Love
"Love is not desire. It is a great thing to find out this for oneself. And if love is not desire then what is love? Love is not mere attachment to your baby, love is not attachment in any form; love is not jealousy, ambition, fulfilment or becoming; love is not desire or pleasure. The fulfilment of desire, which is pleasure, is not love. So I have found out what love is. It is none of these things. Have I understood these elements and am I free of them? Or I just say, ‘I understand intellectually, I understand verbally, but help me to go deeper’? I can’t; you have to do it yourself."
*Krishnamurti in Saanen 1979, Discussion*
Goodevening loves!
Spoken poetry?
Di ko alam anong nagyayare sakin?
Bakit pakiramdam ko palagi nagiisa ako at walang nagmamalasakit?
Bakit lagi kong nararamdaman ang sakit?
Ang mga patak ng luha sa pisngi ay mainit
Samantalang ang katawa'y nanginginig sa lamig.
Lamig na nagpapatunay ng pagkukulang,
Sa pagkataong ni minsan ay di napupunan.
Tila isang butas na nauuhaw, sa tulong at atensyon nino man.
Hindi ko alam ang mararamdaman
Masakit ang puso at isipan.
Ang makitang isa isa kayong lumilisan,
Unti unting nagpapagunaw sa mundong minsan ninyong inilawan.
Bakit kayo umaalis?
Bakit hindi ninyo punan ang kulang sa akin?
Hindi ba ko karadapat dapat sa init?
Nilalamig ako, natatakot at nanginginig.
Habang tanaw ko ang inyong likurang unti unti naglalaho.
Ang inyong mga tawang umaalingawngaw sa paligid.
Ansaya ninyong tignan, nakakainggit
Habang ako'y nandito, iniwan ninyong luhaan at durog.
Sinalikop ko ang nanginginig na kamat bago itinupi ng mga tuhod
Hinayaang tumulo ang luha at madurog ang puso at isip
Ang mga kaibigan ko, pinaramdam mismo sa akin ang sakit
Have a good day everyone! Keep smiling and shining! ❤
As if time had stopped, I was in love with you and I wanted you
Love is feeling – the moment I first saw you –
Tulong (A short poem)
*I wrote this poem a year ago I guess. The moment I got broken by my ex, when I saw him with a girl happily laughing acting so carefree*.
Mapapaisip at mapapatanong sa sarili
Bakit tila ang mundo'y nakakabingi?
Nakakalunod, ako'y naghihingalo
Walang handang tumulong na kahit Sino,
Nais ko lamang ako'y maunawaan
Pagmamahal saki'y iparamdam
Kayo'y magkaron ng pakialam
Iparamdam na ako'y kabilang,
Kailangan ko ng tulong,
Ayokong malugmok sa kalungkutan
Binabalot ako ng kadiliman
Na maaaring akin na ring katapusan.
*Btw just wanna share it coz actually I've moved on already.*
It's hard to act like I don't think about you sometimes
I think I can win an Oscar.
Raining
I remember that day, it was raining as my eyes do the same. The day when my bright days turns dark with crying clouds above.
I remember how you watch me crying without any emotion. I was like stuck in nowhere without those bright orbs.
I remember the first day I got to see your eyes. Your lips smiling, eyes shinning brightly as you looked at me with so much love and passion. I remember how you told me that our love will never come to on end. But somehow, are love really endless?
It was raining, when I looked at you while eyes are crying. You seemed not to be affected by the tears, no, not anymore. You were my knight, my shoulder and my strength. But somehow, you are a kryptonite that makes me weak at every lenght.
'I'm sorry, love isn't really endless' those words came fron your mouth, without any doubt. You watch me cry, waiting for my words too, but I kept silent as I stare at you.
You sighed, and then smiled a bit. Those smiles, doesn't even reach the eyes. What happened? I asked the sky silently as it keep on raining.
With words of nothing, you turned your back and started walking. While I was left under the rain, watching you slowly fading.
I smiled bitterly at the rain, love isn't endless, because it's always fading.
What do you feel now that it is raining?☔
A poem I wrote for someone
I will take care and love you
Accept your all without any doubt,
Will hug and kiss you
Clean up the mess and wounds caused by the past
I will make you my King even though I'm no Queen.
Will write you poems and sing you a song even though I'm not in tune.
I will be there in your ups and downs.
