(Mask)Hope If
I was wondering myself in my little room, maybe, if we took off the masks we wear everywhere, we wouldn't find anything on our faces. We are humans who are masked, but faceless.
It's also possible that we have misunderstood by making one of the masks that we wear as our own face.
Whatever it is, if you look in the mirror, convince yourself that you are not wearing a mask.
Indeed, as Canetti said, metamorphosis can go on indefinitely. The limits of metamorphosis are the limits of human imagination itself.
The limits of the mask, therefore, are the limits of the wildness of man himself. If I'm a mask, doesn't that mean the mask is also me?
Perhaps, the human concept itself is also a special mask. Ah, doesn't this mean that we know almost nothing about ourselves?
"Flexing" Religi
The baby cries in the morning. A loud sound woke him up. The sound does not come from inside the house, but from outside. There are people praying very hard, breaking the morning and destroying the peace of life of the surrounding community.
Praying and singing must be loud, even up to a distance of 3 km, the voice can still be heard. So many people are bothered. He said, this is to spread religion. What is created is not love, but burning hate. This is religious flexing.
From head to toe, cloth covered him. Among the many people, he looked different himself. The shape is no longer human, and not at all beautiful. He felt holy, because he was wearing religious clothes. This, too, is religious flexing.
In the name of religion, he makes trouble. Politics messed up. The economy is toyed with. Feeling holy, he judges all, mercilessly. This, too, is religious flexing. In the name of religion, he asked for many things. Often, the requests are unreasonable. A rotting foreign way of thinking is applied in the land. The destructive old ways of thinking are applied in the globalized 21st century. This is religious flexing in its most superficial form.
Flexing is a word that is used a lot these days. The meaning is simple, namely showing off. Flexing religion is a person who continues to show off his religion, while oppressing women, harming others, disturbing the surrounding environment and disrupting the situation. Along with various other forms of flexing, religious flexing is developing in Indonesia.
In fact, the purpose of flexing is marketing. People show off what they have, so that people are interested in buying, or following. However, flexing is often excessive, especially religious flexing. What is created is not love to follow, but hate burning in the heart.
Why?
Why do people do religious flexing? There are three important things to note. First, religious flexing is a sign of self-emptying. Flexing is a marketing effort that is already in a pinch, because the goods being sold are of low quality.
Religious flexing is a sign of religious emptiness. No beautiful teachings were spread. No enlightening teachings were preached. There are only empty words wrapped in loud voices, and the intention of showing off without limits.
Two, religious flexing is a sign of poor knowledge. Knowledgeable people live in peace and silence. Knowledgeable people pray in beauty and solemnity. Flexing religion is far from silence, peace and beauty. The rippling water is not deep (the one that makes a lot of noise has no content), so the Indonesian proverb says.
Three, religious flexing is a sign of lack of empathy. Empathy is the ability to see the world from another person's point of view. Empathy keeps people from falling into selfish attitudes. Empathy is the fruit of high wisdom and knowledge. The perpetrators of religious flexing have lost empathy, and have become shallow humans who like to show off.
Then, how?
First, we must do self-reflection. Are we perpetrators of religious flexing? If so, we must learn to change ourselves. We must be critical of the religion we profess.
Two, we need to learn more about religion. In fact, we need to go beyond religion, and touch spirituality. Religion is a product of human hands full of hidden interests. Meanwhile, spirituality is the path to enlightenment and liberation.
Three, people need to learn empathy. Studying religion and science is necessary. Studying philosophy is also very necessary. However, all of that is useless, if people do not have empathy for other living beings.
In the end, regarding religion, we don't need to flex. Just go deep and live the religion we profess. Or, we can go straight to spirituality. It is simply the simplicity, depth and wisdom of our lives that attracts others. No need to shout, oppress women and create chaos.
Agree?
Life Flows, Without Obstacles
11 p.m. Wednesday, August 25, 2022. Stomach twists. The pain was almost unbearable. I woke up.
The weather is cool and delicious. Everything was perfect, except for the screaming stomach. The combination of coffee, milk, soda, spicy goat satay is indeed deadly. I've been expecting it.
I opened the medical application. Consul with a doctor. Medication was ordered, and it came right away within 30 minutes. Modern technology is amazing!!
While waiting, with my stomach wrapped around me, I did meditation. Some Yoga and Tai Chi postures help warm the body. The pain is reduced, also because the ability to accept the situation increases. I am clear: I know, that there is pain coming in the stomach.
The medicine is coming. Thank you so much to Mr. Marno who was ready to take him. Matur Suksma I say from the bottom of my heart. Before taking the medicine, I eat a small snack. Returning to a cross-legged sitting posture, I waited for the medicinal effect to appear.
Shortly after, I fell asleep. Woke up in the morning, the weather was so sunny. The pain has disappeared. After doing morning rituals in the form of meditation, Yoga and Tai Chi, I went out for breakfast, and wrote. Everything is perfect as it is.
No Barriers
This is life without obstacles. This is not to say there are no problems, or challenges. The world keeps changing. There is never the same situation over and over again.
So is the body. Sometimes, he is sick, and needs rest. Sometimes, he is healthy, and ready to be invited to do many activities. Everything is changing and temporary.
The human mind is the same. Sometimes, there is a feeling of joy coming. Sometimes, there are feelings of sadness, anger and anxiety. Everything changes.
The state of life is like the clouds and the sky. Sometimes, there are cloudy clouds covering the sky and the sun. Moments later, the clouds left, and the weather cleared again. The sun and sky are visible again.
We just have to live with what happened. This means, we know and are very aware of what is happening here and now. Spiritual practice also helps, so that we are aware, and ready to accept all the circumstances that are happening. Then, we are ready to do what needs to be done.
Contextual Spirituality
Zen Master Seung Sahn said, "only go straight, don't know". The road continues in the midst of various changes. The straight path with a clear mind. No need to think too much. This is the essence of Zen which is contextual spirituality. This is a spirituality that is open to all circumstances. There is no teaching that fools and impoverishes, as in the religion of death. It gives peace, provides direction in life as well as skills to respond to changes.
Zen is unique. It combines Buddhism from Nepal, as well as Taoism from China. Buddhism is very logical and systematic. Meanwhile, Taoist teachings are very spontaneous and natural. The two intertwine beautifully and logically in the Zen way.
Life is dissatisfaction. As long as we pursue temporary and changing things outside ourselves, we will suffer. We just need to find silence and great inner peace. The simplest way is to become one with the sensation of breathing in and out, until everything is gone.
All action flows from the void. This is also known as the state of no mind. When you eat, only eat. When walking, just walking. Everything is clear and perfect as it is. The mind becomes like a mirror. Nothing was added to the things that happened. Be aware and clear on what is happening here and now. Then, do what needs to be done from inner silence.
The Way Out of Suffering
What to do, when suffering comes? What to do when things don't go your way? When the body hurts? When the mind is confused? When suffering, be aware that suffering comes. When disappointment, anger and various other emotions come, be aware that they are coming. Observe all feelings and emotions that arise, without judgment. This is called clarity.
