Scared to Death
A hot afternoon my lovelies, even though it's 3pm here I can still the shining shimmering splendid heat of Mr. Sunny. Well, this affects my mood. Today is the day that I await where we could finally set a schedule for our wedding but unfortunately it didn't happen. Since the Mayor is not yet taking his oath taking and it was moved this June 16. Actually that's the day that we planned to get married but it won't happen. I don't know if the wedding will happen or if we have to wait for next month. We choose to do it in civil as we are in a hurry, we never expect that it will be too late. If we only knew this would happen, we decided to do it in the church in the first place. Gez! I always go back and forth to the city hall but they always respond that "The mayor is not taking his oath or the mayor is busy". That made me even more exhausted. Knowing that I have to travel in the hot weather. Thinking about it made me stressed, as when there's a schedule it has to be 1 week before we know since some of my family and his family are needed to file a leave. Getting married wasn't easy lol.
`Enough with this, let's move on to the prompt that was initiated by` @JonicaBradley `about fear. Without further ado let's start`.
*Do you fear something? An animal may be? Fear of heights? Afraid of the dark? Well, whether we like it or not we have something that we are frightened of.*
**Fear of being left behind**
This is not being successful what I mean. This is about being left by the person I love the most. I've been experiencing a lot of heartbreaks way back then, not just once, twice, thrice but a lot more. I'm afraid that I'm the reason why people leave me even though I already show them the real me, or is that the reason? I'm far from perfect, I have flaws, mistakes and insecurities, they have too but I stay. No matter how much I see the worst in them I never them but when they see mine, that's when it ends. Thinking about it made me realize, if I am the mistake? Am I? I guess I'm not. Until now, I'm always afraid that my partner will leave me, not because I don't trust him but because I don't trust people around him. Betrayal, traitor and temptation will always be there. As of today, I still have this little feeling but since my partner always shows me how much he loves me then I'll settle for it. Love, trust, compromise.
**Fear of leaving nothing**
This might seem complicated, but I am afraid to die without doing anything. Without pursuing my dreams, without a legacy or even just a lesson that I can leave to my parents or even to the community. I may not have everything but I wanted to have something that people can remember me when I'm gone. I don't want to be no one else or worse people will forget me as I do nothing.
**Fear of being a failure**
I know I'm alone who feels this. The pressure of this thinking that I might be a failure as a daughter, students, partner and soon to be a mother. I'm frightened to know the truth that I am just a disappointment. Just a woman who doesn't achieve anything in life, a woman who is just nothing compared to others and me as a woman who ain't perfect and will never be.
I'm not afraid to die, I'm afraid that I can't live something. I'm not afraid to give everything but I'm afraid to be left hanging again. I'm not afraid to try but I'm afraid to always fail. Life is indeed a matter of surprise, whether we like it or not unexpected events will happen.
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Is it better to forget the past?
Happy Sunday my lovelies! Does this day make you productive or the other way around? Well, in my case hmff let's just say the opposite lol. All I did was scroll up and down with my tiktok account, visit here in read.cash and publish an article. I hope I can do something productive later in the afternoon as I need to do something, hopefully it will happen. Today, I came across the article of @Olasquare and decided to share my answer as well. Let's get ahead and start.
**From your childhood, are there experiences that stand out?**
Yes, I can say that my life as a kid is not perfect yet I enjoy every little moment. From the school where I can do my part as a student, did the practice for the competition and even being on top, to the house where I can play and did my part as a daughter. Lucky that I don't have that much responsibility before just washing the dishes co'z my older sister almost did everything. Up to being a girl. I already share with you the moment that happened between me and my crush when he slipped in the chair and kissed me directly, unintentionally. It looks like I'm living my kid "love" life in Wattpad stories(I just realized it earlier lol). I still remember how he trapped me in the corner so I couldn't get out, and I vividly remember how I slapped and crawled under him so I could escape hahaha. That moment was fun yet I'm frightened. C'mon even though I have a crush on him I won't let him do what he wants. I'm not that easy-girl, no kidding.
**Do you have a favourite holiday and why?**
Christmas is indeed my favourite holiday, aside from the present and decorations I also love the moment that we are together. The memory and even giving gifts. I also love the feeling of seeing how beautiful the Christmas light is. The freezing weather and most importantly the food (food is life). When it's Christmas, the month seems to be exciting.
**Have you ever encountered food that was hard to swallow but you didn’t want to offend someone?**
Yes, that happened when I was working in my employer's house. Since my female boss loves cooking, she did some recipes and noted they are vegan. It's my first time to taste that kind of food and I don't like it. It's gross and I can't explain the taste. I don't want to offend anyone so I just taste and swallow it though I want to throw up and you know what's worse is that I have to act like I love the food. It's not being plastic, it's showing respect. Not just once, twice or thrice but a lot more as I also need to train my stomach to eat that kind of food.
**How does “knowing too much” benefit or harm you?**
Knowing one person is okay and we can actually benefit it especially when it comes to our partner. As when they lie we already know they lie since we know everything about them. When they do something even though they haven't told us yet we seem to have this intuition. But actually that would harm and hurt us as well. Knowing the painful truth will never be good.
**Is it better to forget the past?**
Moving on is better as that would serve as our experience and a lesson. We just can't forget the past who taught us to be like what we are now. As long as we are never stuck in the past and we build new memories then that would be better.
**What are the three best things about you? Advertise yourself in the best three ways.**
****Good adviser****. As I said I am good at giving advice but can't do it myself. I love giving solutions to their problems that might be about love or life.
****Kind****. If I have something to give I'll surely help you. I may not have everything but I can share what I only have. I'm not a selfish person.
****Understanding****. In every situation I can understand anyone's feelings.
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Health over Money?
It's hot on my side my lovelies! As I published yesterday I was stating my feelings toward the school that I was in. Since I have to do things related to my application for graduation, I traveled yesterday just so I am done with it knowing that they set a fast deadline. Luckily, my sister accompanied me. Today, I am in my partner's house and will stay here for 3 days and be back in my province since I will continue my preparation for our upcoming wedding. Gez! It's exhausting. Nevertheless, I saw this from our dear Usagi, 1 week ago if I'm not mistaken.
**City or countryside?**
I know I'm not alone who doesn't like living in the city aside from the different weather, it is expensive as well. All foods are needed to buy, unlike in the province where some are provided if you love planting fruits and vegetables. Though opportunity can be seen a lot in the city yet I would rather choose to stay in the province.
**Good health or lots of money?**
What's the purpose of having a lot of money when the health isn't stable at all. I may not be rich nor wealthy but at least I have good health. This is what I always pray everyday not just for myself but for my family as well. Money can be found everywhere as long as we are hardworking but a healthy body is rare to find.
**Live with your parents or grandparents?**
I haven't tried living with my grandparents, on my father's side they died early so I haven't seen them not once. On my mother's side, her real mom died when they were kids, so her father had another woman in life and still died. What I only have now is my grandfather who got ill as well. Living with my parents will always be my choice as they are the one who raise me as I am and I want to make sure that I can take good care of them. It's nothing wrong if you choose to live with your grandparents co'z we have different stories to tell. Different experiences and different choices.
**Club or house party?**
Haven't gone to a club nor a house party but with this one I guess I would go for the club. At least for once I can be there, drink some tequila or any alcoholic or girls drink.
**Swimming or yoga?**
Since I don't know how to swim so maybe I'll choose yoga, it relaxes my chaotic mind. To have myself-time and be just mentally and spiritually healthy. But that should be in a peaceful place so I could concentrate.
**Free plane rides or free Uber rides?**
Haven't tried riding a plane but that would be better if it's free lol. I guess the fare is expensive.
**Cleaning or cooking?**
I can do the cleaning and cooking hahaha. I wanted to do both, but I want to make sure that I am alone doing these things as I don't want any distraction or worse I have to do it all over again.
**Good at sports or music?**
I'm not that sporty person nor a music one. I don't have a good voice but I love music. I can also play some sports such as badminton. So maybe, sports will be my choice.
**Late by an hour or early by 30 minutes?**
Since I don't like to be late, it's always better to arrive early. I don't want anyone to wait for me and it's better if I'm the one who waits for them.
**Noise.cash or Read.cash?**
I'm not in noise.cash and haven't experienced or explored that app or link so I would be loyal to this platform knowing that I am a 6 months user here.
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They are only after the money
A productive Friday my lovelies, who would have thought that this day will be like this as it's not what I planned. Yes, unplanned trips or things really happen when we least expect it. But still happy since after this one I don't have to worry about going back and forth to the school (hopefully). To be honest I really hate going to my school just to fill out a form or worse just to sign a paper.
I am here telling you guys the truth of what I noticed about the school that I was into. Before I was happy to choose this kind of school since this is where my older sister came from, and thus I already have the uniform and it fits me so I don't have to worry about it. Besides, the school doesn't have that much tuition unlike the other schools. Since I have high grades way back in high school so I got a full scholarship and don't need to pay even a single penny. Even if I wanted to go to another school I would also give consideration to the scholarship as I am sure that not all opportunities are given in the different schools so I stay and stick to my school. Things went well, until my grades became low and thus I have to pay instead of 100-100% (tuition and miscellaneous) I got 100-75% until what I left now is 100-25%. Though my grades got low I am still grateful as I only pay not more than $140 so it's not that huge compared to other students. I was even blessed when I got the other scholarship in our city. Every semester I got $100 and got $200 yearly so I still have my pocket money. Lucky that I passed the exam and comply with all the requirements.
But it doesn't end here, as Covid hit the entire Philippines every school us affected and so do us. That's when online classes happen, since I'm not used to it so I really have to explore or ask things. I learn how to truly use my phone from gmail, classroom up to the other apps that would be important in meeting virtually. It was okay if I only have the WiFi and our place had a signal, but that's not the case, my place doesn't have any, if I wanted to join the class then I need to have a load but even if I did the signal won't cooperate as I needed to travel for almost 1km to reach the place. Since I don't like the set up I choose to go to the city and continue my study there. I'm still lucky at that time since my partner always helps me when I don't have any money for my load. From then to now.