A shoulder you can cry on and lean at your worst.
I will protect you and fight for you.
Despite how hard the battle will be,
I won't give up on you.
I will stay still standing on grounds.
Over our fights and misunderstanding
Leaving will never be included in the choices.
I will take all your fears away,
Cause I won't let you alone.
Smile now my beast I will love you,
despite how monstrous you can be.
Cheer up my beast and wipe the tears away from your cheeks.
Take my hand now,
I won't let you walk alone in this cruel world.
Let us color it together with our smiles.
Laugh with me
We'll get through this,
We'll be there.
Let's take it slow
I'd always be here by your side.
Look at me brown eye
And see the soul in my eyes,
See the burning desires of having you in my life.
Life in Bullets : Chapter 1
**"Frost turn left."**
Tumango ako ng marinig ang boses ni Third sa earpiece. Lumakad ako ng walang ingay habang nakatutok ang baril sa harapan. Handa sa kung ano man ang maaring makita o makasalubong.
**"Speed where are you?"**
Tanong ko sa earpiece ng tumigil ako saglet upang pakiramdaman ang paligid, bago tumingin pintong nasa dulo ng hallway.
**"Wait lang- TANGINA YUNG MUKHA KO PUTA!"**
Natawa ako ng marinig ang boses nya. Iniwanan ko kase sya sa ibaba upang habulin ang pinaka pakay namin. Malay ko bang madami palang kalaban don.
**"I'm going in"**
Sabi ko sa at saka naglakad papunta sa pinto at dali daling sinipa iyon.
Halata ang gulat sa mga tao sa loob. Two men are wearing suits at may hawak itong mga baril at sa likod ay ang pakay ko.
**"Hell-o Senator Chavez"**
I greeted him with my sweetest smile.
**"S-sino ka?"**
Tanong nya at nabakas ang takot sa boses neto. Naglakad ako palapit sa kanya habang di alintana ang mga baril na nakatutok sakin.
**"Ako? I am your nightmare Senator"**
I saw his shocked face and I smirked at him.
**"P-p-patayin niyo ang b-b-babaeng yan!"**
Sigaw nya sa mga tauhan at mabilis na nagpaputok ng baril ang mga ito. Dahil mabilis ang reflexes ko ay tumakbo ako at tumalon sa likod ng sofa sa loob ng opisina nya.
They continued firing as if di sila takot maubusan ng bala. I hold my gun firmly and stood up just to shoot the two asshole trying to kill me.
Inikot ko ang baril at pinatamaan ang kamay ng dalawang lalaki. Dumaing ang mga ito sa sakit.
I shifted my gaze to the Senator.
**"Btch. You don't fucking know me"**
I smirked at him and pointed my gun on his head.
**"As much as I wanted to kill you"**
I said before I looked down on his guards who are crying in pain as their hands are covered with blood.
**"I'm not yet finished"**
And in just a swift nasa harap na ko ng unang lalaki at dali daling itinutok ang baril sa ulo nito.
Kinalabit ko ang gatilyo at pinasabog ang kanyang bungo.
I took the daggers in my legs and throw it on the door way.
**"Araaaaay!"**
Dinig kong sigaw ni Senator, I looked at the door and see him standing facing the door.
Nakatayo ito at tila na stuck dahil sa kutsilyong nakatusok sa suot nyang coat. Aww. Ang mamahaling coat.
Samantala ang isa nyang alalay na kaninang nagiiiyak sa kamay neto at nakabulagta na sa sahig at may kutsilyo sa ulo.
Damn. Asintado padin ako.
**"Frost, bilis gutom na ko"**
Narinig kong boses ni Hawk sa earpiece kaya't napatawa ako ng mahina.
**"As if may magagawa ka no"**
Sagot ko dito. Napatingin ang Senator sakin na parang isa akong baliw na may kausap sa hangin.
**"Hey Senator!"**
Tawag ko sa kanya at nagmadaling tumakbo palapit dito.
**"Tell me, sino ang head ng sindikatong ito?"**
Daretsong tanong ko sa kanya bago itutok ang baril sa kanyang sintido.
**"H-h-hindi ko k-kilala"**
Pautal utal nyang sagot.
**"Eeeenk! Wrong answer!"**
Sagot ko at nginitian sa kanya ng pagkatamis tamis bago ipinutok ang baril.
