@Shani59

@Shani59 17 May 2022

Mental and Heart battle The toughest battle indeed, the heart says to do this and the brain comes up with logic, no don't repeat it. As a teenager, I have an attraction toward a girl I wanna talk to her, want to know about her life, and think all the time to make her happy, but in the end, giving her extra attention, I lost my value. But still, my heart wants to text her, but my brain is like: ' don't ever think so this time results will also same as previous' In the end, I listen to my brain because this organ has logic, and my heart mostly made me angry at myself. I think it's normal every does mistakes in their teenager when hormone changes start in the body and we humans are designed in such away. If I get her maybe still I would not be satisfied, it's a human habit to find better than better. I have no regret at all because it's a game of hormones and also I haven't tried much to approach her, I just used to play, please Allah give me what is better for me right now and I know Almighty plans are always more beautiful than our desires. In the battle between heart and mind, the heart's decision is based on emotions which most of the time make us fool and result in our harm. As a student when the new semester starts we all are energetic and want to do tasks efficiently, as time passes brain: 'ye krly sath sath syllabus cover end ma musla nhi hoga% Le heart: 'acha yr kr ly gym Then days passed, the final term exam was just a week ago, and stressed students as all of the syllabus are yet to cover. Brian wins the battle and helps us to prepare the syllabus before a night of exams with reliable strategies that end up in scoring good grades. But if a student does complete the syllabus on daily basis surely he can top but the matter is priorities and interest. We don't wanna listen brian, but to the heart which entertains us and give us comfort. While completing tasks calories are burned and it took effort most students don't want to make much effort until and unless the situation became more critical, exams are so close and they have zero preparation, At that time they make the right decision which proves fruitful. Talking to someone, sometimes toxic words of people hurt us, adrenaline hormones are activated and most of the time I want to shut their mouth according to my heart's choice. But brian came again with logic, you not grown up in such a way, just leave it and move on. Many times I live in a place where someone tries to hurt my sentiments. But often the heart wins, and I speak all, what is hidden in my deep, later on, self regret why I did that, I can move on, but we all are human, can lose self-control. I don't my mental vibes had not matched with people, I became alone even sitting at the family gathering, their topic of decision irritates me, a random person chose back-biting, no idea, no innovation, not even talking about own self. I don't want to go there, where most people don't understand me, and I am still lonely even in the gathering. Listening to my mother's instructions I go there, and I know how difficult to spend these hours in that place. I have a few cousins of my age, and with them, my mind relates but they are living far away from my house. So least of the time, we gathered at a family function. Final thoughts We should listen to our brain because decisions made with s logic are more reliable comparatively being an emotional fool, don't decide with emotions, use proper IQ while the decision making will influence in the Long term. Brian tells what is important for you, rather than being an emotional fool while listening to the heart. Thanks for reading! lead image from **Unsplash.com** 17-05-2022 @Shani59

@Shani59 16 May 2022

Smile and Make people Smile In this modern era, everyone is busy with their hectic routine, and people have no time to spend with themselves, but if you ask about their routine. You will know that only a few things are efficient that they did in the whole day. People have no time to spend with family, work out, or medication most of the time they are busy on social media, talking about people of my age. This thing is damaging us slowly and painfully and I can watch my future after the 40s. Life is all about keeping balance in the things, you have to manage your time for workouts, time with family, on your career everything should be in a proper balance which makes life wonderful. Take exercise regularly, and make it a habit to work out daily for 15 minutes, Exercise helps reduce stress, depression, and anxiety and keep your mood happy all day and you will transfer positive vibes to the people you communicate with. Almost all of the tasks are performed by your body for yourself, people will communicate with you later first they look upon you, the body posture, that's the first impression, and you are judged by them. Later no matter how you communicate or probably not even communicate. Working on the body should be the priority. Almost everyone is suffering from a mental illness, probably the intensity is different but problems are in every person's life, some people have faced a challenge and some are starting blaming why God, why me! So the fact is that you have to pay the price for the things that you what to acquire. People what to be successful but are Afraid to take steps. In a world full of negative people try to spread positive vibes and happiness between the people, and try to make them smile, your small act of kindness will be fruitful for them. You don't know from which problem they are suffering, but your small act can make them smile and that's a big thing. Try to help needy people, make it a habit too, believe me when you start giving Almighty will give you more, I experience this thing, whenever I did a charity I received back in multiple X, internal satisfaction is a bonus that God made you a giver for the humanity. Be humble, don't ever feel pride, You don't know when days will change either good or worse, always be grateful. If you are on the right path there is an internal satisfaction in your personality that is worthful. Along with physical health, mental health is also important that makes you happy so, so these small acts of kindness make you strong mentally and you will be satisfied with your life, and a positive smile on your face visible. Try to make life easier for the others they will pray for you deeply in their hearts and your life became glorious. Closing thoughts The right path is always peaceful, and the wrong path will only be toward destruction. Things are in your hand and you have a full choice of where to go and how to spend your life. But I think life is too short and the positive track is best so that people with remember you in good words, rather than hate for your even afterlife and curses. Be a good human, seek out the convenient way to solve critical problems for humanity. So, people will remember you in good words even after your life. Lead image from **Unsplash.com** @Shani59 16-05-2022

@Shani59 15 May 2022

Love yourself, increase your self-esteem Most of the time, I have seen people seeking unwanted attention and end up losing their morale. Instead of that, they should know their worth and who they are, and their self-esteem matter more than delivering the knowledge that other people don't wanna listen to. You should know about your worth, no matter what others say about you, you should be on the right track because you know who you are and the reality will not change. Yes, words left long-lasting effects on our personality and sometimes are more painful than knives. But you should learn to be neutral from the influence of any external force and no one can put an impact on you. You should have full control of your EQ and IQ. We live in a world where nothing is permanent, everything has an end either a temporary or a permanent relation no one stays there, it's your fight and you should be a master in handling it. Many temporary people came into our lives, make us beautiful for a few moments, and left us with unforgettable memories. Even our loved ones' parents will also leave us because death is inevitable. Many people will use you, you build a with many, and some will break, you will feel lonely, happy having a friends circle, then a point where you lost everything and broken, that's a life you have to face all this but one thing you should have a firm believe on the God that good days will arrive soon. And surely the better days will come you need to work consistently. People with soft hearts who already try to make others happy suffered the most in this cruel, they think people will be hurt by this act, and they ignore it, and the other person takes the benefits of his kind act and start irritating him continuously. So it's better to answer them in the right way rather than facing bad behavior every time you met them. Don't be afraid to say no, when you wanted to say it, even to your favorite person because another person already knows that you are busy and have no time for completing that task, but if you did that, you will lose self-esteem and that person will continue to ask for the task. At first, he will show some mood later things became alright. Even if things will not be sorted out it's okay, nothing is more important than your self-respect. Everything should be within a limit, love, friends, family, etc. No one should have a right to disrespect you if you are on the right track and know your worth and are clear about your vision, it's better to shut their mouth off, if someone tries to humiliate you, in the case of elders I never respond, just don't want to meet them again, not disrespect for them, its the matter of my self-esteem and my parents have never allowed me to speak in front of an elder, so I just cut off that negativity. Final thoughts: Respect your parents no matter what they told you, whatever they said is better for your personal growth. They are the only two who care about us when we are sick or in a trouble, try to make them happy, and never hurt them. Sometimes even if their words hurt you just ignore them with a smile by saying okay Maa, and Papa, life is too short, the thing that should matter to you only is to see their happiness, they are the only ones who forget they're luxurious just for your better future and want to see you successful one day. Lead image from **Unsplash.com** @Shani59 15-05-2022

@Shani59 14 May 2022

Be curious about the nature Everyone wants to live a happy life with positive vibes, but it doesn't matter how strong are you mentally, your external circumstances always put an influence on your mood, I was so depressed for the last two days when I watch my portfolio PNL, which is decreased to a great extent as market crash along with a luna tragedy. I uninstalled the trading software. Because it's painful to watch prices going down every day. Now I am spending more of my time with my parents and siblings, with laughter trolling between the siblings. Yesterday I learn how to make rice from my sister, she told me that, I should also know how to make bread, it will be great for my bhabhi, my Mom listened to that and said: 'beta main ho na koi zrort nhi" Yesterday, I attended two online lectures one at 8 am, other at 3 pm of organic and environmental chemistry respectively. The remaining time I spent at the home learned about cooking. The temperature was 47° in our city, a record high temperature for this summer. After attending the lecture I go out of my home and watched how beautiful this world is green, with flashy fields and beautiful flowers, most important is that I am so blessed that I can enjoy all the beauty of nature. Watching the beautiful nature my stress disappear as I thought these things are part of life, at least I have taken a risk, and don't need to worry surely one will be successful. I was curious about how this beautiful world is created by the God everything is there is a balance. It was the last week of March my friend Usama and I returning the home on university bus, watching outside of the bus I said to him: 'I wish the weather would remain neither much heat nor much cold' He replied: 'If the weather will remain the same how this wheat crop will repin and what will we eat?' that's logical. I realized God's plans are always better, we are just looking for the short term, became unhappy and depressed forget that something big is written our destiny just needs to be patient and keep going on the track. I was moving on the side of the canal this morning for a walk, I was thinking about the importance of water running there, Formed in winter with the temperature was below 0°, on the top of the mountain or in the form of glaciers, later in summer glaciers melt and provide water to the field far away in the deserts sort of area for cultivation, the cycle goes on indirectly and conservation of energy takes place. At my university, the water is permanently hard, was it contains arsenic, sulfates, nitrites ions, and the TDS above 1000, giving water to plants directly is harmful and dead ultimately. These are a proper purification mechanism after that water is given to plants. Water purification plants are implanted in every department for the drinking purposes of students. Because in summer 46° is the normal temperature at my university. Concluding: I realized that I was curious about the things l learn more about, everything in this world is presented with logic and purpose, the deep analysis will open the mind to how lucky we are and further modification can happen. Need to increase our observations, this will surely make you happy, that you are blessed with many things, and should be grateful for all the things you have. lead image from ***unsplash.com*** @Shani59 14-05-2022