As we seem to be back to normal our school doesn't have any plans. Yes, they don't have any plans when it comes to our face-to-face graduation. We already raised this concern, all 4rth year joined together but guess what? Nothing happened. They don't really care. Well, I feel this way and I'm sure I'm not alone. As a graduating student all I ever wanted is to march and wear a black toga. But phew! We can't do it. It may be bad to say this but "I hate my school". I hate how they treat us and what's worse they are just after the money. Why do I said so if I'm a scholar? Yes, I am but there are still things I needed to pay that were out for my tuition and you know what's even worse, they don't give any receipts related to what I pay. They always ask for money without telling us what it's for. They even don't talk to us to have a meeting so that we are aware and we can raise our concerns and questions. We chatted with them, but they didn't respond at all. Not seen. But when it comes to payment, they are always in a hurry, they always set a fast deadline but when we need to process some things in the school they always tell us to come back again. They are too slow in releasing what we need but they are too fast when it comes to money and / payment. I sometimes REGRET for being there, poor quality service.
`Am I that bad student for thinking about it? Well, even if I am, the truth must be told. I hate being in the school that never hears and cares about our concerns.`
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I'm Done!!
There are times that we wish for things to happen, where we feel that we deserve and that makes us happy. That's when imagination pooped, an escape from the sad reality and a place where we can be what we ever wanted. Imagination that made us strong in the sense that this seems to be our basis. But things won't just phew! there it is, co'z after all we have to work for it night and day. We have to put some effort, passion and love towards it so we can see any progress. Today, I decided to write this article as I read this one and just like anyone else I also love to be the one who finishes sentences. Let's get ahead and start.
**I always carry** ****phone**** **in my bag**
The phone is now my twin lol. I can't leave the house without my phone in my bag, along with the wallet, IDs and money. I don't care if I can't bring any lipstick or perfume while going out as I'll use it before going. I mean c'mon I don't want to just miss things that's why I always have my phone, taking pictures is a must as it seems to be my memory. When I'm bored or out of the world as well my phone would be a great help. Most importantly I wanted to be updated especially when it comes to my class as I don't want to be absent. Ow, my calls and messages matter to me the most.
**I wish I could** ****teleport****
This seems to be a joke but trust me it's not. I really wanted to go from one place to another. To go where no one knows I exist, a place that I can find peace. A place where nature is with me. I wanted to just snap then boom I am now in Switzerland, from there to another country. From the land to the sea or even to the clouds ahhhhh. I just wanted to travel where it doesn't need to take too much time, effort and money. Where the fare is free and where I can do it back and forth.
**Sometimes I** ****imagined****
As I said this is my escape from cruel reality, where I can have what I don't and where I am happy. I didn't say I am not, it's just that I love to imagine.
**I'd eat** ****chocolate**** **everyday if I could**
C'mon I am a chocolate lover and I would love to eat that everyday but if only I could hahaha. Well, aside from not having too much money to spend for it I also tried to not intake too much as it's not good for my health.
**A talent I have** ****is good in giving advice****
I know I'm not alone when it comes to this, yes I consider this as a talent. I am fond of giving advice especially when it comes to love and life. I wanted to share my thoughts and any possible solutions for such problems. I wanted to help even though I can't do it myself.
**Everyone says I** ****smart****
I don't know why they always told me that I am smart co'z I can't see nor feel it. I am not an intelligent person and I'm not knowledgeable hahahahaha.
**Today I will** ****try to not pressure myself****
I hope I won't fail in doing this. It's been awhile since I keep pushing myself to the limit where all I want is to cry and cry until there's no tears coming out. I try hard to make things perfect but you know what I realized? That it's not actually necessary to stress myself out as long as I already did everything.
**A talent I wish I had** ****would be self-defense skills.****
When I was a kid I always wanted to learn to protect myself and my loved one. I wanted to know how to use some techniques co'z we don't know what danger is coming.
**Currently I am** ****busy****
This is true, I am too busy yet I spend some time here. I am busy preparing for my upcoming wedding and to do this and that. I'm busy wondering as well. Just purely busy.
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Do Ghosts Exist?
A hot Wednesday my lovelies, yes our side here is too hot where I don't even want to go outside and be exposed by the shining shimmering splendid heat of Mr. Sunny. Nevertheless, let's talk about superstition today. Let's get ahead and start.
**Are you superstitious? If so, give examples. If not, explain why.**
Am I? I can't say I am into believing superstition and not. I believe that if someone goes to the burial, he/she should change the clothes she was wearing. That she would also need to walk in the ash before entering the house. Most importantly she shouldn't bring any food that was offered in the burial. I'm more into that, but in some other cases I don't believe it.
**Who's the most superstitious person you know? Talk about him or her.**
Among all the most superstitious people I ever know is my grandfather, he believes everything that was said. C'mon we all know that usually older people believe it too much as they are used to and even experience it.
**Have you ever visited a fortune teller? What did he or she predict?**
I actually plan to visit as I wanted to know things about my life. But then, I realized that I don't need it in the first place. I don't want to depend on what he/she's going to predict. I don't want to just simply believe in it. I want to do things on my own, to achieve my dreams and go the path I wanted and I feel I will be successful. I don't want to know what will come next, co'z that wouldn't be a surprise. I may not be prepared but at least I don't expect too much. So I haven't experienced visiting a fortune teller.
**What's your star sign? How many zodiac signs do you know?**
I am a Capricorn, and I'm not bragging but I guess I know all of the zodiac signs as in my family we are different when it comes to it. Earth sign indeed, that's maybe the reason why I love nature lol.
**Do you read the horoscope? Do you believe in it? Has it ever come true?**
Before I did read, but now nope I'm not into. I don't want to know things that possibly happen to me, I want surprises and if bad things happen then let it be co'z that's my fate and that's how God writes my story. I don't know if it came true co'z I don't want to expect anything from it.
**Which sign of the Chinese zodiac were you born under? How many do you know?**
If I'm not mistaken I am a rabbit, my mother and I are the same. I can't say I know it all co'z I guess I already forgot some.
**Do you believe in astrology? What are lucky and unlucky numbers?**
Did I? Even myself doesn't know if I truly believe it or not in astrology, where stars and planets can be connected.
**Have you ever eaten in a Chinese restaurant? Did you get a fortune cookie?**
Nope, and I haven't trieda fortune cookie. But I already tasted some of their food especially when I was working way back then but I haven't tried going to their restaurant.
**Do you believe in ghosts? Have you ever seen one? Talk about it.**
I do believe in ghosts co'z my mother and sister can see them and I see them once. I believe that they exist, good and bad. The one who needs help and the one who will hurt. Maybe some said only being alive can cause danger but trust me, dead people can also do that. I already shared here about how and when I see it. That's when our mother asked us to buy some food in the afternoon, but since the store in our place at that time was too far so we had to cross the quiet, tall bushes and needed to cross the river just to get there. Upon reaching our school where we need to pass by, from afar we saw a lot of students (we thought) playing hide and seek. They are all wearing white so we assume that they are our schoolmates but when we reach where they are playing everyone is gone as in totally gone. No more loud noises and no one was there. With that we almost walk and run just to get out of the school. But we still decided to use the same way to get back home but this time my sister saw a dwarf and a head of a horse (no body) and what's worse is a green one. Even after how many times she pointed those things to me I can't see anything. I guess she had the ability to see most of them.
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White Dress (Graduation)
Happy Tuesday my lovelies, today is my niece's graduation but due to the implemented regulations they weren't able to march on stage. What they can do is just take a picture while receiving the certificate. It's better if they actually experience the feeling when going up on the stage to receive an award. But since we have to follow the rules, we can't do anything about it. Besides, I also enjoyed taking pictures (I guess that's my role earlier lol). We also choose different spots, from outside the Barangay Hall to inside and even to the venue of the pictorial for graduation. It didn't take long, as there's no other ganap up there. There is also one of the parents who gives some snacks to the kids and even to the parents. After that, we decided to go home and rest.
I still remember when I was in kindergarten, where my mother was busy doing my hair and make up. She wakes up early since we are tres marias, and what's worse is we have long and thick hair. But still she manages it though there are times that she gets mad. Having these kinds of events can be considered exhausting.
**Hair**
Having long or even curly hair made it difficult for the mother to do such a thing. Some choose to just simply make a ponytail, but in our case we would love to tie everything then put some flowerite to look cute on it and we are used to having it especially during graduation. Put an oil and pin to make it perfect, not messy.
**Make up**
For the kids,make up is just a choice especially when the kids want it. I mean we all know that makeup isn't good for their skin but since it happens rarely so grab the opportunity, right? For my niece I choose to put a light eyeshadow and blush on her (note I really don't know how to do it). I also add some glitters in her eyeshadow and even in the cheeks to look cute. Adding the matte dark chestnut lipstick. Even though I'm not good at doing it , it actually suits her well.
**Dress**
It is common that during graduation, white dress should be. Since we went to the city last time, my sister already brought white dress and sandals for her. Well, what's worse is that when we find such a dress and are exhausted roaming around and end up too far away just to have what we want.
**Sandal**
White dress is perfect paired with white sandals as well. There were sales when we bought it so we were lucky. We actually like the other designs but there's no smaller size of it, knowing that my niece is just 26-27 shoe sizes. So we just choose the design that's available and would suit her that time.
**Food**
Of course, this wouldn't be absent after the graduation, food is a must ahahah. We usually prepared simple food such as lechon manok, lumpia, spaghetti, lucky we have any additional for it. Before, my mother did everything alone, from cooking to shopping.
*Being a parent isn't easy and will never be. Hopefully, teens and kids nowadays understand the difficulties of parents and will help them in any way they can. To all parents out there, thank you for molding and helping us grow. To the teenager, please love your parents before it's too late, shower them with the things they need. Spoil them if you can and always be thankful and show gratitude to them. You matter to them and they should too.*
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My Life Had Been Nothing, But a Failure
Another week, another journey to start or continue, that's how life works. It's either we decided to take the new path or simply follow what we started. Life is indeed a ferris wheel. It's always ups and down; there's no other way. Sometimes we see life as unfair but is it? We see some who are successful at the same age as we are, people who already achieved their dreams early, people who already have everything they wanted in life. But here we are, still striving but sometimes see life as failure. Are we? The words below are the best teachers in life and gotta admit.