In clarity, there is a welcome acceptance. Then, we can think about what needs to be done. When hungry, yes eat. When you are sick, you take medicine. When you don't have money, you live frugally and work more diligently. Clarity will give birth to the ability to understand the situation. Common sense also works. We can act appropriately, according to the circumstances in front of our eyes. All flowed from deep silence.
Silence means no mind. We are only aware of what is happening in the here and now. The past and the future vanished, for they were only illusions. Naturally from a quiet mind, we then act in response to the existing situation. What is also important is the direction of our lives. As long as we live only to satisfy self-interest and narrow groups, then suffering will come. On the other hand, if we live for the benefit of all beings, then peace and happiness will arise. This is an eternal law of nature.
The result is amazing. Life becomes barrier-free moment by moment. Peace and happiness become loyal friends in everyday life. Hopefully so?
Don't Chase Shadows
Do you know one of the songs by Anggun C. Sasmi entitled Shadow Bayang-bayang Ilusi? This is what the lyrics say in English, “Should I live in a dream. Cultivate thousands of dreams. Should I run and keep running. Chase the illusionary shadows. Illusionary shadow. Just fantasy. Illusionary shadows."
This song was a hit in Indonesia in the early 1990s. I was tempted to respond to the question in the song. Should we live in illusions and illusions? The answer is clear: no.
Illusion Shadow
What is an illusionary shadow? An illusion is something that appears to be real and exists, but is not really there. It is like a shadow. In our lives, there are many illusions that make life no longer clear.
These illusions include hopes, thoughts, feelings, emotions, opinions and everything that is received from the five senses, namely information from the eyes, nose, ears, skin and tongue. All these things have no real form within us. It is an illusory image, as if it exists, but is not really there. Modern physics has shown us that the matter in the world basically cannot stand alone, apart from human consciousness.
What happens, if we chase the illusory shadow? What happens, if I pursue my hopes, ideas, dreams and ambitions? What happens, if I make a decision based on my emotions and feelings?
The Circle of Suffering
The answer is simple: you will enter a cycle of suffering. Every human being has a peculiarity in him. When he gets what he wants, he doesn't want it anymore. The desire deceives us, and eventually leads us to the door of suffering.
A life filled with chasing after illusions is like riding a lightning vehicle in Dunia Fantasi, Jakarta. You will go up and down, non-stop. Sometimes, you are on top, because your wish is achieved. Sometimes at the bottom, because what you get must be let go, either separated by death, or someone takes it from your hands.
This kind of life is a life that goes awry. That desire is completely wrong. Unfulfilled, we suffer. If it is fulfilled, we suffer too. There is only one way to get out of this cycle of suffering.
Don't Chase Shadows
When an illusory shadow comes, whatever its form, don't chase it. We are simply aware of the shadows that exist, and are in that awareness. This is the starting point that lies before all thoughts and emotions arise. In this point, we will find clarity and peace.
We are no longer enslaved by illusions. We are masters of it. We can then choose what thoughts or feelings are worth following, according to the circumstances at hand. We can make good decisions, especially decisions that involve other people's lives.
Living in awareness, before pursuing illusory shadows, is a life filled with freedom and wisdom. People are no longer enslaved by their thoughts and emotions. He can also be right to respond to all the things that happen in his life. When the time comes, he can leave his body in peace, because he knows, and experienced firsthand, that consciousness is eternal.
Isn't that the highest thing that can be achieved in human life?
Law me! It's not like this.
Someday, I will give a smile every time we meet. asking how you've gained experience while we're not together anymore.
One time, I want to hug you very tightly when things are not in line with your expectations, I want to wrap my full embrace in your body warmly. cry, let my clothes be wet with your tears. as long as you feel relieved afterwards. dear.. know that smile and hug is a severe punishment for a liar like you.
No, if the universe pleases, I want to go back to our day. redo everything from scratch. about a me to whom I give my all, and to me you do as you wish. in a party of feelings that had to end so quickly. and people already say we're compatible.
Unlucky! Unfortunately, sometimes I think, why weren't we just friends? But it's not all because I'm sorry we ever made love, baby. like sometimes I think, why was I too sincere to feel you. I should have ignored and hurt you to such an extent. and it is your duty to punish with hatred all your life.
In fact why should you lie, why not me? but really this is all not because I am an egoist who is regretting that we have ever been in love.
Law me! but that's not how it works... because the punishment is to have to remember you as a liar. it really pisses me off.
In Patience Fruits Kindness
Patience is evidence of one's humility in holding the soul from despair, anger, and sadness. If we are given a trial by Allah, it could be a matter from Allah for our good. Because the end of patience is a big victory that we will get. Even the angels were ready to greet and greet them.
Patience is supposed to be owned by every human being, imagine if in the heart of a wife there is no patience. Instead of giving mental support to a husband who is experiencing a downturn, it is possible that the wife actually leaves her husband who is in a slump. Of course there will be big problems if the heart does not have patience.
Regarding this attitude of patience. With patience, the suffocating grief will feel airy. In addition, Allah also says that humans ask for His help with patience and prayer. It is clear that patience has an extraordinary meaning, even being able to bring help from Allah SWT. When his servant has a problem that is so heavy, Allah will only tell his servant to be patient and pray, and return all affairs to Him alone.
Patience is not just a matter of being able to forgive or not, because every mouth can say 'I forgive you' but in the heart no one knows. And people who are patient will certainly forgive, although in the process of forgiving it is sometimes applied in its own way, such as temporarily going away from the environment or people who make their hearts hurt. It's not that he's angry or resentful, but that it's to quell his anger in that way that he tries to be patient and avoid fighting.
Patience is a part of faith and Islam is like a head on a body, because there is no life for a body without a head, therefore faith will not exist without patience.
Social Beings
Humans are individual beings as well as social beings. As an individual creature, he has a unique character that differs from one another, even if he is a clone, with his free mind and will. And as a social being he needs another human being, needs a group in its minimal form, which recognizes its existence, and in its maximum form a group on which he can depend.
As social beings, humans cannot live alone. Humans need togetherness in their lives. All of that is in the context of mutual giving and mutual benefit. Rich people cannot live without poor people who are their servants, employees, drivers, and so on.
Likewise, the poor cannot live without the rich who employ and pay them. Aristotle categorizes humans into the "Zoon Politicon" which means humans are creatures who want to always hang out and gather. So humans are social creatures. Because of the nature of socializing and socializing, humans are known as social creatures.
He said that humans are social creatures not intending to emphasize the idea of human obligation to socialize with each other, but the idea of social beings primarily intends to point directly to the perfection of human identity and identity.
Humans always adapt to new circumstances around them. Human existence is very real, very different from other creatures. As in reality, humans are creatures that walk on two legs and have the ability to think.
While thinking itself is the basic nature of humans that determines the nature of humans themselves and distinguishes them from other creatures. Humans also have works that they produce so that they are different from other creatures.
The results of human work can be seen in historical settings and psychological, geographical, emotional and intellectual situations that underlie their work. From the work made by humans, making him a creature that creates history.
