I'm off
A cold night my lovelies! Well, today is a great Sunday for me as this is our day. My boyfriend and I headed to the place where I wanted to go back. It's actually been months since my last visit there and luckily it happened today. It's a good trip yet tiring.
We leave the house around 2:00 pm which is literally driving under the heat of the sun and luckily we already wear our jackets so we won't get any sunburn lol! It's actually unplanned travel as my boyfriend had someone to meet in a far place since he ordered something for his beloved motorcycle as it needs it. After the errands he asks me where to go but I don't have any place where it has a beautiful view and with that, I allow him to decide. It was actually a long drive that would take 2-3 hours just to get there. It was hot but later on the cold breeze started to touch our skin.
It was a breathtaking view as I'm fond of nature. The greenery scenery made me fall in love with the environment over and over again. But this time, we didn't see any fogs at all unlike the first and second trip. Our plan is to go to the strawberry farm as I'm craving for it where I'll be the one to harvest it but unfortunately the farm isn't for attraction at all, there's no more fresh strawberries. What is left is a small grown tree. No more pinkish fruit to be harvested as it is already done. I was disappointed as I kept on dreaming about it, the feeling of picking up the strawberries and the feeling of eating it. We even want to drop to one of the cutest views where the flowers are all in (Bemwa Farm), unluckily they are starting to close at 4 pm.
Without any choice we decided to go to Hills View in Bukidnon where the most breathtaking view is seen. The mountains, the fresh air to breath and the feeling of peace. We are actually the person who was there earlier and we literally enjoyed it though it's too far. It's still the same as before but this time I can purely see the beauty in it. It's like I'm reuniting with nature which I really love. However, I was asking my boyfriend if we can stay in the place for one night as I want to get out from the hustle and bustle of the city but he refused too. We did the picture taking and videos to serve as one of the most important memories we made. I was happy as I'm with the person I love hehehe.
We travel again for the same hours but with the high speed as my boyfriend won't listen to me if I ask him to limit the speed. He said he will be sleepy if he does so. I don't want to argue with him since I know he will be careful. We reached home fast as expected. We even wanted to drop off to the mall to eat our dinner as we are both hungry but he said we will buy some viand so that's it.
I even want to take a rest as it's a tiring day but I have to write this article as I don't want to miss it again. So here I am guys. I'll end my blog at this length my lovelies, as I want to sleep now. Keep rocking on top, grind more. Goodnight my lovelies, just a reminder "Give yourself some time, relax, unwind".
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This has to be end
A hot weekend my lovelies! Yes! Mr, Sunny again is showing which I don't like the most. The heat makes me feel pissed for no reason. It's just that I prefer the cold weather rather than this heat that looks like it reaches my bones. It makes me sweat a lot. I guess I already wrote the same article today entitled "TRENDS", if you haven't read it yet, click me. I was eager to write this one as to impart awareness for those who did and for those who watch.
**Tiktok** is one of the most famous apps right now, as it is a trend for teens to boost their confidence or even businesses to make their product well-known. We can't deny that **Facebook** is also an app where we could post anything we want the same with the other apps. However, we have to be aware of what we are sharing or doing. I was stunned how women show their half naked body, you might also notice it. I was scrolling up and down when all I can see in the newsfeed is how women look like they don't have self-respect anymore. Yes, you read it right. A good woman won't let everyone see her b**bs. A good woman won't do any nasty things just to earn likes and followers. A good woman knows how to respect herself.
I understand that specific dance is a trend but it doesn't mean they have to show off your body. Wear simple clothing, move with the music and that's it. Why they have to show how big or small their b**bs is? If they know how to respect themselves then maybe they can also earn respect from others. Some say, "*Our body, our rules", yes that's right and there's nothing wrong with it as long as you leave at least a little bit of respect for yourselves. As it says 1 Corinthians 6:19-20; "Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; 20 you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies". They say, "Teach men to respect women", that's indeed correct but if you look at it, how can a man respect a woman who shows almost every skin of body? How can a man respect a woman when they see you shouldn't be respected after all as you don't respect yourself? How come you need respect when you can't give that to yourself?*
It's heartbreaking to know that everything changes, from simple dancing to nasty one for the sake of reactions, followers and likes. It's sad to know that they already forgot the importance of self-respect. If we want to be respected we have to start everything with ourselves. We just can't demand that to others, we have to earn it.
*For all the women who did it, please think a million times if you really have too. Are you willing to surrender for what you have just to gain for what you don't have? Did your parents know about it? Had they allowed you to do so? Well, I guess a parent won't do that. To all men out there, is it fun watching their videos? Does it satisfy you? What if your sister is doing that too, do you think it's fun? What if your future daughter did the same, do you think it's funny?*
I don't know what comes in their mind while doing that, is it just to be famous or they just want to boost their confidence, which is literally in the wrong way. I'm a woman but I have to disagree when it's needed. Dancing is okay as long as it's in a decent way.
`This is my opinion, respect mine as I respect yours. I will end my blog at this length. Keep rocking on top my lovelies! Bright future is ahead of you❤️`
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F.R.I.E.N.D
A hot Friday my lovelies! I'm pretty sure everything is great as you are. The weather looks mad today as Mr. Sunny again showing his shining shimmering splendid heat feels like it reaches to the bone. Anyway, my apologies for being missing in action for 2 days as I need a bed rest due to my headache getting worse, adding the cough that makes it difficult for me to breath and sometimes cause vomiting anytime ,even my body temperature rises up so I better choose to stay in bed. I was limiting my time in facing my cell phone too as I felt this is one of the reasons for my headache.
`Moreover, I love to write this one as I'm lucky to have her as she is always there to assist me.`
***F****riends* are what we need when we feel that we're too full for all the challenges that we are into. Life isn't simple and we know that. There are times that we can't tell secrets to our family but we like them for us to spill the beans. Those ears that are willing to listen to all our dramas in life, ups and down. Willing to help when no one is there, accept if we made mistakes and give advice if we badly need it. Friends are our second family.
***R****eal one* is what I mean. As of today it's difficult to find a friend who's not a traitor. Who's happy when you get success and won't do any bad things just to make her perfect in front of others. They are those people who are too good when you both are talking but it will stab your back when you're not looking. That kind of person is like a snake, knows how to ssshhh and instantly bite you when you don't notice. The real is rare so we have to choose which among them is one.
*Incredible* is one way to describe a friend of mine. Yes, she is, in any aspect of life. She's a person who I guess knows how to deal with everything which is too much different from me. When she's down she knows how to handle, when she's happy she even knows how to make others feel the same way she does. She's incredible and beautiful.
***E****ager* to help when I can't do it for myself. I have no one to talk about my problem with, I have my boyfriend but it's a different kind when a woman and a woman are talking. She's there with me when I don't know what to do. She's my knight in shining armor that time, she's willing to listen to all my down moments, she gives me advice that would possibly help me but she will also disagree with my idea when she thinks that consequences won't do any good.
***N****aturally* she is, in every word or message she responds to me. She'll tell how she feels when she's in my situation, she knows how to act with the different problems I'm asking for help. She is unique. She actually doesn't need to act to be someone else as she knows who she really was.
***D****auntless* she is when she likes too. She's someone who's determined to help when a person needs her, whether about schoolworks, family problems or love life challenges. Oww! She's actually a smart woman too.
You might get a hint who she is, as I love her since she is my "kabit". Yes, she is @JustMaryel, my one and only love adviser. I guess she's now become a "love guru".
`I will end my blog at this length. Thank you for your effort my lovelies, y'all appreciated ❤️`
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That should be Me
A cold Tuesday my lovelies! Hopefully everyone was rocking on top. How are y'all? Phew! I don't like this day as I feel I will melt anytime co'z of the coldness ( mas cold pa sa relasyon namo aw hahaha) . I hope you didn't feel the same way I do in your place. Well today I don't actually know what topic I'm going to write about as my mind is not in good condition to think properly since I'm not feeling well adding to the headache I had for a long time now. I don't know how this topic comes to my mind so I guess I'll give this a try.
I was stunned by how things happened instantly when I was dropped into a post where a man leaves his girlfriend for 8 years without any sign of settlement but chooses to marry the woman he met for 2 months. How did it happen? Why? I have a lot of questions in my mind that I want to ask with that man. It's just that unfair to the side of his long-term girlfriend. I might don't know the reason behind it but I guess it's still a wrong move. If I were in her shoes I'm pretty sure I can't handle the situation, all I want is to walk in the aisle, wearing a white gown and saying my vows to the man of my life but it ends up to someone. It's like "I'm building a man for another woman".
If this would be the end, why not tell the woman to end the relationship as early as possible so it won't hurt that much? Why not tell her that you never saw her as your wife, as the mother of your child? Why do you end up broke? Why? Is the reason you had, you think, enough to ease all the pain? I guess it's not. She was there when no one's around to help you. She was there to mold you into something you are right now. She has you when you are sick, she cooks food for your hungry tummy, she makes your house a home, she cleans but why? She thought you were his peace, his home and his forever. I'm pretty sure she loves you more than anything. For 8 years, you just throw it like she doesn't exist, have you forgotten the memories you both made. Did you already forget the perfect spot you both love to go to? Did you forget all the plans and promises you made? If so, why? Can you tell me their difference? Is she pretty and flawless?
It might sound biased to you my dear readers, but I'm on the woman's side. I might don't know here personally but I can feel the pain. For God Sake, 8 years means everything is planned, everything is settled but look how it ends. A woman is peaceful before you come into her life but you leave her miserable. Now tell me if you consider it fair. Tell me if you love her like she does. Well, I guess things change? May I know why? Is it because you are tired of having her and want to try others? Is it because you think that won't hurt that much? Did you feel the same way like she does? Are you hurt? Did you find yourself happy now with the woman you chose to marry? If so, then be it. Don't leave her like what you did the other. Don't hurt her and don't ever find another just because you are sick of having her.
