Death leaves a heartache no one can HEAL , Love leaves a memory no one can STEAL.
Hy guyz! Hope you all are doing well.
Sorry for being too late I was not able to write from the past two days coz its exam season and I was quite busy preparing for it, but again all in vain as I wasn't able to do well in my paper as usual(lol).Anyways let's come to the topic.
Today ,After my exam me and my friends were heading out of the Fatima Block(block in our uni) and suddenly I saw a stretcher there and it reminds me of my late grandmother. Whenever I go to hospital or see any thing related to it ,its just too much painful for me that's why I always avoid all this.
I was too much close to my grandmother and last year suddenly passed away and left all us . I feel too alone after her death because I used to share each and everything with her.
I still remember the last day of her life ie 6th Feb 2021 when she was lying on stretcher, holding my hand and was smiling .She was too brave and strong lady I have ever seen.Although she was quite weake and was ill on the last days of her life but still she always tries to get up and on that day(6 feb) in the hospital she was constantly saying me to pick her up from that stretcher , somehow I convinced her to take rest for while I said to her "Bijan you are too weak yoy can't walk" she smiled and replied "Don't underestimate me I am not that much old " we both laugh aloud.
There are some peoples that are very close to your heart , no matter how hard you try to move on you can't do it that much easily it's too painful and depressing.
Today I was just seeing her pictures and it was picture of that day when I and my Bijan planted yellow roses .she was in love with flowers and plants, After seeing that picture I wasn't able to control my self and just burst in tears .From my childhood I was just too close to her she raised me up her love for me was unconditional. Although my parents love me a lot but it's true that i am not as close to them as I was with my grandmother .After her death , I feel that i was left just too alone .I was in shock after her death instead i wasn't able to speak and the come back is soo difficult for me .
She often used to say me " Sumaiyya!After me you should have to take good care of yourself OK?" and I was like how can I live without you? and still I think how is it possible that I am alive? But life teaches you everything.
I used to share all my problems and worries with her and she used to solve everything in minutes for me.(whenever I think about our past memories I just can't breathe but I am recovering from it by using drops one of family doctor recommended me. No worries!)
After Bijan now I have to solve each and every problem by myself coz I am not able to share it with everyone except for some peoples .I feel her everywhere around me . Life has become to painful and depressing without her but you just have to live say You are okay and move on!
Anyways I still live with her memories as love is stronger than death even though it can't stop death from happening everyone has to go but no matter how hard death tries it can't separate peoples who are bounded by love . It can't take away our memories .In the end life is stronger than death.Those we love don't go away they walk beside us every day, every moment.Unseen ,unheard but always near to us , still loved ,still missed and very dear. When we lose someone we love we must learn not to live without them but to live with the love they left behind.
My mother still says to me that every life has an end and it's bitter truth of life , losing someone close to your heart puts you in grief but life goes on .Get up and move on
But how can i move on every time i try to move one I can't i think i will never be able to bring my older version back .Now I am too much afraid of losing my loved ones ,I got attached with some peoples emotionally, mentally and I love them unconditionally. It's too much difficult for me to live without my friends, family ,cousins and every person around me who cares for me and whom I love.
In the journey of life ,it has lots of smiles and pains ,we have to live without our loved ones but you can always keep those people in your mind and make them immortal forever we just have to feel the love for people we love with heart deeply and purely. Isn't it?
I just pray to Allah that " Give my Bijan high ranks in jannah" and I hope she will be happy there I love her soo much !
You're Okay!
If I was asked about a phrase worthy of becoming the phrase of year, I would answer:
"You are okay"
Everything is fine with you, even if you do not develop, do not study, do not build a business or relationships. This does not mean that you are degrading.
It's just that periods of active phase always alternate with periods of energy accumulation. This is how nature created it.
You're okay when you are competitive and comparing yourself with others or even to yourself .We have an evaluative nature, we realise ourselves through other peoples, their feedback.
It is important for us to be reflected in their eyes. Otherwise, how to understand "who am I" and "where am I".Isn't it soo weird and depressing?
You are okay when you resist change .Perhaps you have been building the balance of today for so long that when everything settles down you just want to be in it.
You are okay if you have been wrong many times,missed opportunities, disappointed in expectation, hurt and hurt yourself.
We are not robots to calculate everything and to be controled by others .There were consequences you passed it.
It's okay with you if you are afraid of losing someone or something .So this or that has a lot value for you.
You're okay when you are worried .Its just that there's too much uncertainty around you that you can't process at once.
Am I facing Amnesia?
Hope you all are doing good!
As my mid term exams have started and today I had my Political Science paper. I am very worried about my habit of forgetting things then I thought of sharing it with you ppl .Today the paper was too easy both questions are much easier but I forgot some main point.
