Without bad there is no good
Hello, great day to you all!
Here with another philosophical article for you. I want to write in the beginning, that I have here on RC such and good times. Community, plenty of great articles, people etc. I paused my activity on IG, FB, Twitter a month ago, because I cannot handle the pressure and time invested in those was unequal to communication under my posts. That really was making me anxious and depressed and some points. You know when I post, it is not because I want to hear just: ,,Oh, amazing.,, ,,Nice,, ,,Beautiful,, I want to have a meaningfull chitty chat. Not into small talks, I want to know the feelings/thoughts/critics people have about my art and thoughts. I found it just here. Ind I want to thank everyone that provides me with great comments. That´s short entry, let´s go for article itself.
**Please take in mind this article is not founded on science of psychology, it is just my subjective thoughts.**
I got inspiration for this article from my painting I did a while ago. I was about to paint something evil, and did not know why, maybe I needed to release some negative energies. :D Right after that I got motivation and started working on theme of next painting that I dedicated 4 whole paintings to, and last one I am happy about, so I find that artwork of evil lady some kind of acceptance for feeling like that, which lead to fresh new good ones.
Good vs. Bad
Try to ask yourself. What is good? - What is bad? You can surely find some examples for those and different from person to person, so it is subjective, isn´t it? Why are some people considered to be good, and other ones as bad? If you read my article about introverts you already know I hate judging. To be accurate, I hate when someone adresses hate to that person. I think it definitely can trigger right the bad part of judged person. That bad uncovered, will cause, person gonna (or not ofc) hurt anothers, that anothers will hurt anothers and so on. That is why is there so many ,,bad,, people in this world. I am not writting about people with mental illneses, disorders, but, for example, most of criminals, I found out, had severe childhoods, emotiaonally cold parents maybe abusing, ignoring them when they were kids. That people was not able to copy with their sad feelings, hurted souls, so they developed cruel mindset, had no empathy, were unable to recognize what is bad or good. I am not claiming that it is only about issues mentoned, I am not authorized to make this kind of psychological profiles, that is just something I noticed about all those cruel, bad criminals. Was it their fauls, or fault of their parents, or fault of parents of their parents? Why traumas like that are traded from generation to generation, why some people are not realising they have to cut off so called ,,generation traumas,, and others are. In simple language, it could be described as when a person have child and decide not to act like his parents acted towards him. Not to repeat their mistakes which hurted him emotionaly, mentally. But in some people something cracks and they are unable to neither have a romantic relationship, nor children, some have the children but doing them the same abusive things their parents did to them. It is quite a mystery to me, why various people can handle equal situations differently. Are that criminals guilty? Are their parents guilty? Is society guilty? Why we are not able to take that people and just explain to them: ,, this is good and this is bad.,, ? Why they got no understanding. Would love to see your opinions and have some disscusion about that with you! :)
Importance of BAD
Despite my heavy consideration, we must accept, that without bad we would not be able to recognise good. I wrote it here many times already. Our world, our minds are founded on oposites. Good-Bad, Small-Big, Black-White, Light-Shadow... That means we need both of that oppositions. One feature cannot exist without its opposition. I think if people would accept that fact, they could make it so much easier through life and problems that comes within.
You surely met with phrase: ,, Don´t see this only black and white.,, That is the point, between black and white there is such huge spectrum of greys one can remain confused. I feel my english is not capable of dipping into this theme, but I try, even if briefly. Things that happens to you in your life, cannot be assigned just to be ,,black,, or ,,white,,. There are bilions of people around the world with you. Each of them is creating their own reality, has his own individuality, personality, priorities, thinking etc. Ones you met, had contact with, your family, friends, they have their own contacts, families, friends that influenced them and now they are influencing you. Apart of them you have your personal values prirorities of course, bud strongly influenced by your surrondings. You absorb both white (good) and black (bad) from them. Not claiming whether black is bad or good colour, same with white. Just a comparision. :) Your surroundings should direct you to what good or bad, but stand two different people next to each other and you will see how their sense for good-bad varies. It is what great scale means according to me. It is something you should consider when feeling someone is judging, criticising, trying to put you down. For example some people think that tell bare truthful truth is good, some people may end up hurted and they just do not get that truth, they see only their damaged feelings, and there is no effect in that. I know there are people that cannot wrap facts up with kindness, they find it maybe waste of time, but also there is thin border between bare truth and toxicity, but I do not want to take that route for now. If you are told by something that seems inadequate try take a second to think about whether it brings you some knowledge, progress, help or is it just something irrelevant, offensive and puts you down. I know, it is hard for some of us, also for me sometimes. Still valid that if you immediately after anything was said feel really bad in soul, it is toxic. Because every truth can be said in a neutral or polite way, if it is not there is zero effect that you get it and learn from it. That was more close to the depersonalization from your feelings.