`That would be all my dear lovelies! My apologies if you think I'm biased is just that I'm trying to put myself in her shoes. I don't want that thing to happen to me either. Goodnight my lovelies!`
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What's inside and out
Hello my lovelies! Did you give yourself some time to unwind a little bit? Did you go somewhere you can relax and think? Or are you staying at home watching a movie and listening to music? I guess some are workaholics, Am I right? Ow! look what's the weather today, it kinda wants to rain or not. Whew! I don't know what to feel, it's like hot but not. I saw this random question from my dear sponsor @bbyblacksheep so I'll give it a try . It's actually an interesting one.
`Enough from this, lemme start!`
**What was the most important lesson you've learned from your past relationship?**
Never ever give everything as I will end up crumbling right after because there's nothing left for me.
**What life-changing event have you experienced**?
When I'm depressed. All I can think is negativity, but it makes me think of a few things which I need to consider. It actually molds me into someone whom I never thought would exist in me. It makes me stronger than ever.
**How important is trust in a relationship?**
Very important, without trust the relationship won't take too long. If you love someone, be sure that you trust him with all your heart. That's the foundation of a solid relationship.
**Do you believe that day will arrive when humans will be replaced by machines in almost all aspects of life?**
Yes, indeed I believe that today's generation technology has been evolving and thus it will surely create some robots where it replaces all humans' jobs.
**Do you think that humans are doing more harm than good to the planet?**
Yes, that's true, some humans are only good at destroying our planet. Even the simplest things can't do it perfectly. Illegal logging, burning, throwing of garbage, destruction of coral reefs, humans is indeed the reason for it.
**What is your favorite workout routine?**
Squatting. It's kinda tiring but I love it when I do it. I actually make my butt bigger as I'm not confident of it.
**Which would you choose to be: law-abiding citizen or rule breaker, and why?**
Who would like a rule breaker one? Law abiding citizens are always better as it brings peace.
**What important lesson did a close relative teach you?**
Study first, I always heard this one. Finish your study first and you can do whatever you want in life.
**Are you a mountain or beach person?**
If I said both, is it acceptable? I'm fond of mountains as I am a nature lover, the green scenery will soothe my pain. Beach? I love it of course, the scenic view and the sound of waves which calms my soul.
**Which member of your family do you feel closest to, and why?**
My niece, she's only 5 years old and I'm close to her as I love spoiling her when I'm visiting them in the province.
**Who do you consider your best friend in your workplace?**
This platform is my workplace and I guess JustMaryel is my best friend not just inside this site but as well as in real life.
What 3 adjectives would describe you?
**Shy type, simple yet classy hahaha.**
**If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you choose?**
No other than my own country, the Philippines. Traveling will do if ever I'd love to go to some places all over the world.
**What are you passionate about in life?**
Love, this is not a material thing nor a food but this is what I'm passionate about.
**What quality in a person do you fall in love with?**
Loving, responsible, trustworthy and know how to take good care.
**Have you had your heart broken before?**
Yes I guess not just twice, thrice but a lot more.
**What is your take on astrology?**
I believe in astrology as I think that some forecasts exist.
**When was the last time you spoke with a classmate from high school?**
This month I guess, when me and JustMaryel went to the LandBank to send our letter for the industrial analysis.
**Are you left or right-handed and would you want to switch?**
I'm proud to say I'm a left-handed person and I don't switch it. Maybe what I need is to practice my right hand too so if my left gets tired the other one will do.
**What subject were you good at in high school?**
English, I don't know why I love this but I just see it interesting and I love essay type.
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Fake Word
Happy weekend my dear lovelies! I hope you get the chance to take a rest for a while. Well, the weather seems to be cold this time as it's already night in my city. I wish I could see the moon and stars right now as it soothes what I feel today. Not just about the migraine I have who keeps on visiting me the whole week but also about the pain I was feeling inside but of course it's not a heartbreak hahaha. Moreover, I was urged to write this one as I find it an interesting "fake word".
**Have you ever encountered someone who tried to comfort you with lies?**
Well, I guess I'm not the only one, Am I? Those words that they tell you just to make you feel good. They want you to be happy when in fact the truth must spill out. What's the purpose of saying comforting words when it's a lie after all. Have they ever used their mind? I'm not angry, ok? It's just that I remember someone who did that to me. He said that "I Love You" but come'on I'm stupid that time to believe that fre*king word of him but in the end the love I thought isn't right at all. He even tried to court my friend then got the guts to say "I love you" without meaning.
**Have you tried to push yourself to the people when you knew you didn't belong?**
Poor me but I did. I guess I'm the most naïve. I know I don't literally belong but I tried to have friends of course. It's difficult, you know, to walk alone after school or the teacher was the only one who talked to you. I'm not a "nerd girl", it's just that when you are a transferee, you need to stop being "feeling close". They approached me so I did the same. Talk and talk until I think we are friends but I'm wrong. But I literally tried so hard to belong in that circle of people but I stop as I realize it's not good after all. If they want me, they won't push me away.
**Have you ever experienced begging for attention?**
Whew! I guess I spilled so much of my life way back then. But I enjoy sharing this too lol! Attention, does anyone doesn't want this? I guess all. Well, I really want my teacher's attention. Yes! you read it right, the attention of my teachers. I grow where I usually get the attention co'z how I am in school. I'm not that "papansin girl" you think but I am I guess one of the smart students so of course the praise is with me. I am a competitive pupil among all, I don't actually like to join in a different contest but my adviser asked me to do so using their flowering words just for me to say "Yes". I usually win, hehehe. This is not actually begging but I think I deserve it, did I?
**Have you ever experienced loving the person that already loves someone?**
Wait! what? hahahaha I don't know why I even included this one, gez! Wala ng atrasan to hahaha. I do love the person that already loves someone, if you ask why I'll spill the bean out. I was falling for him without knowing that he loves the other one. Is it my fault? He loves the person who leaves him and it's possible. He loves the woman who gives him pain. He loves the girl who broke his heart. But I'm here giving the love that the woman didn't give for him. It's okay if I'm the one who suffers as long as I see him happy. As time passed by, I already got his heart hehehe. Effort paid off. He's my home before, now and forever. But this time no more fake words as I'm sick of it.
`That would be for today my lovelies! Special thank to my new sponsors` @bbyblacksheep `and @Cleophia2. Thank you for trusting me ❤️`
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Prompt: Beautifully made
What a productive day I have as the deadline is approaching. The last few days me and JustMaryel gave ourselves some time to rest and almost forgot that 2 assignments needed to be submitted on time. So today we'll surely make it all, as our professors instruct us to change those and that so we have to do it. Moreover, I saw a post of our dearest @Theblackdoll who posts about the "I **love you because prompt**" which I'm interested in. If you want to know more just spank me hahaha.
`Let me start with my partner in class` @JustMaryel `who helped me when I felt difficulties in class especially with our finance subject which I don't know why I even got that course when I didn't like math in the first place.`
**Without any more blabbering words, lemme start how I adore her:**
**I love you because** you're the reason why I'm here in read.cash.
**I love you because** you are too generous to be my sponsor.
**I love you because** you were there when no one was willing to help me.
**I love you because** you appreciate and correct me when I'm wrong.
**I love you because** you are kind.
**I love you because** you are what you are.
**I love you because** you are my "kabit" lol!.
**When did you meet that user...**
I have known her for about 4 years when I started my journey in college, we actually weren't that close before, I mean she has her own circle of friends as does mine. I have this one friend of mine but now it turns to be like a stranger again. This online class makes us closer even more up to now. As I stated above, she's the reason why I know that this platform exists. She kept on introducing me before about this but I got the chance to be here 2 months ago. So I'm lucky to have met her.
**What was something the user did for you or for somebody else that impacted you and developed a sense of love and respect towards them..**
Well, she's a kind woman who's willing to help anyone in need. She's not difficult to be with, she understands any situation that might be about love, financial, or even mental problems. Ow! Did I forget that she's a good adviser too.
**What advice do you want to give to that user if any…**
For my dear JustMaryel I just want to tell her to be what she is today or even be a better version of herself. I know she can do more than what she is now. I know someday somehow she will be what she wants in life. She already had a lovable family and boyfriend (which I don't know who 😅). Greatest advice, enjoy every second you have, do what you love and don't limit yourself to be happy. You deserve to be the happiest woman, so allow yourself to grow and be that someone you ever want. Explore if needed, try harder if you fail and be grateful for what you have as I know you already are.
**What do you wish up on that user…**
I hope that she will have good health as she deserves it. I wish for the best of her in anything mapa lovelife man. She's a strong woman more than I. I wish that all her dreams come true co'z I know how eager she is to make it happen. I wish for more memories to come of course, it includes me ahahaha. I wish for her healthy heart.
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I'm okay…
The first month is about to end, look how fast the time flies. Woah! It seems like we're just celebrating the New Year but now, Valentines is about to come. The weather seems not okay with me as I feel the heat though I'm inside the house. I don't like the feeling of the hotness as I feel difficulties in breathing where I feel I'm suffocated.
`Have you come to the point that you felt worthless? Where things you do doesn't seem to be okay? The effort you exert isn't enough? Well, if you do, I just wanna remind you deserve to be taken good care of, you deserve to be loved and respected. You are beautiful in your own way, this might be the wrong time but if the right will come, you will surely be the brighter star among them. Look how far you've done. You did it dear! Keep fighting! Laban lang everything will be fine soon`.
**I** was here lying in the bed while trying to reminisce about what I did wrong to deserve such pain. I was trying my best to be a good woman to everyone but how comes the happiness I want turns into sadness. I want to fall asleep as my head starts to feel too much pressure. I want to be out in this world for once, where I can forget all the torment I'm into. I'm literally tired of staying in my room while letting my tears fall down into the pillow.
