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I might be severely depressed.
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My father was laughing at me when I was crying in front of him. And here I was thinking my mom who starves me was a bad parent.
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So yesterday I took my family out to dinner with my first salary. Dad's instant reaction- "You don't have to do this. I literally pay for everything around here."
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I'm sorry, but you can't just give birth and ask for respect. You'll have to take a bit more efforts than that. Parenting takes efforts.
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I'm actually waiting in a queue to meet a psychologist. I'm not even kidding. My mom, when I pointed out every wrong thing that she's done to me, said, 'You've lost your mind, you should visit a psychologist'. I'm been sad for 5 or 6 years now, it's apparent. She knows it, and she must know it. It was only when I made sure she knew she had wronged me is when she thought I need counseling. I made sure that Dad and her also comes with me. I want to be serious about it, but to…
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I'm in a worse position than I was before going to Therapy. Clearly, she's incompetent.
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Question- Which Therapist drives its patient towards self harm? Answer- An incompetent one Apologies for not posting/replying. I was always online quietly reading your posts.
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I'm here at the Therapist again gathering all courage to tell her that we don't have a connection and I would like to discontinue with the sessions. But, my parents are not here yet, I could use it to my advantage. Them not being here shows how disinterested they are. I will start swimming and walking from today. Physical activities and exercises have empirically proven positively towards my mental health. Hopefully, I will be well enough to respond to all the love I've…
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My Therapist wants me to tell my conservative parents about my boyfriend and I am seriously considering her advice. My parents have an idea that I am in a relationship. This I'd exactly what this whole fiasco was about. They wanted more details to ensure I was safe. She also told me that there's no further reason that would require me to visit her. Anyway, if you hear gun shots, I want someone to inherit all 40c of my tips.
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I think I had seen it coming. How could everything go well in my life, without my parents ruining my happiness for me? They realized I was happy, which is so uncommon and thought it was appropriate to 'treat' it.
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Hello! Everything is fine this side. I've stopped seeing the therapist. I want to be active like before, not on the app, but in life. Let's see what the week has for me.
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A senior accoladed my work. This really makes me happy after having a completely botched up week with my Manager. I'll try to revive my image in front of my Manager. I completed well the last task that she had given me, but it was a very small one. She has given me some more work, but I slept throughout the afternoon. I was a bit under the weather today. I'll finish it tomorrow. Edit- She's calling me right now and my heart is racing!
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It was a decent day. I woke up, made a few mistakes and now I'm ready to sleep. I may watch some travel videos on YouTube, since my parents control my life and wouldn't want me to travel. Anyway, the picture that I've attached does not belong to me. I don't know who sent it to me. I don't have a lot of friends. My boyfriend only must've sent it. Goodnight?
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I had a long civil discussion with my Dad regarding my freedom or lack of it. By the end of it, it seemed to me that he understands that I'm a grown woman now and need my own space. That is, until, he said that he'll discuss it with my Mum. Something while walking back home hit me, I realized that I've been bamboozled. I've had the same discussion with Mom a few days ago, it all seemed that she understood me, but she said the exact same thing, 'I'll talk to Dad about it'. I…
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My mom worries if my boyfriend would harm me in any way. Poor guy asks me twice if I'd be comfortable before holding my hand. Not all men are perverts! She has a son too. What if someone says things like these for my brother? I'm sure he loves me more than I do. I'm in a healthy relationship where I'm treated with respect. Once while we were making out, he asked me, 'Hey, can I hold your cheeks?'. He's so pure♥. I'm having veg omlette for breakfast. It sounds like an…
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Update on my haircut story- I took advices from everyone here and concluded to not reduce the length of my hair. I went in to get them shaped, AND NOT TO REDUCE THE LENGTH OF MY HAIR. I knew what I wanted, and made sure the hairdresser knew what I wanted. And now I look like a headless chicken-.-' I kinda knew this would happen, this is why I've been postponing the visit. (It could be my fault too. Instead of a straight cut, I asked for a step cut. But I don't remember…
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Though it was not a Tuesday, I was called to office. People were all dressed fancy. I was the only one wearing formals, I didn't mind since I always wear smart casuals. I wasn't required to do anything that would need me to be at office, but I was called, so I went. It was a decent day. I had light breakfast and took a cab instead of a public bus. I reached sufficiently on time. I worked with two managers. I hope they're satisfied with my work. I had simple food for lunch. I…
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So yesterday I told you about an ordinary day in my life. Welcome to an extraordinary day in my life! SOMEONE WITHOUT ACCESS BROKE THE DOOR AND ENTERED OUR HOUSE. MOVED AROUND FEW THINGS. LEFT THE CUPBOARDS OPEN AND THE AIRCONDITIONER ON. Thankfully, there was nothing to steal, and he didn't take away my useless stuff. I know exactly who it is, but I have no evidence to frame him. The person himself started telling me stories without me asking him.
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I can't blame noise.cash for not giving me fts, since I always have new excuses to be away from the internet. But isn't that a good thing that I have a life outside the internet world? I remember receiving about 10$ as tips per day, now it's down to less than 25c. I'd spend all day here. Anyway, the reason that kept me away from the platform I had to direct my time deciding on the flooring. Italian marble is finalized to be laid on the floor. We were debating on whether to…
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I tried to write here atleast three or four times and erased it all. My mind in not functioning right. I'm mostly always online only, I read all your posts, but I have no energy to gather my thoughts and upload a post or write a comment. However, this one notification made me want to write about it. But before that, a small premise- I'm too conscious of my toes and always wear shoes that would hide them. Some person wants to lick and smell my feet, without even know what…
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Oh, and by the way, my boyfriend came to visit me last Friday. He'll be here for a while, and we're planning to go out on an overnight forest trek this weekend. We'll get to observe fireflies. How I casually skipped updating you guys:/. We went to a pub last Saturday. It's called BPM- Booze per minute or Booze per minute. It was a decent place. Normally I wouldn't say this, but I wish the place was more crowded. I tried few sips of Beer. I still can't get acquired with…
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I had the best weekend of my life. Details shall follow. That's it, that's the post:).