**Betrayal**
Have you been betrayed by your friends, family or worse your loved ones? Well, I did experience this. Betrayal is when I let people come to my life hoping that he will help me throughout but he did the opposite. When I needed him in the most difficult times but he wasn't there, I couldn't see or feel his presence. Betrayal when what all I need is him to be my number one fan and supporter yet he isn't. I feel betrayed when he leaves me hanging, he doesn't even tell me the reason, what's worse is I feel obliged to say sorry thinking I was the mistake.
**Failure**
I guess some or all of us already experienced being a failure. When our simple plan didn't happen or if it is then it's not what we planned. When we already did everything but no response at all. When we feel that we are unworthy co'z it's always failure after failure and disappointment after disappointment.
**Empty pockets**
Well, this is actually worse when I don't have anything even a cent. I experienced this when I didn't have money left and needed to pay for the fare. That's when I can see who among my friends will help me and luckily I have. I actually thickened my face that time for her to lend me, so I could have some. She helps me throughout my difficult moments and when it's my turn to pay back I make sure that I'll help her anyway I can.
**Time**
Does anyone feel that the time is way too fast? Where it seems that we are in a hurry, where we did everything but seem to have a short time doing things. I actually experience it as a student, when I feel that the deadline is fast approaching, I need to cope up with the other subjects until no more strength is left, until what in my mind is pressure.
**Heartbreak**
When it comes to love this is the best teacher ever. We feel pain when we love the person who has betrayed us the most. When all we did is support and love that person yet he will leave you hanging. When you think he is the one, but you are mistaken. When you feel that he will hold your hand during that catastrophe but he leaves you. When he lets you watch the sunset alone and just lets you wonder what you did wrong. When he didn't ask you how you are nor care for you. See? Heartbreak really teaches and changes a person.
**Mistakes**
We all made mistakes, that taught us an important lesson for not doing it again. A mistake that sometimes changes us as a person, how we think and how we act toward things. A mistake that sometimes we think that shouldn't exist.
**Rejections**
This might be about work, love or life. When we do what we have to do but still hear the negative response. When all we want is good results yet life isn't good for us. Rejections that mostly lower our self-esteem and can be considered as weakness.
**Experiences**
Experience is the best teacher, ika nga. After all I experienced all I can say it's worth it. I cried a lot, I sobbed until my eyes and voice got tired. I was even planning to quit my own life so I could escape from this cruel reality. I've been depressed thinking I was a failure. I've been living a life in the dark but gotta say everything is worthwhile. My experience taught me and I can use this not as my weakness but my strength. From then on, I realized that my life wasn't a failure. I may not be successful yet but I will be not now but sooner. Almost there.
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Money Stolen?
A rainy Sunday my lovelies! Yes, it rained here and I love the cold freezing weather. This is perfect with a hot coffee and a pair of bread. Looking at the big raindrops falling from the roof. Yie this is kinda a perfect day. Nevertheless, I saw this question from one of the writers here and got the chance to give my answer too as it talks about money. Without further ado, let's start.
**Do you have a job? Is it full-time or part-time? Do you make a lot of money?**
Well, I can call this platform my job and basically this is just a part-time job. For now, I don't have any permanent work co'z my partner won't allow me. But I'm still grateful that at least I have an income here, though it's not a big amount. I don't make a lot of money, there are times that it's too short for my everyday expenses.
**How do you usually pay when you go shopping?**
I love shopping, either in groceries or personal use. I pay it through cash as I don't have any card to swipe on lol. But if I have I would also prefer a debit card so I don't have to worry about having a credit hehehe.
**What was the thing you bought? Where did you buy it? Talk about it.**
Hmmf the last thing I brought is a 15 meters white plain cloth, a flower, a balloon and a lot more. That would be used for my upcoming wedding. Design is a must. I just bought it in the city since it's not that expensive compared to here in the province.
**Have you ever had any money stolen from you? If so, how did it happen?**
It's been a long time since my money was stolen, that's when I was still in high school. Leaving my bags with all the things inside is a bad choice. When I got back inside the room, I expected that the money was gone. Ow, before I forget, can I consider this stolen when the market turns red? Co'z trust me my money had been stolen due to the low value of the currency. Gez, hopefully it will fly high to the moon.
**How much pocket money do your parents give you? How do you spend it?**
I don't ask money from my parents, as I'm the one who gives them if I have some extra. I mean this platform helps a lot and thus I can provide my needs as well. Besides, my partner also helps me so I don't really need to ask or even to accept my parents' money. Not because I have this called "ego" but because I have my own. I don't want them to spend money for me, I'm already an adult and I guess it's time to pay back. But before they gave me money when there were face-to-face classes, they sometimes gave me 5,000 ($100) for my fare, food and other things I needed to pay. When it comes to my school fees, I don't ask for them since I am a scholar and I can use that money to pay my tuition.
**What's the most you have ever spent on a gift? What was it? Who was it for?**
I can spend $100 for a gift, especially when it comes to my family. I love buying gifts for them. A necklace, sexy tops, dresses or anything that they can use. I also love spoiling my niece when it comes to toys and books. Ow, my partner loves doing that too, he sometimes spends his money to buy gifts for my niece or even with my parents.
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Do you have any kinks?
A cold Saturday my lovelies, next week I don't know if I can visit you here everyday but I'll do my best. This month must be my productive month as I have to. This month will be my wedding, I need to have more time for the preparation and to process this and that. I never thought this would be tiring lol! But I know it would be worth the effort. Nevertheless, since I can't think of any topic right now, let me just answer these questions which I saw from one of the best writers here.
**What animal do you think you're most like?**
I guess I'm more like a dog not just because I am a dog lover but because some traits are the same. I am too close to the people who were there for me, the ones who love me and protect me. I can also do the same, show affection and make sure I can protect my loved one. They can go near me unless we aren't strangers co'z if we are then you will surely stay away from me, I might not bark nor bite I'll just simply look at you lol.
**What is your favorite fruit?**
I have a lot of favorite fruits, it can be the cotton fruit (santol), mango, strawberry, and a lot more. Among all, I also dislike fruit the most and that is Marang, even the smell can make me throw up. Gez! Its smell is gross and disgusting. I don't even want to go near it.
**What color is the most of your wardrobe**?
My wardrobe seems to be a rainbow, as I have all the colors but I guess most I would be peach and black as that is my favourite color. The color also fits with my skin colour. I'm really girly, I do love wearing pink and a dress when I get adult I'm into black as well ahahahha.
**Favorite fictional character.**
If it's about a movie then I don't know who, I'm not into that. But if I am based on the fictional Wattpad stories then I love the character of the Possessive Series Wife. The attitude, personality, challenges and how they handle seems to be perfect. Though, challenges is there yet they cope it up and now living the best out of their life
**Do you take a lot of naps?**
Even if I wanted to, my parents won't allow me to always sleep. So I guess I'm not into taking naps anymore, but there are still instances that I instantly sleep though I'm just scrolling up and down on my phone.
**How tall are you?**
C'mon do I have to answer this one? ahhaah. I'm not tall ok, I'm just the size of 15 years old and a high school one. I'm just 4'9 but people seem to doubt if I tell them I'm 22.
**What did you dress up as for halloween this year?**
It's not November yet, and besides we don't usually celebrate it nor dress up when it's halloween.
**Do you have any kinks?**
To be honest I even search what kinks mean hahaha. Upon knowing, I guess I don't have any kinks just the usual one, the usual woman did and the nature of woman. I'm not into using things, haven't tried it.
`Assessing what I like and dislike seems to know my personality more. How I am behind these nicknames. Anyway, my apologies if I'll be busy and can't visit any of your articles. As I have to make my events my priority for now. If I have time then I'll get the chance to be here. Hopefully, y'all understand.`
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Dear Younger Self
Happy Friday my lovelies, I hope you are all doing great as you are. Today, I practiced to continue my self-care as well as I chose to wake up early and do random things, especially roaming around to inhale the fresh air coming from nature. I just let my mind and soul at bay. So what I’m going to write is a positive journal prompt which will surely help me lift my mood up. Let’s get ahead and start.
**What do you think about when you let your mind wander?**
Sitting alone and looking far away makes my mind focus and thus I usually think about my future. Not just about my career but as well as my upcoming wedding and soon to be Mrs. I wonder how I am as a wife and as a mother. How can I handle pressure and what would I do? Mostly, negativity hits me but I will really try hard to be the best.
**What is your biggest motivation for getting up in the morning?**
My biggest motivation would be myself, I know I can lean on with my family but I wanted to be responsible and do the things I have to do. Another day means another blessing for me to start or continue. I have my plans and it will surely motivate me to wake up everyday.
**If you could go back in time and relive one experience or moment, what would it be?**
If I could turn back time, then I would love to experience being a child again, where all I did was play, have fun and just genuinely laugh.
**Describe three things you love about yourself.**
I’m not perfect nor strong but I have this things I love about my self;
**Courage**, I always say I wanted to give up, I wanted to end my life as I can’t do it. But look how far I go, until now I’m still working on my dreams, I still continue and fight every trial that comes my way.
**Fighting Spirit**, I don’t let anyone just simply stab me at my back. I have this attitude of always fighting and standing my ground. I’m not naughty nor bad, let’s just say I have this character to fight back. C’mon I’m not stupid to not know. If you do the first move then just wait for mine lol. I’m a good woman if you are too.
**Confidence**, when it comes to beauty I lose it hahaha. A confidence in not just how I dress up or speak up but how I act as well.
**What are you most proud of, big or small?**
Can I say both, I can be proud of every little accomplishment I had, how about having the big one. I am proud that I see any progress.
**If you could do one thing without worrying about the cost or practicality, what would it be?**
Spending my money on everything I want. Get fancy and branded things, go out and eat expensive food and just simply hang out. No need to think of tomorrow.
**Write an encouraging letter to your young self.**
*Dear younger self,*
*How are you right now? I hope you are totally okay. Life is tough but always remember to find the courage to stand no matter how hard life throws you. If you are tired then rest my dear, cry if you want then after that laban ulit. I know you can do that, I know how strong you are but you never see it. I know you are brave. Look how far you go my dear, you are almost in the finish line. Don’t stop and if you need help just sleep and you will dreamed about me. I love you and we will help each other until we can call be “SUCCESSFUL”.*
*Yours truly*
**What do you wish someone would tell you right now**?
I wish someone would say, “You can make it”.