@Shani59 13 May 2022

Benzo-acetophenone prepared in last lab I am tired of cramming syllabus lengthy and boring books my calories are burnt while cramming paragraphs after paragraph since the day I was born, Why the educational system is too weird. Sometimes I even cry where I am going on, let me tell you a fact, after studying for 16-years of education, my family's senior is advising me to do a job, I can't reply to them on the spot but the letter I questioned myself, I wasted my years just to be a servant and say again yes sir, okay sir. I am losing interest gradually in this educational system, and focusing more on practical work, At the start of my bachelor's degree, I run after the CGPA, but this is useless just a piece of paper that can't decide my potential. So last Tuesday we synthesized benzo-acetophenone using benzaldehyde, sodium hydroxide, methanol, and acetophenone. Acetophenone was not available in the last lab so we can't able to perform this experiment in the last lecture. The pandemic affected the lifestyle badly, and inflation is increasing continuously, that's why every institute facing a shortage of resources. We are only two boys in a class of 22-students, our supervisor's advised us to collect apparatus for the experiment. My friend write down the apparatus needed for the experiment, that was, the stirrer, volumetric flask, beaker, pipette, funnel, magnet stirrer, and beat. The beat wasn't available there in the lab, CR asked the Lab attendant to provide the magnetic beat. The Lab attendant took his university card and then give it. He said it is costly and after returning I will give you your university card. Class girls prepared 10% sodium hydroxide, we need only 20 ml of solution and they formed 100 ml, by taking 90ml water and 10ml of sodium chloride. The reaction is exothermic as I felt later the walls of the beaker warmed during the mixing. To cool it prepared an ice bath and placed the beaker in it. The temperature needed for the experiment is below 15° and the room temperature was 42°. So we performed it at room temperature because we have a lecture after 1-hour. Added 15ml of methanol in the same volumetric flask with constant stirring. In last acetophenone was the last chemical we add to it before placing it on the stirrer for continuous heating and stirring, magnetic beat was placed in the sample solution. Placed the volumetric flask on the stirrer for 30-minutes, the endpoint of the experiment is light yellow, after filtering out the solution using a filter paper, last dry the crystal, weigh out the benzo-acetophenone obtained, and calculate the percentage yield. @Shani59 13-05-2022

@Shani59 12 May 2022

Negativity or negative thoughts We all are human, and everyone faced ups and downs in his life, in bad times we become do demotivated our minds full of negative thoughts, If I tell about myself for the last two days my hard-earned money is reduced to 30% I invested in crypto, from last time I have a severe headache when I open my bitcoin.com wallet its painful to watch value down and down. It feels like, crypto is no more centralized, yes I was in favor of decentralization but watching the current market either, stock, forex, or crypto it seems like, things are only gambling especially in Crypto, one is buying and the other is selling. Learning a skill is better than trading in Crypto, I am not against crypto, in fact in the last one and half years I put in, all of my savings in crypto, but I am at a big loss currently, you know unfortunate thing is that I can't tell my desi family that I faced more than 70% of my hard earn money. I knew their reply would be: 'tu ny buy hi kiun kiye thy over clever etcetera' That's why I am sharing my headache with you guys, I know most of us are holding BCH and people here can understand my situation more clearly. Although this is the time to buy not to cry, guys I am holding my bch assets when 1 BCH ~$900. and currently 1bch= $180. And I have only $10 and don't know what to do with that, crypto is making me mentally strong so I can face big losses. Lols. Yep, this is a difficult time for all those who are investing in digital currencies, but guys good days arrived after bad days, by facing bad days in the future we will value things that we accumulated by burning blood & sweat. I learned many things regarding crypto and implement all of them, Still, I am at a loss but have no regrets, probably the knowledge is not up to the mark, and still need to learn many new aspects, along with luck strategies also influence an upward trend in the portfolio, everyone does mistake, but need is to reduce the number of these mistakes, learn from them and be a better person. Negative thoughts that I lost many things are distorting my mind, can't understand how to deal with them. I am going to uninstall my wallet by putting in an order, and watching, again and again, is stressful. The only option is left is to hold, I did a mistake in last year's dump in that I sold some of the assets in the crash but this time I will not repeat the same mistake, because I know one day market will pump surely, I am in profits on that time, also I am in spot trading the coins that I bought my plan to hold them for the long term, so I will spend more time to learn more, and not repeat mistakes. I was analyzing the coin market cap and was happy to know that the coin in which I invested has a fixed supply, 21 million, not huge transaction fees if you need to trade. I watched many other tokens whose total supply is not given, LUNA example is in front of us, trying hard to stabilize ust, and doing this their token is almost varnished, it is the biggest crash that I watched in two years in which a coin dump 99% in just two days, feeling sad for their investors who bought at 119$ per coin and the current price is only $0.30. I have a firm belief in the crypto that I am holding (Bitcoin Cash), It has the potential to give multiple X profits in the future. Lead image from ***bitcoin.com*** Thanks for reading! @Shani59 12-05-2022

@Shani59 11 May 2022

Don't blame circumstances, take responsibility I have seen people blaming others for what happened in their life, this should not be the way to behave, we all are responsible for things and what outcome we get in the future. In the early days of my life, I used to blame others. In 6th class, I got the third position in the class and in 7th I can't score good marks and I start blaming my elder siblings you don't teach me well, because of which I can't able to score good marks. When I think about this story of childhood I laughed often how childish I was. Class 9th to 12th duration was a crucial period of my life, family motivated me during this time to keep me on track and I was in the right direction. I was mature a little bit more and accepted the things that I have and tried to change them for the betterment of my personality. I started taking responsibility, for what happening in my life is only because of me and I can only change it. At that time I felt that when we accept our fault, the mistakes we have done, we can fix these mistakes more efficiently. Otherwise, if we start making excuses, we have several. I was studying in an academy in the 10th class. After school, I used to go there regularly. The English teacher there is a family friend of my elder brother, so I was more conscious about my English in 10th standard if I scored low marks on a test, he would report it to my brother. But it was strange for me that Sir Kamran(English) never beat me, many times I scored low marks in the sometimes class saving me from the punishment when I was standing with the students who aren't prepared for the lessons. But this situation was more drastic for me, I was getting tuition for other science subjects there, and most of the time when I got low marks on a test Sir Kamran appeared there, I started excusing: 'sir wo mujhe bukhar ho gya tha, meri tabiat thek nhi thi, iss liy prepare nhi kr paya achy se" But sir Kamran never listen to my whole talk, when I speak only 3 or 4 words when excusing, he always cut my talk, okay, theek theek. Then I felt, 'Zeeshan no one cares about you except your parents, and people have no time to listen to your useless excuses, they just want results to judge you, everyone is facing trouble in this modern world, the thing matter is, how you survive in this world and prove yourself in the world that you have a potential. Once we started blaming others instead of taking responsibility, people started maybe listening to us, later it became a part of our personality and growth can stop we can't learn new things. What l learned is that people don't care what happens in your life, excuses you told them for downfall, and no one has time to listen to useless blames. Better to take responsibility for life and try to change yourself because It is only you and you who can do wonders for yourself. Disclaimer: All the stuff I shared is my thinking and personal experiences, don't take this as advice, It is all about myself. Lead image from ***Unsplash*** Thanks for reading! @Shani59 11-05-2022

@Shani59 10 May 2022

Judgment by the external looks When we saw a person, we started analyzing that person, his personality through, and our first impression is body posture and dressing sense, Communication with him is a second impression, and in most cases, introverts don't communicate they judge people through their lucks. Even when I saw some, I used to think about his personality and start supposing, after communicating I realized that I was wrong about him. Yes, that's why cents says: ' don't judge a book by its cover '. It's natural we are all human and made in such a way that we have a habit of making perceptions about everything. Sometimes, it is fine but in most cases, we regret that I was wrong about that person. We can predict the nature of someone only through impressions, after talking we will understand how good nature that man is, with a lot of knowledge and skill set. Similarly, a person with proper dressing and looks can prove a snake. In the first week of university, I was sitting in the first row and attending a lecture on inorganic chemistry, a fellow was sitting in the same row, he looks like a Don, with long hair, I listened to his conversation with other fellows which was offensive, I supposed that student is just wasting paisa of their parents, but I was wrong he is a sharp and intelligent student who knows how to beat hard work through smart work and he did it. He scored the highest CGPA in the class. When he questioned teachers during the lecture and understand, that although I don't like his personality, this man has the potential to do something, and later in the 3rd semester our vibes matched and we are friends. From that time I stopped prospecting about people, I don't care who they are and why they are because we can't someone's heart, some people are so precious and have large hearts but look weird.I saw people who speak on the spot about what they are feeling, how to heart them, means ' dil halka kr lety ha apni tension dusron ko de ky' These sorts of people can also wonder about this world, they speak on the spot but are soft-hearted and responsible. I was watching a south movie about Allu Arjun, in which Allu Arjun's Father torture him every day. He goes for a job interview. The interviewer asks him why we should select you! tell us about yourselves, he started telling him about his father and how his father tortured him every day. After listening to all this the interviewer became sad and asked, it's painful to listen to your story, but you are telling me non-stop. He replied It's better to transfer your stress by telling others. Later he got the job. No one can predict someone's life through external looks unless we communicate with them. It was my 6th semester and I missed my university bus because I got up late on that day, I have to travel on a local bus and hitchhike towards the University, and during the journey, I stop a man 3 or probably 4 yesterday older than me. I asked him about his life and things are going on, it was the start of Covid, and he started speaking about his life and his heart was full of pain, he told me that his parents married him at an early age, now I have 3 kids, I used to paint houses, sometimes I got work and sometimes I sleep whole day in the house, Corona periods started and the situation worse. Then I came to know how lucky I am and we can predict anyone unless we interact with them. Lead Image from *Unsplash*. Thanks for reading!!! @Shani59 10-05-2022