**M**usic is my companion when I don't feel okay at all. It's like making me relax for once but how much I tried I just can't. I even tried to change my position many times but still my soul is awake. I might be closing my eyes but I definitely know what's happening outside my room. Slow and soft music is what I need in order for me to let everything out from my heart. The pain? I wish it's easy as I thought but it's not.
**O**ver and over I keep on thinking what move I did that turns out to be a mistake. Is it because I'm not being obedient?Or is it just that I deserve what I tolerate? Well, maybe that's it, I deserve that I tolerate myself to do this and that, without thinking about the outcome. Is it a mistake to be happy for once? I mean can I be the happiest woman alive without thinking of the consequences? Can I be a woman who only wants what's best? Ow! I guess I can't.
**K**eep pushing myself to the limit just to make everything happen according to plan. A happiest day of life but now turns into a nightmare. I'm stuck now, I can breathe but I can't move. I want to blame myself for being in this situation. Can anyone be my saviour at this time? Ow! never mind I don't want to be a burden, I'm okay and I'm trying.
**A**ccept is this what I need to do? Accept that I made mistakes, accept what the outcome is? Well, I think I only have two choices whether to accept or quit. If I accept then it means I deserve what I feel right now and if I quit then maybe I can hurt someone, right? I don't even want to be in a situation where my family knows I'm quitting, I don't want them to be worried as I always say their happiness means a lot to me.
**Y**es! I'm okay! I'm totally okay with everything. Pain? I guess my heart is numb already to feel that. Nakaka manhid yung feeling na laging ganon nalang. I'm tired but I'm fighting, not just for me but for the people who trust me.
**My apologies for the negative vibes today. If you're going through something right now, feel free to contact me. I'm a good listener** ❤️
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If I could only SEE the future
*Everyone wants to have a bright future ahead where everything seems to be perfect, wherein there's no poverty at all. But things aren't just easy right? We have a lot of things to consider adding to the different phenomenon that we are facing right now.* ***Future*** *is the things that we want to get ready for. The plans that we built in to make our dreams come true. A nice* ***house****? A* ***car****? A* ***business****? A* ***family****? Well, I admit I want to make that happen, where I can see that everything I do is worth it, wherein the effort I exert paid off. But what if the opposite happens? What if it doesn't go according to plan? How ready are we to face those catastrophes?*
**If only I could see the future**, I would like to see how the world is going to be. How's the pandemic, if it ends. How one's country's economy increases or decreases. How were those jobless people who tried hard to earn some for their family. How was business around the world? How was the future of the frontliners? I was thankful for those who were there when this pandemic started. I saw different faces, race and gender where there's a united goal "To end this Covid". If only I have the ability I'll surely give every information to end this virus and make our life worth living.
**If only I could see the future**, I would like to see how the stray animals found their home so I would do it myself. I'm an animal lover, I love seeing animals happy. Those animals in the street break my heart. How are they? What is the food they eat? Did their owner find them, or did they just abandon them just because they were tired of having an animal? I wish I could have a shelter for them, to help them grow and give them the love they need.
**If only I could see the future,** I would love to see how abandoned kids and older people found their home sweet home. I may don't have all the money on earth but I want to help them. It's an inhuman act to abandon such a family member. What would be their reason? Is their family trying to find them? Where do they sleep, on the street? No one deserves to be treated that way. Building a great home for them is the best choice.
**If only I could see the future**, I want to see how my life would be if I were given a chance I would truly grab that opportunity. I know, whatever I do will reflect my tomorrow. But I wasn't sure if I'm doing the right thing. Is it enough for me to have a bright future? Or it wasn't? The consequence is always there, whom I'm afraid of. Committing mistakes isn't new at all but repeating it over and over again is ultimately wrong. I'm not perfect yet I'm trying my best. If only I could see how my family's future is, I would love it too. I'm not selfish to think of my happiness first. Yes, I love material things, I want to buy that and those but I make sure that my family has something that came from me. What matters for me is my loved ones, where I can see all the smiles painted all over their faces.
**If only I could see the future**, I would like to see how the earth ends, where the time God will come to earth to judge who deserves heaven and hell.
`I will end my blog at this length my lovelies ❤️ Hoping you find something interesting. To my upvoters, likers, subscribers commentors and sponsors, a million thank you ❤️`
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Gallery Raid: Undressing
A hot Tuesday my lovelies! It's been awhile now since I noticed that most of the writers participated in the said prompt by our dearest prof @meitanteikudo, if you want to know more spank me. Who am I to reject this kind of prompt? It's worth a try right? Without further ado, lemme start my undressing moment.
**Oldest photo in my phone**
Well, this is me when I was a kid. Look at that face, she didn't even know how to smile hahahahaha. Phew! I look like a strict child way back then. I took this photo on September 4, 2020. That's my oldest picture as my phone was new at that time so I'll try to use it to take pics of the albums that we had.
**Latest photo in the gallery**
This is the picture that I screenshot on Facebook earlier this morning. It caught my attention as I saw the situation of the baby after it had been kissed. This is the effect of the bacteria from the mouth of the kisser. So I decided to take it as a reminder to be more extra careful in case I will be a mom soon.
**A photo I have no idea what it is about**
It's my eyeglass but I don't know what that's for. I mean what's the reason I took that photo when there's no hidden meaning on it. Gez! I think I have to delete that now hahaha.
**An embarrassing photo**
I don't want to post this but I guess I have too hehehe. This is the time when my 2 sisters, my boyfriend and I headed to the nearest river in the province where the small falls is located. I don't know what his trip was at that time to take that embarrassing photo of mine.
**A selfie/groufie**
I guess I already posted this photo here, this is the time when we decided to go to the beach during my birthday. They are my family, my home and my peace.
**The best photo**
Heart means love. This is Jack's Ridge somewhere here in Davao. Our favorite spot where our love story begins. If we have some time, we used to visit this place, take some photos including this one. " Night in the City".
**A photo of food I want to eat again**
My all time favourite food, this two combo. The Chao fan with fried siomai toppings and this cold halo-halo in the chowking. This is usually the food we eat if we have a date since we don't like some food.
**A place I have been that I want to visit again**
If there's a place I want to visit it's the Buddha where I can feel the coldness of the weather. Where I can see the fog that makes me relax. It might take too many hours to reach the destination but at least it's worth it, the view is breathtaking.
**A photo of someone I admire**
It's him, the person I admire the most. A man who understands me more than anyone. A person who's responsible enough to take good care of me and a gent who loves my soul. I admire how strong he is when it comes to problems, he knows how to handle unlike me. He's my knight and shining armor.
**Beach/Resort/Getaway Photo**
I'm not that confident so better cover what's needed to be covered hahaha. Well, that's a picture taken before, when I was working. They decided to head to head to someone's relatives to give some time and unwind a little bit so they asked me to come and join them. Without further ado, I came and I really enjoyed it though I don't know how to swim hahahaha.
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What if…..
A warm Monday my lovelies! It's been awhile since we experienced the cold breeze which I really love co'z I can sleep whenever I want. But today is something different as Mr. Sunny shows his shining shimmering splendid heat which is on and off. Ow! My apologies for not publishing an article yesterday, as my body needs a lot of rest since the other day I was sleeping late due to my insomnia. Besides, I'm giving myself some time to relax from the stressful school work that truly drained my energy. So my boyfriend and I chose to stay at home and watch a movie. The entire day we are in our bedroom. I'll just go downstairs to cook popcorn and prepare the needed food for the movie marathon. We are done watching 6 movies about 11:30pm (Philippine time) which is quite late. We literally enjoyed our time as the weather told us to cover ourselves with a blanket since it rained the whole day. I even want to spill the movie we watch but I guess I won't since it's for open minded only hehehehe.
`Enough for this, let's start with my topic.`
`What if the pandemic won't stop?`
I know everyone wants this pandemic to end. It already brought us to a more devastated situation where we are financially, physically and mentally ill. Some didn't have the work to cover all the expenses which put pressure on us. Some miss their family from afar co'z it's been a while since they've seen them.
`What if this is just a show?`
I might don't have the right to judge but I have the right to speak. Am I the only one who observed that they are controlling us? Is it the government or the media? Hmff, this might sound stupid but yes, this is what I notice.
`What if they controlled overpopulation?`
People are afraid to go to the hospital to check their health as they are afraid to be tested positive. Some choose to buy medicine just to cover the unusual feeling they felt. The normal fever, cough and runny nose before is way too different now. If you have that then automatically they consider you as a carrier. I was saying they are controlling overpopulation as I observed that a lot died without having the proper finding. I can see some posts on social media where a family rants that their family member is literally okay but ends up in the coffin. How is it possible?
`What if one's economy died?`
As we are facing this tragedy, different country's economies are decreasing. Not just the businesses who are affected but also the individuals who lose their jobs. Some investors are controlling their money just to secure it, which sometimes brings a downfall. If a country loses investors it means that the flow of the economy is not well okay. Some businesses close which makes the government pressure as the taxes decrease as well. Some might open but only accommodate half customers or even 70-80% which truly affect the income adding that some products now are increasing.
`What if the end of the world is about to come?`
This is not possible right? We all know that the end is along the way. Almost all the tragedies that were written in the Revelation are happening and some are about to happen. Are we prepared? Some people died already, some are in the hospital trying to fight for their lives. Some are continuing do the immoral and some are committing suicide. How can we stop this if we all know that this is His plan after all?
**Put all the trust in Him!**
`This is based on my observation and prediction. Respect mine as I respect yours. Thank you my dear lovelies!❤️`
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Deepe'n
The cold breeze touches my pale skin as I am on the balcony drinking a cup of coffee. Hey everyone! How's the cold night going? Does anyone stay in bed for a day? Is anyone productive today? Well, maybe I am one of those who made the day productive though my body wants to sleep. Gez! I have to do the laundry since it's been 2 weeks since I didn't wash it. Guess what? The laundry basket is overflowing hahaha, so I have to lift my butt.
