Single? Nah it's Freedom!

2016, today is in 2021 so I am single for 5 years now. I can't believe I've been single for a long time now. Before, I really can't take being single. I never run out of text mate, and always want to be in a relationship. I always want to feel love, to have someone who will care for me. Before just a simple question like if I already eat na will make me feel the most important woman in the whole word.

I always wants to get an attention and love, care to my Mom but I don't get it with them, I don't feel the care and love because of her strictness. That's why I have a lot of textmate because with them, I can easily get it and feel it. To them I can feel the comfort that I never felt to my own family. They become my constant comforter in the time where I feel so lost. I got a lot of ex's and then the boyfriends I had in my College days.

I cant remember the exact time that me and my last boyfriend broke up, but it was also year 2016. My love for him just vanished and so I give him a reason to broke up with me. I want him to broke up with me first, because if I'm the one who'll broke with him he won't free me.

After a very long fighting and nagging he finally agree to break up. After him and just a month after it, I got myself again a boyfriend. He ask me if it's okay to court me but because I also like him, I didn't let him and just said yes to him that very day. In my mind, what's the use of courting when in the end you will just broke up. You spend more time in courting but and then broke up after just a month lol.

After that 2 break ups, I didn't entertain a new relationship. I don't want to and after a year of being single I found peace. And whenever I feel like someone is about to ask me about you know, I will make them feel how happy I am being in single status to shoo them away. Having crushes is more that enough for me so I don't need a man even right now.

Being single is my choice, I want to remain single for more years. I won't deny that my past relationship made me so happy too but being single is on different level. I had a lot of kilig moment with my ex's but being single it's like I was freed after a long time of strangulation. I don't know why I feel that way, but I feel like I achieved the Freedom that I been longing.

Do I sound like a bad man? After I enjoy those moments with my ex's and I will say this, if it's you what would you feel? But I'm just being honest, that's what I really feel right now. I'm seeing relationship as a cage that will stop me from doing what I want, from being free and I don't think I can stick into one man. I'm a free woman hiding in a mask, you won't see the real me unless I reveal it.

I don't know if I will ever be ready building my own family. I don't want a big responsibility on my shoulder, I just want a normal life, no commitment and no arguments.

Anyway, this is just me right now speaking. Maybe this will change when the right time comes, I don't know but whatever this life may bring to me, I will just go with the flow and do nothing, stay still self.

This Is What I'm Saying 😎, Hi Freedom!!

My topic in the past few days are sooo, am I being sentimental or what or maybe because it's 2021 and my age will increase again 🤔, but whatever!

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She is very much available so, 😉💪.

Hi to My Single Sisters out there 😉😎😜

February 15, 2021 Monday

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