@Shani59 9 May 2022

The fault-finder will find fault even in the Paradise If someone doesn't like you, it simply means that he is not interested in you and didn't want to talk to you, but continuously paying attention to him would only reduce your self esteem. I will change for you, I am not mature you should teach me how I change myself. This is so irritating for him, imagine yourself if a person texts you again and again that you want to be in your, you will be irritated from continuous messages. Self-respect is more important than anything, If the other person doesn't respect you, continuous late reply, only means that he doesn't want you to be in your a the is in. So be yourself, and don't run after that person for attention.No one can give you attention if you give extra importance than the person deserves. In the early days of the university, I used to pay attention to every person in the class, forward hands first to greet, which means I have given extra importance to everyone in my class and as a result, they all started ignoring me. Soon I learned where I was wrong. I stopped running after people, who came in front of me accidentally, shook hands with them, and stop paying extra attention to them. Some of the fellows are almost cut off, and some who are closer to me start saying: "Zeeshan mujhe tu avoid kiun kr rha" Le me: "nhi asa kuch nhi ap mere bhai ho" Now I am at a stage of my life where everyone left me I wouldn't care at all, only my parents are enough for me. Because I realized these are the only two who stand with me in my worst and the best time. Only their happiness and Sadness matter. I stopped seeking attention, the person who cares for I will stand with him everything in every difficult situation. People who don't like you will always find a reason to degrade you, if they are honest they will cut off, but remember if they stayed in your life only for keeping your heart, your whole will be suffered through pains. Because other person doesn't like you he is in your only for your happiness, but in return, you have to face bad his bad moods and tortures. I think it's better to live a life with a person who is equally interested in you. One-sided relations are only are sort of compromise which is painful. the partner should be that one with your vibes match. Final thoughts: Let me tell you a story that I listen from my Dadi, Once a goat is drinking water under a stream and a wolf is drinking upside of the goat in the same stream. The wolf wants to eat the goat, it came down and said to the goat you abuse me 1-year ago, the goat replied, "Sir I was born 7-months ago and how can I abuse you, I was not even born at that time. The wolf said that your forefathers would abuse me and fall up the goat, tore it into pieces. So the moral is that the person who doesn't like you has a reason always to break you. Choose your company wisely and stay away from toxic people. Cut off with people who are not interested in you, your life, happiness, and self-respect are more important than that person. Lead image from ***Unsplash*** Thanks for reading!!! @Shani59 09-05-2022

@Shani59 8 May 2022

Transformation is inevitable We humans need to change ourselves with every passing day by learning new things, it's the demand of time, we are living in the 21st century, an era of innovation and development, if someone stops learning he will be left behind. Learning-related to personal and professional life, In personal life, one should know how to deal with family in any sort of circumstances, in good times everyone can survive while smiling, appreciating, and making fun with each other, but the problem arises when circumstances became worse, I seem people fighting with each other just for piece of land, sometimes listen that a son killed his father issue was just because of property issue. Like seriously, how someone can be so cruel? Also when bad times arrived on such people's doorstep these sorts of properties are even sold out! As a kid, my dressing was a fancy type, a was a Ludo bacha of my family, meaning the youngest siblings of family, so everyone cared for me in the early days of my life, their so caring attitude made me so naughty that when I was moving on the road with my father, more often I slapped kids of my age, hahaha, I don't know that but my father told me this often when we talk! We I took admitted to the school, I became too shy, the first two days, I go to school happily and later realized that it was not the comfort to go there daily, so my lame excuses started but my Mom knew me very well. She gets me up early morning, wears a uniform and holds my hand, and drops me at school daily. My routine is to go while crying and return, smiling. Ahh, these were the best days, I was so rude in my primary schooling till the matric, so I haven't any close friends in my school life. But later I realized that I have to change my attitude, otherwise I will not survive in this world. Shy, rude, and soft-hearted all qualities were present within me. I want to spend most of my time alone same time I became depressed when no one paid attention to me. Time changes, things change, I learned from this world and I am no more a rude person. I have many friends, and while talking to them sometimes I hurt their sentiments, but I excused them instantly when I realized that it was my fault. But still, I am an introvert and don't want to negotiate with more people only limited friends circle, hesitate to speak in public, I don't care about people is they notice but still I faced this issue. Yep, surely I will overcome this too! I saw in my relatives when someone did wrong to a person he doesn't want to accept his mistake, especially our males, they think they are ideal and can't do anything wrong, they don't even feel embraced, but angry on the person same time. This should not be the way we should accept our fault and try to vanquish it. Let's talk about technology, about 7-years ago, our whole family have only one keypad mobile my father, it was used to communicate with relatives and I listened to cricket commentary on the radio in electricity absence. And now every family members have a smartphone. I watched video calls only in movies, years ago and can't even imagine this could also happen at that time, and now video calls are normal using different social media apps. With every passing year, we should learn innovative things on the bases of the time needed for survival in this world. Time waits for none it changed, and also change our life, it is better to change ourselves before the time, because if time changes us, it will be more painful. Lead image from ***Unsplash***. Random thoughts on changing lifestyle @Shani59 08-05-2022

@Shani59 7 May 2022

Eid vacations almost ended, and back to the chemistry world Mid-term exams ended 2 and half weeks ago and I was very happy that I can enjoy my free time watching series, and movies, and learning new things, but the time passed so quickly, and this Monday I have to go university again back in boring routine, get up ready, travel 60 Kilometres and back to home again. I am planning to stay in a hostel in the 8th semester, My friend and I planned to join a research group and also an internship. From the first to the seventh semester of my bachelor's degree, my routine is to go to university daily, and back home, most of my time was wasted thinking about the route plan of busses, it is stressful and we can't able to focus on things properly. I did some productive things in the last two weeks and learned more able writing skills, Crypto trading chart patterns, yes I m in the Crypto world for the last one and a half years, and invested around $230 in different altcoins and I am in loss of $80 because the market is crashing every day, I start I did panic selling, but later on I realized these things are part of crypto trading, once I was so dishearted that I withdrew all of my assets from crypto than again I invested and this time I am more mature learned and lot from the sudden market crashes and still learning. But the market crashed funds value again stable currency reduced the future, yes crypto is the future but major whale groups can manipulate the market when they want, TA and FA flopped in front of them and small traders have to face major losses, in last two days market cap reduce, 22/100 fear and greed index as the market in extreme fear, that I experienced in last few days but I stopped worrying about these things because I know the growth of a decentralized currency is inevitable. I keep $47.40 to buy BCH in dip, my favorite crypto, present on its strong support at $271 from last All the time 3700$. Also, Gucci is accepting BCH as a payment method along with some other crypto. That's why I have utilized, some stable coins I want to accumulate Bitcoin Cash in dip, seeing the current market scenario, it felt like the total market cap of crypto will decrease further. This will be the right to accumulate BCH in the dip. I watched KFG chapter 2, Radhe Shaym, and SinfeAhan drama last 4 episodes that I can't watch during my midterm exams. Learn about crypto analysis and realized that I am still a newbie, with many things to learn here, and huge knowledge is necessary along with some practical. At the same time, I am learning to improve my writing as I wanted to be a professional writer, Watched some videos on YouTube and came to know that there is also a lot of work that is needed. I have to read more English books and improve my English either grammar or Vocabulary, a lot of work is needed to do myself. Currently, the most important one is my career and my bachelor's degree, I should prefer to complete it with good remarks. My practicals are pending to write in the practice notebook, although only Lab in 7th semester I made habit of completing tasks on the last moments, this time I was thinking to write earlier. Only 2 practicals of the organic Lab, not a big deal, will be completed within 1 hour, after that, the Environmental chemistry, a topic that Mam taught in the last lecture before Eid, I have to Memorize as well. Because at the end syllabus piled up and difficult to cope with them. Step by Step is easier rather one night and I have to take all the steps, hehe! NMR we studied in the first lecture after the mid-exam, yet I have to go through basic principles and introduction of nuclear magnetic resonance. Back in again busy routine, although I was not excited about the Eid the vacation so I can rest in the bed for more time. lols Thanks for reading!!! @Shani59 7-5-2022

