@Simon.M32 14 December 2021 more from that month

Dancing in my mind

**T**his year has been so hard, and I can't help to feel kinda bad this month in particular. Christmas has that magic; it's a month where everybody feels nice. But others just prefer it passes so fast. **R**eally interesting these days anyway, I have not stopped learning a lot of things, however, mistakes are part of the process, and sometimes, it's frustrating. Life is a wonderful teacher, but hard. **U**nique year in my entire existence, the second year of a pandemic, but still here trying to fight. This damn virus has taken so many lives too, lives that I used to appreciate. **S**tress is up here as well. We might consider it a consequence of this "new normal." I don't want to be repetitive, but wow, it's just that I ain't want to live this way. I want to go back to normal. For real. **T**he interesting part of this is that I'm not sure what I'm writing, but it can tell me something anyway. I think I found an interesting formula to drain what's inside me **M**any of you can feel like me? Or is this just a personal monologue I am sharing with you? Questions come and go. **E**arly in the morning, I tried to get up, I did it, but man, it was harder than I imagined. My body was not heavy, but my thoughts. **I** am studying the possibilities to keep learning new things in the upcoming year, whatever I get is positive, but what should I do? I do not see myself going back to college, but well, something will appear inf front of my eyes, I hope. **M**usic might be a good ally, right? No matter the situation, at least music brings some color to your life. **N**ine or ten days until Christmas? Who counts? The year has gone by so fast, it seems like yesterday when we were in summer, now I have to wear ideal clothes to keep me warm. **O**bviously, I should work on my patience next year too, it has been one of my biggest problems, and, well, I need to fix that. **T**he hardest part of writing this post is that I feel like having a big wall that is in the middle of me, and my ideas, I need a hammer to destroy it, ASAP. **W**here do I have to go to clarify my thoughts? Maybe to the river? the beach? or just inside myself? Because it´s unlikely I can go to the first 2. **E**mpty as hell, this is my mind right now, I need to fulfill it, but not with useless thoughts, I need to meditate on it. **L**ater, maybe I can go to sleep later, to rest my brain a little, this guy has overthought so hard these days, he needs a break. **L**ights off, it´s time to rest. see you next time, this was good therapy.

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