@Yen 12 January 2021 more from that month

A cut for new life.

Yesterday , I wrote an article about the traits of parents must have and there's a few comments there that they are afraid to be a parent or they are afraid of giving birth. Honestly thinking about giving birth to a child is quite scared if you will saw it or watched it on You tube. I've been there when I was pregnant I watched few videos on YouTube about giving birth and I am wondering how the baby came to that small part of ours 😅 There's also a comment saying she's not into kids and she's thinking how can she managed to be a parent when she's like that. I told her that we are the same , I am not into kids also. I have a poker face always and have a serious aura that's why kids are also not into me 😂 Now that I have a son , I am still like that but there's a connection on the both of us that makes my son happy and laughed at me even if I don't find myself funny. ***As I was reading their comments, I remember the time that I gave birth to my son.*** September 30 2018 , that's the last day that I filed my maternity leave. I'm 37 weeks pregnant that time. Usually other pregnant women filed a leave at 34 weeks but I choose to filed it on my 37 weeks and my due date is October 19. I have 19 days to rest at the province and to walk every morning so that I can have birth easily as per the older ones advice me. All I know is that , I am giving birth by normal delivery because my OBGYN in Makati said that my baby is in right position and anytime I can give birth to my son. We went to our province with the thinking that I will give birth normal. October 1,2018 We visited the OBGYN that will replaced my OBGYN in Makati. She's the one who will checked me up weekly until I gave birth. We are shocked during the check up because we found out that my baby is not in a right position, he is breached and he is cord coil. Not just a simple cord coil but 3 times cord coil that makes us worried because the OBGYN said I need to undergo cesarian operation as soon as possible because I should not wait the time I will be in labor because for sure my son will die. Without thinking twice , we set my operation next day. My operation scheduled by 9 AM in the morning at G Hospital near our hometown. *The day of operation* We arrived at the hospital by 8 40 AM and filled up some documents that will need to my operation. The nurse give me the operation gown and said that I need to wait to a room before until the doctor do the operation. That is the most scary moment of that time. When I saw my husband leaving me because I need to go inside the door where I am the only one inside. That time I had a lot of thinking that makes me feel scared because it's my first time to undergo operation. After a couple of minutes, the nurse came to the room and said that the doctor will be late and for now he will inject me a drug that will determine if I have an allergy in anesthesia or not. The feeling that time was like I am in extreme rides. The feeling that I want to back out but I need to go on. Know that feeling haha. A couple of minutes passed , I transferred to the operating room. That time , I have no feeling. I am just praying for the safety of my baby and me. They dextrose me and they put the anesthesia on that. After a minute , I can't feel nothing because the anesthesia is working on my body. I am like a drank person that time. I want to sleep but my inner me wants to heard the cry of my son. Finally the operation succeed and I heard the cry of my first born. That's one of the unforgettable moment of my life.

*The photo above is the photo of me during the operation hehe. There's a few photos here that was zoomed but I choose not to upload here because it's too sensitive. Like you see ,.my son is breached. The feet was the first instead of head. I also have a different cut , not the bikini cut because the doctor will have a hard time because of the position of my baby.* I stayed on the room for one more hour, waiting for the removal of the anesthesia on my body and then I transferred to our Ward but my son is not yet there because he is in nursery section for observation. After a few hours of waiting. I can now see my little one. Love at first sight. I can't explain my feeling on how I am so proud of myself being a mother to that angel. He is a healthy baby boy and he looks like me ♥️ We stayed on the hospital for 3 days because that the covered of Philheath on my bill. *The most pained moment* Obviously, the cuts on my tummy is the most pained of all 😂 Everytime I walked , I will pee and most of all when the nature of calling me. I suffered from that pain for about a month. I am also the one who clean my cuts because my husband was not comfortable doing it. Now I still feel the pain especially now that it's cold. Not my cuts but a backpain 😭. Now my little one is 2 years old ♥️