@Shani59 5 May 2022

Spent Evening with college friends Last time a year ago we four met on the 2nd day of last Eid ul Fitr, the reason is a hectic routine for all of us, everyone busy in their own life, so they planned the first day of Eid for gathering but the busy routine with family we can't able to manage time on the first day, on the second-day my sisters who married about 2-month ago arrived home, 2nd-day spent, both of them returned this afternoon with their husband. And later in the evening, I was with my college fellows. We talked early in the morning about the gathering plan and decided on 6:30 pm, Nadeem said that we will arrive at 7 p.m, later I requested to arrive earlier because I have to return to my home which is in the village, the road is not ideal for traveling and also the big tread is dogs of the village. Around a 1-kilometer track, returning home is risky when we travel at the night because of villagers' areas and the economical conditions of the country are critical. My father warned me to drive carefully and be safe and my mother was like : "beta jaldi ana aur asi koi situation ho tu sb kuch de dena bs apna ap bcha lena, your life is important, le me Maa main bra hogya hon. Asa kuch nhi hoga" At 6:45 pm we all friends are gathered at a park, chit chat for few minutes and then decided to go to HFC, Last time we were only four friends including Hassan, Muzammil, Nadeem and including me and this time one other college friend Hanzla joined us, I was happy to see him after a long time. We talked about college days memories, still, we all were same regarding body weight, same face, same way of talking, and cool fellows, I was tired of laying on the bed and using a mobile phone, gathering with old friends refreshed my mind and stress almost dimished. Managing time for gathering with fellows is not easy in this busy routine. This Monday, all of us will be in different institutes of the Pakistan, Hanzla in the University of Agriculture Faisalabad, Muzammil Rahbar medical college Lahore, Nadeem, Bahauddin Zikria University Multan, I m in Khwaja Fareed university Rahim yar khan and Hassan will be in Rawalpindi medical college. Still, we are lucky enough to manage time for each other. Later we order Pizza, a cold drink, and chicken pieces, eating is temporary but a snap before eating is permanent, I clicked this picture using my mobile so I can show it to you guys. We eat talked about different topics about each other life how university life is going on, and the plans are funny and adventurous moments. I told them about my stomach infection, and how painful it was I bear it for almost 4 and half hours and then went to a nearby hospital they injected two injections intravenous and an intramuscular, later I returned at 2 am. They started advising me to follow a proper diet after asking what I ate on that day, I told them that I don't know what happened to me on that day, probably that was written in my faith. After 30-minutes later of ordering, the waiter served the food, we ate, paid the bill, and returned. I said goodbye to all of them after formal saying, good to see all of you! They are still there in a park and talking and I returned to my village because it was already 8:30 pm. Finally, I reached home at 9 pm. My Mom asked me how was your gathering and what you guys eat there? I told them it was great and showed them pictures that we clicked there. She asked me do you want to eat something for dinner. I replied no Maa, my belly is full, no space for anything! **Thanks for reading**.... @Shani59 All the pictures are captured by me using my mobile camera!

@Shani59 4 May 2022

Everything happens for a reason Sometimes we became so depressed when we suffered from the worst face and became sad by thinking about why God why always me. But Almighty has good plans for us which we can't able to see. We can only see what is good for us in short term, but God has written more valuable things than written for us in long term. Let me relate with my example, I am in crypto trading for the last year, in the start, I invested 10$, and within two days that amount reduces to 4$ because I traded in meme coins with a huge supply and hype based token. Again I traded in other cryptocurrencies by analyzing the fundamentals and candles chart, support resistance, etc. This time I have taken three entries with 37$. I did dollar cross average (DCA) for that coin, but my mistake was that I choose only one crypto, later market crashed and again 36$ was reduced to 21$. I needed money to buy a new pair of shoes for winter and I withdraw that amount because the amount that I invested was decreasing gradually, as a new trader I can't bear more loss so once again I withdrew all of the assets. Sometimes I sit alone and thanked the Almighty that I haven't more money to invest in crypto because I would lose that money too! Yes in Start I learned about the basis of crypto trading like technical analysis, support, resistance, chart pattern, candles sticks, and indicators, but learning is not enough, you can learn only through practice and more practice, I whole trading experience what I learned is that news plays a major rule in market fluctuations like during Ukraine and Russia conflict market crashed either stock or crypto! Imagine If I have 1000$ at the start of trading, the asset will be reduced to 200$ at that time because I haven't any practical experience. So, the good thing that happened to me is that I started with a lesser amount. Also, suppose if I earned $5k through trading( I can't even suppose, hehe) I have no information on how to further invest in other projects. With time we learn things and implement them and are finally blessed by the Almighty by implementing what we learned, that makes me believe that everything happened for a reason. Being between the age of 18-and 25 years is not easy, a crucial year of life where either we can build our career or destroy it with our own hands. During this period we met many temporary people who came into our lives gave us some good moments and then leave by giving us worse memories than many people can't forget. As a teenager, almost every girl or boy wants to look most beautiful human of the same age, it's the nature of humans not others but many want to look beautiful for themselves. And many want they also have a buddy of the opposite gender with whom they can share their good or bad memories, but in most cases, the consequences are seemed to be worse. They broke each other and one of them move on and the other can't even imagine what happened with him/her, learned s lesson through that experience, that no one can care more than your parents and than family and siblings and other relations and temporary, when the other one got something more good than your he will leave the only left for you is painful memories. concluding In the start, we faced hardship we start complaining to the Almighty after sometimes we came to know that, this bad experience was important to make me strong mentally so I can face such circumstances and the fruit that we get after surviving in all such hardship is more precious. So, I believe that everything that happened to us, either bad or good is just to make us strong so we can face more severe situations! Thanks for reading! Lead image from Unsplash @Shani59 04-05-2022

@Shani59 3 May 2022

Uncertainty of Life Today we are celebrating Eid ul Fitr in my country, after offering the Eid prayers I visited relatives' homes with my Father. Now I returned home and lay on the bed. Two days ago my phupho died of kidney on 28-Roza of Ramadan, I am so depressed from that day, phupho was so kind-hearted and care about everyone, my Almighty forgive her All sins and make the afterlife easier for her. She was suffering from Blood Pressure, and diabetes for a long time and was in the bed, but for the last 3-weeks her situation was critical, she was admitted to the hospital because of a kidney disorder, and every week her dialysis was done by the doctor. Her kidney is not performing their work efficiently and she is no more between us. The night before her death, I suffered from a stomach infection. After Maghrib's prayer, I felt little pain in my stomach, I felt like I am suffering from a gas issue, and drink a glass of Sprite bottle by putting table salt in it. My family realized that I m not feeling well, and my sister made a cup of green tea for me as a remedy. My father gave me medicine, but the pain was increasing continuously. It felt like there is a blockage of the main intestine. Later I called my Elder brother who has a medical store and told him about my situation. He sent medicine through my cousin, I took it but still issue was the same and increasing. I was suffering from 6 pm and 11:30 pm, then the situation became out of control, and the pain became so severe that I can't bear it. My cousin called an ambulance, they took me to a nearby hospital so that my stomach issue will be sought out. The doctor gives took ingestion on the left and right arms. But the pain was still of the same intensity, I can't even sit and lay down, later the doctor gave another dose of medicine and I recovered at 1 am of the morning, I was feeling better, pain is seems to be diminished. My mom was so upset regarding my health. This was the first time that my situation became so critical and I have to travel by ambulance. But thanks to Allah Almighty I am fully recovered now! at 3 am we returned the home, my mom at 3 am made light for me so that I can eat something, simply I spent my whole night awakening, next day all of my neighbors and relatives were at our home, they started asking what happened to him, he is so wise young boy, well aware of things and how can such things happen to him. l laughed and was happy with my praises and at the same time, I was telling them why such uncertain situations happened! At 11 am I was writing article of read.cash and my Mom arrived, she was crying and told me that phupho is no more between us. I was shocked to listen that because we have an only phupho of all five brothers of my father, relatives reach their home for condolences. Today I was thinking how badly my cousins were missing their mom, our phupho, the whole scenario of home changed, and their mother, don't know how their home atmosphere at the morning, everyone loves their Mom, but what we can do in front of destiny. Life is so uncertain, all the things are going fine and the next moment whole scenario changed. Thanks for your attention! Lead image from Unsplash @Shani59 3-5-2022

@Shani59 2 May 2022

Whatever to Forever Sometimes I can't understand, what happens to me, I am so chill ignored hard compliments from others, and sometimes, I took a light compliment seriously and became depressed. I can't understand my mood swings, Le me I don't care whatever will happens like, "jo hoga dekha jae ga, aur phr jo Hota ha Dekha NHI jata" At the start of the next semester, I was full of energy, I convinced myself that I will study regularly and do daily work daily, instead of pilling up the syllabus till exam night. As time passes, things are in my mind but can able to follow the schedule that I was made, by saying that I will do this tomorrow the whole semester passed till the exam night arrived, a little bit or more a little study and then I will see whatever will happen. By doing all this my Bachelor's degree is about to end it's my 2nd last semester of Bs Chemistry. This of my whatever changed forever, but these things aren't good regarding career prospective, I should follow step by step rather trying to all in one. Now let's tell about the perspective of the relationship, at the start of a new relationship we care about each other ignore the biggest mistake in the early days giving time to each other, paying attention! As time passes they became bored of each other, they started ignoring, late replies things are like whatever the partner does, I don't care at all if things sought out, they patch up again, if not they don't care about each other and ultimately blocked. It's about more daily relationships which are mostly fake. Normally I have seen at the start of a true relationship, the first impression wasn't ideal for the partners, they are like worse enemies than each other, creating trouble and don't care for, whatever the other one suffered from, later they start knowing each other, buddies and ultimately care for feelings of another person they're whatever mindset changed to forever. Whatever I don't care to, no I care for the partner forever. We are all uniquely created by God, and every one of us has a different priority, some of us are introverts, don't wanna engage more and more people in our daily routine, wanted to spend most of the time alone in their imaginary world. They have limited friends but true ones, care for each other help in difficult situations. These people are soft-hearted and can be hurt by the little negative compliments from others. Also, these types of people can wander the world with their talents and hard work because they have a lot of free time to spend on their career-related activities. On the other hand, extroverts are cool people who can make friends easily, they know how to attract people, have many friends and continue to make new ones, they can engage with everyone, are full of leadership skills, communication also remains unaffected by the good or bad compliment of the society and don't care for whatever and forever live their lives by own rules enjoy by living in the present. I am an introverted kind of person but wanted to be extroverted, I want to communicate any time and anywhere without any hesitation of my mental blocks same time I wanna serve humanity so that people remember me in good books afterlife. In the same way, I want to be that type of man who will remain unchanged by useless compliments of society. Closing thoughts When I watched people in relationships at the start I started thinking about why I am not, why I am different, so I also tried but the experience wasn't so I realized everyone is not born for everything, start knowing my worth, what important for me right now! and became like I don't care what happening I am unique in own style and will remain the same until someone arrived in the life with the same mind so that we can spend remaining life journey wit each other forever. Lead image from Unsplash. Thanks for reading! @Shani59 02-05-2022