When I came home I was very upset because I have been preparing for this paper day and night for the last two days but I could not do as well as I had prepared I actually think that what you are not interested in always seems like a burden , I still remember when I was a student of pre-medical i can easily study and learn each and every chapter of biology .
Why I always forget everything although I can't forget peoples near me that much easily isn't it weird?
When I was preparing for my exam i was writing each and every question 2 to 3 times so that i was able to remember it but it was all lost I think maybe I am facing amnesia ie unusual forgetfulness.
When I came home my heart was just crying I sometimes think that I should change my department to biology coz I am unable to study international relations as it was totally a new field for me I was always interested in medical field it was my dream to become a doctor but some dreams never come true. I wasted my whole one year for admission in medical college then I got admission at a college in abbottabad (kpk) but my family didn't allowed me to stay there alone coz everyone in my family is settled here in Islamabad .
Its my father dream to see me as a CSP officer that's why I started studying International Relations because this field can help a lot in this competitive exam I just pray to God that may i be able to fulfill the dream of my father and I have to bear this field coz i want to become independent I don't want to became a burden on my family.
I just hate getting B grade and I just hope to get good grades
I request all of you to remember me in your most precious prayers
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6 Silent Signs You're Eating Too Much PROTEIN!
Here's how to know when powering up with protein has gone too far
Protein is easily one of the most important nutrient to get into your daily diet, but it's possible to get too much of a good thing , especially if you're on a high-protein diet.
How much do we need?
There are many elements to consider when determining just how much protein you need on a daily basis ,for adult men is 52 grams of protein per day. For adult women it is 37 grams per day. For those aged over 70, 65 grams of protein for men and 46 grams for womens is recommended.
Too much protein is linked with kidney diseases, constipation and cancer risk.
6 SILENT SIGNS:
1)You're often in bad mood:
Feeling anxious and being in bad mood can be the sign of more protein consumption, if it's happening to you you should consider your protein intake.
You've got brain fog:
That afternoon slump is real.Feeling fatigued as the day rolls on might have you reaching for a coffee or a snack. But it could be the amount of protein in your system that's causing your eyes to glaze over. Overeating protein means that you might be displacing your carbs.This is risky coz carbs(carbohydrates) are the brain main source of energy and without enough, it would be hard to concentrate.
3)You're Gaining Weight:
It's true that having a high protein diet can satisfy your hunger, but if you go too far, you might find your scales tipping over as well. That's especially true if you're eating excess animal protein or downing protein shakes.
As a general rule half of your plate should be fruit or vegetables, one quarter should be protein, and one quarter should be starch or whole grains.
4)You're especially Thirsty:
One indicator that you might be consuming too much protein is a constant desire for water. In fact, too much protein can cause dehydration. The dehydration is caused by your kidneys working overtime to remove the excess protein as well as the nitrogen waste from metabolising the protein.
You're little Backed up :
Having dependable and reliable digestion cycles will make you feel healthier overall and minimise any potential stomach issues. However, if your protein intake is too high you might struggle to stay regular.
You've got Dragon Breath:
Bad breath was a common complaint of those on the Atkins diet. Your brain and body like to run on carbs , so when you don't eat enough needed carbs, your body starts to use fat as fuel, producing ketones. They can make your breath smell bad.
Hope this article will be much informative for you all!
Wish you all a happy safe and secure Ramazan.
Ramazan is the name of blessing ,it is the name of love and care, so make your prayers and remember me in your prayers .
HAPPY RAMAZAN
A soft and sweet evening:
Today I was sitting and preparing for my exam as my mids are going to start from monday but i was unable to study don't know why?
Then one of my cousin called me offered me to go with her for ice-cream I went and we have a really good time out there the ice cream was sooo good btw soft swirl ice-cream is always too much good (haha)...after that we headed towards jinnah super market coz my cousin has to do some shopping there it was too hot there..and you know what? I saw soft-swirl shop there too(F7 markaz) and we went there again for ice-cream then we went towards centaurus mall we bought some nessarry thing and after some time we were back home ...it was such a nice but also hectic day coz I am too much tired because whenever I go with my cousin she spends a lot of time walking from one shop to another and all that but now I am worried about my exam how can i prepare in such a short time .
There are some peoples who make you feel happy even if you spent a little time with them .Isn't it?
Are good and sincere friends really hard to find?
Hope you all are doing good
Your friends and family play a very important role in your life without them you are nothing.
Today , I wanna share something personal with you all , I have been thinking about this since 2 days and soo many questions were rising in my mind i got soo confused .So let's start it from beginning:
My starting days of university: https://read.cash/@Sumaiyya/are-good-and-sincere-friends-really-hard-to-find-aa5d02d5#my-starting-days-of-university
I still remember being alone on the starting days of my university time passed and one day I met two girls ,one named M and the other B I started spending some time with them coz i thought i found two good friends and we will spend these four years together. One day they both were sitting at the cafe and I joined them after 10-15 minutes M said to me that they have some personal things that they can't share with me and I should give them some space she said that they both will keep me with them on every study related project. I was embarrassed and was also a little bit sad because I had considered them as a friend for next 4 years...lol!I'm soo silly.
