@Niknik

@Niknik 17 July 2021

Thank you to my new sponsor @Caroline17 for trusting me. Your sponsorship will boost my confidence to keep going ☺️

@Niknik 15 July 2021

She's Distant Being in the relationship with the same gender is not easy. Yes, Im a girl who's inlove with a girl too. Our relationship went through ups and downs. There are moments that we are so happy but we all know that if there's happiness the sadness will follow. Having the same gender partner is common nowadays, they say that it's amazing because you have a lover and at the same time a bestfriend. A partner that will understand everything that your going through because she experience the same way. So this is maechel We've been together for almost 6 months. But in that 6 months it an on and off relationship. There are happy, sad, hurt, pain and argue moments but I guess those thing just make our relationship stronger(I guess hahaha). But still im not used to the times that she's being distant to me. We all know that all girls really have time that we have mood swing especially if we have menstruations. There are weeks that we we're so happy, we always together and hangout everyday, we enjoy each others company. But the thing that I hated the most was when she was being distant. I dont know what to do, she ignores me, she event wont chat or message me for few days and I dont know what to do. My friends told me that maybe she just need "LAMBING" ( I dont know what's the english of it hahaha). But how? I dont know how to lambing, so everytime that she's like that I really overthink a lot. Honestly I've reach to the point that I search to the internet some tips how to lambing and also I asked some advices to my friends but still I dont know what to do. Being in this relationship is not easy, I should have patience and I need to adjust. I need to understand her during those times coz if I dont it will surely to and arguments or worst breakup. And I dont want that to happened, I really love this girl and I dont want to lose her coz shes the source of my happiness and my everything. I really wanted to tell her that Im a girl too, and I also have moodswings but I dont do the same things as hers coz I dont want to hurt her feelings the ways shes hurts mine. But I guess we are not the same, so the only thing I should do is to understand her. Some of my friends told me that I should just end our relationship coz its not going anywhere. We were just hurting each other because of the On and Off thing and its like our relationship is toxic. They said that I deserve to be happy like really really happy and maybe letting her go is the only way. But I said "No" I cant let her go just because of those thing, shes more important that her moodswings and lies, I guess I really love her that much. I just hope that one day she will realize that shes hurting my feelings so she could avoid doing it or being distant. Im really tired of reminding her everytime shes like that. Yes, it pains me everytime shes like that but I dont have a choice my damn heart chooses her, so all I can do is to wait and hope that everything will be fine ... I would like to thank my sponsors for trusting me. Your sponsorship helps me to keep going. Thank you so much ☺️@Marinov @Bloghound @TengoLoTodo

@Niknik 14 July 2021

Thankyou to my newest sponsor @TengoLoTodo

@Niknik 14 July 2021

Thankyou so much to my sponsors @Bloghound & @ Marinov ☺️❤️

@Niknik 13 July 2021

Natatakot Ako Mali nga ba?. Bawal nga ba?. Yan ang mga tanong na palaging pumapasok sa isipan ko simula nong ako ay nagmahal. Ako ay isang babae na nagmahal rin ng isang babae. Oo, kung ano ang nasa isip niyo ay tama kayo, ako ay isang bisexual. Diko masasabi na ako ay lesbian kasi nagkakagusto rin naman ako sa lalaki pero sa ngayon ang mahal ko ay isang bababe. Ang pangalan niya ay Maechel at siya ngayon ang taong nag papatibok ng puso ko. Diko alam kong paano nag simula basta gumising nalang ako na mahal ko na siya hahaha basta alam nyo na yun. Sabi nga nila ganyan daw yan pag tinamaan ka di mo alam ang kung ano ang dahilan. Masasabi ko sa sarili ko na mahal na mahal ko siya kasi sumila pag gising at sa pagtulog ko di sya mawala wala sa isipan ko. Ewan ko ba sa lahat ng mga nakarelasyon siya ay ibang iba, iba yong nabibigay nyang kasiyahan. May mga ginagawa sya na minsan walang kuwenta pero napapasaya nya parin ako. Pero sa lahat ng kasiyahang yon ako ay natatakot at nangangamba dahil sabi nga sa kasabihan "ang babae ay para sa lalaki" at yon rin ang nasaisip ng mga magulang ko. Kaya natatakot akong sabihin sa kanila na ganto ako, na siya ang mahal ko, o siya ang jowa ko. Wala naman akong pakialam sa sasabihin ng iba pero pag sa magulang ko iba na ang usapan. sabi sakin ng nanay ko Nanay: Nik2 kung mag aasawa ka dapat ganto at ganyan blah blah blah (di ko na pinakinggan kasi pa ulit2 nalang) Ako: Nay wag kanang mag hope kasi ayaw ko mag pakasal at mag asawa hahah pabiro kong sabi. ............................ Gustong gusto ko nang sabihin sa kanya ang lahat pero natatakot ako, natatakot akong madismaya siya sa mga desisyon na ginawa at pinili ko, at sa taong minahal ko. Sinubukan ko namang sabihin sa kanya na pa unti-unti pero wala ayaw niya sa ganitong pag-ibig. Ang hirap...ang hirap hirap na ipa-intindi sa kanya. Ang hirap itago ang totoong ako sa harap nila, para akong aso na nakatali at walang kalayaan na gawin at mag desisyon sa sarili ko. Bawal nga ba talaga? Wala naman akong ginagawang masama, wala naman akong tinatapakang tao, ang ginawa ko lang naman ay magmahal. Gusto ko lang naman maranasan ang magmahal at mahalin na hindi tinatago, mali ba yon? Damn! di ko narin alam... Sa ngayon, di parin nila alam. Susubokan ko pa ba ulit ipa intindi sakanila o hahayaan ko nalang na sa iba nila malaman? Ako ay litong lito na.. need advice guys comment kayo . Salamat nga pala sa pag basa bago lang po kasi ako dito hehehe ☺️

@Niknik 13 July 2021

I will be posting something soon I hope you'll like it ☺️

@Niknik 13 July 2021

I will be posting something soon I hope you'll like it ☺️

@Niknik 13 July 2021

I will be posting something soon I hope you'll like it ☺️