@Shani59 1 May 2022

Radhe Shyam, last night I watched! I am free of any sort of online and physical classes so I downloaded the latest Series and movies and watched them, yesterday I watched Radhe Shyam a south Indian movie, which was quite informative and a little bit of a motivational sort. Vikram the Man character of the movie, was a Palmist, his Guru who is blindly used to say Einstein of Palmistry to the Vikram. He is a genius and can predict the future, his accuracy was 100%. With the increasing time of watching movies, I got more interested in them. The movie is full of adventure and curiosity. A top business in the world called the Vikram Guru persuaded Vikram to predict the future of his son. Vikram arrived in his office to watch his hand, his son thanked Vikram for coming there, Vikram replied it because Guru that I m here. The business son showed his hand to Vikram. Vikram predicted that if you have no future in politics you'll join the business. His son was surprised and said to Vikram politics is his passion and he doesn't interested in business read my hand again you are wrong. Vikram told him that he hasn't a habit of reading his hand again. What I predict 100% is this will happen. Later on, Vikram was traveling with his bestie Prerna on the Metro train, an old man saw Vikram sitting next to him. He came near to Vikram and praised his talent that you are one of the greatest people who can read hands and predict the future. Can you please tell me the future of my daughter? Vikram refused in the start but after continuous insist from the old man, he read his daughter's hand and told her, that she have no future in the sport, and it was better for her to focus on her study. After that, all the people sitting in the block started showing their hands to the Vikram and insisted he predicts their future. A station arrived, Vikram and his female bestie left the metro, His bestie laughed at Vikram that how he made people fool, during this Vikram analyze the accident of the metro train will about to happen when he recalls many of the hands that people showed him in the metro, he told Prerna and run to save their life but unfortunately train changed it tracks and almost 20 people died in the accident, the old man daughter on arm cut off and the old man itself died who said Vikram to predict his daughter future. Prerna was watching TV in her home and was shocked to see that whatever Vikram came true. She started believing Vikram soon both of them were in a relationship. Prerna told Vikram that she loves him and wants to spend her whole life with Vikram. He told her that, there is no relationship line my hand, I am made for only flirting, we spent the best moments of our lives but there are no good results. Prerna was suffering from adrenal gland cancer and science and technology haven't the treatment for that disease with she was suffering. According to doctors, only 2-months are left for the Prerna then she will be no more. Prerna asked Vikram to predict her future, he predicted that Prerna will live 70-year at age of 45 she and receive an award from the government for serving humanity. Vikram was predicting her future, her nose started bleeding and she became unconscious. Later Vikram admitted her into Prerna's uncle's hospital where Vikram came to know that according to doctors only 2-months were left for Prerna. When Prerna came into her consciousness, he told her that his future predicting accuracy is 100%, she will surely live a long life, don't believe in those research. Prerna's uncle asked the guard to remove Vikram from the hospital as he irritated all of them. When she fully recovered his uncle told Prerna that he will prove Vikram's prediction wrong you just wait and watch. In his hospital, Prerna's uncle took fingerprints on four dead bodies on the paper and asked Vikram to tell him about these 10-hands. Vikram predicted all the of them accurately also those things that doctors don't know. Her uncle was impressed and asked if Prerna will be cured of this disease. Vikram replied yes 100%. All of them were so happy. Vikram changed what was written in his future, according to him, he will die in an ocean storm, but he listened from his Guru that 1% of people can change their destiny through their hard work and putting their full efforts. Vikram implemented all and changed his Qismat. Lead image from: https://twitter.com/Shbrish1/status/1519983028759502848?t=D996Cev_FfTTqOwv_-VDJA&s=19 Thanks for your attention! 1-5-2022 @Shani59

@Shani59 29 April 2022

Mango, Pomegranate, Peach, and Grapes plants I live in a village where I have more area for my hobby i.e gardening, I love to decorate the home from in and out by planting beautiful flowers and fruit plants, watering them regularly but now I grow up and haven't much time to spend time on my childhood hobby, our priorities are changed with time it's not we but the circumstances that shift our preference on the things which is more crucial right now! I m on holiday as already I told you I don't want to study till the end of this end, but today I attended an online lecture which was worth listening to, after that, I spent my time capturing the beautiful pictures of plants that were planted by myself and my elder brother, Let me show you guys! Mango The King of fruit and my favorite I love to drink milkshakes during summer and eat them, but this one is not effective for making milkshakes because of its sour taste, but we used it to make Achar, which is quite tasty, one of the interesting things is that as a kid we cousins and used to break such sort of green mango which aren't repinned from the break cut them with a knife and eat with choral, which was spicy and tasty. yum! Peach Peach fruit is not so common in my region, because cold weather suits this fruit, and our area is quite hot in June & July 45° is the normal temperature here, but still, I have planted this peach plant outside my house. These peaches are smaller in size comparatively because of weather impacts also just before full repin the fruit is spoiled by the insect, but the flowers on the plant look gorgeous in spring. Grapes This was planted by my brother back n 2009 when I was in class 4th or probably 5th. I remembered that my brother bring it from the nursery along with a guava plant. It is the plant of the red grapes, half of them are eaten by birds, and squirrels, I asked my mother should we cover these grapes with pouches or if we kill squirrels and birds. My Mom was like: "nhi ye inka naseeb h, jo tera h tujhe mil rha na aur vese bhi ye sadqa jariya ha" I replied, "okay okay Mom galti ho gai! " I have two nephews who almost love to eat these sour green grapes. Everyone stops them to eat these grapes but both of them eat by escaping from the elders. Pomegranate I have grown almost 5-plants pomegranates within and outside the home. Same as Grapes more them half of the pomegranate fruit is eaten by squirrels, squirrels are common in the ea, especially around my favorite fruit pomegranate, but what can we do, except watch them! Pomegranate is a source of iron, potassium, and calcium and the most important thing is carotenoids which make our eye vision strong. The juice of Pomegranate is also delicious and yummy! Dates Yes, dates, talking about fruit not the date of the modern generation, the plant is too young and only a few years old, Let me tell you an interesting fact, Date plant take longer time to grow compared to other fruits it can grow anywhere in desert soil, moisture or even close oceans. Dates fruit also has a lot of benefits if I start writing words will not be enough, all types of minerals, nutrients, and extra calories present in it. According to research I read on an Instagram post that 3-dates a day prevents weakness and keeps the body energetic. Conclusion This is about the fruits that I had grown in my village. Hope this will prove informative for you. And can say some of you are watching these plants for the first time. All the pictures are captured by myself today using my mobile. Thanks for reading!

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@Shani59 28 April 2022

Eid Vacations from the University! My mid-term exams ended last week and this week was online, On Monday I hadn't attended on-campus classes even my favorite Mam of organic chemistry 1, I was tired of mid exams from Monday to Saturday continuously and again notification arrived that classes will be started from this Monday, like seriously only one holiday after the exam, that's not fair. I had made up my mind that I will attend classes after the Eid properly, So at on Sunday and Monday I stayed at the home, got a haircut, spent time with my parents chitchat with them, and made them smile, I felt relaxed in these two days, because exam stress was over and I can enjoy the life properly, during exams duration I can't eat and sleep adequately. Finally, after the exams, I ate well, I cooked food for myself, yes you read right I can Make Chinese rice and Biryani, also I can make Tea and omelet which I learned when J was in 9th standard, my sister seldom taunts me that you should also learn how to make Roti. On Monday at 10: 30 am my friend called me and ask where I am! I replied at my home ' he understood that today I m not in the mood to go to university, I was just returned after a haircut from the barber and I was putting oil on my hair. On Tuesday we have a Lab on organic chemistry, Mam already announced that tomorrow she will check our practical notebook, again I wasn't in the mood too university, but the behavior of my family on Tuesday was a little bit more awkward than I thought it's better to go university and learn something innovative instead of spoiling day here at home. I started preparing for university put the practical notebook in my bag, took a bath dressed up, and on the way to the University, after reaching there I realized that I had not completed my practical notebook, there are three practicals to write and I had written only one. One hour was spare before the lab so during that duration I completed my practical notebook by writing the remaining two practicals the theory and procedures were not so long but the pencil work was a little bit tricky, especially the mechanism of the reaction, later on, practical notebooks checked by the Mam, I hadn't put lines on the sides of pages. Mam instructed me to put lines on the side of the paper by saying it looks rough by putting lines that will seem adorable, so the first time while writing English I had put lines on the sides of the paper. After the lab, we have another lecture on organic 3, but my friend and I weren't want to take that lecture, we returned to the bus stand so that we can return home. Two papers mid-term were checked and I scored 24/25 and 19/25 in organic 1 and organic 3 respectively. Organic 3, paper mostly was the theory base only a few logical things and I can't able remember a thing without its logic, there was a table of classification of alkaloids which was based on ratta, why should I blame other aspects, it's my fault that I have not to cover that topic effectively. On Wednesday the whole class decided to stay at home and we will not attend any of on Campus classes before Eid, everyone agreed on this decision and, we are enjoying the end of Ramadan in our homes. Today, we attended an online lecture on organic 3 at 11 am, and there were two more lectures on organic 2 and 4 that were not taken by the teacher, pending tomorrow along with another lecture on organic 3 that will be taken online tomorrow. Just before received written official notification from the higher authority of the university that there will be public holidays next week on the occasion of Eid. I m happy that the mid-term exams ended before the Eid, otherwise, I can't be able to enjoy myself properly but now I m relaxed. Thanks for reading!!! @Shani59