`I'm writing this one as I found it interesting when I read the JustMaryel article yesterday.`
**Why am I afraid of being true to myself when others are around?**
I know I'm not the only one who has experienced this. I mean I can't show the real me as I am afraid that they might hate me. I'm frightened of the hurtful words that came out of their mouths. I just don't want to be hurt just because I'm being true. All I want is them to like me, to appreciate and love me. I let them see the act that I was trying to hide. The good side of Probinsyana. But later on, I realized that whatever I do I can't please everyone, they still have those unnecessary things to throw at me. That's why, I'm being true whether they like me or not. I don't care what they think about me, I don't need their opinion. I am what I am so it's up to them to stay or leave. Nah! I'm sick of showing goodness when what they see is a single mistake. True friend will stay.
**Who was your favorite cartoon character when you were a kid?**
It's Tom and Jerry, my all time favourite. What I like about them is how they care for each other when one is in danger. They seem to always fight and do revenge but they always care. It's odd when we see a cat and mouse close as we all know that they are a mortal enemy. No matter how the deeper the fight is, when one is in need it's gonna be one call away. Moreover, their story gives me a moral lesson that "We can love our enemy"
**How often have I said yes when I wanted to say no?**
Ow! I lost count. I said yes co'z they are my friends. I said yes just because I want to see them happy. I said yes just to end the fight. How ironic is it? I want to say no but my mouth responds the opposite. All I want to do is make the people around me happy though I'm silently struggling. I want to see the smile painted over their faces though I'm crying. I'm selfish and I know it. Ok lang na pagtakluban ng langit at lupa wag lang yung pamilya ko.
**What am I most afraid of about life?**
Lemme think. Maybe I'm afraid to die without making any progress. I'm afraid as I want to make my family dreams come true as mine. I'm frightened to leave this world without any important lessons. I'm afraid of not reaching my goal. I'm afraid of not living my life to the fullest. I want to enjoy life and spoiled myself with everything as my family. I want to help those who are in need, specifically the street dogs and cats out there. I want to help nature bring a green environment. Ow! My ultra fear is to lose one of my love ones.
**What would I do if my biggest fear came true?**
What if? Well, I can't do anything about it. If it happens let it be. Maybe His plan is way better than mine. I'm sure I'm not ready when the time comes but for sure I can cope with it. Things will be better as long as I trust Him. He always knows what's best for me. It might hurt but I'm pretty sure He'll heal it.
`Goodnight my lovelies! Thank you for dropping by ❤️ Well appreciated!`
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Nothing more (25th)
*Cold night my lovelies! Gez! Has anyone experienced a rainy evening? It's kinda cold here that all I want to do is to cover myself with the blanket and sleep as my mind is tired. Adding that I'm not feeling well, I guess it's not good anymore since my migraine keeps on visiting me all day long.*
Yesterday, I decided to head to my Aunt's house just to clear my mind off due to some misunderstanding with my boyfriend. I don't want to spill it off. Anyway, I brought some rambutan at the corner of the street since they're selling out cheaply. I just brought 1 kilo of it for $1 only since I don't have that much cash. I even want to buy Mangosteen, but it's way more expensive. I'm trying to "tipid tipid din pag may time". When I arrived, what I saw was the kid who fit in her legs in between the railing of the gate. She's crying so bad, luckily his father helped her, get the legs out. I think she was just playing but ended up like that. Moreover, I was surprised that it was my cousin's birthday.I never thought that there's an occasion, so I think I got a lucky day despite my situation hahaha.
I was laughing when I saw the birthday boy was the one who cooked food, oww! did I forget to say that he's a chef but not that ultimate one. I mean whatever the celebration may be he's the one who will cook the food as he knows to make it even more delicious. I was making him annoyed as I wanted too but he also annoyed me duhh! Well, anyway the first person who hugged me was none other than his son, the kid who I find sweet. He'll hug me and keep on asking where I am if I won't visit them. I was having fun playing with other kids too, I mean I love kids. Opps! I was helping them as well by just placing the right food to it's spot hehehe.
It was raining that night, so I expected that there's no such visitors. Just us and some neighbors. My cousin's partner is enjoying drinking Margarita drinks, they offer me one shot. I keep on insisting as I feel I want to throw up co'z of its smell. But they're too eager so I take one, I even prevent myself from vomiting as I don't want the taste of it. Luckily, there's some soft drinks so I drank a lot in order for the Margaritas taste to dissolve. Gez! I don't want any alcoholic drink since I notice that my body can't take it, I guess it's become more sensitive. I even don't want the smell since it makes me want to throw up literally. They even want me to be with them, sing karaoke or drink more but I refuse. I hurriedly change my outfit to a duster dress so they'll know that I'm going to sleep ehehehe. I just don't want the feeling so it's better to take a rest as my mind and body are exhausted.
I wake up at 12 midnight, since I'm new to my position of sleep. I used it before but since it's been a while my feeling is not that good. I noticed that my cousin and aunt were awake. I was asking them "why" but she replied that the celebration had just finished. Ow! it's been 12 so I guess my choice to sleep is way better. I tried to go back to sleep but my mind didn't want to. So I read some Wattpad stories until my eyes got tired.
**It's simple nothing fancy!**
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`My apologies for being inactive yesterday, as the DITO signal is not cooperating adding that it rained that time. It makes it difficult to make one or read some articles. I'll try to make it up to y'all.`
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Writing from within
It's been a while since I feel unmotivated and uninspired to write any single article. I don't have any idea that comes in my mind and that makes it even harder as a writer. I am even surprised that I got 1 month here knowing that I'm not good at this. I mean I love English but when it comes to formulating a great article I don't think I am capable of. But here I am still pursuing it co'z I love what I do, though sometimes I can't find any inspiration. Gez! Why is being a blogger way harder? Why did I question it when I'm the one who answers it after all lol! Nothing is truly simple, we have to put extra effort, time and energy towards the work just to gain money and knowledge.
**Finding inspiration** is kinda hard but as long as we are eager to do so then we will surely find one. Watching videos will help too. An inspiration might be a person whom we love the most, our daily life that we wanna share, our journey that makes us stronger or even breaks us. In order to write one, we have to find something that will wake our heart, mind and soul where we can see things clearly and are willing to share wholeheartedly.
**Putting extra effort** means making the idea extravagant. I mean it will take so much time and energy that will probably drain us. But as long as we see the results, effort will pay off. It's worthwhile when we see that readers enjoyed what we write, that they learned something and thus motivates them as well.
**Writing from the heart** is like a person's beauty. What matters is what is inside, the content of the article, not what we just see from it's cover. Beauty is when we see how confident the writer is, as she/he knows that it's worth reading and worth the time. The heart speaks the truth when the mind can't. The heart will pound for the best and the heart will react when everything seems to be crumbled or not. Writing from within means sharing the real you. No need to hide.
**Learn to appreciate** when things won't get what we expected. Appreciating a single writer will boost it's confidence. I'm not a good one nor confident to do so but when I read that one appreciates my work that becomes my motivation to write more and to learn from it. A single word will change one's life and mood. We might don't get what we expected inside but as long as we know how to thank or say appreciation words means a lot to the writer. Trust me that works.
**Moving and learning** are key factors to success. We just can't let ourselves stay what we are now, we can't let that happen, right? I mean we have to move into something where we see ourselves growing. We have to find a place where we see ourselves happy. We just can't stop right here. We have to learn if we make mistakes, we have to grow as it will lead us to success. We have to see things according to what we ought to be. If we want that to happen then find a way, move slowly but surely, learn from those who are already there but make sure that you'll find your own path. A little step will make something different.
**Love what you do or Do what you Love.** Above all, love will make everything so fine. We work hard but we have to make sure that we are happy with what we are doing. We can't see any progress if we are not. Loving will make our work great as long as we put "love" through it. Things might be tough, but surely it will be as light as cotton sooner or later. Trust me everything will fall according to its place.
`Success is along the way`!
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Childhood: Well Spent Days
Ola! my dear read.cash family. I'm pretty sure you're all doing great as you are. Today is totally opposite to how relaxed I am yesterday as we both JustMaryel need to go to the LandBank to ask for the signature of the manager for our Industrial Analysis. Gez! under the shining shimmering splendid heat of Mr. Sunny. After a long time of waiting, they asked us to come in and I really thought we could have it but they just asked for my number when we were going to come back. Wshh! I don't think it's not worth the effort but at least we did something to make progress. Going home at about 2 pm as me and my boyfriend got a small date in Chowking, our favourite fast food of all time. Ow! adding that my headache is still there as I think I will get a fever.
`Moreover, my topic would be how great my childhood was. I was inspired by our dear Lucifer. I guess everyone had a game which we usually played all the time.`
**Patid-Kabayo**
This game is usually played as many as we want. In the middle there's a lot of pairs of slippers, and only one person will guard it. It needs to be kicked hard so that all of the slippers will spread. Before the guard puts it back to normal, everyone should hide and then she will find us. I don't know why they called it that way, when there's no horse included at all. This game is like hide and seek but involves the kicking of slippers.
**Tumbang-Preso (Knocking the Can**)
One of the most popular Filipino games, where it needs an empty can and slippers. There's one taya (or It) as it serves to guard the can. The player's goal is to knock the can down, when it successfully happens the player who didn't make it will try to get their slippers and run before the taya tagged them. Whosoever tag will be the It.
**Bahay-bahayan**
Did anyone do it too? Well, I am lucky to experience this one together with my sister. We usually do it when the weather is quite cloudy or rainy. We will put our blanket into the form we want and tie it. Put some pillows inside and sometimes make a roof made of a blanket. This is literally fun to do.
