts with music. I really hope with all my heart that this rain stops sooner.