@Shani59 27 April 2022

Signals fluctuations and electricity issue For the last couple of days, I m facing signal problems, I m using the Internet on Telenor sim, And I have a monthly package for it. Zong sim is also present on my mobile but the signal strength of Telenor sim is stronger compared to ZONG in my village, That's the reason I preferred Telenor and used the Internet on it for the last two years. But from the last few days signal issue increased from its limit, moved from 4G to E, I waited for it that issue may be resolved after some time, I downloaded a movie, KGF chapter 2, and started watching it at night. After watching the movie I checked the Internet connection, the strength of the signal was still weak, then I go to Youtube, and Offline I downloaded some videos regarding Japanese Candlesticks for crypto trading and watched 2 or 3, I felt bored and slept on that duration. Early morning at 3 am I tested again, the same signals problem, I was feeling bored and irritated by this behavior of the Telenor network, probably they turned off their tower booster ( which stimulates signals). Telenor is the only network that I was using for attending my online classes on Google meet, speed is so effective in my village, I noticed that signal strength in my village is comparatively much stronger than in the city. I remembered that I downloaded KFG 2 within 4-minutes and the file size was 1.2 GB, these are the reasons Telenor is reliable for me in my village. But today when I got up I have nothing to do, signals problems were still there, So I opened my ZONG app, went to the reward option, and shuffled cards, after that I received 40 MBs, I came outside the house into the field, where ZONG signals are in 3G strength. I opened Google Chrome and search for Telenor helpline, moved towards costumers care, In a live chat, I discussed my issue, that in my area signal strength of Telenor shifted from 4G to E, I am a student and facing this issue from last 2 and half-day, there was a lady, Nimra, asked me from how many days I m facing this issue, about my phone number, and my location, I gave concerning information, she replied there is no issue from server-side, It's your device issue rectify it. I elaborate I Tried all of the ways and the issue is surely from the network side, tell me if it can be solved or if I should move to ZONG instead of Telenor. She replied, your complaint has been noted we will try to fix it as soon as possible! She is responding quickly and politely last I thank her for her kind behavior. I complained at 10 am and the issue was resolved at 3 pm anyway, thank God, the same signal strength is back, I was irritated in this hot weather with the fluctuations of the signal. In the same way, the electricity followed a special trend in my village, one hour is present and the new hours, we have to face summer hot weather, the area is of the desert sort, although a lot of plantation happens every year still, Heat is on the peak, especially in June, July the hot air put cracks on the face, Ultraviolet A radiations from the sunburn the skin, wrinkling and Tanning on the Skin I severe conditions. I fear to think that my final term exams, will start in July in severely hot weather with indirect interaction with the sun I thought I m used to all this and can handle this situation. Closing thoughts All the thoughts I shared are based on my own experiences, with no intent to promote I wrote what I felt. Thanks! @Shani59 27-4-2022

@Shani59 26 April 2022

Mental blocks I can't do this if I will do that thing this will happen which lead to my insulted in front of people surrounding me. Did you notice that we faced trouble while talking to someone higher than our rank in contrast if we talk to someone below our confidence level of us our tone changed. Why do these things happen? We should be neutral in both ways! I confronted bundles of mental blocks, by my perceptions, probably all the human faces this issue while interacting with others let me give an example! We as a friend in class communicate well, and listen to each other laughter! But if a teacher said to give a presentation in front of the whole, some of us start shivering to listen, even if we prepared the topic well still subconscious mind face problems like, "haaa you to speak in front of the class, everyone will starting at you" These thoughts are so stress-inducing, it's my 7th semester in the university still I faced these issues but now things give me confidence that I completed all such tasks previously and I can do it well based on my experiences but still first few moments, moving from the seat to stage is too much critical for me always, then standing on the stage I can speak more effectively without hesitations. I think everyone who isn't used to these things suffering from such circumstances because it's not easy to manage things as an introvert! An introvert takes things seriously, is soft-hearted, and can break up into tears more quickly. Some people face issues in starting a conversation, for them, it's difficult to break the silence and start a conversation with greetings. Yesterday I was walking on the road when I was returning home from the University, a man was standing on the side of the road, I thought I should interact with him, during all this my subconscious mind was like what if you can't able to say hey clearly! After moving a few steps ahead I thought about how dumb I m how the negative energy of my mind dominating on me. Multiple times I faced such issues in class, I want to ask a question to my teacher and then stopped by manipulation of mental block, everyone will laugh if I can't say it clearly or my question will not be good. On the other hand, many of my fellows whose knowledge base is not for good, but their confidence level is extraordinary, they can say the wrong answer in the class loudly without any hesitation, even if they don't know the answer they interact with the teacher as much as they can which is a good thing, they know how to communicate, in the start, they also not good in communication but they started practicing it will making them perfect with every passing day, a well-told that "the practice leads to perfection" Closing views: What I learned is how to break out of mental blocks" be calm and relax, try to communicate with a stranger daily ask about their life you and get a new experience of how they are trying to spread positive vibes, and the last one, practice, practice and practice! But this should not be the way society is so cruel one should be mentally strong, take things lightly, If someone does bad to you forgot it, and move on, life is so precious don't waste it while responding to every negative comment on your, stay on the track learn innovative things and achieve something worth full. Thanks for reading! 26-4-2022 @Shani59

@Shani59 25 April 2022

In start, they will say u can't do it, later on, they will ask how u did it' Society is full of negative people who are always ready to spread toxic thoughts in a person with whom they interact. One person is already in his/ her critical phase of life suffering from a lot of psychological as well as mental issues, your words can either boost others' confidence or break it into parts. I live in a society where most people are full of toxic thoughts neither they want to achieve something in life nor do they want to see someone do something big, with too much hate and a toxic mindset. Let me tell you my own story, I was a kid in class three and a bright student of family in mathematics and English from standard 1st to standard 3rd, I always got the first position in the class. Then don't know what my Elder siblings and parents thought promoted me to class 5th from class 3rd. The whole school either students or teachers torture me as much as they can, no student wants to be my friend also the teacher beat me more than the other students whether I remember the lesson or not, the whole school looks upon me as a loser or an idiot. This situation broke me many times, I cried multiple times by facing special torture by everyone in school. I told my parents what happened to me in school and ask them to change my institute. Le my Mom: "acha bete 2 saal ki baat h phr tum me high-school promote ho jana" My school was in the village, with only one school for the boy's attitude of teachers toward students was offensive, many of my fellows left school because of toxic behavior from the family and the teachers. Teachers beat students like their slaves on returning home they have to face torture from their parents. Instead of boosting the confidence of students, they degrade them, leaving education to do some other work, you can't do it. Like seriously you are a teacher, you should boost their confidence, you can achieve everything, you are precious to this nation. Naa! Teachers are inserting toxic behavior, by beating them with a stick and making them emotionally discomfort. This sort of behavior only spread hate in students' hearts. I m sharing this it doesn't mean that all of my teachers are similar. Some are the best but a few! I also respect them but sometimes their weird behavior with me hurts! In 8th the final class of my village school, I scored 368/500 marks and I got 2nd position in the school. Let me tell you another interesting fact. Before my scoring second position in the school, every position holder received rewards in previous sessions. But this time I was second no ceremony for the whole school. Multiple times I was sitting in the 5th class, a student arrived and ordered me to go and sit in class 3rd according to the instructions of a teacher (3rd class in-charge). These all situations make me strong internally and I stick to my destination. After receiving the certificate from the school I never back to meet my teachers, no hate for any of them, probably these were the circumstances that were worst for me.b I was getting admission to the 9th standard in a school in the city, my old school teacher was sitting with my new teacher and I was submitting my file to the new sir. My old teacher pointed out, that his parents don't listen to us in 3rd standard he will flop in Matric, told my brother you just wait and watch. These words from my teacher still made me cry sometimes. I got 2nd position in the last standard of your school still you demotivating me. Ahhh! Times passes I met the same teacher at a grocery store, after formal greetings they asked me, where are you now-a-day, and what about your academic records, I told them, sir, once a loser always a loser, I laughed! then I told them that I scored 84% marks in matric and recently my first-year result was announced and I scored 412/505. Sir was shocked, hehehe! I talked about their previous remarks about me, Sir started talking about other students and circumstances. Then I said yes sir! I received many toxic words from the surroundings but I tried to cut them off, avoiding all those people who give negative vibes or demotivate me. If they are closed I tried to interact less I can with them. Closing thoughts Life is crucial, I have some goals, and if I start listening to negative people, I will waste the energy that I want to put on productive things. Words effects, that's why I only want to lesson those who will say yes Zeeshan you can do it, I m already a toxic person who faces psychological issues from my years inside and don't want to fire them up. Lead image from Unsplash.

@Shani59 24 April 2022

Midterm exams are ended I was busy last week with my midterm, Six papers from Monday to Saturday without any break. In the first 2 papers, I was full of energy, and did perfectly in these papers, in the remaining papers, I only wasted my time. Although did well in other exams too, due to the hot weather I can't ideally. Exams stress is enough, I can't sleep properly and can't even cover the syllabus during the night. Fortunately, my 3 papers are the second time around 1:30 pm and we have enough time for the preparation. I used to university on the early route and completed the remaining syllabus there with friends. At home, I tried to read boring slides, but it felt like I m only wasting my time by watching them. So I started writing on paper, the key points that I should memories later on. I wrote on the paper and tried to sleep but the whole night thinking about the next paper, and anxious. For a fourth paper which was at 9 am I ask my Mom to get me up early morning around 5 am so I can memorize the syllabus, she came at 5:15 am and said to me: 'ooth ja jana nhi h tu ny paper h tera' then I got up wearing a dress and shoes and went to stand, waiting for the university bus. The next day same I have to go to university early my mom, arrived and just trying to get me up and I replied instantly: 'jag rha ho bebe uth-ta hon' Seriously I can't even sleep properly and can't cover slides. Strange thing is that half of my exams are the first time and half are the second time at 1:30 pm and 9 am respectively. It was difficult to go early to the university after returning at 6 p.m. to the home. Anyways exams are ended. Yesterday night I slept 10 hours and ask everyone don't interfere when I was sleeping. Again from tomorrow, on on-campus classes for the next final term exams, like seriously, just we completed our exams, already tired mentally, although we haven't studied, the stress of exams is universal. Probably university authorities thought about the Eid, there is a 1-week holiday for the Eid, but still, I m tired, not in the mood of attending classes before the Eid. If situation will be crucial or critical I will attend only two lecture of my favorite Mam during this week, remaining days I will make there on read.cash. It was about I week that I was inactive because of my midterm exams. But now I m back again, One more thing one of our instructors checked our midterm exams within 3-days, and I scored 24/25 in that's subject of organic chemistry. Conclusion: I can't post on read.cash in a recent week because of my midterm exams and I did nicely in the exams, if I would be active on social media I couldn't focus on the one thing that is my career. I m back , will try to read out more articles engage with more people and post regularly! Thanks for your attention !