**Describe one place you have always wanted to travel to.**
I always wanted to go to the place where I can be with nature, the sound of the water coming from the spring, the peaceful place and a new country for me and that would be Switzerland.
**How would you want to be described to a stranger?**
I don’t want them to describe me as an innocent and shy person, maybe the opposite will do hahaha. A strict woman can do it.
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Mini Pamper
Happy busy Thursday my lovelies, I hope you are all too, kidding. Anyway, I woke up late as my partner and I traveled back to my province at midnight as it’s his available time. Even though I already told him that I can manage myself and thus he doesn’t need to bring me home, he insists. Our place is way too far and it really takes effort to drive a motorcycle knowing that it’s gonna be a humpy bumpy road lol. I am lucky to have him as he never leaves me and always makes sure that I come home safe and sound. Nevertheless, let’s move on to the topic that I’m going to write about, as I also need to assess if I already took care of myself or not. Without further ado, let’s start.
**Did I practice self-care today?**
Do I? Upon realising how my day went, I can say yes I did.
**Describe your favourite self-care activity in a gif.**
If I have this favourite self-care everyday that would be a hug. When I hug him it seems that I forget everything that’s happening in my life, those pressures and stress especially in my upcoming event. When he hugged me it made me comfortable and safe. It always reminds me that no matter what, he will be there for me. Mostly, I’m into emotional care co’z if my mental health is stable and healthy then I am too.
**How many cups of water did you drink today?**
Since I’ve already experienced how painful UTI is, I always drink no less than 8 glasses per day. Besides, I badly need to take good care of myself even more.
**Ate three main meals**
As I get older, I am now fond of eating, there are times that I won’t just eat 3 times a day but more than that excluding some merienda and snacks. When I am in the province I don’t need to spend more money as it is sometimes available in the backyard. My breakfast, lunch and dinner are commonly healthy when I’m in my house as my mother always cooked vegetables. But when I’m in the city it’s mostly gonna be readymade or canned foods.
**Took some time off social media**
When I am done publishing and reading 20 articles and I don’t have anything to do with my studies then I always give myself some time to take off. I also notice that some are now toxic and unreliable which I really don’t like. I am also now trying to unfriend and unfollow those people who are literally toxic that usually ruin my mind and mood. I am now trying to find those creators who can lift my mood or just those who aren’t toxic.
**Spent some time outside**
What I mean with this one is outside the house. When I am in the province I usually stay in the sway under the tree. In that way I can think properly adding the music that would give me a good vibes.
**Had a mini pamper**
Nature, it is where I can find my peace. The green scenery, fascinating view and just simply appreciating its beauty. Fresh air and how the branches and leaves dance with its own rhythm made me relax and happy. When the heavy feelings become light by just being one with nature. I also love roaming around and just simply find any fruits that I would love to eat.
`How about you, do you practice self-care today? If not, when is it going to start? Always remember that we only live once and thus we have to take good care of our body. Just rest for a while.`
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The Jar
Who would have thought that time flies this fast. It’s now June which means my upcoming wedding is approaching. Yiee I’m excited to be his lawful wife, to stay with him in sickness and in health. To love him every single day. Mixed emotions indeed. Nevertheless, I came across this article and decided to share my insecurities as well. I don’t have the perfect features as most women have lol. Without further ado, let’s start.
**Nose**
This is my main insecurities as I’m not gifted. I don’t have the pointy nose that some had. I feel jealous for those who had a perfect nose. My grandfather actually had the most pointed one, however, I didn’t get the chance to inherit it hahaha (Bawi na lang siguro next life lol!)
**Teeth**
My teeth aren't perfect at all and it will cost too much before I can consider it as beautiful. I mean I got a space between my teeth and what’s worse is that I got a cracked one in front as it is due to my love of chocolate. I am fond of eating it without giving consideration to the consequences and now here it is. I plan to have my teeth taken care of by the dentist but I don’t have enough savings for now and I didn’t set this as my priority.
**Chest**
I don’t have the big boobs lol, what I only had is just neutral. I sometimes feel envy to those who had the huge cup of bra and got a cleavage hahaha. But of course since I do the para-paraan then I used some push up bra.
**Height**
Speaking of this one, I am short as I inherited this from my mother. I’m just 4’11 which some people mistake as a high school student without knowing that I'm graduating from college. Not just once, twice or thrice where some ask if I’m only 15 years old. C’mon I’m 22, what the hahahaha. Though it hurts, char ahahah I just laugh in response.
**Side view (face)**
Since I don’t have a pointy nose then obviously my sideview isn’t good. My nose seems to have no bridge but I got a pointed tip. Well, this is possible, maybe just some nose exercise will work but since I’m tired to do so then accept it is way better.
**Skin**
My insecurities are my face skin, I mean I already have a white skin but I don’t have the clear and glassy one. I got some pimples on my face and sometimes there are pimples that occur at my back. It’s actually irritating and I don’t know what to do. I already did everything I can, I’m not a messy person, I always prioritize my health especially having the skin care. However, it doesn’t work.
*I may have insecurities but I am proud to say that there is something in my features that I am proud of. I have this long straight hair and I don’t need to worry about having a rebond as I don’t need it. I had this brown argentine eye that seems to be my partner’s favourite. I got thick and black eyelashes and eyebrows which don't need to use some mascara or even draw my brows. Maybe time will come in how or when I’m going to work on my insecurities but I’ll make sure that I won’t change what God gave me. I am complete and able, so I guess that would be enough reason for now. If I can’t have the perfect body then I’ll work on my personality and attitude, in that way I can make the bawi-bawi. So it’s gonna be fair lol.*
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Can you marry your friend's ex?
Another busy Tuesday of mine my lovelies. Today, I have to go to some important appointment but I can't spill the tea for now lol! Yesterday, I came across the article of our very own @Gianna-B and decided to answer the questions as it seems to be related to marriage. Let's get ahead and start.
**Can you continue your relationship with someone that slept with your best friend?**
That actually depends on what's going on. I mean I'm not that praning to just mumble. If he sleeps and nothing happens then I will continue my relationship. Why not right? I know my man will never do such an act but in different cases if something happens between the two then I will not think twice and choose to stop what we have. I'm done being martyr, stupid and just don't care what's going on. I will surely get mad at the two knowing that he already has me and to the best friend who seems to stab my back.
**Can you get married to someone you are not compatible with medically?**
What does this mean? Is it about not being able to produce a child? If that's the case then I just can't say no nor yes. I mean I'm okay with adoption or what as long as he will be faithful and would love the children.
**Can you marry an abusive partner?**
I'm not dumb nor stupid to just marry a person whom I know will abuse me mentally, physically and emotionally. I don't want to be in a situation where I just let him hit me with his own hands or even just simply yell at me. I can't marry a person who acts like I'm just nothing to him. I don't want to tie up with a person who doesn't seem to love me co'z the real man and the real love will never let his partner get hurt.
**Can you marry someone with no source of income?**
Having the money isn't just the basis of getting married. I mean maybe some but in my case if he doesn't have the income then I'll help him find one. But if this means marrying an irresponsible person then I would say "I can't marry such a person".
**Have you ever fallen in love with someone at first sight?**
Does it mean having slow motion while looking at that person? Well, I haven't experienced it but when it comes to think that I guess I fall for him by just looking how gorgeous and hot he is then yes.
**Can you ever imagine yourselves in an homosexual relationship?**
To be honest I'm a pure woman who didn't get attracted to the same gender as mine. I may appreciate the beauty that a woman has but I'm not the kind who really falls for it. I never imagined and I will not try to imagine being in a relationship with a woman. I'm not judging here, I understand and respect the people who love the same gender as they had. It's their choice after all. Just let them be happy.
**Can you marry your friend's ex?**
When I was in high school, we had this thing of never saying yes to our exes. I actually wanted to say it depends on the situation but I realized that when I have my friend's ex then there will be instances that the two will come back without my permission. I don't want betrayal, so no I won't marry my friend's ex.
**Are you currently in a relationship?**
I am in a serious relationship and we are now getting into the next level. Sooner or later. I'm happy, content and blessed to meet someone who has never cheated once in life. I am proud to say that I found a man that understands and loves me more than anything else.
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Cheating Will Never Be Right
Love isn’t based on how many butterfly your stomach had (or if there is at all). Love shouldn’t based how beautiful and handsome the person is nor the way they dress. Love shouldn’t about just money and expensive things. Sometimes love is all about who stays with you during your ups and down. Who holds your hand when you sail in the wild ocean. Who sit beside you watching how beautiful the sunset is and wishing to have you in his arm when the another day come. It may not be always happiness nor fun co’z true love will experience catastrophe and there’s someone who never behind.
I have this question, **“Why do people tend to cheat? Is it because of lust or love?**
Temptation is always there and it’s up to us if we allow it to destroy what we have or just choose to ignore. You might hear a lot of news about breaking up that includes third parties. That information always leaves me hanging. Why do they do such a thing? When in the first place they already have that special one (or do they really feel that way?). I’m not judging here nor hitting someone, it's just that I want to know the truth. How about you, have you ever cheated? What if it feels like to say “I love you” to your special someone yet you have a side chick/dude? Have you tried looking in his/her eyes and thinking of what you did? Do you regret it?
The more questions, the more it intrigue the whole out of me. Some says, men (not all) find another woman just because of lust, is it enough reason for them to do so? They also said that when a woman cheat they are finding the love that their partners didn’t give. Is it? Really? Different person, different reason but whatever it is, cheating will never be right. You might do that just because you wanted your partners attention or simply wanted a revenge. But bare in mind that the sin he/she did will never be heal by another sin. If a person always choose to be faithful then maybe just maybe we can’t experience how painful it is to be cheated. I just can’t understand why they have to choose this new person over the person they knew for how many years. I don’t understand why they have to do it mutinous, if they don’t already have the feeling why not tell the other one so he/she won’t expect more from you. I don’t understand how brave they are facing their partner while giving some motives to another party. I just simply don’t understand why cheat? Why they have to and does it make you a man/woman? Let’s say, you can be the center of your friends topic, then of course you act like you are proud and this circle of friends just allow you to do so. Then I’ll tell you, you are in the wrong place or you are wrong in everything. That doesn’t give you more that a real man/women have. That’s actually made you less. You should be ashamed not proud. You should be regretting not laughing.
