@ZoyaAnsari 1 October 2022 more from that month

I know myself. I am full of flaws and complexities. So I know that I can be very unlovable on some days, like really, really difficult. And somewhere deep down, I know that I am being unreasonable here. But for some reason, I just stay that way in those moments. Maybe, I get tired. Maybe, I feel frustrated. Maybe, I just need pampering. Or maybe, I just need validation that you are my person, and you will take my tantrums without leaving me. I know that’s kind of sadistic and lame. But sometimes, we find an odd comfort that I am loved even when I am unlovable. And thank you for being that blessing in my life. I know how crazy I can be. And kudos to you for always calming down my storm. You know my mood swings, rather mood tsunamis. You know when I will just keep exploding for no reason. And you know what to do with me then. I love you so much for not giving up on me when most people would have given up easily. I adore you so much for tolerating me when I say the stupidest and meanest things. I really, really value that. But why can’t I always be nice? Because I am not perfect. I am many layers. And some of those layers are rough and wrong. I try to fool the world with my smile. But sometimes, my soul gets tired of smiling and being nice while everything within me is just falling apart. And then, I wish to show how exactly I am feeling. And for me, I find that comfort with you. I can be at my worst with you. I know it might sound selfish and rude. But I don’t know. You belong to me. And I have that right over you. I own a part of your soul. So I will be eating your head up when my head is bursting. I will scream at you when the voices inside my head are driving me crazy. And I will want all your attention and care when I will feel lonely and unloved. You are the medicine I can take any time my soul feels sick. And you know what? You are lucky that I consider you so close to show you my worst side with ease. In fact, I am the luckiest that you are the best thing about me when I am at my worst. Just stay that way. As you know, I am worth every bit of that trouble, right? ~have a blessed weekend to everyone