@ThisisGrace21 7 February 2022 more from that month

Fear not What's your fear? Have you been afraid in your entire life? What's that one thing that you are afraid for? Is that failure? Is that losing? Is that darkeness? Snake? Or just cochroaches? Big or small when you feel afraid it is indeed fear. *Great thanks to my wonderful sponsors. Bless you all.* Fear is the feeling of being afraid. Feeling afraid is a valid emotions and no one can invalidate our fear, our emotions because that what makes us human. Lately I have been being fearful of one thing that I do not want myself seeing. To fail. To not achieve my dreams, my goal. But one day, I did feel so fearful that I forget to acknowledge the power of God. Even deny his discernment on things. Start to question my worth. The feeling of fear inflected from my inside out. And it did brings out so many emotions that I also fear I would be reflecting as a person. I become bitter. Become doubtful. Lost my hope. Lost my faith. Almost, almost lost myself. I hate almost everything. I talk, almost all hatred. I rant. Question from one to another. But I don't want to hear nor listen whatever they say. There's no words can console how painful I have feeling. I was in total pain. The pain get me numb. The pain let me forget myself. I cried. Tears seems won't ran out and dry. I was drain. The negative energy was losing me. I shot myself. Distance. Away from the people who cared the most. I was lost. In the dark. Fearful. Painful. In the dark I see no one. I feel so alone. Empty. Lost. I don't want to stay there any longer. It's cold. And I pick myself up. Start my journey back. Called the Almighty father and told him everything and I don't want to feel that way. I ask his help because I can't do it alone. And from there He pick me up. He embrace me. I feel his warm. And he showed me the light and get me out from the dark. I went to his house that Sunday afternoon and he told directly in my eyes that being fearful is normal. That feeling afraid is valid. That whatever I am feeling it is valid because that makes me a human being. That makes him God. Realizing that having the feeling of fear is a purpose that I must called the one who is powerful and that's him. That I need him in my life. That he has the total control of everything. The journey was crucial but worth it. My faith was restored and was added. My hope ignited and burn much brighter. I may not have my dreams and goal now. I realized he has the total control of everything. From my studies to passing the exam to having my job today, he made it all clear to me that he put everything in place for me and I must not fear because he is with me. Whatever you are afraid today. The Lord tells us "Do not fear because I am with you". I may not know from what verse it came from but the message is clear. We must not fear because the Lord Almighty is with us. Guide us. Pick us up. Embrace us even though we fail many times. Put everything in place for us. So from now on "fear not".