`If bad karma hits you then all I can say is “Good for you”(TAGAM!), you deserve it. Just a piece of advice if you do the cheating thing and you never change, “Wait for your turn then you can feel what you did to them”.`
*Anyway, when it comes to cheating I feel like I indeed relate to it. If you asked me if I ever cheated? Then I’ll tell you prankly, no and I never will. I have been cheated and I already experienced how traumatic it is, I don’t want someone to experience what I experienced. Besides, it’s not me nor my type*.
How about you, would you dare committing such an act when you already know the consequence? Does it make you happy?
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How was your Mental Health?
Happy Sunday everyone, I'm pretty sure y'all take this time as a rest day. I know life is tough right now but we should always give ourselves some time to rest. Mental health should be our priority, besides this is not a contest nor a race, just step one at a time then everything will follow. We shouldn't push ourselves to the limit. So, today I came across this article and decided to choose my bingo card for my mental health.Now, let's get ahead and start.
**Spend time in nature**
Based on my name here, it's obvious that I'm fond of nature, where I can see how green it is, the fresh air and just simply how fascinating nature is. When my mind seems to be in chaos I always find a place where I am one with nature, where I just sit there and watch how the branches sway their own rhythm.
**Take a break from technology**
When I feel that technology seems to be toxic then I choose to just give myself a rest for any apps as I know this would greatly help my mental health. Besides, I also noticed that most of the information wasn't reliable enough and thus I guess it's a good choice.
**Declutter one space**
When I take a break I also choose to declutter things especially in our bedroom. I do general cleaning to just divert my attention, and of course when I see how clean and shiny it is then that would remove my stress. But of course I only do that when I'm alone as I don't want someone to disturb me while I'm cleaning.
**Free space**
I guess I really need a space for everything, where I can just let my thoughts fly and let it be carried by the wind.
**Deep breathing**
Deep breathing is always a great and better choice to release all what we feel inside.
**Watch a movie or TV Show**
Best leisure time as well, when I am in the city we sometimes give ourselves (my partner and I) to spend our time watching Netflix when we don't have anything to do. In this way we can share our problems and thus he can help me and so do I. It is also our way to understand each other even more.
**Play a game with friends**
Can I change this friend as my partner? I mean we do play in our leisure time especially when we are too stressed about what is happening and what is gonna happen. When we play we seem to kill time and just enjoy the moment we have. We actually live playing mobile legends either 1vs.1 or with a group. To be honest I'm not that good but I can play. When I play it makes me happy and it's just giving me pure happiness where at least for a minute or hour I don't think about problems, just me taking care of my mental health.
**Keep a consistent sleep schedule**
As I always said, I do love sleeping and having the proper time schedule is what usually I do not unless I have to do some errands. I do sometimes sleep at 8 pm , maybe too early but when I don't have to, then why not sleep early, right? So I could wake up and take a bath early as well. At least in the morning I'm done with the things I have to do.
`Due to the busyness we encounter we sometimes forget our mental health as we seem to have a deadline for everything. Where we forget how to enjoy life. Again, we have to put our mental health as our priority.`
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What is that one topic you can keep on talking about?
Happy weekends my dear lovelies, today is Saturday which means this is gonna be a rest day for everyone. Well hopefully, I mean I’m sure there are some of you who still work as you need to, but don’t always forget to just give yourself a little time to chill, relax and unwind for once. Your health should be your priority. Anyway, today I will be going back to Davao as I have important matters to attend in the next few days. But this time my older sister and my niece will be going with me since my ate decided to buy some graduation dress for her daughter as it is approaching. To be honest it’s my niece's first time in Davao as my sister tried to stay away from the toxic city but this time is a little different. Hopefully, they will enjoy roaming around. For the continuation of my article yesterday, here it is.
**What is something that makes you forget about everything?**
Can I consider this something as sleeping? I mean this is where I can forget everything. A time where I am free and no problems at all. Living my imagination and other life, where it seems to be a fantasy but when I wake up that’s when reality slaps me. This is it, whatever I do I have to deal with it, it’s like I don’t have a choice.
**What is a minor change that will have a major impact in your life?**
The one that most impacted one’s life is our mindset. If I can change mine then I know it has major results. The way I think, I act toward things and the way I handle situations. It is always about how we think either positively or the other way around.
**What would you do even at free of cost?**
I already did, for me the most important thing that I did is to love someone. It’s free to be honest, but it’s always up to the person to take a risk co’z in my case, I did. I take a risk even though there’s no assurance at first but look at me now, I’m going to get married next month.
**When do you feel confidence surging inside you?**
When I feel beautiful, I mean I’m not that confident but there are still instances that I feel I’m beautiful especially when my partner appreciates and compliments me.
**What is common in the compliments you get?**
Some of them tell me “I’m smart” but trust me I’m not hahaha I even don’t know where they get that.
**What is something that excites you but you are afraid to do?**
Traveling, I do love going to the different places where I can see nature, however, I am afraid of the possible danger we might encounter, especially that we are riding a motorcycle. I’m afraid for our safety.
**Who are your role models?**
My role model is those women who already have everything but they don’t have anything before. Those who strive hard in life no matter what other people say.
**What would you do differently if you had to start over your life?**
Maybe that is striving hard in school. I wanted to keep my scholarship in college where I don’t need to pay every penny, I wanted to have a 100-100% scholarship but now I only have 100-25% and need to pay the remaining. But of course I am grateful.
**What is that one topic you can keep on talking about?**
Am I bad if I always talk about different women in front of my partner? I will keep on teasing him about it hahaha no hard feelings I just wanted to see how he turns red not because he fell for her, it’s just he’s uncomfortable and mad ahahahah.
**Which day wasn’t some special day but was most memorable?**
Just a normal day when I am with my family and someone special. Just the usual but we still shared laughter.
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A Gift from the Senator
Good evening my lovelies! If you notice I’m inactive yesterday as I am exhausted from doing things in preparation for my upcoming wedding. We also work for the marriage license so we could finally set the date for when it should be. Today is a different level as I have to be at our Barangay gym for the financial help of our very own “Senator Bong Go”. To be honest, as he speaks he is a very sincere person who’s willing to help. He prepared a lot of games with prizes as well as a gift and I’m lucky to receive it. I received a phone from him but to the raffle I’m not lucky to be called lol. As I write this one, I’m still at the place in order for me to receive the money hehehe. Nevertheless, since I don’t have any main topic I tried to continue this question and answer. So let's get ahead and start.
**What did you love to do as a child?**
Way back then, I did love playing, who wouldn’t? All I have to think about is fun, play and just pure happiness. No need to think of others aside from school. I do love playing with my sisters, running around the ground and never care if we get scolded or not lol.
**What would you love to do on a daily basis?**
I love eating and sleeping hehehe. To be honest, as I get older it seems that my likes change too. I’m not a foodie before but now, c’mon I always feel hungry and crave some foods. That's why instead of savings, it all goes to food hahahahaha. When it comes to sleeping, I always love this, as this is my escape to reality, where imagination and fantasy occur, where I am not where I am today. Personality changes.
**What is something you feel like you are suppressing for others?**
To be honest I don’t suppress others.
**When you procrastinate, what do you do instead?**
When I procrastinate it doesn’t mean I won’t try again, it’s just that I’m resting.
**What new skills do you want to learn?**
I always wanted to know self defense, not just the basics but the whole totally. I wanted to protect myself and my family from the different dangers that will come around. I like to know how to use tools and equipment or even just without it. I will do karate as long as I can protect my loved ones.
**What are you really good at?**
I’m not sure but I guess I’m good at giving advice, especially about love. I’m not a love guro but I just feel like I can relate to them co’z sometimes experience teaches me too.
**What kind of legacy do you want to leave behind?**
I’m not a famous nor a wealthy person but if I have to leave something behind maybe that is a lesson. A life and love lesson.
**How do you spend your time?**
Spending time with my loved ones is the best, giving them time and of course just talking random things.
**What do you think you are born for?**
I guess I was born to be true, I maybe don’t have what others have but I’m blessed and grateful. I’m not perfect yet I’m happy to say I am always true and real.
**Who do you envy the most?**
I just can’t pinpoint a person but I can’t deny that I also have insecurities especially about how successful such a person is. I sometimes feel disappointed co’z some women my age are now living their life to the fullest, enjoying things and can buy what they want but here I am not successful and that disappoints me.
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A Ring
A great day to start with a hot coffee and a biscuit under the gloomy weather. Today, my awra seems to be a little happy and positive despite all the difficulties I've been dealing with these past few days. I mean I still have the courage to do things and look at it positively. How y'all my lovelies? I hope you are all doing well. I'm trying to avoid stress so I will just continue the questions that I've published yesterday. Let's get ahead and start.
**My favourite part in the evening**
When the dark comes, what I'm always looking forward to is to sleep. That's my favourite part so I could just lay my body down the bed, think and just simply fall asleep. I wanted to just at least escape the reality, pressure, stress, failure, disappointment and a lot of negativity. When I sleep I can't think of any of it as just me having another life in my dreams. But there are still instances where my dreams became my nightmare.
**My guilty pleasure**
I live going to the mall, where I can eat and play hehehe. It made me pleased but it made me feel guilty as well, especially because my boyfriend won't allow me to spend my money. He always treats me wherever I like to, so I guess I already have this thick face of mine lol.
**One good thing that happened today**
Aside from experiencing another life, it is a good thing that we have food on the table. It's just simple yet it satisfies us. That we don't have to ease our growling stomach and I guess that's already a good thing for me.
**How I show gratitude for my friends**
Saying thank you isn't difficult to say, especially when that person helps me a lot. Not just with my friends, strangers or even a vendor I do always say thank you to them co'z I know hearing that word means a lot. But for now, it's been a long time since I last met my friends as we are busy with our different lives so we don't have time to meet each other.
**Something I love about my family member**
Sweet and caring, they always think of me whenever I'm away, even my tita. They always ask me if I am okay or not, or when I will be going home.
**Something positive about my body**
I don't have the perfect body, but I have this long straight hair, thick eyelashes and eyebrows (no need to put anything on it). Got this petite body that doesn't need to do exercise (maybe just add more curve). I'm proud of what I have physically.