Tumalsik ang dugo nya sa aking mukha dahil sa lapit ko sa kanya.
**"Yuck! fvck it"**
Nandidiring pinunasan ko ito bago lumabas ng opisina.
UMUPO ako sa sofa at hinubad ang gloves na suot ko, kasunod kong umupo si Speed na may maliit na pasa sa mukha.
I looked at him and grinned.
**"Seriously? You got hit ?"**
I asked and he just glared at me. Hahahahaha. This asshole is really hard to get hit. Especially if pipitsugi lang ang kalaban. Pero may tama sya at mukhang galit na galit sya dahil don.
**"Yeah. Thanks to you na hinahanap ako"**
I just smiled at him to teased him more.
**"Mission Accomplished. Nasa account na natin ang pera."**
Napatingin kaming lahat kay Third na may hawak na kape sa kanang kamay at ang isa netong kamay ay nagtitipa sa keyboard ng laptop nya.
**"Yown pahinga na!"**
Sigaw naman ni Hawk.
We all remained silent and just take our rest. Ganto kami magpahinga, mauupo at tatahimik.
How many years have we been doing this?
Hindi namin alam, all we know is we received mails from someone and that emails keep telling us to do this sht and then once we finished it. Money will be transferred to our account.
The team has been together for years but no one knows who kept sending those mails.
Hindi man namin alam ay ginagawa padin naman namin ang mga utos nya. Marahil dahil nadin sa takot.
It all started when I was at my 19th year of age. Iyon din ang taon kung saan ang grupo naming apat ang kinilala bilang pinaka malakas na Gang sa Battle Grounds.
Battle Grounds is a place where in only the bravest can enter. Hindi makakapasok dito ang duwag. Dahil kapag pumasok ka dito ay kamatayan na ang kahaharapin mo. Makikipaglaban ka sa kung sino sino, maaaring ikaw lang o isang buong grupo.
Nang mabuo ang grupo naming apat ay napagdesisyunan naming sumali sa mga ganto. Marahil sa tawag ng laman. Pakiramdam namin ay kailangan namin ilabas ang mga bagay na ito. Hinahanap ng katawan namin ang sakit. And our brains keep on telling us that we want to see blood and we want to hurt. Coz if we don't, kami ang masasaktan.
We were formed because of our similarities.
There are marks on my nape. Marks na mukhang tusok ng mga karayom. Hindi ko alam o hindi namin alam pano namin to nakuha. Pero pare pareho kaming mayroon neto.
We wanted to know how and why do we have this shts. Is this the reason why we have this abilities? Why our bodies have high pain tolerance? Higher than what we would expect to normal people.
I took a deep breathe before looking at them whose for sure thinking the same things as me.
I gazed at Third who's now sitting in front of his laptop.
Third he is our tracker, our tracer. He got it as his codename for he is like our third eye. Nakikita nya ang hindi namin nakikita kapag nasa mission kami.
Then I looked at Hawk, he is our sniper, our long ranged fighter. He is good at guns, he has our birds eye sight.
And then to Speed, closed range fighter like me. Mabilis ito kumilos kaya't tinawag syang speed.
Napangiti ako.
And I myself.
I am Frost, closed range fighter but also a long ranged one. I am the only girl amongst them.
I am Winter.
Winter Skaie Salvador.
Life in Bullets : Introducing Diable
*Diabl*e, an organization that is powerful, much powerful than the government. They have created and helped the government in the world of science and they are known to be the best organization that is consist of scientists.
They've been trusted and love by people for their great deeds. But little did they know, this organization is doing terrible things to people.
They took different kids and experimented them for money, for power, and the government can't do anything about it.
But the very first experiment failed, and starting that day, *Diabl*e scientists and members are nowhere to be found. The organization is was wrecked, when the government decided to fight. They ruined the *Diable.*
The government felt at peace, but little did they know, the battle isn't over.
The real battle against the *Diable* is just about to begin.
Life in Bullets : Description
JACKS a fearless gang that's been the most strongest in the Battle Grounds. They are feared by other gangs and people who know them. Because of the abilities each members have, their abilities is far to different from what normal people has.
And when the moment they had been known as the strongest gang. They started receiving mails that seems to be missions for them to do.
Will this missions help them know who they are?
Will this missions help them know what happened to them?
Will they be able to answer their questions?
@Rui