Because social is the way humans relate to each other in various activities, then along with the development of human culture, social nature also develops along with the development of institutions that arise based on goals or activities that have been mutually agreed upon by them.
Humans act as individual beings and social beings who can be distinguished through their rights and obligations. But the two cannot be separated because humans are part of society. Human relations as individuals with society are interwoven in harmony, harmony, and balance.
Therefore, the dignity and worth of each individual is fully recognized in achieving mutual happiness. Society is a place for individuals to hold social interaction and social interrelation. Interaction is a reciprocal activity between individuals in an association living together.
The intended interaction proceeds according to the mental and physical development of each human being and according to the time, starting from non-formal interactions such as making friends and socializing to formal interactions such as organizing, and others.
Living together exists naturally because each individual wants it. Each person wants it because he is aware that his perfection is only achieved through his togetherness with other humans. Living together exists in the first place to fulfill the will and purpose of each human person in order to perfect himself.
A person who declares himself to be a believer should always present, present goodness in the community. If every believer is diligent in doing this, then the social order that social scientists aspire to will surely be materialized. Hopefully. Amen.
Gift
God's gift is God's unsolicited, undeserved and undeserved mercy. When God answers you when you are least worthy, that is grace. That is His great grace! At your lowest point, in your darkest hour, His light shines through you and you become the recipient of His mercy that you did not seek, and the recipient of mercy cannot help but want to extend grace to others.
In and of us, we don't deserve the good. But because we are in His righteousness, God will not withhold any blessings from our lives today. Our part is not to struggle in our deeds and detachment from God, but to focus on receiving all we need from Him.
I believe that the more you become aware of the truth, the more you will experience God's grace. When your disqualifying voice comes to remind you of your failures on various fronts.
Pray and just keep trying....
Feel Bored
Who never says or feels bored? Moreover, recently we met during times when we had to stay at home, not as much mobility as usual. Often we like to scream and say, "I'm bored at home!".
True, or not? But if we want to stop for a moment to think, is boredom always an unpleasant thing? Or is boredom really of no use to our lives? If it is useless, then why do we still use the word bored in our daily life?
Starting from these various questions, I finally decided to find out more about boredom. From a pile of books, journals and articles that I read now I have a different perception of boredom. So far, it turns out that we often misunderstand the bored. We often associate boredom with nothing to do. In fact, we can have a lot of work but still feel bored. Until finally we feel bored not having a positive pole at all and we will get nothing from boredom.
In short, boredom is a condition that comes from two sources.
First, we can feel bored because the activity being carried out is lacking in stimulus. For example, in three hours, we fiddle with the same work. Over time we feel bored because the work reduces brain stimulus.
Second, boredom can arise because the purpose of the activities carried out begins to blur. For example, when we are asked to take part in office training that is not of our own volition. It could be that during the training we just listened, less involved in it. Then boredom arises from the question in my mind, "What is the purpose of me joining this training, huh?". Then the feeling of boredom leads to the understanding that it is a negative thing and we can't get anything out of boredom.
In fact, boredom is an emotion equivalent to happy, angry, annoyed, etc., which is useful for reminding us that we lack stimulus or that we are doing something we don't want to do. Understanding this, boredom has a role to encourage us to explore. Like an alarm, boredom can lead us to seek opportunities for inspiration, interaction, reflection and innovation. However, we must realize that boredom can be unhealthy. It could be a risk for us to get caught up in things that are less constructive. For example, using social media to relieve boredom.
Social media provides very little reward for us to cure "bored". In fact, social media has the potential to reduce our ability to be "bored". We just slide the screen, look at photos and videos, done. Activities on social media often do not provide a solution to boredom. Especially if we don't find space to interact, innovate, seek inspiration and reflection. Basically playing social media to be used as a bored repellent is not a problem. As long as it's not the only way to get rid of boredom.
By understanding the function of boredom in life, we can learn to overcome boredom. It would be nice when we want to express boredom, we can respond to these emotions. For example, by asking yourself: "Do I need to relax first?" "Do I need to chat with friends?", "Why am I doing this activity, what is the purpose?".
Give yourself time to think for a moment. But if you really want to say you're bored because you're really unemployed because there's no activity, that's okay too. It is a good validation if you want to admit boredom. Don't deny it and then force yourself to look for activities that have these four elements (inspiration, interaction, reflection and innovation). Just stay still, rest, while gathering energy to overcome boredom later.
Morning Rain
Monday morning, with the pouring rain
I don't wait but
I don't rebuke either
Because at every point there is a blessing that accompanies
I'm sure of that
Like a line of my rain prayer
" Allaahumma shoyyiban naafi’an "
This morning the rain greeted my earth
Soft caressing in the silence of the morning It brings back a handful of memories that I had stolen to keep
Memories of us and the rain
With the wind blowing the cold I give you happy greetings
What are you doing there?
Has it been raining this morning too?
Waiting = Boring
Waiting is human, because there are times when we really understand the meaning of waiting and understand patience, realizing how delicious it means to wait after knowing the sweet fruit falls from it.
Sounds ridiculous even god-level stupidity for people who like something immediately, can't stand to see something linger. Pssssttt..don't be disappointed with it! Human beings are created with their respective capacities. For those of us who are given wide chests, they look slow and lazy, but they don't know what weapons have been prepared for those of us who like "alon-alon from klakon". This is the real character for those who say they have a hobby of waiting.
Waiting is practicing patience
For those who like something immediate, seeing a watcher is like seeing something disgraceful, because for them all desires to be pursued are truly true. But sometimes we forget that we are created things. It all means from what is within us that governs. The Creator knows much better what is best for His creation and will give something good at the right time, place and person. So, for those of us who are said to be too slow, we should be proud, it turns out that our souls are much closer to God and our level of patience is much higher than those who like the phrase "express".
Waiting is the same as growing up
Do you know it turns out that life is beautiful in any way, the things we experience are just how we describe it and can't be separated from the thing called patience. An example of a case that often occurs to all humans on this earth is about love whose knots are not yet visible. For those who like to see things from other positions, waiting is a much more exciting thing because it teaches us a maturity to face things and force ourselves to grow.
Waiting doesn't mean dying
Hahaha.. be grateful, O people who are given the opportunity to wait. We can do everything what we wanted due to our free time for the other things. So, don't be so stressed, enjoyed. On the one hand, our work requires us to wait to do things that make waiting a pleasant thing. Try to love yourself, spend time reading unfinished books, writing and even hanging out with friends, joking or browsing things that can make you happy. Waiting doesn't mean you're dead style! Only certain humans can see how extraordinary this human watchdog is.
Waiting is the same as planned happiness
There are times when our steps are slowed to bring back big steps forward. There are times when this slow step makes the way of thinking go far ahead. Not everything that looks like waiting is a bad thing. Waiting is not boring but the most meaningful thing, by waiting we can look around, able to think clearly for the next step. Never waste time waiting for you for things that are not happy. This is your life. Dare to declare your own happiness, reward the big day waiting for you with planned happiness.
