Just Go Away

I remember that day you said, "I wish you would just go away" I knew inside that contacting you any further was impossible. I just don't understand what I did that was so awful. We share a child together, how could you want me gone? It's difficult to communicate with you because you think I still love you. Well the truth is, I do. The thing I don't understand though is how is it so obvious? The only way I can get closer to our child is to make you think I don't love you, it's a mind game. It's a mind game that I have to play now that is frustrating and has put a large burden on my life.