@Micontingsabit 21 September 2021 edited

Pain? Who loves pain?

What do you so you can feel yourself again? To feel that you are still a human being? Negativity always comes out when they see people with tattoos like*'ang dumi ng balat, parang kriminal', 'di yan makakahanap ng trabaho kasi di mukang professional, may tattoo eh' ,* for girls *'kababaeng tao may tattoo'.* As the saying goes ***'Don't judge the book by its cover'***, maybe they haven't realized that they are already judging other people by its cover. And then I thought, '***what others think of you, actually says a lot more of them than of your, it reflects who they are, not who you are******.'*** https://psychology-spot.com/what-others-think-of-me/#:~:text=who%20you%20are-,What%20the%20others%20think%20of%20you%20reflects%20what%20they%20are,a%20mile%20in%20his%20shoes%E2%80%9D.&text=Because%2C%20what%20others%20think%20of,are%2C%20not%20who%20you%20are. Well anyways, I just want to share my tattoos to y'all. It has been days since I haven't posted and I just wanted to get back on track. I wanted to take a break for a few days but I realized writing also helps me, mentally. `Hey! Check out my lovely, awesome, gorgeous sponsors!` `They are my inspiration, motivation and my sponsoration char!` Now, just a little background on me having tattoos. I only have four tattoos. Planning to get another soon of course. Why I decided to get tattoos? Because sometimes, I don't feel like a human anymore. I just wanted to feel pain in some way or maybe to divert any emotional pain into physical pain. I don't know. But I really just wanted to have a reminder. A reminder of something, a reminder that I am still human and I am still here. I wanted to have a tattoo that I can only understand because in real life, I don't even understand myself. I have to backtrack my Fb and IG posts so I can verify the dates when I got them. Now, here's my very first tattoo.

This is located at the center of my lower back at my spine area. This was very very painful. I didn't know how or what to feel when the needles touched my skin. I think this one took more than an hour because natatawa ako nung shading part na, it tickles eh.

Mine was based on this tattoo. I wanted it to be like this but at the same time I do not like copying the tattoo as is. So I asked my artist to make the design not so obvious like it's an Aries sign. Yes, I am an Aries. :) My second tattoo was just very simple but for me the most meaningful tattoo I have. I just picked a font and mirrored the image, then my artist added a splash watercolor effect.

The phrase *'Memento Mori'* that means *'remember you must die'.* Dark? yeah, but this serves as a reminder for me. That's why I mirrored the font so when I look in the mirror I can read this phrase clearly, to remind me the opposite meaning, *'remember you must live'.* My third tattoo, Braille.

Another reminder. Originally, I just want the Braille but I feel like it's very plain and I needed to add some colors or at least minimal design along with it. I asked my artist about his idea or if he can add something to it. One of his suggestions was something like the picture below and I liked it.

And for my last tattoo, the bracelet tattoo.

I customize my design as much as possible. By this time, it's been a trend of minimalist tattoos but I wanted a design with a minimalist style but something on my own too. Originally it was designed like this...

However, the size might be too big and my artist suggested to remove the lines instead. A lot of people also ask me what is it and what language is it. It was just a line from the song Last Hope by Paramore. ***The blood in these veins isn't pumping any less than it ever has*** ***And that's the hope I have, the only thing I know that's keeping me alive*** FONT IN ALL CAPS, cut the line horizontally and interchange the lower and upper part of the line. Or just like this...

BASTA YUN NA YUN!!! hahahaha Oh wait I still have another tattoo that reminds me of my Boss Baby.. my CS scar and my stretchmarks. RAWR!! Tattoos are expression, art, symbol and for me a reminder. Any ideas for a family tattoo? If you have one, share yours too! LEAD IMAGE FROM UNSPLASH