Waiting the same as the imaginary
Waiters are imaginary. Have you ever felt no when you were given time to wait how many fantasies, ideas and even silly things you have come up with. It shows how special you are and legitimate to be a good imaginary. My personal experience, as much as possible people should not wait for me, it's okay if I was given the opportunity to wait. It's awesome waiting, it's amazing how many inspirations have been written in this head, ridiculous things even if the body can't stand laughing alone imagine the painting dancing in the head.
Maybe this is for acute sufferers or people who already have a level of patience above the speed of the wind,Hahahahaha. But the point is just using your time with the right mind and the right place.Indeed.
Starting from a thought
Many of us think that physical health is much more important than mental health. This perception arises perhaps because humans sometimes only focus on what is seen. Though in my opinion a healthy mind and mental is the main thing. Everything in this world starts from the mind and heart. True, for that we do have to think positively. But try to go beyond those positive thoughts so as not only to apply positive thinking but also the ability to have high self-awareness.
In fact, nothing is eternal in this universe. That is the first awareness that must be instilled in oneself. To apply this thinking we have to live in the present, today, this hour, this second. Consciously.
If there is a question, What really triggers stress?...My answer is thinking about tomorrow and the past. We humans are often shackled with the question, How to face tomorrow, huh? ...with the statement "Ah, I regret doing that yesterday," and so on. It is these kinds of expressions that prevent us from appreciating life in the present we are facing. The first step to bring up more positive thoughts and mentality is to be grateful for every second that we are going through, fully realizing what we have got now, not yesterday or tomorrow.
In this world we can never control anyone other than ourselves. We can control our emotions and reactions if we wish. We are the only ones who decide how to behave when faced with something. Therefore, to be able to control the mind, heart, and actions we must learn to break away from worldly things periodically. Meditation or prayer can be good habits to slowly maximize these self-control abilities. You don't have to spend the same amount of time every day. If you only have five minutes, then use it. The important thing is not to break so that it becomes a habit and a necessity.
It is important to break away from the worldly elements so that we can return to ourselves, focus on ourselves in order to raise full awareness of the responsibilities that we carry. most individuals sometimes forget how vital this is because it focuses on how to make the body healthier, more beautiful.
Even though no matter how beautiful our body is but the mind is not, life will not be happy. There are only thoughts of how I look, not how I feel. It is more significant if we think about whether the efforts we make to stay healthy can be useful for others as simply as whether it can make us able to interact well with those closest to us.
Whatever we do must be based on the understanding that we deserve it. It's not just about achieving a goal like losing weight. In fact, such achievements will never end. A better goal is to ensure that what happens to us today is going according to our plan at the beginning of the day or not. To ensure that today we have been honest, doing all activities consciously.
Happiness really does come from within. Not from outside. We have to accept ourselves, accept the experience whatever happens. If we wait for validation from external factors, the wait for self-acceptance will not be achieved. Therefore we must realize how only we are responsible for how influential a problem is. If we have a high awareness and can balance the side of rationalism later we can more easily control emotions.
Be careful not to get too emotional when dealing with other people. For example when I meet someone who is in emotional turmoil I try to give myself a dialogue: "I don't know what he's going through, maybe he's in trouble," "I don't need to react the same way or follow suit. in a wave of emotion." So, even though the environment around us is unstable, we can focus on ourselves. Not affected by the negative side from the outside.
Bright Morning
As usual, this morning was beautiful. The sky is still gray. The surrounding air feels cold touching the skin. Birds were heard happily singing. His chirping accompanies human activities that morning.
Seen some people jogging to exercise. There was also seen a few motorbikes passing by. They seem to be office workers who work in City or shop people who go to the market to shop. On the other hand, there are still people sleeping in their beds, enjoying their sweet dreams. I don't know what time they will wake up.
I continued walking towards the road towards the river which this time the water looks very clear. Enjoying the morning air by the river has become my habit. Some activities are also visible here, there are anglers, sand miners and there are also shellfish seekers.
Yeah, now I'll just go home to have breakfast soon because my stomach is starting to growl.
When Despair Hits
There are many things in life that can discourage us. I've been studying hard, but the grades are mediocre. Day and night struggling at work, the results are not yet visible. Everything is done to find a partner, but the bridge of the nose of the mate never appears.
When we tell a friend, the response that is often given is:
"Cheer up, yes! Do not give up!" Unfortunately, what is easy to say is very difficult to put into practice.
Keep Hope
Despair is something that happens in our minds, but has not been done or realized. From the mind, will be born actions that are triggered by that despair.
For example, when we think we will not get good grades even though we have studied, we become lazy to fight. Without realizing it, we look for excuses or situations that make the intention to learn void. Therefore, the first thing we have to change is our thoughts or rather, our way of thinking.
Keep it in your mind that there is still hope. Everything doesn't end here. A person stops doing something because he loses hope. He believed that no matter how hard he tried, the result would be the same. Never lose hope. If you lose hope, you lose life. Without hope, it's all over.
Why do you keep working on your thesis even though you are tired and want to give up? Because you have hope that you will eventually graduate. Why do you want to do your best? Because you believe that one day what you do will bear fruit. Why do you diligently pray for a partner from God? Because there is hope that God will give you the best partner at the right time. Don't lose hope. When the sun goes dWhy do you keep working on your thesis even though you are tired and want to give up? Because you have hope that you will eventually graduate. Why do you want to do your best? Because you believe that one day what you do will bear fruit. Why do you diligently pray for a partner from God? Because there is hope that God will give you the best partner at the right time.
Don't lose hope. When the sun goes down, the stars come out. The saying goes, when the sun goes down, the stars will appear. So don't lose hope and stay tuned for the best. By thinking positively, we are actually enabling ourselves to find solutions and do things that lead to success.own, the stars come out. The saying goes, when the sun goes down, the stars will appear. So don't lose hope and stay tuned for the best. By thinking positively, we are actually enabling ourselves to find solutions and do things that lead to success.
Actively Looking For Solutions
Once you have hope again, you need to actively seek solutions. Hope that is not accompanied by action is futile. There are two types of solutions that can be applied:
Continue What You've Been Doing
If you believe that you are on the right track or applying the right way, keep doing it. Do it more often and more consistently.
When you've done what's right, but the results aren't showing yet, keep doing your part. One day you will surely reap the rewards. You never know how close the result will be if you give up. Try one more time, and one more time, and one more time!
Change the Strategy, Not the Goal
Sometimes, to get out of a problem, doing the same thing over and over is not enough. To get out of despair, you may need a different way or strategy.
If you feel stuck, brainstorm with a mentor, leader, spiritual guide, or someone you trust. Ask them for help so you can see from a different perspective or find another way out.
For example, say you try a quiet time at night, but always fall asleep or are out of focus. Your goal remains the same. I have to be quiet. Then, how do you not fall asleep? Change the time to morning. If you're still asleep, try taking a shower before it's shaded so you're fresher. Change the strategy, but never the goal.
Keep praying
If you've done the first and second points, don't forget this third point. Remember that humans can only plan, but it is God who gives the results. Include God in your every plan. Believe that prayer can change many things, both our circumstances and our hearts.
