@UsagiGallardo215 23 December 2021 more from that month

Ugly Duckling. Before when I was kid, when i look at my self in the mirror I thought of my self as a ugly duckling. Specially when I stared at my cousins they are all beautiful. Round eyes, pointed nose, long eyelashes perfect curve lips. And what I envy about she always at the "Santa Cruzan" or "Sagala" were celebrating that every month of May. And all beautiful girls can participate. And I ask mom ang myself a thousands times why can't I join or fit in there? I was the Ugly Duckling before specially when I see myself in our big mirror. Why I don't have round eyes, pointed nose, long eye lashes and my eye lid are inserted because I look like a Chinese kid. But that didn't make me happy I was confuse Im not beautiful like them or were not even similar me and my mom. My mom is beautiful specially when she put makeups on her face. I really stared at what's she doing I might learn a little. And what I really hate before is my hair. My mom put some bangs on my hair then short cut imagine "Dora the Explorer looks like she's my lost sibling hahaha LoL. And every time I go to school it's just like that, no clips no Ribbons unlike my classmates there were all pretty with their hair accessories and that's make me lonely and Alone. I was really lonely and alone no groups, friends and remembering my childhood makes me more lonelier. But if ask my self why and how in the world could I release those pains if I continue pittying my self? Then I answered my self that was the past only you'll be feeling is pain but you stood higher than you thought.

And know I have four lovely kids.. And I'm proud whenever somebody tell them they are beautiful and handsome. Most specifically my first born son he is Chinito like me. And you know what when I brought him to the world and my friends told me his handsome and he looks like me I was then really Flattered. I started to fix myself. And realiZe if my son looks like me do I become more beautiful now? But I was doing that before putting lipstick and trying to use makeups but know i also fix my eyebrows that make me more a bit beautiful compared to before.

But I realized as i grow old that true beauty Is not seen on the outside but in our inside selves. And that's what beauty means. I also remember the song of the famous Critina Aguilera "We are beautiful no matter what they say, words can't bring you down" So now when i look myself in the mirror I saw a different kind of me, full of confidence and knowledge because I know I'm beautiful enough to face my fears and proud that I overcome not only the ugly part but regain a beauty deep within me.