**Cooking using a Can**
I will never forget this kind of game when we really thought we're cooking. Get some vegetables from our backyard or sometimes use the Malunggay leaves for the toppings. We even act like we put some seasonings on and we taste it. We also do the selling with the use of money leaves hehehehe.
**Telling Ghost stories**
I was born with this kind of genre where I heard different stories about unusual things. I still remember when my Uncle's live-in partner got pregnant, we usually went out at night and stayed in the backyard while looking at the skies that's full of stars. My sister talked about when she encountered them, it might be a ghost, agta (black tall man), dwarf and anything adding the sound that came from the horror drama on the radio. Gez! It's making my hair go up. Besides, we can hear the growling of the dog from the neighborhood.
`While I was writing this one, I couldn't contain myself from smiling and looking backward as I reminisced this memory of mine. Our life is really simple and I'm proud of it. I was able to experience being a child where all I think is to play all day until my body can't. I'm lucky to be raised by my parents. They aren't perfect and I guess no one but I'm grateful to have them.`
I'll end my blog at this length as I have to sleep. Good night my lovelies. Keep rocking on top. ❤️
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Spider Man No way Home: Spoiler Alert
Oh, it's already the 10th day of the month. Look how time flies so fast. But today seems like a rest day for us as me and my boyfriend almost slept the whole day though it's kinda hot. Yesterday, we were planning to watch Spider Man No Way Home and happen during 10pm. That's quite too late for the movie but still we did. This is a spoiler alert hahaha.
We had fun watching it as it has a good plot adding that 3 Peter Parker meet in one dimension. Different enemies came from different times caused by Peter Parker who asked help from Dr. Strange so he could clean his name as his life mess when everyone knows that he is Spider Man adding that he became the vigilant of the city. A lot of them hate him as they thought he isn't a hero at all but some supported him believing that he's still a man with a good heart. Disaster came when Peter change Dr. Strange ritual for 5 times and cause of opening the different dimensions and thus the enemy came to kill him but causes as well to forget who exactly Spidy is.
Peter thought that the ritual doesn't have an effect but he got it all wrong. When they're fighting with Octavius, he eventually forgets Peter and thinks that he's fighting with another man. Then it came to Dr. Strange and trapped him in his place. From one enemy to a lot of them. The Dr. wanted to put them back to the universe they belong to and might cause them to die as he believes that their fate but Peter doesn't want it to happen. He wanted to help them, he wanted to bring them back to their original form before they got their power, he wanted to prove something and this is the reason for the chaos between Strange and Parker. Fight until he trapped the Dr. in the other dimension.
He made the big mistake when he let the prisoner out of the cage as he brought them to his uncle's dorm, so he could inject something that would literally bring them back to normal. The plan was successful with Octavius not until Harry Osborn brainwashed the others and thus caused them to restrain Peter from doing so. They fight until it's the reason why May (the woman who adopted him) died. Parker feels devastated and broken as he blames himself for what just happened. That's when the 2 Spiders come when they feel that there's something wrong, that one needs them. Convincing him that everything will be okay and they both experience the same way and do they continue the journey.
They set the fighting place at the top of Liberty Statue, the trapped and the injection was there. The fighting scene was so great and from time to time their plan isn't that good so they use their Spider instinct to make it one and their plan works pretty well with the help of Octavius who becomes a good guy. Then it came, Dr. Strange tried to stop another dimension from opening it and Peter decided to make everyone forget that he existed, including MJ (his girlfriend). She even doesn't want it but they have no choice after all. So the Dr. did it. Peter's life came back to normal and he started visiting MJ to the cafeteria to get to know her and make her fall in love again. From looking at MJ's face I know, she felt something unusual towards Peter.
**When the mind forgets, the heart doesn't.**
`Did I spoil you that much? Well, that's a great movie to watch too. Thank you for showing your support my lovelies. Have a great night ahead.`
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Meet my babies
*New year but guess what's the gift for me? A headache. Gez! My migraine keeps on visiting me, adding that some of the medicine in the pharmacy has run out of stock since mostly, have the same as mine. Ow! Biogesic isn't available as well as Paracetamol, so I guess everyone had a buying panic. I hope y'all didn't feel the same way too. Health is wealth my dear lovelies.*
The title says it all, but of course they aren't my daughter nor son. I didn't have one yet but I'm sure it's coming hahaha. When I was in schooling I seldom went to my Aunt's house in Davao knowing that it's far and would cost too much. But what is the main reason is that I'm not into traveling, I easily throw up and feel dizzy that would literally drain my energy. Does anyone else experience it too? Instead of enjoying the scenic view of Davao, I was lying in bed. So I better choose to not visit them, and meet unless they will be the one who'll visit us in the province. That's when I'm in highschool but everything changed when I was at my college level.
At first, I felt that especially when me and my Tita went to the school that I wanted to enroll in. The world seems like it is turning and would vomit anytime. I keep on asking my Tita "duol nata? kasukaon nako" ( Are we almost there? I want to throw up already). Since I was new to it, I didn't know where it goes but my Tita always told me to restrain it, so I did. We reach the school out of mind since I'm focused on the feeling that I have at that time. Luckily, my Tita helped me so I could get enrolled. I was happy knowing that I'm a full scholar of the said school and thus I don't have to spend money for my tuition.
**FAST FORWARD….**
I was living with my Aunt's house since my Tita won't allow me to be in their home knowing that it's quite far from the school. At first, I kept on asking the jeepney driver to drop me off at CCSA, co'z I don't want to be out of nowhere hehehe. Meeting new classmates that I never knew, and got friends of mine but changes as time passes by. Things went well in my Aunt's house at first, but what makes me feel bad is how my cousin's live-in partner treats me, as if she owns and paid for everything. When I get home late, she will tell me that I was on a date with someone, though it's not true but when I come home early she will tell me that I didn't come to school. Wait? So what exactly would I need to do? hahaha. I even jokingly tell her that she's reflecting it to what she did during her school days and I'm right to it. What she told me is what happened when she was in school, she's the one who didn't come and have a date with someone. But I am still there for about 2 years and that happens every time. My patience was tested that time and I guess I passed.
So these cute babies are my cousin's daughter and son. This baby boy is the one who'll ask Aunt when I come to visit until now. He's so happy to see with or without food to bring. He'll instantly hug and kiss me and ask to carry him hehehe. Way back then, I'm also the one who fed him and got scolded when he's throwing away food or eating too slowly, which would consume about an hour. I love this kid as he's so cute and spoiled. This babies are naughty and fun to be with siguradong mapapagod ka hahaha.
`Keep rocking on top my lovelies. Have a great night. Thank you for showing your support ❤️`
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From Fireworks to Schoolworks
Happy weekend my lovelies! I hope y'all doing great as you got some time for yourselves. Having a getaway trip? or just sitting in the house relaxing? Well, lucky for you not for me lol! Instead of making myself unwind, I'm here in the house doing all the assignments that our teacher gave us. Gez! This is totally insane, it's all about industrial analysis but only gives us a small amount of time to finish it all. I was hoping that it's easy to do that but no it's not, especially when the managers or supervisors of such companies won't dare to sign up our approval letter so we could conduct our research. Adding the stressful feasibility study of my other subject. Wshh! My brain seems like it isn't functioning well and thus, it drained me so bad. Ow! Did you feel the same too? When you think those days aren't for you. When doing everything you know isn't enough at all?
***What I need to do:*** I have a list of what I'm going to do in order to finish this like unending assignments of mine.
(1) Effort, I was writing it in the first place co'z I think I need to learn more, to grow more and be molded. In order to achieve one's goal we must put extra effort on it, make everything which seems to be impossible. Make it extravagant so the teacher will see how much we put to it. Me and JustMaryel already did our best in any way possible but I guess it isn't enough so our professor will appreciate it.
(2) Try Hard, Try and try until you die, kidding lol!. This is what we do now as we try hard to get the correct format of it. We try harder to change each comment that the teacher drops. We even try the hardest part so we can get it perfectly. I was just feeling frustrated co'z our professor had a comment one by one. What we want is that if there's a mistake on it, why not put all the corrections needed so we could change it all in one change.
(3) Grow, this time is a hard day for me since I have to finish everything before the due date and thus, help me to grow not just as a student but as well as a person. I was growing from my mistakes, when I fell down, instead of giving up I was there trying to meditate for a while then laban ulit. That's how it should be right? I admit I get angry easily and it's inevitable for me adding the signal that it gets weaker when I want to finish instantly.
(4) Move, we can't be able to reach when we don't move. Move slowly but surely, we don't need to make things in a hurry. I mean as long as there is progress then that's a great action already. As a graduating student, it's too difficult to move when there's a hindrance to do so or should I say when the teacher tests us.
(5) Love your work, above all the love will make everything better. When we love what we do then we'll surely succeed. It's kinda hard knowing that the trials are there but what makes it easier is when we put everything to God. He'll surely give us a sign if that way is better or the other way round. As long as we trust His plan it will work well.
`Life is hard, whether we are an employee or students. When we try hard but end up nothing. When we push things to the limit wishing it would be okay but the results say the opposite. Life is unfair, is it? That's for today my lovelies, as I need to complete my schoolworks. Wishing you all the best.`
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*Ola my dear read.cash family! How's life? I'm pretty sure it's doing great. Ow, the weather earlier was too hot and that could ruin my skin care lol! But here comes at night, where it's like pouring a massive rain but hopefully it will as I want to feel the coldness inside just how cold he is hahahaha*.
`Enough for this, let's move on to my topic today`.
**Trust**, 5 words but means a lot. I don't know if I'm the only one who has the experience of trusting someone but ends up broken. When we thought that things are doing okay but the results say the opposite. When I fall for someone instantly, I give all my trust believing that he deserved it or it's because I love that person so badly that I never got the chance to think about it twice. A wrong move, is it? I don't know what's wrong with me, why do they mostly leave me devastated. Can I feel the happiness I'm longing for once? Well, that's how life is right? I mean did I truly deserve that? Why me? Moreover, trust is like our money, if we keep on spending unnecessary things then it will end up gone and we could only get another one unless we strive hard to earn some. Just how trust works. Don't take a person that loves you for granted. It's not easy to be cheated nor hurt. I was there and I'm done with that. A person trusts you because he/she loves you more than you could imagine.
