Sometimes everything is tiring, and you stop in the middle of everything to see the disaster. Since December 20, I live among society, soot and traces of the fire...insects and some cockroaches get into our houses in search of food, everything is black and full of dirt, we are all depressed... What I do know is that there is no desire left for anything, and that this is the beginning of a story, it all started with a fire, which marked the plot twist of this part of my life, in about 3 months I will no longer have the resources to keep paying for the internet and the way of life as I know it ends for me...they want to force me to do other things, and I don't want to...then, I will abandon myself to starvation, to disappear. At least a piece of me remains in the hive blockchain, here in noise.app and the same in noise.cash and about 2 years in read.cash...apparently up to here, everything arrived in these months. As always, my destiny is uncertain, and I am tired, exhausted, I have been struggling too much in recent months, and the situation is not improving, nor is the crypto market, and everything I had to sell I have already sold. I have nothing left but my computer, my phone and the place where I live and I don't know what a good idea it is to sell them to go live somewhere else and start from scratch there, at 55 years old I don't feel like That's it, I don't want to deal with more people, I don't want to deal with the process of dealing with new neighbors, with everything about getting to know a new place, customs and people, I'm already fed up with that, I just want to finish what's left of my life, here where I am... But life has other plans for me... Anyway, all this stinks, and I can't be less than depressed like all the people where I live, after a big fire... we are all like this, with long legs and soot everywhere... and debts, hundreds of debts for repairs now because of the fire... I can't cover those expenses, it's impossible for me, and from what I read, most people here can't either, they all complain and that leads to creating more anguish. Everything is crazy... Anyway, I leave this update here, in case someone wants to come and see what this is about. Pixel art is a recent drawing that I have made, I have decided to make pixel art and some other nft that have been sold on the hive blockchain. Until who knows when...
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Sad Story.
as the reality...my reality, is sick and sad. Was nice to meet you, thankyou and sorry for all the bad...
My heartaches from the message you have convey my friend.
It hurts me even more, these are dark, difficult and hard times, I am going through the worst depression in my life. There are days when I am optimistic, and others when I want to die, because I am surrounded by soot, dirt, cockroaches and a hostile environment... but I must move forward, I really move forward, but like a zombie, whose only purpose It is generating money to buy food and pay debts...and in all of this, these last 20 years of life that I have left are passing me by, because I am 55...and I don't want it to be like that, but well, the circumstances That's how they force me, and that's why thoughts of ending my life assail me, because, you know, this hurts, more than ever, surviving like this, it sucks, my friend. But thank you for your empathy, which gives me a small ray of light these days, I appreciate it very much.
I am praying for a better days and time for you my friend. It also pains me hearing your situation right now. I wish you nothing but good health and safety my friend. Stay in touch