Who is the source of your strength? Do you still pray to God in joy and sorrow? If not, immediately come to Him for help and strength.
When you are hopeless, hold on to your hope, keep looking for solutions, and keep praying! Don't wallow in despair for long. Why? Because we have an amazing God, who is so much bigger than all our problems. So don't say, "God, I have a big problem." Instead, say, "Hey, Trouble, I have a great God!"
Good morning
This morning I woke up and checked my phone
At first everything seemed normal, but I saw something I shouldn't have seen and I shouldn't have known. Indeed, all the ways I have done whatever it is to not care about you anymore.
But I always know, sooner or later you will find someone who makes you stop looking. His attitude and speech also make you comfortable. Whose ears and arms are ready for any moment. So am I.
Now it's time for me to stop. Stop to find out. Stop expecting you with all my expectations. Stop remembering you with painful feelings.
Now, my feelings for you have run out, no need to bring it up again. You go your way and I go mine. You are your choice and I am mine. You are busy with yours and I am busy with mine.
From now on, we are strangers with the same memories
Trust me I will get used to it, let your attitude lead me to the time that I can also do what you have shown.
Now I know that chasing you when this is enough. And in the end I realized that giving up is also part of the pursuit. Pursuing my own happiness even without you.
Thank you...
Be a Lucky Person
Luck is something that everyone wants. But fate is not always on our side and sometimes we hope too much for something that is not certain. Finally, we are often disappointed when luck is not on our side.
But we can create our own luck, you know. As long as you know how, you will feel lucky every day. Check out the following ways to create profit for yourself.
1. Do not easily give up on obstacles
When you take responsibility for yourself, know what your goals are, and know what you have to do, then you will be a lucky person. This means that you will be ready to face any obstacles that may come your way. Everyone will make the wrong decisions, but with the determination not to attack, you will find luck thanks to your strong determination.
2. Get rid of all negative people from your life
Nothing threatens your luck more than the negative people around you. They will thwart all the goals and plans that you have made due to the negative influence they exert on you. They will not approve and like all of your decisions, and give you inappropriate suggestions for doing certain things.
3. Determine the steps to achieve the goal
A perfect goal will be in vain without proper steps to achieve it. Therefore, once you have set your goals in life, immediately arrange the steps you must take to achieve them.
If you're doing something new, find someone more experienced to ask their opinion. Hang out with people who have already succeeded in achieving their goals so you can learn a lot from these people.
4. Don't stop learning
Every time you make a new goal in life, you will need more knowledge to achieve it. Luck does not just come, but thanks to the hard work you have done. Therefore, never stop learning and be satisfied with what you have now. There is nothing wrong with formal learning through courses in a particular field.
5. Do what you love
How can you expect good luck when you do something you don't like? Maybe you can push yourself at first, but over time you will lose interest and not be able to do your best in that area.
Find something you love, then turn it into a job. When people do what they love, they will always feel lucky because of their passion and passion for doing their best.
6. Stop all negative thoughts
All negativity, be it negative people or negative thoughts, will prevent you from achieving whatever your goals are. Negative thoughts will always appear, but if you can stop them, then you will get closer to your goal.
Don't let negative thoughts get to you and affect your struggle to achieve your goals. Everyone has flaws, but don't let them stop you from doing whatever you want to achieve your goals.
7. Create lots of positive thoughts
How to beat negative thoughts? Of course with other, more positive thoughts. But positive thoughts can not just appear suddenly. You have to make it and create it yourself in your head.
For example, if you want to buy a car. Imagine clearly in your mind, what brand of car you want, what shape and color it is, and how the conditions are inside. You can even imagine how it smells. The clearer your shadow, the better.
This is one way to build positive thoughts to beat the positive thoughts in your mind.
8. Focus on the things that matter
Money is important, but don't forget about other things that are more important and cannot be bought with money. For example, like being together with family and people you care about. Balance between work and your relationships with other people to keep you happy.
Remember, luck will always come to happy people. One way to be happy, of course, is to spend time with loved ones.
9. Meet new people
Don't close yourself off and meet new people every day. The more you meet new people, the more new opportunities will come your way.
This is where new luck will emerge. Who knows from the people you just met and you know, you will get a golden opportunity that will lead you to success.
Luck is not something that just comes to you. It takes a lot of effort to create that luck, so don't just sit back and wait for a miracle to come. Do positive things from now on so that you are always a lucky person.
Lantern of Life
Seriously in studying religion, surely we will feel the results slowly, the reward does not have to be with money, but by learning religion will give a new color in living life for the sake of life that changes from day to day, like being present like a lantern that extinguishes the darkness of the soul, not only that, we even easily transfer knowledge to family, friends, neighbors, to other people, so we can easily apply it in daily life, as a form of God's goodness to all of us, God appreciates our struggle in seeking knowledge with great rewards. Rewards, and of course How Allah makes it easy for us to go to heaven.
It is true that not all blessings have to be measured by money, but there are blessings that have great virtue, but we as humans forget and even neglect them, on the contrary with this one goodness, namely learning religion. Sometimes when we decide to study, after we finish studying it is as if we will become known people, not even a few people easily pay us with money because we have become intelligent people because of knowledge.
But do we know? it turns out that learning, especially accompanied by good intentions and seriousness, also gives good results for life. because in Islam everything is regulated from before going to bed until waking up there are adab and rules, so for those of us who are serious about running it with istiqomah, it turns out that we are adding to the coffers of goodness through knowledge too.
With us enjoying the process after the process, we will realize the need for this knowledge is very important Isn't this a blessing that we should be grateful for from studying religion? well because by studying religion we are not learning how to be human but more humane in the sense that we are learning not only to purify ourselves but there are other people who need to be guided and worshipped.
That is the science of religion and we as humans return to the true nature, obedient and submissive to Allah's commands (Sami'na Wa Atho'na).
May Allah always give istiqomah to all of us...
Missing Through Twilight
I returned to enjoy the beautiful sunset on this memorable island. People were seen passing by enjoying the beauty of the white sandy sea while taking selfies. Twilight always accompanies me and fills my longing heart.
Looking up at the sky while sitting on a rock. some people in the distance are still playing boats with their partners. There was a look of happiness on their faces with happy laughter. I looked at the saddu from a distance laughing among the sun that began to pass. To the twilight I leave a longing that doesn't say a word separated by a vast ocean.
I walked and circled the ruins of the fort that you always liked. In this ancient fort you will tell many stories of the past. The twilight that always accompanies my journey with you.
Your presence gives me many stories and gives me meaningful beauty. You always talk about twilight. Twilight surrounds our story. On deserted beaches and hidden ancient forts we knit the beautiful stories you've always dreamed of.
Don't cry, you are strong. Look at the twilight, learn from it. The sun goes down and rises again, when it goes down he himself hides his story from the world. When it rises it gives joy to those who feel it. Take your longing to the fort and watch the sunset, We meet there, you said in the letter.
Now I understand why you like twilight. Twilight made me understand what the word willing means, that what we have is not always with us. Everything is arranged by the creator. Everything has its time. Without us asking and without us guessing everything can happen and we can't refuse it, arrange it or block it as we want. In the twilight that I see today in the hidden fortress I remember a feeling that makes me feel at peace.