@Shani59 17 April 2022

Learn to Say No I saw people with soft-heart always being used by the surrounding, people ask them to do something for them, any sort of work, they can't refuse, probably they think it's against their morality. But I believe It is better to say no rather suffering for someone who doesn't care about yourself. It's not an easy task, especially for introverts to refuse someone, they do this task and later on people forget. I was watching a south movie a week ago of Allu Arjun an Indian actor, who was a assistant in a company under his boss. They are informal. meeting regarding their business. His boss was a female who hesitate to say no to that business deal because the opposite client bring her gang with himself, that's way she afraid to talk even. He was trying to respond to her client, but the client continuously forced him to stop talking by saying she can't able to speak, further the client warned her to accept the offer otherwise consequences will be worst. Then the main character, that was Allu Arjun taught him a lesson, If someone doesn't understand your offer and silent it means no, especially if a female is silent, totally no! it only means she doesn't agree with your offer. Nothing is more crucial than your sentiment, you are precious so don't suffer yourself in baseless stress and accept unwanted talks with no logic. We are here in this world with logic to find out the purpose of our life, to do good things for ourselves, our family, society and humanity. Be logical, avoid stress enjoy the world, and don't be suffered after being emotionally influenced by someone. No one care about it. Putting yourself first should be the priority. If yo lost your importance how can you expect someone else to respect your sentiments. Suppose, if you did a task for someone, and the person knows that you are busy and have no time for this still he asked to do it, you should understand on that spot, that person doesn't care about you, be straight forward and told him no, I can't do it because I have my crucial works are pending. It is difficult to say these words but it's better for both. Even if you completed that task then that person's review about you, is useless and doesn't care about own-self. In the future, he will ask you to complete more tasks for him what will you do? at some point, you have to say no to that person. Be careful while choosing people, Because nothing is more important than your happiness. lead image from: Unsplash Thanks for your attention! My mid-term exams are started, today is the first paper of Organic chemistry 1, I get up early 2-am in the morning read some slides lightly go through, the exam will start at 1 pm in the universe and now the 4 am. Pray for me guys. I will be back after a brief break. hehehe!

@Shani59 15 April 2022

Pariwash defeated Sardar's son in shouting competition I m busy in mid-term exams and can't have enough time to scroll social media, as I use! The episode of SinfeAhan was released on Saturday, but I managed to watch it today, The was a shouting competition going on in PMA, Major Usama and Major Saima trained Lady cadets who will compete with GC's in the shooting competition, LC's performed well in the competition but never win. But this time LC Pariwash from Balochistan changed the history. First time is PMA a lady cadet win a best shooter award. They trained well by their palton commander, In first round two LC's and two GC's are participated, but in second round on LC was eliminated at the end of session. In next semi-final round, there there were three GC's and one LC competed, and in finals on LC Pariwash and Sardar's son are the competitors. Both of them belongs from Balochistan province. In first round there is a draw between both of them, again in second round both have same points, but in the third round Pariwash leads by one points and became the first lady cadet to defeat GC's in shooting competition. Sardar's son congrats her: '*Well done LC Pariwash, mujhe dukh ha k apny haraya pr iss baat ki khushi ha k competition jeetny wali Balochistan ki beti ha'* Pariwash and her fellows were so happy for her success, All of these officers appreciated LC pariwash and Major Usama and their palton commander Major Saima who trained LC's. From the childhood, Pariwash was the zest of shooting, in the first episode of the drama, I saw Pariwash was learning shooting in her village, her mother shouted at her what are you doing, only male should use guns, not females! but pariwash father supported her in every field, send her to city the relatives so she can get higher education there in the city by hidding from the eyes of whole village. And she is now captain in the Army. In celebration, PMA gave holidays to the LC's all of them back towards their homes and enjoying vocations with their families and GC's in punishment doing training in the PMA. Sardar's son called his father and told that Pariwash had defeated her in shooting competition, he surprised , Jamal's daughter defeated you but how this could be possible, from the childhood you are playing with expenses toys and she have no such luxuries. His son told, its Army Dad only your talent matters, nothing else. Pariwash was busy in chitchat with her parents and telling them how she defeated Sardar's son. Then a sardar watchman knocked door and told Jamal that Sardar arrived and want to meet you. Jamal went to the Sardar after formal greetings , sardar said he wanna to appreciate Pariwash. They entered home. Sardar congrats Pariwash on winning shooting competition. He said, my son told him how good are you in shooting. He returned Jamal's land documents and also gifted a gun to pariwash. Lead image from: https://twitter.com/edamam_dumpling/status/1512884624871280641?t=kAiM6Hc8s4LE7oiRIPV9Sw&s=19 Ending thoughts: I like this drama because it motivates you to something big in your career not unlike other dramas which are just putting opposite gender love stuff whose result is only self-destruction. Thanks for attention!

@Shani59 12 April 2022

Finally, synthesized Fluorescein yesterday in the Lab I have to perform lab once a week, yesterday, Mam assigned us to synthesize fluorescein from resorcinol and phthalic anhydride. In the last lecture (before the performance) Mam explained the procedure, how to handle samples, amount of chemicals and the method of its preparation. We entered the lab and wear lab coats and gloves, we are actually to boys me and my friends in strength of 22-girls who are studying organic chemistry. The student who performed previous lab, didn't wash the apparatus, firstly we washed the apparatus, which includes, beaker, conical flask, funnel, round bottom flask, spatula and a measuring cylinder of 10 ml, to measure the exact volume of the sample solutions. Then the issue was chemicals, which are in form of crystals and we needed in powdered form for performing the experiment. I asked the lab attendant for a grinder to grind crystals, but no grinder is available in the lab, he give us old mortar & pestle to convert crystals into powder. I bring and wash it for further use. A student weighed 3.5 grams of resorcinol crystals and I converted these crystals into powdered form using mortar and pestle, same way grinded 2.5 grams of phthalic after weighing from the electronic measuring balance. Next step was the preparation of oil bath, using paraphenol, we prepared an oil bath in a beaker. Put it on the hot plate. Then mix both resorcinol and phthalic anhydride in a florence flask, placed it on the oil bath and allow it to heat between 140-180° temperature. In next step we heated Zinc chloride which will use as a catalyst for fluorescein synthesis from phthalic anhydride and resorcinol. Weighed 2.5 grams of zinc chloride and put in a petri dish, heated it, so it can melt using the bunsen burner and tripod stand. After melting Zinc chloride, drop it in a florence flask which is placed on the hot plate for heating after different internals. A further step is to prepare 10% HCl solution volume should be 40ml, so using the measuring cylinder measured 36ml of water added in the beaker of 50 ml, then measured the 4ml of hydrochloric acid and pour in the same beaker, solution prepared. Allowed the temperature of florence flask to drop till 90°, then added chloride with constants stirring after different intervals. premature crystals are start forming. But within seconds sample sticked with the wall. Again we heated it and using the filter paper filtered out crytals. The real method is to filter out when sample solution become cool, but because of sticky property we filtered out early. And finally obtained these crystals. 3.9 grams of flourescein is prepared. The next step was to calculate out yield, which can be done after the lab. This was our last lab before the mid-term exams, See you soon guys after exams!

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@Shani59 10 April 2022

Priorities matter! Not everyone is so busy in his/her work that I can't able to respond evens after days, if all about interest and priorities. Yes, as a student your main intention should be your career, then all other things. I m a student and my mid-term exams are so close starting from the next Monday and I don't know what's the syllabus of the exams, yes I know my focus should be on study right now. But believe me when I get up every morning, I m full of energy and internally I plan that I will start preparing just after drinking that cup of tea, same time I m using mobile phone. The finished, my bad internal power to me: 'acha thuri dair aur mobile use kr le 10 bjy start kro' And I m busy in using mobile phone, I know its harmful what I m doing right now but my habits are distorting me. From last 3-days I m planning to make a schedule set a daily route per subject per day, but successfully wasted this day too. Priorities are social media, spent the day watching the funny or mind freshing short video on Tiktok, YouTube and FB, Our mind is so lazy, always search for the comfort, don't want to burn calories unless and untill you forcefully use it to do something useful. Another, logic that I don't studied in last day is that my head start brusting when I don't understand the theory written in the Slides, literally only increase my headache, when I can't able to locate practical use of that theory. This is how priorities start shifting. Now comes on the relationship side, when someone text us, If we are serious about that person and close to our heart we replied immediately. On the other hand someone I don't like, I replied this type person in free time or sometimes ignore for longer periods. Reason! These sort of people give negative vibes and I m already going through critical situation of my life and can't afford to receive extra mental stress. Life already behaving strangely and I preferred to stay away from those leg pullers. Life is too short to respond people who do wrong to you at some stage of your life, be mature and move on forgive them, be like a candle in the darkness, don't be a star in the sky. Your destination will be on high altitude if your attitude is write in present, past is just to learn lesson not to stick with it, don't think of taking revenge, in future just avoid them talk only in I think that's enough. Lead image from: Unsplash Disclaimer: All the aspects that I shared in my articles is based on my practical life experiences. I have no intention to target anyone, but to improve my own personality fault. Things that I can't share with anybody, I post there so I can analyze my personality guilt and find out way to get ride of them. Thanks for your attention

