Your soul is shaped like a knife.
You told me to hold on while you were letting go
i thought we were stronger together
it turned out it was only my strength, holding us in place.
Letting go after holding on so tightly, showed me that I am capable of far better things. Than loving someone who only loved the idea of me.
**But I deserve more**
i deserve more of your attention than your phone does
i deserve quality time not just time
i deserve effort, not just routines
I deserve to be treated as a priority, not as the last thing on your checklist
i deserve to be your only option.
I wanted more love and attention
I wanted more touch and ecstasy
I wanted more romance and sweet talks
i wanted more hugs and nice kisses.
Instead
you emptied my love and gave me pain in return
you tortured my heart, filling it with deceits
you crushed me empty and caused me wild pain
i asked you to love me until the sun burns out, but you left me during my darkest hour.
I asked you to hold me tight forever, but you left me without no clue.
I asked you to help me grow, but you made me fall down to the pit
i begged you to love me forever, but you left me with no words.
I asked you to be my companion but you left me like I didn’t mean anything.
I remember the pain I felt in watching our love fade from fire to ash,
I remember how you hurt me with your words, how you made me feel inferior
I remember how you crippled my love and body shamed every single time
how you talked behind my back, and smiled when we spend time together
I remember how you gave me agony and trapped me within.
i told myself
i told myself it was love, that eagerness you had to possess me.,
I told myself it was love because there were so many parts of me you wanted to touch.
I should have known better when I felt your cold hands come up against my burning heart, that you only wanted to touch me
You never wanted to hold me, and you definitely never knew how to love me
your hands know no mercy
Your eyes, sees no truth
your tongue that twists a beautiful lie
And hearts that hold grieve and deceits
your soul is shaped like a knife, wicked and full of evil..
there are so many words that burns hot in my mouth, but I will hold my tongue and spare the world the grief of our love.
Your name burnt a hole in the roof of my mouth, right through the tip of my tongue
Now I’m stuttering through blackened and broken teeth, gasping for a truth I know will deafen me
I feel broken and empty now
My heart is heavy and my soul burning
i Loved you with all my breathe, and cared for you like you’re my second soul.
Now I am afraid.
I am simply afraid
Afraid of investing more of myself to more heartaches in return
I’m afraid of falling into the wrong arms again
I’m afraid of being disappointed by short-lived promises once again
I’m afraid of creating memories I will fight to bury once again
I’m afraid of changing strangers to lovers only for you to change into stranger again
I’m afraid of kissing lips that will say”goodbye” once again.
**I am simply afraid of finding myself back on the frontline for disappointment.**
**So I’m letting you go forever**
**But you should know I loved you**
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I hope you find it one day......
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***Every single step counts even the tiniest of efforts you put in everyday takes you closer to your better days. Know that when it’s too difficult and you are struggling to hang in there, it’s the little changes and the little choices you dare to make that helps you move towards hope again. So don’t discredit yourself if you didn’t accomplish a lot today.***
If you don’t give up on life and it’s possibilities even on your darkest days, if you believe with all your heart that even the worst of things in your life can turn out to the best for you; then the right time will come and things will change and one day you’ll look back to this day with peace and gratitude that you had the courage to choose to stay.
Every season is different and unique and a necessary part of your growth cycle. Remember when you go through those days and months of uncertainty and heartbreaks of not knowing and hopelessness. Remember that even though it is difficult, you can always trust that there is a purpose and something important is happening behind the scene that you may not always understand. But someday you are going to look back and feel grateful, you’ll be happy that the darkest days made you strong and gave you the wisdom to be the person you are becoming everyday.
***Remember no amount of difficulty can stay forever , so the thing that you are going through right now, the thing that feels too hard to get past will wash away someday by the waves of life. Give life sometime, give your heart sometime as well, to the process the changes that are taking place. Have hope and believe again.***
Never take what you have for granted.
Remember true happiness and freedom of the mind comes from the realization that you have enough and no matter what you achieve or do not achieve in your life you are still blessed in countless ways. When you are less focused on having more instead cherish and appreciate the things you already have ; so your heart can grow with a new sense of love for life.
**Always be grateful, being grateful doesn’t mean you have to love every part of your life. It’s okay to feel hurts when something doesn’t turn out the way you thought it would, especially for things you have given so much of your heart and efforts.**
**What gratefulness means is that no matter what happens or what you go through, you are able to appreciate the journey. During the struggling moments have faith in your heart that you are already enough and what you deserves will somehow find it’s way in the right time**
APPRECIATE YOUR JOURNEY
Don’t be afraid to fail, but be afraid of not trying enough, not doing what is possible of you because of your fear of failure. The journey of your life may not be a straight and easy one and it may not also unfold when and how you want. There could be so many twist and turns along the way. Sometimes life might also push you back, not to hurt you but to help you see things clearly so that you can choose what is best for your heart again. So have faith that there is a greater purpose in your struggles. Don’t give up on yourself you’re going to grow stronger and see what life has in store for you my friend.
**so I hope you walk on this journey knowing that you belong. I hope even if things sometimes do not go your way you’ll not give up on yourself. And on your toughest days I hope you will keep reminding yourself of this;( you are loved and you’re worthy even when it doesn’t feel that way). Keep going even when the road is long, keep going even when it’s hard to hold on, remember why you started.**
Life is still happening, you are still becoming, even though you don’t know why things are changing. Even if your life right now is not what you expected you can still choose to keep doing your best. Sometimes it’s easy to loose sight of hope in the times of your struggle but remember this, life is made of possibilities. And if you can find the courage to hang in there through those temporary hard days, the good days you’re waiting for will come as well. No matter how you feel today, your struggles will not waste.
PAIN IS NOT PERMANENT
Embracing the fullness of life means embracing all its difficult part as well the uncertainty, the waiting, the pain, the heartbreaks, the sadness and hopelessness. There will be many things in life that you won’t have control over, they will cripple you, hurts you, break you into prices but they will also build your character and change you completely as a person. So when you encounter them don’t fear. Welcome the as opportunities to grow, to be better version of you. You will be hurt with life process but in the same process you’ll learn how to find a stronger you.