Now to what I sense the main theme of this article. I find myself to be very emotionaly unstable sometimes. I could go from 100 to 0 in about one minute. It is because of my overthinking. To the gro, overthinking can be both contructive or destructive. As everything. It is not necessary something to be told to me, I manage to tell it to myself internaly pretty well. One time I tell myself I made a great progress in anything, proud of myself, and just after that minute I go with I am not doing enough, am lazy, blah, blah... Since the time I learned that there is opposites everywhere, also in my thinking/feeling, it is something that does not trigger depression inside me anymore. I accepted ups and downs, and that helps a lot, of course being down is not pleasant, but if you think about it as an end of the world, it is gonna drag you into vicious circle. When you are sensitive, like me, and feeling bad, just stop thinking about that issue, if it is hard try not to blame yourself of thinking about it at least. Try to speak with yourself the way you need, pick activities that bring you joy. There is always solution and just how bad thoughts came, it will be gone soon. Pressure is big, biiig problem in matter of mental health. So if there is no one who treats you according to your individuality, just do it to yourself.
I do not want to seem like I am perfect, definitely not. I have still many thing to work out, and it will be so till the end of my days probably, but will not give up with my all determination. I just wanted to write here some of things I discovered, connected, was adviced about.
At the end I wanted to tell you and encourage you to treat yourself like you are the best friend of yours. Accept who you are, do not make judgments towards yourself, there are plenty of people that do it for you:D ....Just kidding, if they do, try to forgive them, try to separate from them. Take every situation as training, not a apocalypse!
Best wishes, have a great rest of day!
Zir
Today, while walking home from kindergarden, my older son asked me a question that has beed resonating inside of me since he asked. He get mad at me because I did not let him do whatever he wanted and he asked in anger: ,,Why have I chose you as a mother?,,
Well, I do not kniw if you heard about theory that children are choosing their parent before they are born. Not sure if you are into reincarnation and multiple past lives, but it sounds interesting with a little bit truth in it to me.
In that moment, it seemed like he remembers what was there before he came in this world. 😂 Still thinking about it....
What do you think?
Does anybody know, why I got none points for yesterday, while active? I liked too much, commented too much? I am so dismoticated right now, I just wanted to have fun an talk to other people, and it seems something went wrong...🙁
My artwork: Sticky Thoughts, for Art is Cool Contest
This is my entry for art contest by @Jane, hope I will write it till deadline. :)
Link to the contest: https://read.cash/@Jane/art-contest-ea4aba29
Sticky Thoughts
A girl wakes up after long, productive, night, older kid already watching TV, younger one still sleeping in his bed.
She reaches kitchen just to see her everyday routine is stil there, washing dishes, cleaning the floor, making a breakfast, after that she can finally sit down with a cup of coffee and starts to think how she would fill up her day, to not be emotionaly, creatively empty. She knows, she has no time, two kids are demanding their space, attention, basic needs.... But even despite that something goes wrong in her head...
She starts to question herself:
Is this journey of art worth it?
What if I am just daydreamer and never make living from it?
What if I am not imaginative enough?
Why others got it while me is still sitting here, feeling that I do not moving forward, increasing my skills, not even getting noticed...?
Is my art good enough? What a great art means?
If I had to apply for ordinary job, just for financies, in future it will be the start of my death!
This sticky thoughts are casting on her head and she is powerless, it is like when you accidentally soak your fingers into the honey and cannot get rid of that stickiness, only by washing them thoroughly.
She raises her eyes hopelessly to the ceiling trying to get that ideas down, wash it... but there are emerging new one every time, and when she finds a answer to one, another question is there, ready to makes her disbelieve in what her heart is loving.
She cannot really imagine, what other she should do, if not art, any kind of art...
And then her mood changes, after she ended the cup of coffee, and she is ready to every situation and problem that life brings...Feels strong.
But that doubts are not gone, they are just awaiting for her weak time. To appear. Maybe they are back in an hour, or next morning, but surely they are gonna get back.
This my artwork is not very fresh, but I panted it in 2020, it is done by aquarelle and ink.
