@Seri 26 December 2020

being alone is a need

I need to be alone. I need to stay alone for a while to understand myself. I want to go home separately. I want to stay alone and learn about life. I want to go out in the evening and spend time with my friends. I want to discard my responsibilities and learn about my own responsibilities. Sometimes I find it difficult to look at a lot of people. I help my father, I do housework, I care for children, I take care of our animals, I cook every day. I am really tired. A side, I throw the strength to prepare for the university exam, but I am so tired and fall asleep immediately. My head is about to explode On the one hand, my mother is making a noise, on the other hand I am about to cry from the sound of television and anger. I'm trying to write an article, I can't get my sentences together. If I'm alone I can open a song and write your articles, but it's not possible. I don't have money to go home separately. Corona doesn't allow this anyway. I'm writing here because it feels like therapy to me. Like diary. It has been a long time since I came to the current situation. I get very angry and shut myself in any room and cry. This is definitely the activity I will do in a moment. It would be fine if I was with a hoarse song, a few drinks and my computer. The first thing I will do in the future will be to go home separately. The people I talk about say you're looking for an escape from home, but they don't have any of my responsibilities. I don't want to run away from home. I want to have my own responsibilities. I want to be hungry when necessary, but I just want to stand up. Only I can take care of myself in my life. I will support myself. They don't try to understand me a little. Now I'll tell you what I want to be. "I'm at my own home. I open my song and I'm cooking. I'm listening to nostalgic songs again. I'm telling on the one hand. I have cooked my meal and I will set the table right that the door is knocking. I open the door. My friends are standing in front of me. Bags in their hands. I invite you inside. We eat together. Then we put on our pajamas and sing together. We drink and sing until the morning. We talk and have fun. " I want and need such an activity very much. I know we are all overwhelmed at home. But I have many, many responsibilities. Nobody understands. Except for my best friend. While I was telling my dream, I lived in a moment. I'm going a little bit aplamaua now. I love you all. I wish you a good