I didn't mind their talk and ignored it one day M told me that she is married and it's very difficult for her to manage assignment, projects and also her home, I was happy that she shared with me as a friend but after some tome I came to know that some peoples use you after seeing your attitude and i give too much importance to any one don't k ow why but it's my nature and a bad habit i think .
They both were just using me: https://read.cash/@Sumaiyya/are-good-and-sincere-friends-really-hard-to-find-aa5d02d5#they-both-insulted-me
I assured M that I'll help her in any way I could. She asked me to make her assignments after that I used to make some assignment of M. One day M and B asked me that the assignments of M are not as good as I make my own but i swear they were same .In short they used to insult me and they cheated on me in project. There are soo many things that I can't mention here because it's painful for me and I have severe headache issue which get worst when I think too much .And if I mention all that the article will get too long.
After all that they both have done with me I started to feel soo bad and sad because i got emotionally attached with peoples in a short time then somehow I started to spend my time alone and separated from them ,because every person has it's own self respect and we should not compromise on our self respect. I can't allow them anymore to insult me and betray me coz I can't do that to any one and afford it at all .
I met a sweet and caring girl: https://read.cash/@Sumaiyya/are-good-and-sincere-friends-really-hard-to-find-aa5d02d5#i-met-a-sweet-and-caring-girl
The world is full of good and bad people and I have experienced it soo many time .
I met another girl in between all this named H She is really sweet ,loving and caring girl as much as i know but peoples change as the time passes. I think our friendship is accidental coz we also met two years back and at that time we didn't know each other at all.
At the start of our 2nd semester we used to go to gymnasium together and play basketball there She taught me how to play basketball. At that time i was facing some family issues and she was the the only person with with at my hard times.
In 1st semester , I didn't go to the gym because M and B were not interested and I can do anythings for my friends(btw they were not friends)
I got attached with H as I was with B and M but she is not like them I can't compare her with them I shared my recent issues ,problems with her somehow she healed me mentally .Whenever I used to go to sports gymnasium I feel so relaxed mentally and all credit goes to H.
I felt that I will loose H and she was avoiding me: https://read.cash/@Sumaiyya/are-good-and-sincere-friends-really-hard-to-find-aa5d02d5#i-felt-that-i-will-loose-h-and-she-was-avoiding-me
But one day i noticed that she is ignoring me maybe i am wrong but i feel that .
Then tomorrow we were going to cafe and she said that I should talk to M and B and I should not leave them because of her(H).These words were soo painful for me may be she was right but she doesn't k ow the truth , she doesn't know both sides of picture and may be H has not experienced such type of peoples in her life that'swhy she is taking me wrong . Why would I talk to the girls who tortured me mentally and emotionally. And I am not selfish that I'll leave them because of her All are same for me .l left them because I don't want to ruin my 4 years and got insulted and used by someone without any reason I can't tell H all the thing they both have done with me because After hearing that from her i know she will not believe me because she don't trust me if she had ever trusted me then she was not able to think about it at all and also because we are all class fellows and we have to spend four years with each other. May be H is thinking that i am not loyal and its breaking me from inside .It's really really hard to find good and sincere friends and i have experienced it soo much in life now i think i am too tired and broken. Why always that happens to me ?Maybe it's because i give too much importance to everyone and some of them misuse it another reason would be that I can't speak in front of any one for my self .I found a loyal friend i.e H after a long time and i don't want to loose her but How can i tell her that i am not wrong ?How can I prove her that i have not left both of them because of her instead they both never accepted me as friend and it was their choice they left me .I was thinking about all this from last two days then i thought of sharing this with read.cash family so that i can feel a little relaxed.
I started using readcash when I was a student of 2nd year.This is my new account and I lost my previous account because i forgot my seed phrase and I was unable to withdrew my cash because i don't have much know how about crypto and i have not imported by readcash wallet to bitcoin and as i already forgot my seed phrase so that account was off no use I lost all my followers and money too😂 then one of my cousin suggested me to make a new account. Readcash is very good app for new bloggers but do remember your seed phrase and don't forget to import your wallet 😁
Is there any way to recover your account and seed phrase?
Life changes. You lose love,you lose your good friends (which you think were good but actually one who is not sincere with you is not good for you).You lose pieces of yourself that you never imagined would be gone.And then ,without you even realising it, these pieces come back .Better friends comes along and then a stronger, wiser you is ready to face any other challenge i.e life goes on, but all this has soo much effect on you mentally and emotionally. Isn't?
@Sumaiyya