**Lesson for Life____ you cannot escape the difficult days, you can only learn to live through them**. **So may you always find away to see the light in the world and have comfort in knowing that you are not lost, even if you don’t know where you are.**
**so when you start to see your life as a journey and have faith in your strength, you will see that there is purpose even in your pain, even in your hard days there are lessons you can learn from and there are reasons for you to carry on.**
while life can be uncertain and difficult at times, you are still In control of how you choose to respond. It’s okay if nothing good happens today, some phases of life are meant to be uneasy and difficult. Life will test your courage and patience, they will test how Much believe you have in yourself .. but if you don’t give up on yourself when the times are hard. Life will reward you with things only the bravest ones deserves.
YOU CAN OVERCOME
The bravest and strongest people in the world are not the ones with an easy past. They had the hardest of things to go through and countless days of heartbreaks to overcome. Sometimes like you, they had the thoughts of giving up but they instead there carried on through it all even when things did not change. They never allowed their circumstances stop them from believing in themselves instead they chose to grow through them. So if you find yourself in that hopeless phase, remind yourself that you have what it takes, that beyond the difficult days there are better days ahead.
i know there many reasons for you to give up right now, too much pain to carry on any further. You are your reason to try again. Keep going life may not look bright but every day there is something to hold onto even in your darkest days.
**someday all of these___the struggles, the waiting, the moments of self doubts and wondering, all of this will make sense. But for now have comfort in knowing that you are trying your best, have faith that even though life has not been kind to you lately, you’re learning to be kind and gentle with yourself. Trust that the struggles are here to make you strong**.
Maybe during this period of waiting you will find out things that are truly worth waiting for. And maybe by going through these moments of self doubt and wondering you’ll learn to believe in yourself, you will discover what is best for your heart. Remind yourself that even though it feels like forever, this is just a phase of your growing process.
Always remember the little things you do matter, the small steps you take , the tiny goals you achieve each day all matter. Even if they don’t mean so much in the moments. Remember they all add up and on day they will make sense. So start where you are, start with what you have today. Even if some days the old feeling of doubts and pain appear in your heart again and they make you feel afraid to take any more steps, remind yourself that these feelings are not permanent and you are still capable of moving ahead. Believe that the same way life has helped you grow through your past circumstances, it will use these moments of doubts and challenges to help you grow more stronger again
quick reminder__just know pain is never permanent.
THINK before you DATE
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Falling in love is the most delightful experience. In fact it is the only kind of falling that we ever enjoy. But as such times we are not always responsible for our actions. That is why it is so important to *think before you date.* Many people think there are in love with someone, when in reality there are only in love with life. There are certain kinds of individuals that a wise young person will avoid becoming involved with. They are not suitable as life partners. Here are some of the more obvious types of individuals that one should avoid
Don’t date or marry this person
**—** ***A changeable person.*** There are unstable to make up their own minds. They are likely to prove unfaithful in years to come.their instability arises from some deep neurosis
**—A selfish person**. One who is domineering and must always have his own way, such people are not well balanced. They do not settle down to married life very well
**__ A dishonest person.** Even in the smallest things one should be strictly on the level of truth. There is nothing but trouble with a person who is basically dishonest
**__A jealous person.** Someone who is jealous is in love with themselves. They are always insecure and unhappy towards others.
Young people need to remember that marriage never changes a persons character. Too many girls have married alcoholics in the hope of reforming them and many men boys have married girls thinking there’ll stop hookups. Marriage never reforms anyone. If you’re planning to get married be sure it is a sensible partnership. Both of you need to be mature. you need to have common interests and similar goals in life. No marriage can be successful if one is pulling in one direction and the other in another direction. It is wiser if you both have the same religious principles and ideals. You should be equally intelligent and willing to adjust to each other’s needs and desires.
Choosing a mate
choosing a mate is one of the most important things that you will ever do in life. It is well to ask yourself few questions.
Are your backgrounds similar? If not, you had better seriously reconsider. Your chances of happiness will be slim indeed
Are you both on friendly terms with your own parents? How well do you know the other persons parents? Have you met them in their own home and seen how they live? This might reveal how you will be expected to live
Are you really proud of this person whom you are now thinking of marrying? Or are you a little ashamed, especially when in company of your friends? Such marriages are not likely to last
is this person a jealous individual? If so, beware. Such a person can be jealous of his/her own children. He/ she can make life miserable for everyone
Do you both hold the same religious faith? If not, you are asking for trouble. One may change his religion just prior to marriage, but this does not change his character. Millions of unhappy people will agree that religious differences run far deeper than they had suspected.
Are you both emotionally mature! . If you want to marry select someone who is mature and well balanced on whom you can rely on.
True happiness can come only from within. Happiness doesn’t come from external things.people who are well adjusted can do much to help each other. They will be willing to sacrifice for the good of the home.. they are unselfish and willing to go more than half way to bring happiness to each other. They will not make unreasonable quarrels.
while people who are poorly adjusted often irritates each other. They seem unable to bring themselves to help each other people, especially those within their own family circle. They are continually thinking of themselves and their own wants and needs..
Before you go out on that date, think carefully of the possible consequences, is this the kind of person with whom you wish to spend the rest of your life with? If not, then use good judgements and avoid the risk. But if you are happy and we’ll matched and if you are both well adjusted and willing to do more than you share , then go ahead with your plans for the future.
Nothing is more satisfying than a happy marriage. On the other hand, nothing is more frustrating than living in an unhappy home. To make a happy marriage it takes two people who are as nearly alike as possible, and who see eye to eye in all the important things. As a young or single person the choice is yours, for happiness or otherwise. It’s all depends on you, so, whatever you do else, THINK BEFORE YOU DATE.
Going out on a date is often the first step towards marriage.
Do you agree or disagree?,please share your reasons and thoughts in the comment section.