Waiting In Line
I had been waiting in line for almost thirty minutes to take care of something when I heard, over the loudspeaker, a woman, out of nowhere, say my name and say number five.
I stood up, then turned to face the other queues, bowing slightly towards them while touching the right front edge of my gray fedora hat as a sign of respect.
" Sisters in line...," I said... Just as they were all looking at me, I said in a questioning tone, " anyone want my autograph? ".
Some of them burst into laughter, others were so confused that they could hardly believe what I was saying. After that, calmly, I walked to counter five.
Give up, sometimes it's also necessary
You are in a very difficult situation, making you just think about yourself you can't afford. Feelings are squeezed and everyone seems to agree to tell you to give up. Did you finally have to obey him? friends, we often get stuck in problems that we actually make ourselves. Feelings are not willing to end the struggle is often the trigger for the emergence of new problems.
Have you ever been forced to complete a project that was actually quite neglected. You've wasted a lot of time there. You dedicate all your time to the project. Day and night you do it. You ignore the signs around you. Ignore your intuition. That you should quit, because the project will never work.
So is that enough? You don't always have to obey the motivators, that fighting should not be half-hearted. We must wholeheartedly, so that what you will aim for can be realized. Often our stubbornness is precisely what makes you fall and it is difficult to get up.
You must have experienced times where, trying to solve problems. Trying to believe that the decision you made to keep fighting was the right one. You ignore the signs of nature, that you should stop. You have to stop because you continue to think that what you want is the best, it's a mistake. Sometimes we have to give up.
Giving up doesn't have to mean losing. Forcing yourself is exhausting, forcing yourself to persevere and convincing everyone that what you are going to achieve is the best is very exhausting. So why do you force things? If in the end everything does not go as expected in the end it will lead to disappointment.
There is nothing wrong with saying enough for the effort you are doing. Trust your intuition, when everything doesn't move in your favor it means enough. Because giving up doesn't mean losing. Have a good day.
Points Of The Compass
I once thought the universe was too narrow to hide about you, because every pounding whatever I heard always reminded us of us on that holy Sunday. about the reason why God created the 8 cardinal directions, because that's how many ways we can get to Him. At least that's what you said.
Wind, stay on the path you believe in! I know God doesn't wear these clothes to disappoint each other, even when you say He never answers our prayers, it's just us like rain that refuses to touch the ground. You are the orange twilight and I'm raining heavily in the afternoon, we can't possibly be together.
Wind, rest assured that God always answers our prayers, isn't no also an answer? we wear different robes and you know things will get complicated if you go along with this stupid will, baby. I swear this is the last time I call you baby. don't remember me when you're hugged by him, at least that's the sweetest understanding for you to appreciate what we've been through.
Now, marry him! I will come as the most fragrant prayer that accompanies your best day. may he be a good enough guide on the path to God in your religion.
Capabilites Fear
For a long time, I felt like a prisoner. Today is one of those days. I'll let the voice I have in mind explain further.
Hi, I am the little voice in your mind, telling you that someone is watching you while you sleep. When you were a kid, I told you there was something big and scary living under your bed or in your closet. Yup, I'm the same voice that tells you not to look in the mirror in the middle of the night, and to 'go' to the bathroom when you're hungry, so you don't catch a urinary tract infection.
Sometimes I warn you about logical things, like being extra careful when driving in stormy weather, being on the lookout and keeping an eye on your surroundings when you're out late at night, or taking extra time to wash your hands carefully so painless.
It's like telling you to prepare for a crash every time you hear an airplane overhead. Or maybe there's a bomb in the subway and you better tell your friends and family that you love them when you get the chance.
A mentally ill gunman will walk into your workplace and start shooting randomly, so you'd better plan a good hiding spot before it's too late. The winds are getting stronger, are you ready for the storm?
However, I put your mind to the most complex to the simplest of concerns - and they all work beautifully together! Your heart beats faster, you start to get restless, you have trouble breathing - like paralyzed. You are paralyzed by your fear of your own imagination.
How can you be confident?
How can you believe those voices in your head?
You really think that you are worthy of trust?
You have no control over what I say to you, and obviously can't get in my way either.
So, what will help you?
Have you ever struggled with scary thoughts that filled your mind?
Talking about it with someone really helped me, and it can help you too.
Effective Communication To Influence People
Effective communication can be interpreted as receiving a message by the communicant or receiver in accordance with the message conveyed by the sender or communicator, then the communicant or receiver gives a positive response as expected.
So effective communication occurs when there is a two-way flow of information between the communicator and the communicant. And the information is equally responded to in accordance with the expectations of the two communicators (communicator and communicant).
Communicating properly is to use conscience when communicating. There are several reasons why the heart needs to be turned on in communicating with other people, namely that everyone not only has a rational mind but also a heart that functions to feel and weigh things, so that every word or attitude is not only captured by the mind but will also be processed by taste.
Words are a reflection of a person's heart. Everyone has the opportunity to interpret every message we produce and communicate. For that, actually words or attitudes are information about ourselves, about who we are and what our character is. A message will build our self-image.
Some of the things we can do to communicate with the heart is to build our sensitivity or sensitivity to the attitudes of others. By paying attention to other people's body language when they interact with us.
These body language attitudes explain what is going on in their minds when communicating with us. Because body language is as an explanation and confirmation of verbal messages produced by someone.
Then show our concern for others in the smallest things they do. For example, when he is in need of something, then ask and fulfill his needs without having him ask for it. Because with things like this we can influence other people based on their needs.
In addition, we need to optimize our senses by observing the attitudes and actions of other people's communication. Listen enthusiastically to their every word, be a good listener. Listen actively and attentively. This means that we see and observe carefully their attitude and body language about what they really want to convey.
Feeling their feelings with empathy, helping their needs without having them express it first. And start from us to start and ready to carry out from small things.
Forms of good communication :
-Willing to listen.
-Training listening skills.
-Giving others a chance to hear.
-Be enthusiastic with the interlocutor.
-Show friendly face.
-Make ourselves safe and comfortable for others.
-Choose and feel every word spoken.
-Talk important and useful.
-Be sincere in every word and don't pretend.
Life is looking for serenity and calm is looking for life
The workload certainly has an impact on the psychological side. Depressed conditions will trigger stress. To overcome this, meditation is recommended. There are many ways to do it. For example, take a moment to rest the brain. Can be 10 to 20 minutes.
However, not everyone chooses to compromise. The reason is, the bad influence on the psychological side is not only due to workload. It could also be, environmental conditions. Not only the work environment. Whether the social environment, family or other environments. This case is commonly referred to as toxic.
Toxic is a relationship that can bring someone into a bad influence. Of course this is not good. Over time, the mental state will be unhealthy. Finally, there is a feeling of dissatisfaction, pressure, doubt and lack of enthusiasm. Stress is the worst.
Clearing your mind and thinking positively is not a solution. The solution to avoid it is to get out of the environment. For example, a sailor who is trying to get off the ship. It's like learning within yourself. So look inside about what we are feeling.