Hope I joined in time, and now I have time to read all the entry posts of other artists. :)
New quick painting...
Still having weakness in using concentrated watercolor paints :/
Hope you like it, have a great day.
Zir
Art Is My Form of Communication with People / Introvert here.... :)
Hello, hello, hi...
I want to write down here some of my thoughts I´ve been interested in for past 3 months. Since 2020 started it is all about disasters - epidemic, wildfires, protests for different problems in our society (Hope y´all are safe and alright) and definitely is not one of that chilled years, and hope it will not get worse until the end.
I feel, for me, as individual is year 2020 on the one side full of doubt, but oposite side is about big progress, in knowing me, knowing what I want to do, and to be firm about my goals. If you read previous article I wrote, you already know I am doing fine art. Fine art and every kind of art is important in our lives, I mean also art as furniture, decorations, clothes. Is it art which brightens your day, raise mood, support you in important meetings, job applies, and so on... For example, I have two small kids, one is 5yo and younger is 1yo, and I don´t always have time to paint or draw, and if I just dress up by my aestethics, or do my makeup I feel so less frustrated to not be able creating. :) When I go out, I am trying to avoid social contact lately, and if I wear interesting clothes, I do not feel so out of society and wierd. We are getting to the first point, I want write about in this article, finally.
I now, this kind of social phobia or isolation comes to me in cycles. A year cycles, like I have three years of outgoing and then 2 years of reserved behaviour. It almost looks like depression, but it is not...I found out about Myers-Briggs Type Indicator six months ago, which helped me to understand my essence, I finally got to know myself, not judging myself to be weak, mentaly ill, wierd and stuff. But than suddenly there was some result of the looong test, that completely helped me to discover what I am. Let me just briefly write about background of all this psychologic stuff...
MBTI typology was constructed during World War I. by two americans Katherine Cook Briggs and Isabel Briggs Myers to help women find out which job are they most suitable for while men was involved in a WW fights. Typology is based on Carl Jung theory that people experience world by different principles - sensation, intuition, feeling, thinking. I do not want to pay attention to theory of MBTI typology, but ther are maaany information on internet about it, so make your research. :)
I am gonna be selfish in this article, sooo excuse me.
From times of my primary, high school I´ve had to deal with same or pretty simliar problems, I mean problems in my relationships, with other people, with comunication, setting my goals and going for them. But on the other hand I deeply understood feelings, hidden reasons of acting of others. I had a small amount of friends. Some of them was pretty good, and they liked me just I was, and another ones, was kinda toxic in nowadays terminology. :D But in my eyes they were not toxic, just had some stuff unhealed in depth. But at the end of the day, for my beeing it was toxic in a way, they attacked me as I was responsible for their problems. So it was always, I have to leave this relationship and on the other side I tried my best to help them uncover their pains and make them feel better. And I was so oriented on it I forgot about my dreams, my traumas, invested time in not constructive things which I desperately regret, but at least, I am not gonna lose any seconds of my life to others. Like yeah, it is my nature to do this so I cannot be this strict, but now I know the boundaries, like if my help (time) is applied or not.
My type is INFP. It describes me madly right. This uncovered me I am not mentally ill, but only not suitable for ordinary life, just as, go to college, get a good job, build your career, have a child, have everything made, have lot of friends, be popular and interested in things every other women are. I love my intuition and know I hate routine, that for my N and P aspects, but my F and I made me and still make me a lot of troubles and wrinkles. :D Introvert - Extrovert problem I describe later, it is something more common to people.
Letter F in my type... I would rather got T, seriously. Sometimes I feel like a slave of my feelings, like some kind of addiction, I have to get my daily portion of feelings litteraly. I have to essentialy listen to music, look at beautiful things, watch movies, only listen to a good speaker every single day... I could bath in feeling for rest of my days, and not do anything reasonable. But world is not setted this way, sadly. I highly demand emotions even in contact with others, not centered on alway be right, I prefer friendly discusion over logical. I often, like pretty often, seem dumbish to people whole my life, but on the other hand I know I am not, about myself. :D I also like to debate problems in society, economics, ecology... finding solutions and so on. But not by arguing or ridiculing. I love to have options and talking opinions door opened. So I am not able to go hard for what I want cause I constantly thinking about if it is good-bad, if not hurting anybodys emotions, not to look sniffy.
Wierd yeah? That fact, I am wierd, I kind of love it, it was never something I was ashamed of. Because I love wierd things, talks, people, places, fantasies.