Tell your child about Sex—( part 1)
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Nothing is more difficult for some parents than to discuss the question of sex with their children. They can talk about these things quite freely with other people. But with their own children it becomes a most embarrassing experience for all concerned. Often the child is left completely confused, especially when no proper ground talk has been laid.
yet the happiness of the whole family may be vitally affected unless the child is well informed on this important question. Countless young people have fallen into bad company for no other reason than lack of proper instructions in advance. Children are naturally inquisitive, and inevitably. There comes a time when the child begins to inquire where he came from. The manner in which you answer his questions now will largely determine the way he/she will always react, not only in this but also in many other family problems
Ignorance is dangerous
one thing is certain— you cannot keep your child or siblings in ignorance very long on this matter(sex), for sooner or later he/she will know the facts of life, probably much sooner than you expect. Therefore the wise parent will tell his child the truth before someone else steps in and ruins the child’s mind with a lot of unwholesome misinformation. The parent who is wise enough to do this will hold his child’s confidence as long as he lives.
**On the other hand, parents who dodge their responsibilities, parents who doesn’t talk about sex to their children and allow others to convey this vital information will be considered weak and unreliable in the eyes of their children**.
The parents have failed to do their duty. This may sound a bit harsh, and it is, you’re wrong. Many of the fears and anxieties that afflicts children and young people in their later life could be avoided if parents had the right attitude in this matter(sex education)
there are many ways of approaching the question. Which is best in your case?, How can you avoid making serious mistakes?. First of all, you need it understand yourself and your own attitude before attempting to impact any information to your child, siblings or ward. Do not allow yourself to be taken completely by surprise, for if you already have your answer thought out, talk to your kid, it may save you much embarrassment and misunderstanding.
unfortunately, many parents were given poor interpretations about sex and the facts of life when they were young, and this has resulted in a sense of shame which should never have been allowed to exist.
There is no reason for a person to feel uneasy while discussing the perfectly normal functions of the human body. This attitude is completely realistic cause it has brought on needless anxiety and nervous tension in many people and sometimes has resulted in actual physical illness.
Most misbehaviors among adolescents and young people can be traced to a wrong interpretation of the facts of life. If you want to save your children from needless trouble during their growing years. You must face up to this question and realize that it is a normal part of life. Give your boys and girls the opportunity to know the truth on this important matter(sex education).
Talk to your growing child, sibling or ward about sex, if you don’t you risk their learning process because there will hear or watch movies and interpret it wrongly. Tell your child the facts of life in a way he can understand. If you are honest with him, he will follow your advice in the future.
Why are parents scared of this topic?
why are you scared of talking about sex education to your siblings or ward?
Is it wrong to talk to children about this topic?.
The truth.
Hey!!, you made a mistake? but that mistake does not define you. Christ sanctified himself on the cross so that you could run to God when you make mistakes, not run from him!. In Isaiah, it says once you ask for forgiveness, God forgets your sin and past and he doesn’t look at you that way. All he sees is the sacrifice that was made for you! So go to God, talk to him, repent in your heart not just in your minds and know that mercy is waiting for you.
Don’t hold God in the standards of men, Christ was tempted too even though he did not sin but because he knows the feeling, so Jesus is able to sympathize with us Cause he was once in our shoes. No one in the Bible was perfect except Jesus Christ, you’re still worthy, valued and loved in the eyes of God. Let me tell you now!! I have made mistakes even recently but I didn’t let my mistake define me!!. so pray for the holt spirit to convict you and pray for self control, pray for self discipline and pray for guidance. We are incapable to fight sin, so we need the Holy Spirit .
Do what you are called to do, Not everyone will understand, not everyone will approve, not everyone will applaud you, not everyone will celebrate, not everyone will support you, not everyone will stay and not everyone will encourage you. Do what you are called to do as a child of God.
Don’t get sucked into the pattens of this world or the seductions of the worlds culture, stay true to Jesus in words, deeds, actions,interactions. stay true to Jesus online, offline, stay true to Jesus in your mind, heart , your time, with your talent, with your treasures, stay true to him always.
The truth is jesus loves us so dearly, so give him the same love by loving him in return. Make him part of your daily routine, allow him lead you right and guide you perfectly.
Happy Sunday ❤️
The dead(s) still live
(The dead still live) __
the days are dark, our hearts are ablaze, our body weary weak. Our eyes the color of red, heavy and full of grieve. It’s hurting that our eyes will never meet. The dead are always looking down at us even though we can’t see them.
they say while we are busy, there are looking down at us through the windows of heaven. they watch the tops of our heads moving below the earth., there smile up there and wished to hug us really tight .
we will never see again but our feelings still lives on. Our memories still reawakens even though It’s not enough. Our memories gives us hope and smiles again. When we call their names they smile up there wishing there could call us back, and even though they call our names, we will never hear. The dead miss us so much in the same way we miss them too.
**they are not dead, there just live in another world that we can’t see but exists**
I’ve always heard the word”dead”, I knew people die, but I never understood it yet fully. I never knew the pain that comes with loosing someone close, I had never felt the anger of loosing someone dear.
When there die we would never meet again?, our eyes will never see?, we would never talk?, we will never share the same food, and chat for hours?. These were my thoughts.I never knew all these things, I only watched in movies and heard from afar.
the day I got the news of my grandpa’s death was the worst day of my life. It was the most shocking news I didn’t want my ears to hear. I couldn’t cry, I didn’t rant, I did not question God, that day I was so calm, quiet and I slept through out the night peacefully. But the next morning when I woke up, I quickly called his line and he didn’t pick up, then I cried, I understood what dead was, I knew we would never speak again, and our eyes will never meet.
I felt so sad, I cried all along. What pained me most; I promised to call him and send recharge card but I never did cause I kept procrastinating till he passed away.
My grandpa was my second dad. He left me without saying a final goodbye. I miss his baritone voice, I miss the times we drank palm wine together, I miss the times I visited the village and we’ll all walk together for morning mass. oh!!, I miss the times he gives all his grandchildren money during boxing day(26th December). I miss the times we ate digestive biscuits while coming back from church, I miss the times I ran to him when afraid of the masquerade during festive periods. I really miss when he sang his catholic hymns by 12:am and his song wakes us all in our perspective rooms.I miss to see him play with his cats., I miss the time I baked buns for him., I miss the times we all slept in the farm, and I miss when we ate bananas together. My grandpa was full of life, whenever my dad ask us to visit the village, I never complain cause I knew my grandpa will treat us well.