@Shani59 9 April 2022

Make your decisions own! Multiple times I saw people ask for advice from their seniors/elders on new ideas or before starting a new business extra, but when they failed, they start blaming elders for that specific failure. I well-saying in punjabi language: " Suno sb di kro apni" Means listen to everyone's advice but do what's your own choice. Mostly I observed, people who hate us give wonderful advice because they believe that he is just spending spare time, chit chat with me and will never follow our advice. That's why listen to them carefully, at the end the ultimate decision is yours. Image source: Unsplash Don't be spoon feeder, be a risk taker! Often I saw some people are so conscious about there life, they ask everyone for the advice, like If I have done a my FSC, I asked my teachers what degree should I choose, its fine to ask for advice from elder siblings, parents and teachers they can do proper counseling. But its bad to ask everyone, who even don't know about ABC of the field. So the right person for the advice is important, listen to them, analyze your internal potential,in which subjects you have good command and in what way you can serve, colony, country and the whole humanity. Not let anyone to take your life decision. I seen in my family, some of my cousin who decision always taken by their parents, yes elder suggestions is important, but it doesn't mean that they will start controlling. Don't be a spoon feeder,one should aware of his capabilities. Don't be a follower, be a decision maker, what will happen it will flop. Its okay, got a chance to do that thing in different way. You will be confident for that it's my own decisions. I remembered when I was new in crypto I learned about basic of trading, support, resistance, indicators extra, I started trading, Initially I invested in the doge coin, started with 11$, within two days these 11$, converted to 13$ means 2$ profit, but I was in greed and didn't sold. On that there is hype of doge that It will hit 1$. My portfolio was 40% up and 80% of my funds are in doge, but I haven't sell for sake of more profit than the market crash and I suffered with a huge loss. About 2-years to go still my small portfolio is in -48$ loss, but I have given up, learned many lessons in short span. Two are more effective: 1) Never wait for more and more profit, take entry in parts and take profits in parts too! 2)Always keep 50% of portfolio to do DCA, doesn't matter market crash or pumped. You should have 50% of stable currency in your. These two lessons I learned, by wasting my hard earn money hope so it will helpful for you guys. Also an important thing is knowledge, one should have proper information before entering in new world. Because of lack of experience and knowledge I faced this loss. But I m happy that I learned from these experiences. the need is, not to repeat them. Thanks for reading!

@Shani59 8 April 2022

I wish I could enjoy my college days I was a theta sort of students, who was busy in the study, an introvert student limited friend circle, avoid gathering happy to spend time alone. I remembered the day I was in 9th standard and I have new admission to the school, Very second day of the class I was sitting on a chair, a fellow student watched me as I was alone writing something one the paper, He came towards me and ask informally about my name, where I lived extra. I replied to him without watching him, my tone of voice was also a little bit rude, I said: 'Mera name Zeeshan h aur ma apny ghr se aya' He replied: 'okay okay bhai kaat kiun rha ha!' Sometimes when I thought back to that incident, I laughed so hard that how rude was I. Because of that type of personality, I haven't any best friends till college life ended. I was a bright student in the family who has conceived in his subconscious mind that marks are everything, your only focus on good marks in the exams, then you become famous and people will see you as you have a successful future. So, I started focusing on my study, rather than any other extra curriculum activities. Yes I got good marks in matric and FSC by Rutta power, but I don't know what's the practical use of all these things on which I wasted my golden period. Yes, I remembered the things that I read in the syllabus book, but where is the practical use of these things. I want to perform all things that I learned theoretically. When I looked back at my old qualifications, talking about my degrees only stress levels increased. And when I recall those old fellows there is a precious smile on my face while recalling old memories and sometimes my eyes became wet. The piece of paper i.e our degree will never make us smile but memories do. This is my last year at my university and I want to utilize it in a better way already 2-years wasted in corona, I lost my people during the last two years' short period. Perhaps life is like that at a young age we get many temporary people and loss many of them. No one stays with you it's you and you who are always available for you. Conclusion: Yes marks are important in some aspects in career development, but you will forget good marks in your test that you attempted in the class or the boring lecture you listen which setting unconsciously. sometimes its better to bunk class, for refreshment and enjoy the world, how glamorous it is! Go for outing, spend time with each other. Because these are golden years which will never return. Lead image from Unsplash. **Thanks for your attention!!!**

@Shani59 7 April 2022

Midterm exams about to start The time passes so quickly, we haven't enough time. Let me give my example. It's the last year of my bachelor's degree at my university and felt like just a few months ago I got admission there, half of the degree is gone in the online system of education during the pandemic. Honestly, if someone asks us whether we want to study online or on-campus many students will say, Online is a better choice comparatively. After studying for almost two years online we are addicted to virtual education more than physical mode (it takes more effort, get up early, prepare for university, hectic routine, I will avoid travel in university buses which are full of students and no more space to stand in the bus also suffocation. I experienced all these in this 7th semester, I have to go 3-days university to attend physical classes, Thursday & Friday online and two holidays of weekend. My first lecture on Monday starts at 1 pm. My classes are the second time, in hot weather I move towards and return to the university. The normal temperature in the area during summer is 40°C plus, sometimes even cross 45°. But we have now a habit of living and surviving there. Monday and Wednesday were the two most difficult days, On Monday it was difficult to get up early morning, on Wednesday (the last on-campus day) there was a survival of the fittest for Seats on the bus stand for a seat. Students of my routine have to struggle for seats, the home is 40 kilometers from the university and no one will want to travel by standing. Yesterday, an instuctor told us that the mid-term exams are starting from the 18th of April but last night CR texted in class announcement group that the exam are can start of the 11th of April, so prepare your mind accordingly. But in the morning CR texted again that the exams are starting from the 18th of April. Some CR of the department suggested DSA arrange mid-term exams should arrange after Ramadan, because it's difficult for the students to cover all the syllabus in the hot Summer while keeping a Fast. Some suggested 11th April is also fine to start exams, their point of view was that the teachers in this way can't give more syllabus and its easy for us to cover. Mostly CRs are agreed on the 18th of April, which is the final for the exams. Now, the major task is to do well in the mid-term, I have chosen organic chemistry for my specialization, and the syllabus is huge and piled up. I even don't know the contents of some course codes. These exams are a big challenge for me right now, I have to make a schedule and follow it for the preparation. Teachers are still delivering lectures, todays I attend three online lectures of Organic 1 spectroscopy, Organic 3 alkaloids and organic 2 reactive intermediates. I m surprised to see, what teachers are teaching they are including in the syllabus, instead of making it short they are extending the burden. Anyways, wish me good luck with exams, See you soon guys. Thanks for your attention !!!

@Shani59 6 April 2022

More than 2-year experience in crypto! I m in the crypto world since the start of Corona, all we are quarantined, probably the worst day of my life started. My university closed, economic conditions in the country became worse and the inflation rate was at new heights still the value of the Pakistani currency is decreasing day after day. I was bored at home from attending online classes in which teachers don't know what they are teaching and we can't understand what's the practical use of things that we are learning. I have been passionate to learn and do something innovative. One day I was scrolling social media and knew about decentralized & digital cryptocurrency. It was an unusual term for me. I search more about it, found it interesting but as a newbie, I hesitate to invest in crypto. I have no money to lose or invest in crypto. At that time the important thing is to learn about basics like technical analysis, fundamentals, and factors which are influenced the price of a project and decide its future. I learned all things but I haven't funds to invest. I came to know about noise.cash is a new platform, where good content creators are rewarded with a BitcoinCash. I created an account and started posting and end up on Spam within weeks, but I have a habit of not giving up easily. I created a new account and hadn't made a post for 2-weeks. During this period I only analyze good content creators, learned from them, and begin started posting. I accumulated 10$ within the first month and I was very happy with that, this was my first online earnings. I felt like I m flying in the air. Instead of holding or withdrawing to use that amount, I invested in doge coin, hype was created at that time, I was well aware of its fundamental and supply but the price was continuously pumping so I bought doge of 10$. The price pumped and I was in profit of 3$. But greed, in more and more I waited that it will pump further. I hold it but the market crashed and doge price down 0.29$ from 0.70$. My small portfolio was reduced to half. But I learned a lesson that never I will invest in meme coins with a huge circulating supply. I haven't stopped there, did bundles of experiments. I invested in a site of doge coin multiplier around 100 doge, In which investors can get 25X profit within a day. After My investment, I received my first payment, and within two days website domain was deleted, and lost funds. Again learned a life lesson always choose a fundamentally strong project and I started accumulating bitcoincash from noise.cash posting. And I compiled 0.3BCH. But this time market crashed and my funds are reduced to half when bch down to 400$ from 850$. But the good thing was that before the dump I had withdrawn 20$ worth of BCH to overcome personal needs. Still I m accumulating bch, it's a golden chance to collect bitcoincash through the dip. And also I m thankful to noise.cash and read.cash since I joined both platforms I never ask my parents for pocket money. I bought a new mobile through bch that I gathered while posting on read.cash and noise.cash. Last month was the marriage of my sister, I withdraw 15000 Rs of bch and did my shopping through it. Also bought a pair of shoes for my father which is the biggest happiness for me till now. Also, I m holding 0.25 BCH in a bitcoin.com wallet which I planned to hold for two years almost. Thanks for reading!!!