INTROVERT vs. EXTROVERT
Something I suffered from childhood, even I knew about it, never looked in depth on this issue. I have just knew I am an Introvert, and associated it with- I am slow, stupid, inappropriate, quiet... I lived with it, until I found out I can be proud to be introverted person. :D Not saying extraverts are less, or something, do not get me wrong. I love extroverts, they are such an inspiration to me, even if sometimes rude. :D Not all of them of course, but majority. But still big inspiration, because where else I could study others behaviours and acting when Intraverts are reserved and so am I :D
But think about that- introverts stand by plenty of significant inventions, art, sciences knowledge, progress. And that brings me to the point I am mostly sad about, many of introverts are from young age considered to be lazy, stupid, shy, and guess what? Children are sensitive to this prejudices so much. They grow up and feel lost in their lives, like I did. Many of them go through abuse. What a potential we are killing in them. I am sad this is still a problem, because I know many intraverts and they are great people, deep and valuable. I would love if there was better support for them, only if that ,,wise,, people could hide their prejudices from children. I have father who is one of the most introverted persons I know, and also he has the problem with introverts! Why? He should understand them, he thinks and acts same as them. You know why? Because from early age he was pushed to be talkative, confident, to show people how wise he is, but he could not change his nature, and that leaded to his mental health problems. So, please, next time you meet some quiet, reserved person, just be polite, and do not make fun of them. They are reserved because they want to, not because they are insecure. Society makes them so. The fact is lots of them are shy, but still not insecure about their knowledge, priorities, feelings. I know here on read.cash are mostly adults, but maybe it gets to someone who never thought this way.
Introverts love to be alone, love to be in their heads, they are as wise and skilled as extroverts, maybe just more substantial. And THEY LOVE TO BE ALONE to charge baterries, not to be selected out of social contact. Every human beeing needs social contact, some more some less.
From my perspective, I always lived my life in my head, I could see myself as any heroe from films, or better make up one myself, I projected that to banal life, and due to this my fantasies I live pretty interesting life, not even have to went outside:D I want to know others how it feels, but imagine if I went around to you and started talking about my imagination:D You would probably recomend me to visit a psychologist. So I found a way in fine art, maybe in writing some tales. It is something people agree and are able to absorb.
Small quotation in the end: ,,Introverts do not make friend, they are literally adopted by extroverts" . I found this somewhere on internet and this makes me laugh everytime. :D
I you liked this article, would like you to write me if you knew about MBTI typology or if you are intro-extrovert. Would love to read your opinions.
Have a great day.
Zira
Searching for perfection between my head and hand
Hello there!
I am ZiraZir, and want to write a little bit about me as an introducion.
I am hobby artist desperately hoping to make living from my art someday. I have been making fine art for 11 years now, with longer or shorter breaks, which I regret so much, but I´ve taken it seriously for about 3 years, and since then I got right direction in what making art actually is about.
In past, I put great pressure on myself to increase my skills in year, and after that I thought I am ready and good at art, but what I learned and super gratefull for that, art is a journey, neverending. Of course there are some basics, some technical matters, but especialy in finding for ones art style. Its mostly about try-experience-experiment-fail and about time you invest in.
So in 2020 (wierd year so far) I set myself a resolution I will be painting/drawing etc. anything I do like, I enjoy. Previous years I used to draw realistics, fanarts, and only after 2020 resolution I feel free and being true to myself :) Just a little note, I always thought that arts like fanarts should bring me more people that like my content, more potential buyers of my art, but nope. Every piece of mine ever sold, was my original, was picture from my head, my fantasy, not any detailed, perfect fanart or traced picture (ok maybe one) :) They (original artworks) bring me also bigger connection with people and this is the most encouraging than anything.
I am going to sum up my old art in single article.
Here is a small sample of my most beloved original pieces (one of them is Title picture)
Fear of Woman, 2020, A3
Sticky Thoughts, 2020, A3
Mermay 2020, A3
Mermay 2020, prompt Swamp, 2020, A4
These are my four soul-uplifting, beloved artworks of 2020 year... so far :)
Hope, you liked my small artwork show, I am preparing new articles about Inktober 2019, stories behind my individual artworks, maybe some reviews, etc. but I am also opened up to your suggestions or what you are interested in about fine art! Would be great if you comment some down in.:)
Have a nice rest of day!
Zira Zir
@ZiraZir