****on his burial day****
**on his burial day.**
On his burial day, i couldn’t recognize him, his body was cold, his eyes were closed, he was dark and calm, he didn’t have that loving smile he had whenever he sees me, he didn’t talk with his baritone voice, he didn’t see me. My grandpa didn’t call my name, we didn’t hug. I cried out cause he didn’t look like the grandpa I knew, his lips was siege, I couldn’t hear him laugh with his barriton voice. Then I knew what dead actually meant.
I watched my siblings cry, and my dad cried like a child, for the first time I saw my father shed tears, he felt the pain of loosing his beloved father. My grandma was so quite and in shock, she just kept nodding her head while singing a calm catholic hymn. I ran to her and tried to wipe her tears then in turn she told me “don’t cry grandpa has gone to rest, he said you should study hard”. When I heard this I bursted into tears, i was filled with grieve. I Watch them take my grandpa to the grave, watched them put my grandpa 6ft deep, I saw them dropping sand to the coffin, then I knew he had gone forever. The whole crowd bursted in tears. My uncles and aunties felt like entering the ground.
****I lost my friend****
Last year, I lost my friend, the news was shocking, the news was painful, she’s dead?, why?. I couldn’t process anything I didn’t want to believe, not until I saw posts and pictures around the net. Then I knew it was true. I cried bitterly. she was so true, kind and talks sweetly, she could tease me whenever we met and I would laugh out loud, whenever we met in school I we would Chat for long and give a goodbye hug.
so how can she die?, my friend gone? I was thinking afar with my eyes red like blood.
I saw her dead body in a picture, she was lifeless, she had her favourite sweater on
The last time I saw her face was around the market, I was in a taxi heading to buy foodstuffs.
when I got the news of her death, I couldn’t process it, my eyes were soaked with tears, my chin was red, i watched her pictures for as long as my eye could carry. I felt so sad, I cried all night long, I wished she could tease me like before.
Then I knew what dead was, she was gone, and our eyes will never meet.. During her candle nights i cried, I watched her pictures on the projector and heard friend talk about her beautiful and nice she was, i heard words of sweet talks, she was good, always ready to cheer others up. I saw people cry, I felt their pain. We lit candles and let it go away. I know she stills lives and watch us all.
Death is cruel, it really scary, painful and unbearable. it takes our loves one far away, we are only left with the memories we share. There leave us without saying any word, there don’t even say a final goodbye. There don’t even give final hugs.
Here I am thinking of my lost ones, I am wondering how they cope in the other life. Do there eat?, do there bathe?, do there change clothes?, my head is full with many thoughts exploring beyond.
Dead just take our loved ones away from us without giving highlight and information. I wish we never die but live till forever together. **But I know there aren’t dead, there only live in a place we can’t see them but exits.**
RIP TO ALL THE ONES WE LOVE AND CHERISH. RIP TO ALL OUR HEREOS . RIP TO ALL WE LOST DURING CORONAVIRUS
This is me sharing my thoughts and sad feeling,
**have you lost someone close?**
Rare Encounters
Friendships are bonds that exists between two or more, the love shared, feelings attached, struggle for food, toasts to life, seat out dates, dark night cinemas, long chat and gossips etc. right from our child hood we had friends that helped us grow, we could sneak out to visit and stay out late playing many games.
Throughout life we experience many different kinds of friendships. On rare occasions, we encounter someone so special that we just know we met for a reason. These are the kinds of friendships that last forever. no matter what city there live or how often you speak there is a bond that can’t be broken easily. No matter how old you get or what phase of life you are in. It’s the type of friendships that makes you understand unconditional love. maybe you met your most special friends when you were 6, or 23, or 30....., or maybe you are yet to cross paths., there is no greater comfort than knowing that this person will be right there beside you to share all happiness, sadness and everything in between.
The Best kind of people___
sometimes we meet the best kind of people. The best kind of people are those who aren’t afraid to be their own weird and wonderfully imperfect selves. These people make others happy, there are so rare and special. When we meet them we wish never to leave their side, we always will stick together. Gist, talk, toast, play and many others. There are just so real, fun to be with and loving too., their heart are open to revive, their mind ready to give a advise, their wallets are available to give out money when needed.
sometimes in life, you cross paths with people who instantly makes you feel calm, refreshed, alive and wholesome. They encourage your dreams and celebrate your wins without an ounce of jealousy. They stick by you through thick and thin, and will always smile wide when you are blessed and happy, there toast to your victory and sing praises for miracles, they just wants what’s best for you and want what makes you happy. These kind of friends are warm, bright, loving and loyal. You can’t help but feel authentically happy in their presence like the best version of yourself
Sometimes we meet the true ones, a kind that shows gratitude and a heart that loves, we meet someone who is ready to fight for us not withstanding, we feel proud to have them around us, we smile, feel happy because there are part of our life experiences. Some of the most amazing individuals we come across in life are the kind that never let the bad change in them. There remain genuine and would protect us always during our darkest moments .there are always ready to give listening ear, and will cry during your odds moments. There laugh and tease you during your fun and ugly times ,and there smile and show their entire teeth during your happy and blessed moments. Such friends are rare, when you find one cherish and hold them tight because there aren’t many.
Sometimes you meet people who helps you understand yourself better, there see your face and know there’s something wrong, there see your smile and know you aren’t okay. There care for you genuinely and love you endlessly, there are able to fight all cracks to make sure you are happy and perfectly good.
some friends are totally God sent(sent by God). Some friends are kind hearted that you wish there were your soul mate.
some friends are so true with a heart pure like gold, there are so sincere.
We all have few friends like this and if you don’t, you’ll find them soon. Not all friends are cruel, evil and full of jealousy. There are still some genuine friends out there.
*Do you have genuine friends with a pure heart,?*
*Do you have friends that sees your face and understands what’s going on through your mind?*
*Are you a friend that cares and love others purely without an ounce of jealousy?*
In as much as we want good people around us, we must try to be best and show good characteristics towards others too.