**A challenge I'm grateful for**
Whenever there's a challenge that comes my way I am always grateful about it, it might sometimes make me feel disappointed but it made me strong. I can't come this way without the trials.
**A compliment that made me feel good**
"You are beautiful", this made my self-esteem rise to the moon, no kidding. My partner told me that word yesterday, when I tease him he always says "Pasalamat ka, gwapa ka". There are times I can't appreciate myself but I'm grateful to have him who always boosts my confidence.
**The best gift I've ever received**
Can't spill the tea for now, but I always have the best family and special one.
**The item I treasure most**
The ring that he gave me, I never pull this out of my finger as I know he will get mad whenever he sees I'm not wearing it. I treasure this the most co'z he gave this to me as he meant to love me forever. This is not an engagement nor a wedding ring.
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A Hidden Blessing
*A gloomy Tuesday my lovelies, it seems that the weather told me to just sleep and stay inside my room lol! But this time I didn't listen as again I have to process the needed documents for the wedding as well as the souvenirs. To be honest this is my first time trying to process some requirements co'z I don't do it hehehe. We are now almost in our most awaited moment in life. Hopefully things work well. Nevertheless, I dropped into an article last time (but forgot whom) so I just saved the photo so I can use it when I don't have anything to write. So here I am, giving my answer to the questions.*
**A person I'm glad to have in my life**
I am always glad, blessed and grateful with my family. Aside from them, I am also glad to have him, my future husband. Things are tough yet he never left me nor hurt me. We might fight but still choose to fix because that's how love works. If it can be fixed, why not right? C'mon we can't see nor experience how beautiful being in love is, unless we try it.
**Something I find comfort in**
Whenever I feel unusual I always love to eat. I don't know but this time I used to eat a lot, no kidding. I'm fond of eating whatever it is, especially when I feel stressed, maybe I become a stress eater lol..
**My favourite part in the morning**
Aside from seeing the morning light, my most favourite is waking up beside the person I love. Looking how peaceful his sleep is, hearing his breathing and fantasizing about him hahahaha. The way he hugged me really hit me differently.
**My favourite memory**
My favourite memory is when I was a kid. When all I have to think about is school and play, no responsibility and no pain. Just me being kids, having fun. Pure happiness, pure and genuine laugh not the fake that I used to do now.
**An accomplishment I'm proud of**
I haven't graduated from college yet but I'm already proud of it. Not everyone has been given the chance to go to school, not everyone can provide it, so whatever it is I am always proud that I made it and I'm almost there.
**A hidden blessing in a difficult situation**
I can't say it's a thing but whenever I am in my darkest moment in life I always get this hidden blessing, courage. I always have the courage to do things right, to work for it and be better. I always see light when the darkest cover the whole me.
**An opportunity I'm grateful for**
Grateful to be married soon, not every woman experiences this one, I have this opportunity to tie with the person I love the most. Two hearts become one. The occasion may not be fancy and expensive but I'm happy and looking forward to the day to come.
**My favourite song (and why)**
Monster by Katie Sky, this song always reminds me that I should understand and accept my partner for who he really is. I promise to stick with him at his worst, no matter how hard it may be, no matter how many hidden monsters he has. I will always be with him.
**A life lesson I have learned**
Life isn't as simple as I thought. Life is somehow surprising yet challenging. That I have to always see the little light out of the dark, that I have to see where to go and have the courage to do so.
**The biggest gift in my life right now**
Life, this is the biggest gift ever. That I have the chance to see another day again, another path to take, another journey to decide and another challenge to overcome. My life isn't perfect yet I'm grateful.
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What is the difference between falling in love and being in love?
Hey my lovelies, how y'all today? I don't know if I'm the only one who sometimes hates having a plan because in the end it didn't happen. Last week I was setting this day to continue to process the needed documents for the upcoming wedding, however since my partner is exhausted from work he postponed and thus we have to do it tomorrow (hopefully). If only it is okay if I'm the one who processes it alone, why not? But the problem is that his presence is much needed. Gez! Planning to be married is a lot of work to do lol yet exciting. Nevertheless, this question and answers came from the link of one of my articles, just a random question (https://bucketlistjourney.net/365-thought-provoking-questions-answered/). Let's get ahead and start.
**What does your joy look like today?**
My joy has beautiful paired dark brown eyes, bronze messy hair and a tall king of mine. Today he seems to be too clingy to me and I love it.
**Where do you find inspiration?**
I can't say I found it everywhere, co'z actually my inspiration depends on the events that happen in my life. For now my inspiration is him and my upcoming event.
**How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?**
If I didn't know how old I am then maybe I am in my 20s based on how I think, how I handle and how I act. I can't say I am fully matured but maybe I'm somehow growing to be one. I'm an adult yet there are still times that I think in an immature way.
**What lifts your spirits when life gets you down?**
When I'm in my darkest moment in life I always see light because of my plan. I always wanted to have a better life sooner so when it drags me down I will always find a way to stand and thus I'm thankful for having someone who lifts me up as well.
**Have you ever regretted something you did not say or do?**
For now, I don't regret something, there might be unplanned events in life but I don't regret it. There are instances that I am regretting not doing my article or assignment early lol.
**Why do we think of others the most when they’re gone?**
This happens when we don't value such a person when they are still with us. Sometimes this includes the regret for not being like this or like that. However, there are instances that we think of them because we have to cut them out of our life.
**Is it more important to love or be loved?**
Right now, I would choose to be loved. Not all people experience how to be loved and cared for by someone. Maybe some of you choose to love co'z we can get a lot of opportunities to be loved back. However, in my case it is somehow better to be loved by the person we love the most.
**If it all came back around to you, would it help you or hurt you?**
I hope it will help me. I may not be perfect but I am always good to anyone, I can help if they need me. So I guess that's enough reason.
**What is the difference between falling in love and being in love?**
Falling in love is the start of being in love. Falling includes having a butterfly in the stomach, the feeling of us flying all over the clouds, and kilig to the bone. However, being in love and staying in love is on a different level, we are now committed, compassionate, and a lot more. Actually that might still include having a butterfly in the stomach and it's a bonus.
**Who do you think stands between you and happiness?**
No other than me, myself and I. If I choose to be happy then it will happen if not then it's not. It's always my choice.
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Have You Ever Been Dumped?
What an exhausting day today, actually while I’m writing this, I’m in a place where it is a less unusual feeling. Actually, my partner’s aunt asked us to be with them celebrating her daughter’s birthday in one the resort in Davao, so we did. Nature friendly, relaxing and of course it is just simple. I actually didn’t enjoy that much co’z my partner isn’t here, so I don’t have anyone to talk to hehehehe. It turns out to be a little bit boring. But of course I tried to divert my attention by just roaming around and watching all the people swim lol.
**Have You Ever Been in Love?**
Is it about real and true love or just puppy love? Well, today I can say I am deeply in love with the person I am with right now. He isn’t perfect and so am I, just like anyone else he also has the worst attitude but that doesn’t stop me from loving him. He is someone who understands me when I can even understand myself. He loves me when I can’t love myself, he cares for me when I can’t do it myself and when I’m down he helps me to stand. He might be strict about most things but I know he’s just protecting me. Yes, I am in love and I will always be.
**Have You Ever Felt Lonely?**
Yes, I do but mostly when I am alone. That’s the time that I can think of the things that could be my mistake, plan, failures and even disappointment. I am lonely when I feel that everything I did wasn’t good enough, when all I see is how failure I am as a daughter, relatives, girlfriend or just being a woman. When loneliness hits, overthink occurs and that’s way too difficult for me to go out in that comfort zone.
**Have You Ever Trip Overseas?**
One of my goals is to travel not just here in the Philippines but abroad. I wanted to visit the dream place of mine, Switzerland. I wanted to see how beautiful the world is, meeting new people, learning languages as well as trying their delicious delicacies.
**Have You Ever Talk to Stranger**
Yes, I do talk to strangers especially when they are the one who approached me and of course if it is not in disrespectful manners.
**Have You Ever Ate a lot of ice-cream**
Yes, I’m not that addicted but I do love ice cream especially the chocolate flavor. When my partner bought me some ice cream I surely finished it all ahahahah.
**Have You Ever Siblings fighting**
When we were kids, fighting was inevitable whether about things, games or even just something that we made it as a big deal. We always say bad words to each other or worse we will hit each other's body or hair.
**Have You Ever Been Dumped**
Dumped by a man, isn’t it? Well, to be honest I used to. I mean they always found another girl whom they chose over me, what’s worse is when I never knew that it looks like I'm a third party, he had his first girlfriend. If I only know about it, why would I say Yes to him?. I was always dumped but luckily already found a man who can’t leave me like they sometimes did.
**Have You Ever Make a Joke**
I’m not a funny nor a joker one, so I don’t usually tell jokes as I don’t want to look stupid and corny. They might laugh at me instead of my jokes lol
**Have You Ever Unplanned Stuff**
Unplanned stuff is actually better than the planned one co’z usually it won’t happen. Unplanned trip or unplanned things, surprising and exciting to feel but of course can’t deny that it is somehow worrisome.
**Have You Ever Watch Movie Alone**
I do but I did not finish the whole movie. Watching alone is boring co’z I have no one to talk to. I also feel lonely and thus I can’t focus on the movie.
**Have You Ever Felt Confused with life**
Am I that bad if I say I’m always confused about how my life goes? I’m not complaining, I’m just being honest. Life is somehow surprising and full of challenges. Things happen unexpectedly and it doesn't happen when we expect it.
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Freedom over Hope?
A very hot Saturday my lovelies. How are you all doing today? I hope y'all great as you are. Maybe you notice that I've been active and inactive for how many days. Yesterday, I didn't published nor read any article here as I am busy to prepared all the needed things for my upcoming wedding. This month made me as productive as I needed to. Since I have time today, I grab the opportunity to visit here and of course publish. Luckily, I dropped into the @Pichi28 article and thus I have an idea on what to write. So let's get ahead.
**Museum or amusement park?**
I've been in a museum once but not totally. I want to feel how it feels to see the dinosaur bones, crafts and anything that can be found inside the museum. I want to experience that kind of moment so I would love to go to a museum where it made my eyes happy. When it comes to amusement parks, I've been to many parks so I guess I need some new experience at least I know what it looks like.