Meditation is a way of practicing psychology. That way, the state of mind is always calm and stable. So that the bad influence of the environment can be avoided. Calm conditions will keep people focused on themselves. Instead of focusing on what is happening in their environment.
Focusing on yourself will make you calm. All problems will be easy to think about and find solutions. Life needs serenity. Doing all things requires comfort for maximum results. Meditation is a way to maintain psychological conditions. That way, the mind is not easily influenced. What's more, a bad influence.
Living this life requires calm, not looking for peace when you get into trouble. So, every solution is easy to find. For that, meditation must be done often.
Not everything is under human control. Each has a role in an environment. So, the role of oneself must be understood. It would be easier if everyone controlled himself. If there is a psychological conflict, then wisdom is needed. That is by looking within yourself. Measures the extent to which psychological conditions are affected.
Life doesn't always run smoothly. If there is no problem, it is not life. By living a peaceful life, all activities will feel comfortable. The bad influence of the environment can be overcome. Moreover, you are a good influence on the environment. What is the choice is to adapt or die.
Just My Imagination
Now I'm at home.......
Ahhh........
I'm feeling really, really bored, I open my phone and hope someone sends me a text message or whatever. I was hoping that maybe there was someone out there who still needed me by his side….Yeah, it might just be a hope that I wouldn't feel bored and lonely.
Sometimes I play cellphone games to kill this boredom, but even then it doesn't last long because I get bored quickly with something.
Is there anything that can make me feel more alive?
Is there anything that can relieve my boredom?
There must be something, because I believe that every thing in the world has a solution. Because God will give a cure for every disease. Sometimes I imagine like a child.
What if I had a super power that could lift an object without touching it?
What if I could build a teleportation device that would allow me to cover miles in a short amount of time?
What if I could read other people's minds?
Imagination is fun because it has no limits. Imagination can be done by anyone and can make you happy even if it's only in your dreams. Yet many adults limit their own imaginations, limiting their own happiness.
Remember, maybe something great in this world might start from imagination, starting from airplanes, lights, telephones and other technologies. And also my writing started from an imagination.
Have you ever wondered why crazy people rarely get sick?
Even though they are always walking aimlessly, they eat dirty and probably stale food. different from normal people's food which is hygienic and healthy, wears neat clothes, sleeps comfortably every night. True, there is one thing that makes the difference, namely happiness. Crazy people are always happy in every situation they face.
Then do I have to be crazy so that my boredom disappears?
No, no...I don't want to go crazy.
Then, is there anything else that can give happiness?
Yeah, we all know that the key to happiness is always being grateful to God for all Gifts.
But am I lacking or not even grateful?
Am I too greedy, too arrogant or too naive?
Is having a feeling of love something I shouldn't have?
I kept asking this question, it kept ringing in my head. stupid question from a soul who doesn't really understand how the world works.
Be a good listener
We may often see various classes to become more proficient in public speaking or maybe content on how to cultivate self-confidence to start a conversation. Sometimes we forget that there is an ability that feels simple but takes patience to really be mastered, namely being a good listener.
It's true that being a good listener isn't as special as being an excellent orator, but we may be mistaken that there are many people who just need to be heard. Not just to be heard but to be heard sincerely. Not infrequently we just pretend to hear to give a rebuttal opinion or busy thinking about what response we give to the other person.
To be a good listener, the first thing to do is to avoid distractions around us. The most common distractions we encounter today are gadgets, whether it's a cell phone, laptop, or maybe a gaming device that we can easily carry with us everywhere. Basically, we can tell when our interlocutor is really listening or is actually busy with the distractions that are in front of them.
Try changing our mindset when we want to learn to listen sincerely, make talking as a means of your meditation on the sidelines of activities or when spending time with loved ones. Free your mind from other things and try to focus on the conversation. Respond in moderation, you don't have to keep nodding or answering while listening, allow yourself to respond naturally.
The manifestation of good listening skills is a sense of comfort when we don't know what to say or ask after. When we are no longer anxious and feel we have to always give an answer, it means we are one step closer to being a good listener. Trust that you will be able to find questions or responses as a result of really trying to listen to the other person.
Willingness to be a genuine listener is a form of empathy for others. Make it your chance to talk to see the world from the other person's point of view, so you don't try to pass judgment. Many may think that we can only hear well if the topic is fun, but this actually limits us from the opportunity to learn a lot from other people for free.
Not many people can make stories fun or interesting, so we can try asking questions that can dig other people's stories in a direction that interests us.
Basically we can learn from anyone. Learn about patience from a city transportation driver, learn the meaning of the word sincere from an online motorcycle taxi brother, even learn the meaning of hard work from our grandmothers who always tell the same thing if we can try to listen and give a more sincere response.
When we are willing to learn to listen with all our heart, basically we also increase our ability and reference to talk to other people. Humans really have to be able to listen to each other and be heard to be able to feel meaningful, right?
Stay Cool
Sometimes without us realizing the problems that we keep to ourselves can gather and even interfere with our daily lives. I have actually experienced this personally. Forgings of life outwardly and inwardly were initially stored and piled up because they might not understand how to respond to the feelings that were present. Then those emotions and feelings finally appeared in the form of excessive anxiety that I felt.
Forgings of life outwardly and inwardly were initially stored and piled up because they might not understand how to respond to the feelings that were present.
The feeling of excessive anxiety is present in a visual form in my own head. The shape that appears is basically almost the same, sometimes changing but still in the same pattern. At first I was afraid because I didn't know who to tell. Fear of being judged or even afraid of feeling wrong.
The visualization that was in my mind was also a bit disturbing until finally a dozen years later I dared to express my fear in the form of a picture. This experience then triggered me to start the Raut movement. In the Indonesian language, the word expression also means facial expression. Incidentally, I also visualized the form of expression that was present to visit when the anxiety came.
Many people still underestimate mental problems, even now they are often used as jokes or trends. So, in my opinion, if we can share our stories with the right people, this can open the tap for problems that have been hidden for so long. Of course there are problems that may have been rooted in our family that we can't just blame. I also understand very well that the first step when trying to be able to open up and tell stories is a very dilemmatic stage.
If we can share stories with the right people, this can be a tap for problems that have been hidden for so long. I also understand very well that the first step when trying to be able to open up and tell stories is a very dilemmatic stage.
One thing I also want to convey is that everyone will always have their own problems. Anyone can have mental health problems, the problem now is whether we realize that we may be experiencing psychological problems. I personally think what is needed is a willingness to respond to the feelings we are experiencing and this can apply to anyone in any situation.
The first step we can take to learn to open up is to increase our understanding of mental health. It can be through books or the internet. After we have sufficient knowledge, the next step is the willingness to be courageous and willing to change. Otherwise, we may still be stuck in the same problem. Dare to face the problems that we are having, because if we keep looking for escape in the end the problems we have will never be solved.
In the end, I hope that by getting enough information and the courage to share our stories, we can help each other. I also hope that we are not ashamed, not afraid, and not blaming ourselves for the problems we are going through.