Thanks for reading❤️
Recovery and healing is rebirth!!!. What should you do..?
Article 8, 8th April 2022
You will be okay, close your eyes, breathe. You’ll be fine, the day is hard, and tomorrow might be harder, but it will get easier soon. Just keep going, keep hoping and keep believing. Keep waking up each morning with the small glim of a smile on your face. Keep spending each night tucking your fear away.
one day, the sun will cast a yellow glow so bright that it will light up everything that has dimmed inside you. One day, you’ll bite your lips and feel a kindle of happiness when you see your reflection in the mirror. Your cheeks will slowly bundle up into a grin of laughter that you haven’t seen for a long while. One day, you will have all the happiness you need and all your dreams will be achieved. So, just know that it will be okay, you will be okay.
In times when you feel all hope is loss, just know ***Hope is the only compass that you need.*** So, I hope you take the steps to find what your happiness is. I hope this year you take the world by surprise, I hope you allow your life to be bigger than you ever thought it could be. I hope you allow your heart to embody more beauty than you ever thought possible. I hope you don’t get trapped by your disbelieve, I hope you don’t long for things you’ve outgrown just because there are familiar. I hope you don’t consider everything you lose to be a loss. I hope you don’t define yourself only be the limits of what you’ve known. I hope you do not caption your potentials at what others have said possible., I hope you become true to yourself and be the best you possibly can, I hope you get motivated each day to do more and put enough efforts in getting your dreams achieved. Most of all, I hope you recognize the light when it’s hit you, I hope you let yourself do more than you ever thought you could do, I hope you become bigger and better in the things you do.
Always think of yourself as true, good and best. Always know you’re more than enough, believe in your name cause our names gives us our own super powers to light up the darkness. Always actualize your dreams and go for what you want. Strive hard till your dreams are achieved. **Know this”as long as you can breathe and you have your body, all miracles are possible”.**
you will be okay, make sure your silence is your voice and not because you are scared of what your voice may say. During your trials, difficult times, temptations etc, do not fear, do not grumble, just know you’ll be fine.
**sometimes we have to go through the storms to come out clean, we have to see troubles and fight to defeat, .** We have to see trials to know what’s up, sometimes we have to face problems to enable us fight though, sometimes we have to fail in order to learn how to be optimistic, sometimes we have to get rejected to know who loves us more, So,Don’t give up. **Let the midnight sky remind you that you can shine too even during your saddest days.** The greatest downfall that you could ever face, is to carry an abundance of love in your heart for others and never give any of it to yourself.
during the day we welcome the stars, and during the darkest night wewelcome the moon.
so find positivity in all seasons
Like the wildflower choose to grow untamed, wild and free. know this” **when you use your mind to visualize a brighter future, you will go forward.** You can only change your lives forever as the future is built out of today. Always remember you are not defined by the love your family could or couldn’t give you, you are define instead by The Who you are, the kindness you show to others, the forgiveness you give, the times you speak up instead of choosing to remain silent, the difficult yet necessary apologies you make, and the love you give yourself.
So,may you remember your ability to choose what is deeply nourishing. May you ignite your power to make choices that aligns with your soul. May you take actions in the name of your authentic fire. May you find courage to heal, be free and grow. May you find power in your sensitivity, art in your vulnerability, sparkle in your suffering, good tidings in your imperfections and always unshame your pain into soulful purpose.
you will be okay, be positive in all your doings, you’re good enough, be proud of who you are and who you are becoming. don’t let anyone judge your steps and make choices for you. Fight for what you want until you get it. You’ll be fine eventually and when you’re; you’ll be proud you did it.
Know this” Recovery is a return, healing is rebirth, (when you know who you are you’ll return; fighting for what you want and when you get all you want you’ll feel reborn and renewed).
thanks for reading❤️, I hope this helps someone.
The earth grows the most beautiful .....
Article 7, 27th April 2022.
There are several fruits with different taste, colors and sizes. The earth grows the most beautiful fruits. Do you crave for fruits before eating?, or do you eat fruits for the sake of good health?. I love fruits and the nutrients it gives, I’ll be showing you’ all few of my favorite fruits and the benefits it gives
**Coconut**, This fruits is crunchy, and super nice. I love the water that’s inside, when I was younger my Mum do roast coconut for me, it helped healed my bad eye sight.
coconuts can be used for several purposes like coconut oil, coconut rice, coconut chips etc.. Coconut is rich in fiber and it helps improves heart health, it’s helps reduce weight loss and digestion. It’s also high in calories and saturated fat, so you should eat it in moderation if you don’t want to be fat.
**Apple** are best, I love green apples and I love the fact that it’s juicy. Apples are supper crunchy super tasty. Apples are incredibly nutritious fruits that offers multiple health benefits. There are rich in fiber and antioxidants. When you eat apple it helps in healing heart disease and cancer, it also helps in weight loss
**Oranges**: I can’t take more than 3 oranges at a stretch, orange helps protect your cells from damage.,
Oranges helps to boosts the immune system
It’s helps the body fight against germs
oranges protects the cell from damage
**Strawberries**: strawberries are bright red, juicy and sweet, it has a sour taste, the first time I had strawberry I didn’t like the taste but now I love it.
Strawberries has excellent source of vitamin C, manganese and also contain decent amount of vitamin B9 and potassium
strawberry helps for heart and helps sugar control
**Mangoes**, can you eat This fruit outside?, or while walking?.
hell no!, this is the only fruits I don’t dare eat outside, I only take mangoes at home, mango fruits are super nice and juicy too and helps the body in so many ways
mangoes are good source of protective compounds
it aids digestion
it helps to lower blood pressure
mango has magnesium and potassium that helps prevent diabetes,
mango contains immune boosting nutrients..