**Sorry**, 4 words but could give you so much pain. Why do people keep on saying sorry without even realizing what they've done?Saying sorry but keep on committing the same mistakes. Uttering sorry but we can't feel that you feel sorry at all. Why is that? "Sorry for hurting you". "Sorry I won't do that again". "Sorry, please forgive me I can't live without you". Ohh? really? Gez! I'm totally sick of listening to those words when someone causes me too much. I mean, why not realizing the outcome first before doing such. You can't make the glass back to its original form after you broke it, why not try to say sorry then let's see. I admit I'm not perfect, I made mistakes but I make sure that I'll never do that again co'z I know how it feels.
**Second Chance,** Does everyone deserve this, from all he/she cause? I was once experienced to be cheated on, he never told me that I'm only his second girlfriend, not unless his sister told me so. Ohh! He felt handsome at that time. I don't know what to do literally, I mean I never see that happen. I don't know if he asked for forgiveness but though he didn't I already forgive for what he caused me. For a second chance? Nah I don't want it, as I believe that if a person once hurt you intentionally and you tolerate it, then maybe he'll do the same over and over again. Forgiving is more than enough for me.
**Love**, 4 strong letters that make us do impossible things. Above all, love is what causes us too much torment. From being devastated to being happy, love has the capability to do that. But why is it difficult to fall in love when we're already experiencing being hurt? Well, I don't know why I even questioned this one when I'm the one who'll answer it. When we're in a stressful situation, we always keep on reminding ourselves to choose the real and best one, or I'm the one who does that. What I mean is that, we just can't point at someone and would literally love him/her, we usually base how he/she acts towards us or whether towards the person around him/her. It's difficult knowing that only a rare person understands you, only some love the whole you and one person is for you.
`Above all, "it's not finding the right person, it's learning to love the person you found".`
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Become One
*How y'all my dear lovelies? I hope you're all doing great! The weather seems to be angry as Mr. Sunny showed again. Gez! Can he hide for once lol!*
My day was a little bit good or it's great actually. We're planning to go to my boyfriend's province as his father's cousin's wedding day, so we're invited. Our plan was to arrive at 8 as the ceremony starts at 9 am (Philippine time). But guess? We literally show the Filipino side of coming and arriving late hehehehe. My boyfriend and I rode a motorcycle so we could easily reach the destination and it would be a long ride under the shining shimmering splendid heat. From a queue of traffic to a green nature. While his family rode a Multicab since they brought something for the newly married couple adding the macaroni salad I was making last night.
We reached the venue but few were there, some said that they're still the church. We wanted to go but we didn't know the exact location so we decided to wait for them. Later on, they came and went straight to the place. A lot of food was already on the table, everything was set. It's simple yet memorable pf course most especially to the couple. We took our lunch and what's funny is that I was sitting where Ninong and Ninang are, where in fact I'm not one of them hahahaha. It's not my fault there's an available chair so why not? grab the opportunity kung baga 😂 Adding a lot of visitors that came. I might don't know them personally but I wish for their best!
After we ate, we went to Lola's place so we could take a rest. My boyfriend and his cousin enjoyed playing ML, while I was having fun playing with his cousin's son. At first, he just stared at me. I thought he wouldn't let me touch him but I was wrong. He even let me carry her from the venue of the wedding to Lola's house. The kid was so playful, even her mom wanted him to sleep but he kept on insisting to play so they did.
While I was busy watching videos my phone slipped and fell down the bumpy cement that causes it to crack and have a lot of scratches. What a stupid action lol!. Moreover, my boyfriend is having fun playing basketball as he misses doing it since he is too busy with his work. Ohh before I forget me and his family are doing the usual things we do when we visit their place. We always light a candle for his brother's grave as well as their lolo and lola. They never forget to prepare some food for them. Serve as the reminder of the soul that his family never ever forgets them though they aren't her anymore. Did I forget to mention that we are asking for some banana heart? as it is good for viand. Gez! That's actually a delicious recipe.
What makes it even more of a bond is drinking "tuba" (I don't know the English word for it) and having the "pulutan" that came from the weddings food hehehe so I guess they got it for free. Well at least they are having fun bonding with each other. Anyway, we can take our time here as my boyfriend won't work today and it's great news for me so we could be able to spend time with them. Things actually went well, I mean this is like unwinding my mind from the stress that I am starting to feel knowing that our subject makes it way too hard for us as students, JustMaryel knows it.
My apologies if I can't visit your articles today as I have to do our pending assignment that stressed us so badly. I'll try to catch up tomorrow 😘
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Miraculous
`A sunny Wednesday my dear read.cash family! I'm pretty sure you are all doing great as you are. Since I don't have any topic to write on, I first opened my Facebook app so I could get some inspiration and luckily I did.`
This story is all about a girl named Lily who believes God truly exists. She was born in a loving family together with her older sister and brother. A long time ago she already knew that God is with her as she sees Him while others can't. Her favorite spot was in a lake where she saw a dead bird, trying to speak some prayers and it instantly came back to life. At night she told her mom that she will see heaven later but her mom replied it would be soon not now. As Lily walked towards the school she saw a dog lying on the street as it was hit by a car, she hurriedly went, spoke a prayer and quickly the dog came back to life. Is it amazing?
Lily had a friend who couldn't walk for the rest of his life that asked her for help as he saw what she did to the dog. She said she will and on the same day his friend heals from being crippled. Her healing spread all over their place and all the people came to their house to ask for help, to heal their sickness. Her family tried to stop her as they are worried of the possible outcome that might bring their daughter to danger. But Lily insists she wants to help as she is capable of. She first healed the girl who had cancer and it went well. Next, the girl who's blind and now can see to so on. After what she did, Lily collapsed as her body felt too tired. Day by day, she gets weaker and weaker. She even ask his grandfather to bring her to the lake, so his lolo gathered a friend to help him as her family didn't allow her to go out. Someone tried to sneak into the hospital to pretend like Lily, while some got the attention of the nurse so they wouldn't notice and others also brought Lily to the wheelchair. Later on, her family finds out and hurriedly goes to the lake, where they see Lily lying. A bright light appears and all of the people kneel down. Lily's soul went to the light and then there they saw the appearance of God.
Moreover, they brought the cold body of Lily to the bed and his brother saw a picture of Lily. That's when they realized that she already knew that would happen. As they tried to figure out, they saw a picture of Lily coming to heaven and a pic that shows she was going to live and it did. Lily came back to life and she said " **God never forget the kindness of people".**
**Lesson learned:**
`Believe Him`
We have to trust Him as He knows what's the best for us. He knows what we are capable of and He knows what will be going through. Trust His process and it will surely go well.
`Be kind`
Just like Lily, if we are capable of helping, why not? Helping hands is what people badly need. If we can share then that would be great.
`Accept the outcome`
Whatever the result, it's the outcome of what we did lately. If things are good then maybe you did great but if it didn't go according to plan then maybe His plan is way better than yours.
`Never ever forget to pray and acknowledge Him`
Prayer is the most powerful weapon for any circumstances. Prayer is our connection to Him. There might be unanswered prayers but for sure He's preparing for the big surprise. He owned everything and anything in this world and we should acknowledge Him for that.
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Nothing Fancy (His 22nd birthday)
`How y'all my lovelies! I actually am not in a good mood as I don't feel well. The weather always changes its ambiance, from showing Mr. Sunny's shining shimmering splendid heat to instantly pouring rain. Guess what? I got a headache from the runny nose I had.`
Gez! I even want to be productive as today is my boyfriend's birthday. I don't want to be lethargic as I need to prepare and cook food for the simple celebration. It's been a while since I got this unusual feeling that I can't even decide what to do whether to stay in the room and sleep or go out. Besides I don't want to invite negativity as it well consumes the whole me and I usually let it happen. Anyway, I don't know what to really cook. When I asked my boyfriend what to prepare he just replied "dili nata maghanda uy" (don't need to celebrate it). But his mother keeps on insisting to prepare some as he is used to it. My other half just wanted to make it plain simple but again his mother told me to buy that, to buy this since there will probably be visitors or relatives coming. I actually got confused about both of them, besides we don't have that huge budget to do it. I mean after all I'll be the one who'll initiate it and will do the cooking and cleaning.
I don't know what to do exactly, what makes me feel bad is that his mom is always telling me to cook this and that, as if she'll help me (sorry for the words but it's true). It's really difficult living with my boyfriend's family as I can't do what I want, whether I don't want to clean or whether I don't want to move. I really want us to be out of here literally, like having our own, I'm sick of it already. I do have respect . That's why when she said not too nice I just kept my mouth shut though I really wanted to answer her. Moreover, let's go back to the topic hehehe😁
We decided to have a pancit (Filipino belief that if we have this it means long life), cook the chicken that they had and buy some lechon manok. I think there's no more spaghetti or macaroni since we're immune to the sweet foods during the celebration of New Year. I was planning to order lumpia but I don't know who I'm going to ask since I don't really know the people around here. I mean I only go out to buy daily needs then that's it, no communication to others. We're planning to go to Lots for Less since they're products are not that expensive unlike the other stores. Buy all the necessary ingredients and get some sort of groceries. We are actually celebrating it at night so we could prepare everything we want too. I don't know if we have a visitor's but surely there are. Hoping it's not that massive amount of people since Covid is still there adding the food that's not that more. As I said, we're trying to budget all the money that we had, so we can have some to buy all the primary needs. The celebration would be nothing fancy nor expensive, just this simple one.