Sunny day
Every morning always starts with cold air. Motorized vehicles began to pass in front of the house. Warm greetings as my heart greets a new day. I stepped foot to the front door of the house when I heard the call to prayer at dawn, "arggh it's lazy if I have to take a shower first", that day I didn't feel lazy to pray in congregation at the mosque, usually when I just woke up even though the call to prayer had called my body did not feel called to meet the sound of the call to prayer. But that day I did not feel lazy to pray together at dawn.
At dawn makes the body eager to work to do useful activities. Once again welcome to a sunny day at dawn.
After a while, I decided to jog around the house to enjoy the cool and fresh morning air. After a few minutes of jogging I also did light exercise to keep the immune system awake and also drank warm water to keep the body healthy fresh.
After a few minutes of jogging, I did light exercise to keep my immune system awake and also drank warm water to keep the body fresh. After that, I rested for a while by straightening my legs and cooling down lightly, then getting ready to take a shower then put on clothes and continue breakfast morning.
Then after I had breakfast, I got ready to do my daily routine which sometimes makes me bored for a while. Yeah, sometimes it's always like that every day.
Fairy Tale Night
Light rain has fallen since dusk greeted until it stopped at the end of the night.
The joy of all life, including the frogs, did not waste the opportunity to sing, perhaps gleefully welcoming the arrival of water that was accommodated in the hollows of the earth just to breed. Old swamps and ponds are not filled with water.
The fresh breath of trees and lilies in the desert breathes a sigh of relief to be able to find water as a source of livelihood.
Girls at night as well as youths compete to show off themselves in search of identity to sensation. A gentle breeze carried the fishing boats to the water's edge towards midnight with the waves.
Piles of vehicles can be seen lined up along the street with colorful lights making noise, as well as those parked looking for a comfortable place to just hang out and relax, talk about relaxing. Street vendors.
Weekends, maybe that's the reason why late at night doesn't feel so late. Entertainment seekers tired, watching a round ball screen is a favorite of young people. The joy of the national team troops getting full points awaits in the next match. That's what we all hope for.
Round ball outer leagues are mushrooming ready to be watched in all directions as they progress. Looking forward to a mighty league and national team in the future while hopeful.
Weekends are said to be long nights. It's getting late until you don't feel like walking. One after another, jokes were thrown at each other as the night wore on.
The faint sounds of vehicles going back and forth subsided not as busy as after dusk until late at night.
Want to lay down the body that wants to lie down but the ball eyes are reluctant to sleep. The night is getting late, waiting for the morning that is ready to greet. For some reason the eyes refused to sleep even though they had poured a few cups of coffee. While hoping that the ball's eyes can wake up when the morning greets.
Be Normal
Although Many Are More Perfect, I Feel More Comfortable Living An Ordinary Life
Maybe, life that is famous and exists in the circle of friends is people's dream. But not for me. I have an ordinary life, I guess. I'm not familiar with appearing in front of me, not updating about fashion styles, sometimes blind about romance. It's okay, I'm an example of “ordinary people” in their dictionary who is more popular than me.
Then, do I feel regret and curse fate? I don't think ever. I even thank God the Creator; that I was born to live an "ordinary" life. A life I never asked for, but I'm happy for it.
Being an idol who is always adored and hailed by people is indeed fun. But just like this, I already feel comfortable
I know those who want to live under the glittering light. Spend the day on screen and actively discussed through speech. In fact, they often sow love in the eyes of the beholder.
Ah, I once had a dream like him. Famous like a star, looking cool and adored by all. It's just, I'm not the same as him; I'm afraid I'll be tired. I'm afraid that my light will suffocate me and my tiredness will lead me astray, becoming someone I don't know when I look in the mirror.
Because my appearance is not always the subject of conversation, I can appear as I am
Not every person pays close attention to me, which is something I consider lucky for me. I am free to come out as I am, without having to be dictated to the styles and arrangements that I exhibit. Although that doesn't mean I'm arbitrary, I'm free to obey my own boundaries. As long as I'm comfortable with style, no one will rave about cons.
I don't know what's currently popular on screen, nor do I have all the time and money to keep up with the ever-changing trends. Do I look boring? Forgive me. Maybe this is the wall that I deliberately made to ward off me from the falsehood of the world.
I have friends who accept me like a brother. No one approaches me just because they want to "exist" together
Yes, I have good friends who I consider like brothers. Not because I'm smart and good at making friends, it's just that they came into my life without me asking. Those who came without me asking, and approached me as I am. Yes, and my friendship isn't filled with fans I don't know who; only people I know and can say hello to are worthy friends. They won't leave because I'm getting tired and not shining, and vice versa.
That's what we are, who may be these unknown individuals. Maybe we were meant to be friends because we were like this.
The secrets I keep are like half my life, no one bothers me and I want to know everything
As a human, I also have secrets. Like you, him, them, or anyone. Secrets are things that cannot always be said and will definitely open wounds. Which I feel like I want to end my life when my secret is exposed. Of course, I'm disturbed when there are nosy hands who try to bring it up and look for what I've kept tightly closed.
Thankfully, I'm safe from the secret seekers who always harass those who are better known than me. Rarely will they find fault with me later on because of hate. I felt safe and comfortable leaving my secret chest inside, and didn't feel scrutinized as if someone was looking into my chest.
I took steps and enthusiasm loudly. Without fear there are naughty mouths that distort speech
I don't know if there are people who hate me, hate me, and give me a bad name. They could be there, though I don't care. The ideals and dreams I never tire of imprinting on every step of my fingers, I try and fight according to my own will and desire. Without them knowing, I was already running and running, as if not stopping.
I'm not afraid to try new things, because no one will broadcast my failures. I'm not afraid to voice my opinion, because they don't care about my ramblings. I'm not afraid to look ahead, because there are no naughty mouths that produce wounds.
Whatever I like, I can do my best. I'm free to choose, without worrying about looking weird or unusual
Drowning in obsessions and dreams, I was swayed by what I aspired to and hoped for from an early age. Remembering that I am still in prime condition, I write everything down in notes, neatly like writing the future. Competitions and competitions, become crafts and everyday life. It's not strange anymore, it seems, seeing me struggling and hanging out with the materials I like, as well as new people outside of my association. I am not ashamed to study and learn many things from those who are not my age. It's as if I picked up maturity prematurely.
Ah, my cheating and all my non-existence.
It doesn't matter if my road is long and foggy. After all, I will enjoy every second happily
The end of this road, who knows. Maybe only God the Creator of me knows, and unfortunately I'm not interested in peeking at His notes. I'm different, plus I'm not worried if I'm rare. A road that seemed long and seemed uncertain and foggy lay ahead of me. Is it necessary to advance? Unfortunately, I already drove.
No need to look left and right to copy their decisions. I only need the opinion of those who understand me, my friends, what I have planned, and also the help of God that was picked up through the prayers of my parents.
The candle flame that indicates when my time is up is still burning and illuminates the recesses of my soul. I don't know when he will die, and I have to keep working. Working without being noticed by many eyes, hoping that this will be of great use in the future and shine like washing with light.
@Yokzy