**Guava**- this fruit has my heart, I love the white seed guava and I hate the red ones, guava fruit is nice
Guava helps lower blood sugar level
it has anti cancer components and helps prevent diabetes
it helps you lose weight
guava has vitamin c which helps maintain good immune health
**Ginger**- just as the name implies this gives ginger!!!, Can you chew raw ginger?, do you add it to your tea? or do you add it to spice your food?. I use ginger for almost everything, the best part is; I add ginger to my tea and food especially my noddles. Ginger helps in so many ways
Ginger contains ginger ok, which has powerful medicinal properties
it can treat many forms of Nuesae, especially morning sickness
ginger may help with weight loss
it helps treat chronic indigestion
Ginger can significantly reduce menstrual pain
it contains a substance that helps prevents cancer
it helps fight infections
**Pawpaw**, a fruits with many seed, it can also be called Papaya. What do you eat your pawpaw with?. Sometimes I eat mine with jellof rice and it’s a good blend. Pawpaw helps in so many ways
pawpaw contains high level of antioxidants, vitamin A, vitamin c and vitamin E
Eating pawpaw helps reduce risk of heart disease, diabetes , cancer etc
**water melon**. Who doesn’t love this fruit?. Watermelon is among my best fruits, it’s super soft, nice and good for the body. Do you eat your watermelon along with the back side?. Water melon is good in so many ways
it helps you stay hydrated
help reduce inflammation and oxidative stress
it relieves muscle soreness
watermelon helps in lowering blood pressure.
**Garlic**. Before now I didn’t like the smell of garlic, I closed my eyes whenever I see it in the market or any store, but now I love it. It good for food. When garlic is added to beef it spice your beef and give it sweet and strange aroma. Garlic has many benefits
Garlic wards off cough and cold
it improves digestion and balances blood sugar
it prevents cancer and peptic ulcer
garlic boosts immunity and improves skin health.
**Star Apple- this is called udara or Agbolumo In my country(Nigeria).**this fruits taste sour and shock the teeth when chewing. Udara has many benefits. It has a natural antioxidant which remove potential damaging agents in a living body.
it has high vitamin C
it’s a natural remedy for constipation, toothache, sore throat and indigestion.
**Lemon** is the least of my best fruit, lemon has a bitter and salty taste. Lemon has many benefits. It’s high in vitamin c and fiber
Lemon helps control weight
it helps prevent kidney stones
it protect human against anemia
lemon reduce cancer risk,and improves digestive health.
**Fruits are essential and good to the body system.** Since February I decided to eat more of fruits. I buy fruits instead of soda drinks. N250 I could spend on coke I use the money instead to buy any fruits like watermelon, pineapple, apple etc. so in general, take fruits more than drinks. It helps your skin glow, makes you healthy and carry out activities in our body system.
**what are your best fruits?**
thanks for reading.
My First ice-cream date
Article 6, 26th April.
I’ve always been shy when talking to any guy, my face looks to the ground and my legs walk faster when I see crowd of men. Hmmm! I would always rejects rides and date offers. No, was always the answer. I tried many times to run from men for the stories I heard were scary, funny, nice and crazy too.
I kept on acting childish, timid and girly, not until I met williams( a family friend). I met him in a family wedding , he was tall and good looking. gosh!!! he’s eyes were so small and pretty nice, he’s lips were as cute as his chin. he was the only guy I started talking to; because he was a family friend.
As time went on , we would talk for hours and chat for long, I would giggle out loud, smile out broad and re-read our chats every damn time. Every morning when I wake up I rush back to get a glimpse of our chat and it was always fun to do. Time passed we kept talking every night. Williams asked for sit out date but I declined as always.
Month passed, affection grew, the bond became stronger, I could feel when he was hurt, I knew when he was sad and I understood when he needed my attention, we barely see each other but our minds were alike and our feelings matched. “This guy is good”, those were my thoughts everyday.
since I bake, I decided to show him love with cake, during a video call I shuttered telling him he’ll get cake from me by the road side. He said” we weren’t exchanging cocaine”, so we’ll meet somewhere cool and chill. Williams asked I picked any location of my choice and I did. I chose Mario’s ice chop(a shop for ice-cream and coffee).
****Ice-cream date****
He sat down close to the he wooden door of the ice cream shop and watched me walk in, it was the first time I hugged a guy , our eyes interlocked, our hearts were alike, then he gave a wide smile. I was shy again, I bit my lips and rubbed my palms, my legs trembled a bit in fact I was tensed. I had no words to say, but it’s crazy how I could chat till 12:am but couldn’t speak for minutes.
*waiter!!, waiter!!,* Williams called the guy on black, I took my orders and he did too. For few minutes we spent together i eyes could tell we had grew feelings for each other. I was rest assured he was meant for me, for the first time in my whole life I knew my heart has fallen deeply for a man.
Williams spoke out for long, I knew he was a parrot( he talks too much).Before a twinkle I heard words I’ve only heard in movies(I love you). My mouth was open and my eyes blinking, the spoon I held hadn’t enter my mouth yet, I paused for a while wondering what to say. I smiled broadly cause I felt shy saying those words back. He understood I couldn’t respond. We spent hours chatting, we shared the cake together, we left the ice shop and walked down the streets holding cups of cone ice-cream
I’m a fool!! I came home shouting, I giggled out loud like a child. The fact I couldn’t say( I love you) made me blush. But in all I wished I said those words back. Days is past we grew closer, he was my better half, my companion, my rising sun. Williams woke me up every single day with a message and every night I slept happy knowing I would get a sweet morning message the next day.
My love for him grew wide, another date was fixed for **23rd April 2021** at a cinema ,so I washed my best dress and revamped my wig, I planned on expressing my heart, and saying( I love you). In fact I was fully prepared this time.
**17th April 2021,** we spoke for long, he told me he was going out with his friends, we videoed call till my phone batter died by 11:am. Later during the day when my phone was charged, I checked on him but he wasn’t online, I called but couldn’t get through.
****18th April 2021, by 7:32 am**** I checked my phone hoping to see a “good morning message”but I didn’t see any.
Ahhhh!!! I gazed at my phone for minutes still no message. I didn’t perceive or think too much. Few hours passed Williams didn’t Send anything .
**Exactly 10:15 am**, I heard a loud scream from the sitting room, my Mum was wailing , we all rushed tensed cause whenever my Mum wail like that something wrong has happened.