**Intelligent or funny?**
I can't say I am intelligent nor funny, maybe just neutral to it. I can be knowledgeable in some things but there are also parts that I don't even know especially when it comes to crypto. I'm not fun throwing jokes as I don't want to be corny and instead of them laughing at what I tell they will surely laugh at me.
**Freedom or hope?**
We can have freedom but not hope. For now I have to choose hope over freedom. A hope that everything will be okay if it does not happen according to what's planned. A hope where someday somehow we can get freedom we all deserve to experience.
**Success or happiness?**
Even though I will experience becoming successful if I can't be happy then I guess that's useless. All I ever wanted was infinite happiness where no problems occurred. I always wish to be the happiest person alive though even if it means I can't be successful. As again, it is useless to have what I want in life when in the end it doesn't satisfy me and doesn't give tha happiness I deserve.
**Money or free time?**
For now, I would choose having the money as I badly need it. I may have free time but what would I do when I don't have money? At least I can buy what I want that would satisfy me. When I have money then I can still have free time where I can feel my hungry stomach or my traveling.
**Handmade gifts or expensive gifts?**
I don't need expensive gifts nor fancy things. All I wanted was just a simple one but with love. Handmade gifts would be perfect as I easily appreciate things and of course the effort it gives. That would be sweet and genuine.
**Hunting or saving?**
I wanted to experience how to haunt, if I knew how to use the equipment needed for it. If I know how then I can save anyone who badly needs help.
**Trip or staycation?**
I love to have a trip where I could travel around the Philippines or even outside the country. I would love to see more beautiful places. Nature, sea view or even meeting people and animals.
**Rom-coms or documentaries?**
I was once a fan of rom-coms but mostly I feel it as corny as ever especially when I don't like who did the movie lol. When it comes to documentaries, I wanted to watch it those trained my detective skills hehehe
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Multiverse of Madness
Does it ring a bell? What if you could travel in a different universe, where you could meet yourself. I mean the other self. Same face but with different experience and personality. The same in love with the person but it ends up broken. If you have the ability to travel or even just the opportunity, would you rather choose to go and meet your other self? Or would you rather think that it doesn't exist?
This might sound familiar if you have already seen the movie Dr. Strange Multiverse of Madness. Yesterday I was telling you that it's good to decide to go to the mall just to feel the cold and freezing ambiance so we did. Well, my partner asked me to have a date, so who am I to turn him down? lol! Actually our plan is to just eat and room around but we didn't expect that the cinema is now open so we grab the opportunity. We first have our dinner and have the movie time at exactly 6:30pm.
`Disclaimer: Spoiler Alert, if you don't want to just skip this article.`
Dr. Strange was one of the most powerful heroes in Marvel. However, just like anyone else he also has the weakness but still pursuing to be as good as he is. Dr. Strange keeps on dreaming about himself (He thought it's just a dream) about getting the power of the kid who has the ability to travel multiverse but she can't control it and in order to protect the kid he chooses to get her power until he dies. Well, it's not just a simple dream but it happens to his other self. From that, to his ex lovers wedding until the monster occurs in their place, that's when the monster is chasing the kid as she accidentally travels. The monster is after the power the kid possesses, if you would ask why not the other self of the kid? Then she doesn't have any other. She's the only one who has the ability to travel back and forth but still didn't know how to use it.
Wanda, the witch who always summoned the demon to get the kid so she could have the power. She always wishes and dreams about having 2 boys (Children) where she sees how happy she is but not the real her, it's her other self. He wanted that power to get the opportunity to be in that family where he could hug and kiss her children. From that, she did everything she could even if killing all the innocent people as long as she could have the kid. Sacrifices of one's life. To make the story short, they get the most powerful book, and Dr. Strange did everything he could to protect the kid and encourage her that she can use her power, with that the girl uses it as if it was her first time to use it. She shows how bad Wanda is, until the witch realizes what she did. The kid showed Wanda that it's her other self who has the kid, not her. It's not her who is happy but the other.
You know what leaves me until now, it's the question that Dr. Strange's ex lover asked him, "Are you happy?". Until now I was still trying to figure out if I am.
***Lesson learned***
We might have the same face but we do always have different personalities.
Know the story first, before making an assumption.
Encourage anyone that he/she can do it.
Just let the enemy realize what he/she did, and don't need revenge.
Just accept what is already happening.
Be the best version of yourself.
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Now I Can Fly
A hot Tuesday my lovelies, gez I really don't like this feeling. I am in the city right now so I expected that it would be hotter than the heat from the province. It seems to suffocate, as it's not windy nor gloomy. C'mon I would love to go to the mall so I could have the cold and freezing ambiance hehehehe, or maybe just going to the beach to have a tan skin lol! (I don't want that either). Ow, before I forget my apologies for being inactive yesterday as I am busy processing the requirements needed for the marriage. Nevertheless, I read this article from @Gianna-B early this morning so I will answer it in my version. Let's start ahead.
**Wanna fly or Go completely invisible (for one day)?**
I wanted to be invisible but I would love to fly for a day. I wanted to go from different places around any country and to my dream places as well. I can have free fare from anything, no need to ride a plane, a boat or just by road. When I can fly for a day I'm pretty sure that would be a perfect yet tiring day. But at least I enjoyed how beautiful the view is, especially when I'm up to the clouds, I can now explore and discover things. My eyes will surely be happy.
**Never use social media again or never watch another movie or tv show.**
To be honest, social media seems to be toxic right now, whether that might be on Facebook or in Tiktok. Some information isn't relevant nor reliable. I can read some rants or just a post stating how bad that person is. Socmed are not good as of this moment. So it's okay if I can't use it forever, than I can't watch a movie. At least I will have fun watching the different genres of shows and I can spend my day watching it rather than scrolling up and down to the toxic apps.
**Have a head the size of a watermelon or Have a head the size of a tennis ball.**
Having a small head isn't good to look at. I mean our brain is big so I guess that won't fit or if it's then I got a smaller brain as well and I don't like that to happen. So I would rather choose having a watermelon size, at least it really looks like a normal human head. There are watermelons which aren't big nor small, just a perfect size for a woman like me.
**Never be able to take an airplane again or Never have internet access again**
Well, I have never experienced riding a plane so I don't know if I will take it. I don't know how it feels to be on the clouds. It's okay if I can't experience it, rather than if I don't have internet access. The Internet means a lot to me, especially since I am a student and my leisure time is to watch Netflix or any movie where I badly need a good internet connection. If I don't like to play sports or hang out then at least I have another choice and that is to use any apps that would make me happy, reading some articles here or by simply reading Wattpad.
**Be a wizard or Be a Vampire**
I wanted to be both actually, where I can control things just like a wizard do and I'm fond of vampires too. Maybe in my imagination they are too hot and surely have the goddess beauty. I would love to be a vampire then have the power that the wizard had ehehehe, a VAMPIRE WIZARD maybe.
`That would be all for today my lovelies! See you around.`
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A Mother Hits Different
A muddy Sunday my lovelies, as it rains early in the morning and even yesterday it causes it to be slippery and muddy up here. But no matter what the result is I am still fond of the rain and its cold freezing air. Anyway, I saw this mother edition from our dear "Hugot Queen" @Ruffa. So here I am. I'll share it with you.
**KAKA CELLPHONE MO 'YAN**
I rarely hear that my mom will tell me that it is caused by always using my phone. When we have a headache, she won't blame but when we get an ulcer , she will tell us that it is because we used too much phone that led us to forget to eat. I guess most mothers will say that. I mean that's usually the reason why we get sick lol.
**PAPUNTA KA PA LANG, PABALIK NA AKO**
I guess this is rare to hear from my mom's mouth as well, maybe in my aunt or relative I hear it mostly.
**ABA'T SUMASAGOT KA NA?!**
Maybe I hear it when I was a child until I get teenager, whenever we talk back to them or even just reason out, my mother always replied that thing
I mean I know it's bad to talk back but it's just that I want to clarify things out co'z they misunderstood it.
**PARA KAYONG MAY KATULONG HA!**
Before I always hear that one when we wake up late. C'mon who wouldn't get mad? She wakes up early and does the chores and there we are just sleeping until 8am in the morning or worse it's too late for breakfast ahahah. I am really fond of sleeping so when my mom gets angry for not waking up early I just ignore it so I can go back to sleep hehehe.
**ANAK KA TALAGA NG TATAY MO! (YOU REALLY THE CHILD OF YOUR FATHER!)**
When we act like our dad, that's usually what my mom tells us. She always tells us that we really look and act like dad, especially those with not too good attitudes or when we act in a bad mood ehehehe. I mean our dad isn't that bad though.
**MAMILI KA SUSUNOD KA O HINDI?! (YOU WILL OBEY OR NOT, CHOOSE?!)**
When my mom yells like this we will instantly obey what she says. I mean who wouldn't? I don't want to get spanked by anything hehehe that would be hurt so I guess it's better to follow.
**MATA ANG GAMIT SA PAGHAHANAP HINDI BIBIG (USE YOUR EYES NOT YOUR MOUTH)**
I hear this one when I can't find the things that she asks me to find. I always ask her, where she put it or when was the last time she saw it. Of course I don't want to tour around the house just to find it, so I prefer to ask. But when I can't find it in the place she tells me I always murmur. That's when I heard that one ahahaha.
**KAPAG AKO NAWALA, KAWAWA KAYO! (WHEN I DIE, PITY YOU ARE!)**
I hear this one when my mom feels like we didn't value or obey her. We are stubborn and hard-headed and she always tells us that when she dies we will surely be pitied. That's why from then on, we obey what she said but there are still instances that we didn't.
`A mother is brave, they will do whatever they can so they can give the best for their children. The first woman who loves and understands us, the one who feeds and gives us value the day we are born. The woman who is always there when we have nothing. The one who always has our back when we think that our world collapses. To all the mothers out there, thank you for loving us. Y'all deserve to be loved.`
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Daydream About?