Opss! Before I forget, this day is my niece's birthday too. I even want to celebrate with her but of course I have a boyfriend so I choose him this time. I don't know what they prepared for this day but surely it would be great. Gez! I also miss them. Moreover, my other half turned 22 and my niece turned 5 years old.
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I'm exhausted
*First Monday of the year which means it's school time. Gez! Can we have an extension? lol! Anyway, my apologies if I wasn't able to write an article yesterday, I was too exhausted from the errands we do and came home about 11 pm (Philippine time). I never got the chance to visit any of your articles. But surely I'll check that out today as I don't want to miss any chances to read yours. Moreover, let's go to my topic for today and how enjoyable yet tiring it is for me*.
Yesterday me and my boyfriend already planned to go out as this day is his rest from work. Usually it's our date time when it's Sunday. Our priority is to buy an LCD screen for his brother since it's already broken because of how many times it falls that makes it so wreck. We head downtown to purchase one but guess what? the specific store is closed, we decided to find another store that sells the same but they're closed again. So we chose to tour around DCLA co'z I'm planning to buy a pair of jeans but there's no available size with my small waist gosh! We drop by a shoe store where my boyfriend is busy choosing his favorite shoes while I also went to the opposite store to look for a bag but the price is way too expensive. My other half got his gray aqua blue shoes which he loves so badly.
We headed to San Pedro where City Hall of Davao is located, and dropped by a thrifted store since I saw some cute jeans and besides it's only $2 per item which is not that expensive unlike the brand new one. We also took a pic in the Christmas lights decor and found street foods co'z my stomach started to growl. My all time favorite kwek-kwek (boiled egg coated with colored flour adding the cucumber), long hot dogs which my boyfriend's love and french fries. It satisfies us so well.
I thought after that we'll be going home but my other half decided to go to the mall to play World of Fun or either Tom's World. Wshh! I'm totally excited about it. We went to the spot where games are located but unfortunately the time was cut off and the available time was 8pm to 9pm so we hurriedly got a ticket so when the time comes we'll be able to play some sort of games. But first we'll take our dinner in the Chowking since we love the food they offer, specifically the Chao Fan. After we ate we instantly went to the place since it's almost 8 pm and luckily they allowed us to enter already. We literally enjoy it, I want to get a toy but I can't get any gosh! I don't know how to do it hehehe. We tried and tried but it's not working, so we better find a game so we can get more tickets. We played basketball together, we did the ball rolling and a lot more and got a total of 578 tickets. Since we're tired of the games they had we went to the other spot that does not offer the same games. We played Pearl Fishery in which if the ball drops into the tickets then we can have it. I was also playing the bonus games in which I got a lot of tickets from it. We even want to have a bumping car but it's already close. We got a total ticket of 648.
**My day was exhausting but I literally enjoyed it. This is our first date during 2022 and I'm looking forward to more to come.**
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Cheers 2022
`The same date and month but in a different year. Ola my dear lovelies! Are you still having the hangover? or you didn't take a little bit of a shot? lol! How's the celebration? Is everyone okay? Hopefully this year will be better than 2021.`
As I stated in my previous article, I'm celebrating with my boyfriend's family for the first time so practically I'm in the city right now which faces 2022 into something more noisy. Did you feel it too? This is how we celebrate New Year:
`1.Preparing Foods`
Of course, who wouldn't prepare some right? We actually have spaghetti, chiffon cake, and loaf bread which is always present on any occasion. My boyfriend's mother also cooked some bulalo and grilled bangus, we didn't cook that much since there was still leftover food during Christmas hehehe. So we choose to not make it fancy nor expensive as long as there's something food on the table.
`2.12 Round Fruits`
Filipino believe that if we have a round fruit during the New Year then we'll be blessed abundantly as the round means money. But you know what I realized? It's not the fruits that make a person or family blessed, it's actually how we think and work towards the goal that we set for ourselves. The fruit is just a symbol of it, not the reason. Above all believing in God is the main reason why people succeed in life. There's nothing wrong with having round fruits on the table during the New Year. What's important is how we face problems with positivity, embrace the failures, then surely success comes along the way.
`3.Horn or Used Torotot`
We usually use this most especially when we're kids. During the countdown we hurriedly prepared our torotot to blow it as hard as we could until there's no air left inside lol! Gez! This is the reason why I got my mumps (bayuok) hahaha but now I no longer use it. While some used their motorcycle or car horn to welcome the New Year, that makes it even more noisy.
`4.Changing or removing the muffler`
Woahh! This is actually the most annoying yet enjoyable sound I heard. It's so noisy that it seems like it breaks my eardrums. Last night my boyfriend did it, he changed his exhaust muffler into something more noisy (bora-bora). He opens up his motorcycle and turns the silator to the maximum level which makes me feel that I can't hear.S
`5.Splashing money (I don't know the correct words of it)`
This is usually what some families do, they spread the coins to the kids or even adults so they'll be the one who picks it up and how much they get they can have it. My mother's boyfriend did it as well last night, but she did it beside the road and everyone was also busy picking up the coins, including our neighborhood and so I did hehehe. I only got $.4 (20) since a lot of them were picking it too.
This is one of the most memorable New Year's I have. It's just a simple yet priceless day of mine. I celebrated it with my boyfriend which I had been wishing for a long time and luckily it happened. I guess wish granted! I miss my family as well as this is the first time I wasn't there celebrating together. Moreover, 2022 is a year of TIGER (if I'm not mistaken) and has a lucky color BLUE. Maybe some of you are celebrating alone but I hope y'all okay. Someday somehow God will give you a person whom you can have with or better get the chance to celebrate it with the family. Hopefully, Covid will end and this year may bring us joy and a fruitful future for all of us. This is Probinsyana saying "Happy New Year my lovelies, rock on top!".
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2021 Lesson Learnt
`Few more hours to go and it's gonna be a New Year! How's y'all my dear read.cash family? Hopefully you did great! Is everyone busy preparing for the huge celebration? or are y'all done? Gez! Us nah! Just a simple one so it didn't cost so much effort and energy. Actually this is my first time celebrating my new year together with my boyfriend for 3 years. Usually we're LDR as I did my celebration in my province. I'm totally excited about it! So let's move to my topic today.`
**I listed the important lessons that I learned this year that molded me into something better.**
`Always Set A Goal For Yourself`
I'm a kind of woman who always had goals in life but what this year taught me is that to set specific objectives I want to reach as this month or a year. Always have short and long-term goals.
`Always Step One At A Time`
I can't do things altogether, who can? I mean after all I only have one body which needs to be a little bit slower. There's nothing wrong with that as long as I can see that there's any progress. "Slower but moving".
`Work and Try Hard`
I personally experience being rejected whenever I want to apply for a job not just once, twice, thrice it is even more. With that my self-esteem became so low that I thought I couldn't make it, even questioning my capability. I was desperate to get one but guess? luck isn't for me at all or either there's no available for me. But I learned that failure is always part of one's life, we can't be able to face success not unless we fall down first.
`Don't force someone to stay when they want to leave`
If we truly love someone we shouldn't be selfish enough to stop a person from leaving our life. People always come and go whether we like it or not, and I was there. I already experienced this one and that makes me strong. I do always open my door for those who stay or even for those who want to leave. After all it's not my loss it's that person who leaves me.
`Don't mind what people say about you`
I was born being judged that I can't reach college nor have a bright future. They always told me that I'll get pregnant early and I got used to it. At first I felt hurt, who wouldn't? most especially when the one doing that is the relatives of mine. Today, "blood is no longer thicker than water", what I mean is that the person who's there to help isn't a part of the bloodline at all. Some relatives only accept it unless we become successful. That's why I really hate "PLASTIC".
`Look for the brighter side`
This year is full of challenges that test ourselves not just how strong we are but how faithful we are to Him. When things get any worse we have to see at least a little bit of light in it, there's always a rainbow after the rain but when that time comes we'll surely be there standing as our success comes along the way.
`Don't dwell over the past`
Move on! We shouldn't let ourselves stay in the dark room reminiscing about the past. We shouldn't let the memories destroy our life and we shouldn't let people remove the happiness in us. It's our life and we should be the ones who control it. Move to a place if needed, meet someone new who impart positivity not the opposite and learn to love and appreciate someone.
*This year taught us different lessons that we can bring this coming 2022. A lesson wherein it helps us to be the better version of ourselves. Trials that test our strength. If we don't find success this 2021 then maybe next year will. We only have to move and wait until the right and perfect time comes then surely we are totally prepared for it. What's the lesson you learned my lovelies? Care to share yours? I'm willing to read it*!
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Happy New Year 🎆
15,000 Hearts
*Good evening, good day to where you are in this part of the world. How y'all? Hopefully you rock on top my lovelies! Today is December 30. New year is along the way. This is the most awaited journey as we close the chapter and open a new one. Some might do the rush hour of buying the ingredients needed during that celebration. I wish someone would send me a macaroni salad lol!*
Me, my sister and my boyfriend planned to go to a place where we could unwind a little bit since we were too bored. But I never expected that it would be a long drive to get there. Gez! The road isn't that good at all, it's literally bumpy everywhere. We're actually using only 1 motorcycle since the other was too old and I guess it can't hold a long drive. I feel sorry for my boyfriend's motorcycle co'z surely it has a lot of scratches on it's pipe knowing that it sometimes touches the rocky road. My cousin even told us to use the other way to reach there, without knowing that it would take too much time and effort. The view is nice but the road? Nah! it's totally opposite but still I enjoyed the beautiful view adding that the road is quite near to the sea. What's funny is that my sister forgot the exact roadway, so we chose to stop and ask someone. We traveled for about 1 hour or more expecting that it had an entrance fee of $3 and of course we had to order some of their food or drinks that's kinda expensive. They have a pizza but it costs $12 gosh! that's totally insane for only 1 box of it. So we better choose the smoothie which costs almost $3.