The next words she spoke were the worst I’ve heard all my life, **Williams is gone, she** **spoke with tears. Gone to where, dead!!!!,**. I could feel my leg trembling, my heart beating faster, my body shaking, I couldn’t feel my hands, I couldn’t believe my ears, my eyes were full with tears, I couldn’t process anything, I didn’t understand how?, why?. For Gods sake!, can this be true, it was too much for me to bear.
**william was poisoned by someone during the gathering with his friends. He came back home complaining of stomach ache and foam gushing out of his mouth). His dad told my Mum this**. I knew one of his jealous and evil friends must have poisoned him.
Oh! My sweet Williams I cried like a child, I wished I stopped him from going out, I wished I hugged him tight during our ice-cream date, I wished I said those words back(I love you), I wished I kissed his lips and stared at his eyes a little longer, I wished my battery didn’t die off. I cried staring at his picture
The nights became darker, my hearts was heavy. I promised never to fall in love for along while cause I was scared not to loose my love again. All I have of Williams are memories from our ice-cream date, his pictures and old chat to read and smile, laugh and cry while reading....
my first ice-cream date left me here alone.
“Some days”
Article 5, 25th April 2022
There are days, when I’m reminded of my purpose I usually do something beautiful and meaningful. Whenever I’m lost in thoughts I sleep for long to avoid thinking too much. Sometimes when I’m sad I wake up early so I can feel the sun on my face.
some days I’m courageous enough to stare back into the “voids of my fears” where as on other days I allow my sad feelings consume me. But in all I think that’s okay, for as long as I know how to win against them eventually. During my silent moments I crack my head thinking about life while playing soft tune music along.
Some days I think that life is too hard and On sad days I take a lesson from the sky that”**sometimes when the dark arrives I must be my own stars, my own moon, and my own light,.**
in all I want to be excited for what life has to offer. I think there’s a lot out there. Things I know and more I don’t know. I want to be able to be in a situation and feel completely satisfied by it. I just think there is a lot in life and I wonder if I’ll ever be able to cling unto it and to be happy always. I’ve always believed and try to love my self earnestly in all season.
Sometimes when humans hurts me, the world rejects me, my mind and body feels different and ugly most times, when my fears increase rapidly. I always hope and believe that “I’ll bloom like the flowers and explore beyond” cause I’m like gold, beautiful, soft and brave too. I’ve come to realize that sad days will surely come but I need to be positive and act brave.
*Question*—**what do you do when you’re sad?( Ple**ase hit the comment button).
God is not dead.
God has many plans install for us all. But can our lack of faith in him blind us from the work God intends to do?. Seasons change but the God we serve is consistent in every seasons. If you’re lost seek Gods presence because there you’ll find peace. Don’t deprive yourself from the healing and comfort that God provides when we let him in. He’s ready to help and assists if you speak to him through prayers.
There’s freedom in God’s presence. So for me, in my weakness I boast because I look unto his throne of grace, his grace allows me to hold unto his hands. He died so I can have a relationship with him. I rest under his blood and I confide in him like a friend, like a brother and like a father too
Always allow God flourish inside you. It’s not about how big you see God!, it’s about how much you believe that God is in you. Our God doesn’t leave us broken, he always restores!. Don’t grieve God; he isn’t dead, don’t break his heart. Love and trust him cause he loves you dearly.
**Theres value in the valley—**it’s important you understand that sometimes God doesn’t take us through the shadow and problem to destroy us, but he does it to develop our faith. God is willing and ready to help, God is alive to see you through so spend more time with him.
He who sees all even during darkest nights is able to lead you right, he’s eyes are brighter than the sun and can never be compared to sun light. He’s God of royalty, unity and he guarantees prosperity to those who needs liberty, he’s full of majesty, he has audacity and he lives and loves us dearly. When you have a God who is perfectly perfect why should you fear!?.
God is love.
Happy sunday❤️
“You can Triumph”
**You can triumph if you choose. Always remember “your dreams should make you scared”.** Your dreams must go with a level of aggression and high rate of commitment. If you must go far; you need to start now and act fast. Pursuing your dreams, wanting more and expecting large would make you work hard and obtain all. You can only get what you want when you think big.
Desires are not just wishes, increase your desires always, think big and work hard everyday. **The decisions you make will either make your life or ruin it**. So whatever your heart beat for just go for it. Don’t groan just strive to achieve, let every new day remind you of reawakening. Be positive at all time a cause it helps and directs you properly
**Will there be problems and set backs?(yes). Should you give up?(No!!).** Problems will surely show When trying to get your dreams achieved, but always remember problems are part of life challenges; setbacks will always come and go with time. Problems are no big deal, there don’t last forever. It only make you stronger.
**Never fall, giving up all your efforts.never stop dreaming big**. Life is full of ups and down, it’s not always a bed of roses. Stop grumbling if you try and fail. Don’t give up if your goals are not yet achieved. There’s nothing wrong in failing once, what bad is admitting failing before trying. Never forget”you are footsteps away from your success, dreams and goals”.
Always believe you can attain through, do not think less of yourself , you have a great potential and purpose to pursue, living your life without pursuing your dreams is cruel. **To be successful you need to “dream big, aim higher, neglect your fears and explore your dreams”**.
Sometimes failure occurs when you think others are better than you and when you feel this way(it causes a dull, sleepy, inefficient and dormant brain) and this mindset will prevent you from working hard.
when you think and believe you can attain through then you will surely succeed. when you think you can’t, you’ll eventually land in a failing train because you’ll never put into practice that which will make and help you grow. Always remember this “***your dreams are valid”.***be true to yourself always and work now
**Be mature with your thinking”stop thinking and acting like a toddler”**. When you guide your mindset positively you’ll surely succeed
thanks for reading.
“You can Triumph”
**You can triumph if you choose.**
**Always remember “your dreams should make you work hard.”*****.*** Your dreams must go with a level of aggression and high rate of commitment. If you want to go far.; you must start now and act fast. Pursuing your dreams, wanting more and expecting large makes you work hard and obtain all. You can only get what you want when you think big.