A rainy Saturday my lovelies, yes my favourite weather is here the cold and freezing breeze of air. This time I'm not productive as of course all I want is to sleep, hugging a pillow and cry lol! I mean this is perfect weather for me to just lay down and have a self time to think of the things that might be about life, plan, future or even mistakes. I hope y'all have good weather too. Anyway, I came across this question and answer yesterday from @GarrethGrey07 and just took a screenshot of it. So here I am trying to assess my skills and even about life. Let's start ahead;
**What skills come to you naturally?**
I don't really know what specific skills but I notice that since then I really love writing. Wherever our teacher asks us to write an essay, it will make my day good. Besides, I'm having fun doing it as well as adding my love in reading to gain more knowledge and ideas on the uncommon words that I can use.
**What makes you come alive?**
When I wake up on the right side of the bed, where I can find positivity. With that that made my day alive, even at night I'm always in a good mood.
**What is stopping you from your dream life?**
Fear, is it a good reason? Well I guess it's not. I'm afraid to go out in my comfort zone, thinking what if I fail. I'm afraid to try new things as I don't want to get disappointed. I'm afraid to just stay as well co'z I might regret things. I just let things go with the flow, no matter how negative it might be.
**If you don't have a single problem in life, what would you do?**
If problems didn't exist, I'm surely the happiest woman alive. All I did was laugh, pure fun and just enjoy things. Maybe there's no challenge at it but at least I just experience the feeling of being free from everything.
**What are your interests?**
I was once interested in numbers that's why I chose to get the Financial course. I was once interested in Tour Guiding, that's why I have the NC II. For now, maybe just preparing for my wedding will be my interest as well as trying to be productive here in read.cash.
**Which activity makes you feel like you are in the bliss zone?**
Can I call sleeping as an activity? I mean I'm happy when I can sleep as it seems to be a comfort zone for me especially when I'm overwhelmed by what's happening in life right now. It is where I can live in my dreams and imagination and just don't think about reality.
**What things did you truly enjoy today?**
Right now, right here I am just having fun looking at the raindrops coming from the roof. The feeling of cold wind and even the sound of the rain.
**What does passion mean to you?**
Passion for me is when I am determined to do things whatever the risk may be. A passion is when I do the things I love the most and enjoy it.
**What do you daydream about?**
I always think about having a huge house, where we don't have to worry about the bills. Where we can do what we want. I always think about having a business as well where we don't need to think of the expenses. I always daydream about having a good life not just for me but for my family as well.
**What activity makes you lose track of time?**
Sleeping will always make me lose track of time and one thing is when I am with the person I love. The time looks so fast.
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It's Worse
A warm day my read.cash family. Today I woke up on the right side of the bed where I found positivity and happiness despite the darkest moment I am in. I just hope that I can do things in a way where I won't regret it in the end. Hopefully you are all doing great as you are. Anyway, let's get ahead to the topic which I found from @meitanteikudo. He saves me this time.
**Which is worse**
**Late for a date or break a promise**
Upon reading these choices I already know that breaking a promise is worse among the worse. Maybe promises are meant to be broken but it shouldn't be that way, promises should be fulfilled. Why spill words, when in the first place we can't stand? What makes a man, a man, is when he knows how to do what he promises and so does the woman. We are grown up already, we aren't a boy or girl who just spill the words out without any commitment to it.
I can forgive when my man is late for our date but it's hard to forgive when he breaks what he promised. Trust me it hurts like h*ll.
**Get rejected by crush or crush doesn't know your feeling**
It is worse when I am rejected by my crush. I mean it's okay if he doesn't know I have feelings for him but I can't stand knowing that he doesn't like me like I like him. C'mon that hurts too knowing that I am a woman but still rejected by a man hehehe.
**A hero dies in a movie or a dog dies in a movie**
When a hero dies, we always have that idea that it's called sacrifices for the goodness of every human or the earth itself. But with this one, it is worse when a dog dies. I am a dog lover and I can't stand seeing the dog die, it made me cry and I don't like the feeling.
**Send screenshot to wrong person or like your crush's older photo**
Sending a screenshot isn't worse. I mean not unless it is somehow not good to look at but still we can unsent it in case. Stalking my crush's older photo is truly the worst, c'mon I don't like to stalk and if I do then he will know that I like him and I don't want that to happen.
My partner is my crush so I guess it's okay if I stalk him eheheh. I mean maybe I have the right to see and know everything hahaha. So I could tease him as well.
**Too cold or too hot**
I always prefer having the cold and freezing weather than the hot one, that would be the worst. Besides, the weather affects my mood and I don't want to easily get angry due to the worse hot weather.
**Can't clean your tongue or can't clean your teeth**
When I brush my teeth I always include my tongue but it's worse if I can't clean my teeth. C'mon i don't want to smile with a cavity or dirt in my teeth lol that would be embarrassing.
**Be single or have no friends**
Since I am in a relationship right now, I guess it would be worse if I became single hahaha. I mean our relationship gets serious especially that we are now getting married. I can live without a friend's as I have my sister who acts like one.
**Friends upload your ugly photos or your old photos are dug up by friends**
What made it worse is when my friends upload my ugly photos especially on special occasions hahaha. I'm okay if they dug up my old photo as it's not that ugly as a stolen shot.
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Lights on or Lights off?
A lovely day as you are my lovelies. I hope you are all doing great right now, coz in my case I'm trying lol! I mean I've been in my dark times at this moment and I just want to just get these things in my mind for once. I just miss the old happy face of me, where the smile is pure and genuine. But of course, I have to act strong and just think that things are okay. C'mon I'm a great pretender hehehehe. Enough with my drama, let's move on to the question and answer I read from @Olasquare, thank you for saving me this time.
**Light on or Light off?**
What is it all about again? hahaha I mean I like lights on in other things but when I go to sleep I would rather turn off every light as I can't sleep when I see even just a little light in my room. I wanted it as dark as what I feel right now lol. Having the dark ambiance gives me a better sleep.
**Light or Heavy sleeper?**
Depending on the mood, I sometimes do a light sleeper when I have to, I mean when I have something to do in a hurry or when I'm not in the mood to sleep but mostly I'm a heavy sleeper, I'm fond of sleeping. I guess that is my escape in this cruel reality. My place where I am free and where imagination and dream wins.
**Fan or no Fan?**
Before, I didn't really like fans as I easily get cold but things change right now, I can't sleep without any fan as I think I can't breathe. Even though the weather is too cold I still wanted to have a fan. Me and my sister are in the same room but she doesn't want to use the fan but I always resist, so she can't do anything about it hehehe. She even gets a shiver from how cold it is but here I am enjoying the feeling of cold ambiance hahahaha.
**One or Several Pillows?**
For now, I would prefer to have a lot of pillows. Two pillows for my head as I wanted it to slightly lift, one for my 2 sides and if I can have more, why not? But believe me, at midnight there's no pillow near me as I always kick them and thus everything is in my feet hehehehehe.
**Early in bed or Late sleeper?**
If I have an assignment I would prefer to do it at night since that's the time that the internet connection is good so I sleep late but when I don't have anything to do I would sleep early, minutes or hours before I eat my dinner.
**Thin or thick blanket?**
Right now I love my thick blanket, as I feel comfortable about it. The cotton feeling made me easily feel asleep but when I have to wash it I guess it will take all my strength lifting and even hanging it hahaha.
**PJ or Comfy Clothes?**
Before I loved pajamas but now I would prefer to choose any comfy clothes in my closet, just maybe a short and a large t-shirt or sometimes just a duster will do ehehehe.
**Drink Milk or Water?**
Water will do as I sometimes don't want to drink milk. I don't know if I am the only one who loves to drink water every night especially when going to sleep. That's why I always wake up midnight to pee hehehe.
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What do I really want from life?
Life is truly unpredictable, it is full of surprises. Pure happiness is rare to find, especially when all we see is the journey that is full of challenges. Maybe, for now I can't see any reason to smile or laugh co'z trust me it's hard to do so when negative things are running through my head. Just like anyone else, I'm drained, exhausted mentally and having this mental breakdown made me even more weak. Enough with my drama, let's get ahead to the q&a that I read from @GarrethGrey07.
**Do I like who I am right now?**
Would I lie if I tell you, I don't like anymore? Maybe for now, I'm just tired of loving the real me. Nothing special, nothing to be proud of, nothing fun. It's just pure sadness and I don't like the feeling of this one.
**When was the last laugh I laughed so hard?**
I don't know when, but it's been days, weeks or even months since I last laughed with tears. I miss the feeling of not thinking how unfair life is.
**What would I truly regret not doing if I died tonight?**
Life is unpredictable, so maybe if I die today then I would regret not showing how my loved ones mean a lot to me as I'm focused on the negativity I felt right here, right now.
**What would I do if my biggest fear came true?**
Then I can't do anything about it, I'm just afraid to die without leaving any important lessons or good deeds. I'm frightened to just disappear without telling my family and special loved one "I love you".
**What would I do with my remaining days if I had only a year left to live?**
Maybe I'll do everything that makes me happy, I do things that I never did before so at least before I die I don't have any regrets. I'll be living the happiest day of my life without thinking what will come next.
**Why am I afraid of being true to myself when others are around?**
Am I lying if I tell you I'm afraid to be true? To be honest, I was once afraid to show the real me co'z I know not everyone will accept me for who I am. I'm not the usual me who just goes with the flow or a woman who can be friends to anyone co'z sometimes I am the opposite. But now, I'm not frightened anymore, I can show who the real me, whether they accept me or not. I realize that the real friends will accept and the others will reject, besides I'm not born to be perfect, I'm born to be real and I can't please anyone so why would I try?
**What do I really want from life?**
All my life, I just want to live my life to the fullest, where sadness or problems didn't happen, where I can be me and live life full of happiness. I just want to be happy, why is it difficult to find?
**Must I take other people's advice?**
It depends on who gives me the advice, not all people will help me to overcome it, some are just pretending to be one but the plan is to drag me down. So maybe if it's my family who said so, then I'll follow, if not then maybe I doubt it.
**Am I worthy of being loved?**
Everyone deserves to love no matter what it is. So I guess I deserve it too, I may not be perfect.
**Is my definition of success the same as everyone else?**
I don't know, but for me success doesn't matter on how big the mansion may be, how thick the wallet it may be or how many cars they are driving. Success is when we find true happiness and contentment in life, it doesn't always mean money sometimes it means being happy.
`I'm just choosing some questions here, so it's up to you to answer it all or just pick randomly.`
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