We thought that the view wasn't worth a penny but we're totally wrong. When we went back there we saw a different spot that was actually worthwhile. The garden style, the pool that's cool to look at when it's night since there's a light in there. The cute bridge that had a light above, a different color of a house and a colorful floor which seems so lovely. 15,000 hearts which is the main attraction to the place as it means LOVE. It's not a real flower or a LED light one anyway, it is a styrofoam that was formed using a heart. Everything is beautiful, so we hurriedly took pictures in every spot, from here to there just to serve as a remembrance. My ate looks like a photographer to us as she's the one who took us a pic hehehe. I also enjoyed taking pictures of her whether she's standing or sitting, adding my love to the rose so I took a photo of it. If you are a coffee lover, they have a Hobbiton Cafe wherein you can order whatever you want, but be sure to pay for it lol! But if your stomach is aching they have a restroom which is pretty clean, alcohol and tissue is free.
The overall view is worth it, as it brings me the nature vibes which I am fond of. The wind blew hard as did my hair. The clouds are just perfect, the 15,000 hearts remind me to show love to others. This is actually one of my most memorable memories as me and my sister spend time with each other. My sister before didn't want to go out nor explore, luckily her attitude changed as she's the one who asked me to go out and find a place for us to tour around. Anyway, we came home about 7:30pm (Philippine time), and we reached home exhausted. My family is preparing the food for the dinner but we didn't eat instantly because I still felt dizzy and wanted to throw up. Gez! That was totally a tiring yet memorable day.
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A Prosperous New Year To All!
Beach Babe
New year is about to come! This gonna be 2 more days to go! Gez! I’m excited for another year knowing that I’m a graduating student. Hoping that 2022 will be better than 2020 where there’s no Covid at all. How’s the weather anyway? Here in the province? Nah! As expected it is as cold as your partner lol! Mr. Sun is hiding his shining shimmering splendid heat. The wind blew hard as the leaves fell as I fell for him hahaha, no kidding. No traffic up here, no air nor water pollution, everything here just looks fine where nature gives the fresh ambiance. Unfortunately, I have to leave this place again as I have to go back to the city so I can continue my class knowing that the signal here is way too weak and I don’t want to get a lower grade just because of that.
Who would like either?
As I stated with my previous article, yesterday was my birthday. It's a simple yet memorable day of mine. Yesterday it rained so we decided to head to the beach, just us family. My parents, 2 sisters, my niece, my aunt, my one cousin and of course my boyfriend. We really enjoyed soaking ourselves in the warm salty water of the sea. The white sand that’s really cute, adding to the peaceful moment since no other outsider was there. Though the clouds seemed sad, I still enjoyed it’s scenic view. We brought some food so we could eat. My mom packed chicken adobo, fried fish, grilled pork and added rice. Moreover, my sisters brought soft drinks co’z we’re addicted to it. We’re fond of doing this, where we spend time together, then after we take a family picture. Anyway, there’s no entrance fee but expected that the beach had no maintenance at all, it’s actually not that quite far from the house but the problem is that the road is literally bumpy. It’s kinda difficult to reach the area but luckily we did and came home safe around 4pm (Philippine time).
Since my cousin’s daughter’s birthday too so we didn’t prepare food that much. I know that her parents would make it more “bonggacious”. Yes! That’s why! Hehehehe. Actually, they prepared a lechon, cooked some vegetables lumpia and fried chicken. They also have a macaroni salad, maja, spaghetti that my mom also asked me to prepare for her to cooked it but I refuse though the ingredients is still there co’z I know that there’s a lot of leftover if we have it too. They have a cake which my boyfriend also want to buy but I insist because it’s quite expensive and it doesn’t need anyway I mean seriously I’m not used to have a big celebration, simple one is more than enough for me and I think I’m too old to do that. I’m now 22 and my cousin’s daughter is turning 5. Besides, we have a mango float and we share it to them and vice versa. My sister even want to make an ice cream but I refuse nor cooked our macaroni because after all it’s not that matters. To be honest, I don’t want to spend too much money for my birthday celebration not unless it’s for my family. Maybe I’ll save it for my boyfriend’s upcoming birthday wherein I keep my BCH income to buy him a gifts or prepared a food for him. I also keep on asking him about his plan but he said that maybe we’ll have a rides. He said to not make it fancy, but I know he’s not used to it. I mean his family always have a huge celebration if one of their family members birthday. From now I don’t know actually what my plan. Hopefully, I can think of a better way to make him happy.
*I will end my blog at this length. Thank you for reading my nonsense article for today. No more etchos at all. To my dear likers, upvoters, commenters and sponsors a million thank you. Y’all mean a lot to me!*
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Twenty Two
The weather is as cold as I feel lol! It’s totally opposite anyway. Today is my day! Yey I can’t imagine how time flies so fast. I never thought that I would reach at this age knowing that I’m a suicidal woman. Yes, you read it right! Luckily, God didn’t allow it to happen. I am now 22!
**T**wo years I’ve been dealing with my depression which leads me to do the things that I shouldn't have done in the first place. I was out of nowhere thinking that no one will be there for me. Crying every night to lessen the pain that was burning inside of me.
**W**hen I was in this situation, I was a woman who’ll willing to accept everything, whether a person that I met hurt or loved me, I didn't care at all. I’m sick of it! People come and go, so whatever happens duh! That’s it! My life sucks!
**E**ven if my family doesn’t know about this, why would I tell them? First and foremost I don’t want them to be worried nor think of me most of their time. I guess this is my responsibility so I have to find a way to get rid of it if and only if I want to. I mean I'm already used to it! This isn’t new to me.
**N**o one gives me the reason to live, or I should say I didn’t see the most valuable reason for it. I was blinded by my feelings that all I care is myself or did I? It seems like I was living in the dark world, no colors at all, no lights and no life. How’s my life? Well, obviously it is as lifeless as a cold body lying in the coffin.
**T**hinking about how boring, right? Gez! That’s way killing myself can’t shrugged off my mind, either slicing off my wrist or hang myself up. That’s the things that have been running through my head for 2 years. It’s kinda long, isn't it?
**Y**es! I did it! I cut my wrist many times but luckily it didn’t save my life. The thick blood that was flowing through my arms didn't scare me at all. All I was thinking is my eagerness to live in this unfair world I live in.
**T**ired, that’s what I always feel, can I rest for once? Can I sleep without waking up? Can someone tell me that “everything will be okay”. Can I lean on someone? Can you be my crying shoulder? I’m freaking tired!
**W**hen I thought that no one cares, there you came. My knight and shining armor who’s willing to listen to all my dramas in life. A person who never gets tired of telling me how beautiful the world is. A man who keeps on reminding me that he will never leave me nor hurt me. He promised to love me forever. I put my trust in him co’z I believe what he says. From then on, I am now the happiest woman in the world.
**O**h I got it! I got my man now who brings joy to my lifeless world, who colors my dark place, who loves me more than I ever thought.
*This would be my article today, as I have to prepare the things needed for our simple yet memorable celebration of mine. We actually got a double celebration as today is our 46th Monthsary. Yey! Cheers for my 22 years in this beautiful world and cheers to us Love. Thank God for allowing me to live in His place. May the Lord bless me more and to you my dear readers.*
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Two Birthdays
*A cold Monday my dear lovelies as so my feelings lol! It’s been a week that I’m not in the mood to write nor enjoy. All I want to do is to be isolated, need time to think or either find a place where no one knows me. Gez! I’m starting this article into something boring, is it? The weather keeps on telling me to be this cold, so don’t put the blame on me hahaha.*
My mom is having their Health Center party somewhere on the beach which is not quite that far from the house. She was asking my niece to accompany her so she could enjoy it too, of course without further ado she said Yes knowing that she’s fond of the sea. I even want to join so I could unwind and take a picture too, it’s been a long time that I wasn’t able to enjoy the scenic view of the beach, the salty smell of the water and the sea creatures but I don’t want to bother them and I feel shy to be with my mom’s colleagues. For sure I’ll be in the hot seat, they keep on asking me about private things. So better stay here in the house with my younger sister, doing household chores, I think this is way better hehehe. Besides I was thinking about my upcoming birthday, on what to prepare or cook.
Actually I have TWO birthdays, would you believe that? Of course you should lol! Well, December 28 is the exact date I was born but unfortunately the nurse registered it as January 08 instead of December so expected that my NSO Certificate says I was born in January adding my PSA Certification. We even want to change it to what exactly it should be but it’s kinda expensive if we do so. From then on, I will celebrate my birthday on December 28 but when I’m in school it’s gonna be 8 next month. Whenever I have to fill out a form I always write what’s in my NSO to avoid confusion. Besides, I am already used to it so it’s not new to me, accept what it is, then that’s it!
I don’t know if we’re the ones who experience this kind of thing; it’s way too different from what it should be. Moreover, my mom’s and her siblings have a misspelled Surname too. Gez! Why is that? Instead of letter U the registration states letter A so it’s like they aren’t siblings anymore. They don’t have the choice since it’s already written in the NSO, until they got married that’s what they brought, an A and U, adding my older sister Middle name too that’s A and us we got U. Confusion to the bone hahaha. So we really have a little misunderstanding of what is right. I think the nurse hates us lol! So we better choose to stay like that, than find a way to correct it, as I said “We are already used to it”. Besides, I think my boyfriend’s name has a misspelling too, instead of N they put M, so it’s kinda redundant, what in the world is happening?
Even though there's a change, we still celebrate the exact date I was born and **we are sisters by blood** though we have a different Middle name. Misspelled isn’t the basis for love nor care, it’s what inside matters. But I hope my next generation won’t experience this kind of mistake whether it is a name, birthdate, surname or whatever. It’s really confusing. Maybe we should and must follow up in order to avoid a misunderstanding regarding the proper and correct information.
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