Desires are not just wishes, so do not stop increasing your desires, every day think big and work towards getting your dreams achieved. **The decisions you make will either make your life or ruin it,** so whatever your hearts beat for just go for it. Don’t groan just strive, let every new day remind you of reawakening. Be positive at all times cause it helps and direct you properly.
**Do problems arise? (Yes it does).Should you give up. (Of course No!**!). When trying to get your dreams achieved problems Will surely show up. but always remember problems are part of life challenges, there’ll always come and go with time. Problems are no big deal, there don’t last forever.
**Never fall giving up all your efforts**, **never stop dreaming big.** life is full of ups and down, it’s not always a bed of roses. Stop grumbling if you try and fail, don’t give up if your dreams are not yet achieved. There’s nothing wrong in failing what’s wrong is admitting failure before trying. Always remember we are footsteps away from our successes and breakthrough.
Always believe you can attain through, never think less of yourself, we all have great potentials and purpose to acquire, living your life without pursuing your dreams is cruel. **To be successful you need to dream big, aim higher, neglect your fear and explore your dreams**. Sometimes failure occurs when we think others are better than ourselves, and when we feel this way, it causes a dull, sleepy and inefficient brain and this mindset will prevent you from working hard.
When you think and believe you can succeed then you will. But when you think you can’t you’ll land in a failing zone because you’ll never put into Practice that which will make you grow. Never forget this “your dreams are valid”. Be true to yourself and work now to become successful. **Be mature with your thinking”stop thinking and acting like a toddler”.**
The Cottage.
In June 12 2005, I visited an aunt( my mother’s sister).I always love her sense of humor, kindness, food, but for her disciplinary act, hmmm! she was brutal. my cousins were the best folks ever, we were good at gossiping, creating havocs and playing most often.. My aunt( Mrs Laura) warned us never to stay out late and we adhered to her instructions but this particular day was different.
On Tuesday during dusk, it wasn’t a pleasant experience, on this occasion my youngest cousin and myself decided to visit the farmland. we were asked to come back early, we nod our heads promising to return before 6pm.
We played games at the farmland, ate fruits, laughed over jokes and gossip about our classmates., we both raced among other neighbors farmland. and We forgot about our aunt warning.
Dawn came like a wind, it quickly reflected in our heads, we decided to hurry home. walking along lonely path, we had missed our way home, but we weren’t scared because”boys don’t fear”.
In a Twinkle two men arrived from Nowhere, carried us on their shoulders, at this point I couldn’t scream, i couldn’t shout, my breathe was higher, my heat beat increased and my eyes were red.
There took us into a “cottage”, inside was dark and scary, full of cobwebs, ropes and old belongings. our little lips was sealed, our legs tied with a chain, our hands with a rope, and our clothes changed( I wondered why there changed our clothes).
This was the worst moment I could ever picture, my cousin was afraid and for me I was more scared, I always read stories of kidnaps and killing this got me crying in silence. “ I will die? I kept asking my self and thinking fast. my cousin was so afraid till he urinated in his pant.
We heard the door open, a girl was brought in, she was kidnapped too, I saw the kidnappers faces; there looked like ferocious lions, with long beard, scary eyes and monster face. There smelled so bad and looked like wizards.
Our lips was unsealed, at this point I could breath freely, I began thinking of my aunt, I understood why she warned us against coming back late. the two men stepped out.
I began thinking of an escape plan, my cousin With tears in his eyes begged me to save us all, he claimed I was good at getting us out of troubles at home. In dismay I laughed, because it was the first time he accepted and proclaimed that i was wiser and good at plans than himself. His words gave me courage and a little bit of pride.
yes!! I recalled, my cousin had a per knife in his left pocket trouser, we used it in the farm to peel oranges and cut down sticks. We both struggled and brought out the knife. we cut the ropes and loosened the chains. We all ran out like we were been pursued by a snake. we walked through the narrow paths.
We walked as fast as we could, there was a relief Atleast we all saw the trees again. The girl( Lucille) knew her way back to her farmland but we didn’t know ours. My cousin and I decided to follow her, from there we could find our way home. My cousin thanked me and promised to give me his meat for 5 days. With a wide smile I declined his offer, after all it my duty to protect him always.
We were very thirsty, our throat was dry and we knew we might die of thirst
Luckily!!, we found a path with water, it wasn’t pure but “dirty water doesn’t kill anyone”we all drank and continued our journey. We were sure never to see the kidnappers again, and we prayed not to see new ones. My cousin eyes were red, he was scared of our punishment. I was scared too. We were sober while the girl(Lucille) asked us to pray to God.
we had reached the girls(Lucille) farmland, Her parents were happy to see us, there knew my aunt.
we were taken home, there we told the whole story. we shifted back thinking my aunt will get a whip, instead she laid down on her deck chair trying to grasp for fresh air, looking so tired and exhausted. We felt bad for causing her anguish, we apologized and promise never to flaunt her orders. We were served dinner.
I turned to my cousin and gave him a wink. It was An experience we can never forget.
“The world is full of nice, scary people and hypocrites too”(dark minds)
Our minds, attitude and characters are different.
our concepts, feelings, imaginations and dreams can never be the same. we all have our minds to think and our hearts to feel about things we want and what we strive to achieve.
the world is full of nice and scary people, including hypocrites too. **Their minds are black like dark night and scary like a monster. there smile out broad, talk out loud, give tights hugs, give advices, chat and chill but deep down there want your downfall.**
there are evil in heart with a face like an angel, their minds like a beast but there look so humble in appearance.there love to see us cry and pretend to wipe it off. There cause pain and are available to give a helping hand, there lie behind our backs and speak truth when we talk. There are full of deceits.”there are ghost that lives within us; and there hunt our peace”.
understand this”**Everyone has a heart and mind that functions differently”.** Don’t be so engrossed and make others opinions matter than yours. Let your mind lead you to the right path. Let your heart make you feel adequate. Let your brain work faster everyday.
Be elegant, and feel adequate in what you do and what you strive to achieve. Do not think you aren’t good enough. Trust no one, because when you do you never know how dark and evil their minds can be. Don’t forget “**smile doesn’t only show happiness, it’s shows anger, jealousy, pain or greed**.
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